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"Kelly, I need to see your arms." Amanda said sternly. Kelly became very nervous and could barely breath and she started scratching her neck.
"Mom I don't need to show you my wrist come on that's ridiculous." Kelly said nervously. Amanda sighed.
"Kel, you need to show me." Amanda said moving closer and the second she did Kelly bolted from the bed and ran to the bathroom and locked herself in. Amanda ran after her.
"Kelly open the door." Amanda said jiggling the doorknob. As she was trying to get in Alex came over to her.
"Mommy what you doing?" Alex said looking at her mom confused. Amanda stopped trying to open the door and looked at Alex. She had the same look on her face as when Drew and Amanda used to fight.
"Nothing sweetheart, I just need to talk to Kelly." Amanda said bending down putting her hand on Alex's shoulder.
"You're being very loud." Alex said looking very serious. Amanda smiled. Alex always seemed to do something to make her smile without even trying.
"I know hon, how about I call Nick and you can hang out with him today?" Amanda said smiling.
Alex smiled. "Ok that sounds fun." Amanda nodded and quickly went to her room and shut the door. She dialed his number and he picked up on the third ring.
"Hey Amanda what's up?" Nick said. Amanda took a deep breath.
"Can you come pick up Alex and watched her for the rest of the day. There is a lot going on with Kelly right now and I don't Alex to see or hear anything." Amanda said pacing in her bedroom.
"Yea sure no problem I'm not doing anything tonight." Nick said grabbing his keys and jacket.
"Thanks Nick I really appreciate you doing this." Amanda said feeling relieved.
"It's no problem Amanda really. I don't mind at all." Nick said smiling and walking out to his car. "I'll see you in about thirty minutes."
"Ok see you then Nick." Amanda said hanging up. She then went to see you if Kelly opened up the bathroom door.
"Honey open up." Amanda said knocking on the door.
Kelly was sitting against the tub crying into her knees. "No." Amanda sighed and went to living. The next half hour was the longest for Amanda, but finally she heard a knock at the door.
"Hey Nick, thanks for coming on short notice." Amanda said as she opened the door.
"No problem, if you don't mind I was thinking I could take Alex to dinner." Nick said as he entered Amanda's apartment.
"That's fine, here I'll give you some money." Amanda said going grabbing her purse off the counter.
"Amanda it's fine, I got it." Nick said shacking his hand. Amanda smiled.
"Are you sure?" Amanda said. "I'm positive." As Nick said that Alex came running in.
"Nick!" Alex said running up to him. Nick picked her up. "Hey kiddo, you want to get some food?" Nick said smiling.
"Yes! Lets go!" Alex said happily. Nick laughed. "Alright lets go." Nick said grabbing the door and caring Alex.
"Have fun honey." Amanda said and shut the door behind them. She sighed and leaned against the door. A few moments later she walked to the bathroom door.
"Kelly open the door right now." Amanda said. "No." Kelly said back. Amanda very angry and worried ran to the kitchen and opened the cabinet under the sink and pliers out. She then went to the bathroom and took the doorknob off and saw Kelly leaning against the tub crying silently into her knees.
"Oh honey." Amanda said as she saw her daughter and walked to her and sat down next to her. She put her arm around Kelly, but Kelly puled back. Amanda was hurt; she just wanted to comfort her daughter.
"I just want to memories to go away. That's all." Kelly said in her knees. Amanda held herself together to not start bawling.
"Why didn't you just come get me sweetie, you know I can help you." Amanda said rubbing Kelly's back. Kelly started crying harder.
"Because you're perfect and I'm just a mess and I didn't want to bother you with my problems. I wanted to be like you and handle it myself." Kelly said. Amanda was caught off guard and decided to reach for her baby and hold her tight. Kelly resisted for a couple minutes, but then relaxed into her mothers embrace.
"Kelly you don't need to be like me. I ask for help when I need it, you're not showing weakness. I'm here to help you honey, that's my job." Amanda said rocking Kelly back and forth.
"The flashbacks won't go away, make them go away Mommy, please." Kelly said sobbing and holding onto Amanda for dear life. Amanda just held her daughter.
"Just breath Kel, you're safe. I will protect you." Amanda said kissing Kelly's head. Kelly kept silent for about five minutes until she calmed down and pulled out of Amanda's arms.
Kelly then pulled up her left sleeve to show Amanda the bandages. Amanda kept calm, but was very worried, on the inside, when she saw the bandages.
"Kel, hon. I'm going to take the bandages off to make sure they're not infected, ok?" Amanda said reaching for Kelly's arm. Kelly just nodded. Amanda then carefully took the bandages off, slowly, and was horrified to see the cuts. There was dried blood, redness just all around the arm, and Kelly kept making noises when she pulled off a bandage. Amanda was so upset.
"Kelly does it hurt?" Amanda said looking at her broken daughter. Kelly just nodded. Amanda gave her a sad smile and slowly stood up help Kelly in the process. She lead Kelly to her room and sat her on the bed and Amanda went into her bathroom and took out a first aid kit. She then started cleaning the cuts.
Kelly remained silent for a couple of minutes then spoke up. "I just couldn't handle all my feelings." Amanda just nodded and let Kelly talk. She was talking and that's all that mattered. "Everything just reminds me of what happened." Kelly said. A few tears slipped and Amanda whipped Kelly's cheek with her thumb. Kelly gave her a small smile.
"Thanks Mom." Kelly said softly. Amanda smiled. "No problem sweetie." Amanda said. Amanda finished cleaning Kelly's cut and they went to the living room. Kelly sat against the arm of the couch. Amanda sat down next to her.
"Kelly, we need to talk." Amanda said putting her arm against the side of the couch and faced Kelly.
"I'm going to call one of the therapist Dr. George recommended, but that doesn't mean I'm just passing you off to some random person because I don't want to deal with you. I think it will be very helpful to talk to someone other than me. But I do want you coming to me whenever you want to talk. Ok?" Amanda said sternly, but loving at the same time,
"Ok mom." Kelly said staring blankly.
"I'm serious Kelly, I don't want to hurt yourself baby." Amanda said looking like she was about to cry.
"I'm sorry Mom." Kelly said moving closer to Amanda. Amanda gladly accepted her into her arms. Kelly snuggled into Amanda's side.
Amanda rubbed her thumb up and down Kelly's shoulder. "It's ok honey, I'm not mad or disappointed, I was just scared you hurt yourself. Don't apologize." Amanda said.
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At the restaurant Nick and Alex were drinking milkshakes waiting for their food to come.
"How come Kelly and Mommy didn't come with us?" Alex asked she placed an X on the sheet of ticktacktoe. Nick looked up not sure what to say.
"Kelly and your Mom just needed some time alone. Kelly's very upset right and your mom didn't want to be bored." Nick said smiling as he grabbed a crayon and placing an O.
"Oh ok." Alex said satisfied with the answer. Nick smiled. "Look I won!" Alex said very excited. Nick laughed.
"You did! Nice job!" He said laughing. Just he said that the waitress came out with their burgers. Nick thanked her and she smiled at him and left.
"Dig in kiddo." Nick said handing Alex her plate. She smiled and started eating her burger. "It's good!" Alex said smiling. Nick laughed at how cute she is. "Good I was hoping to would be." The two ate for about two hours then headed to Amanda's apartment.
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Amanda held Kelly until she fell asleep and hour later. The two stayed like for two hours until Nick came in at around eight thirty. Amanda had doze off, but woke up when she heard the door open. Kelly was still sound asleep.
"Hey Alex, did you have with Nick?" Amanda said as she gently laid Kelly on the couch then walked over to them.
"Yea! We had burgers and shakes!" Alex said giving a huge smile.
Amanda smiled at her. "Sounds good, thank Nick and get ready for bed. It's almost bed time." Amanda said.
"Thank you Nick, I had fun!" Alex said hugging Nick around his waist. Nick chuckled and hugged her back.
"No problem kiddo, I had a great time and I'm going to beat you at tick-tack-toe next time." Nick said smiling down at her.
Alex laughed. "No you're not." Alex said and then left to get ready for bed. Amanda and Nick laughed. Amanda then glanced over at Kelly.
"Let me get her to bed and get Alex tucked in then can we talk. I really need to talk." Amanda said looking at Nick.
"Ok, do you need help moving her?" Nick asked taking his jacket off.
"No I'm ok, she's very light for age." Amanda said walking over to Kelly and picking her up. She carried Kelly to her room not to bother Alex. Kelly stirred a little bit quickly fell asleep when her head hit her mothers pillow. The scent of her mom on the pillow helped her fall asleep. Amanda then went to check on Alex.
"Alright honey time to get to bed." Amanda said as she walked into her daughter's room. Alex jumped onto her bed and crawled under the covers. Amanda tucked her in.
"Good night sweetie, I love you so much." Amanda said as she placed a kiss on Alex's head.
"Night Mommy, I love you too." Alex said as she yawned and rolled over. Amanda shut the door and went back to living and sat on the couch next to Nick.
Amanda sighed as she sat down. "Kelly has been cutting herself." Amanda said looking at Nick.
Nick looked at her concerned. "Is she alright? Did she hurt herself badly?" Nick said. Amanda shook her head.
"No thank god. I was horrified though. What if she hurt herself so bad….she…she…" Amanda said as she started to cry. Nick pulled her into a hug.
"It's ok, she didn't and that's all that matters. She's ok. That's all that matters." Nick said holding Amanda. Amanda just allowed herself to be held for a good five minutes. She then pulled out.
"Sorry Nick." Amanda said whipping her eyes.
"Don't apologize. Take your own advice I'm sure you gave to Kelly. It's ok to ask for help." Nick said smiling. Amanda laughed.
"Wow you're good." Amanda said laughing making Nick laugh.
"I'm going to head to bed now, I'm exhausted." Amanda said standing up. Nick followed.
"Ok Amanda. Don't hesitate to call again, ok?" Nick said looking at Amanda. Amanda smiled.
"I wont. Thank you again for tonight. Alex had a great time." Amanda said walking Nick out.
"We both did, goodnight." Nick said grabbing his jacket and leaving.
"Good night." Amanda said closing the door. She then brushed her teeth and changing into her pajamas. She crawled into bed next to Kelly. Kelly instantly moved closer to Amanda and snuggled right into her. Amanda smiled and held her. Just as Amanda was closing her eyes she heard little feet coming down from hall.
"Mommy?" Alex said quietly poking her head in Amanda's room. "Can I sleep with you tonight?"
Amanda smiled. "Sure sweetie, climb in." Alex smiled and climbed next to her mom and snuggled into her.
"Thank you." Alex whispered. Amanda kissed her head. "Anytime honey, now sleep." Amanda said. Alex nodded her head and was fast asleep. Amanda stayed awake for little bit just enjoying the moment with her wonderful daughters.