Disclaimer: i do not own this Maximum Ride
I woke up and looked around. Then I looked over at Fang. I didn't have to wonder what had happened. I knew it all with clarity that I had done what most people when they see Fang think about.
I got up and went to go look in the mirror to see if I looked different at all. I didn't. I looked like same old Max with wild hair and overly skinny figure. I spread my wings out. Everyone knew that the wings told it all. Mine again, looked the same. There weren't any knew colors or different additions.
I signed and stepped into the shower. The water was welcome. I was clean again, not that I didn't like Fang's scent on me; I just wanted to breathe and think. I got dressed. I went walking. I started going towards outside, the little place Fang showed me a while ago.
When I got there I just breathed. What the hell happened? Did Fang manipulate me? Was I still under the influence of that drug? I don't care, I guess.
I sit down and wrap my arms around my knees. Can I really handle a baby I if I did get pregnant? Am I pregnant? Did I really want to be? Suddenly I start to feel dizzy and I didn't know why.
"Go to the doctor." I heard a familiar voice say.
"Fang, what if I don't want to go to the doctor?"
"You are pregnant, can't you tell?"
"No."
"You smell it."
"How the hell would I be pregnant on my first time? I wasn't even trying!"
"No one tries to get pregnant on there first time it just happens!"
"Fang, how does it just happen!"
"I don't know! Why are you acting like this? I can understand your question about it but blaming it on me isn't going to make you feel better!"
"I'm not playing the game."
"you are too!
"I don't blame you."
I look up at him, and I know he sees that I am crying, I don't care to wipe my tears. His face crumbles slightly and then goes relatively back to its emotionless mask. His eyebrows are the only thing that didn't go back to normal. He was hurt but guilty. I felt a pang of guilt myself because I knew that I did that on purpose.
I look away and turn heavenward.
"I blame myself."
"Max, everything isn't always your fault."
"My not saying its anybody's fault. I'm just being me, Max, and I'm just worried."
"Stop second guessing yourself!"
"You tell me what I should stop doing but if I just stop everything then where would I be?" I turn to look at him again.
"Then I'll tell you what you can do. You can come back inside because it's freezing. You can go to the doctor so we really know your not. You can let me take care of you if you are and you can relax because everything is going to be fine."
"How do you know? How do you know!? Don't say your job because that's stupid! It won't work now."
"I know because I know you Max. I know because I feel it."
I look down at my knees. I felt like puking and my head was racing. Fang makes everything sound good but sometimes he really doesn't know. He can't know.
Fang wraps his arms around my body. I let him.
Am I really going crazy? I knew that at some point it was going to happen but I didn't think it would happen so fast. I thought that I could hold this but like a dam holding high water sooner or later I was going to over flow and break.
He held me and I just cried as I stared at the sky. He let me, he didn't wipe them away. In the end I had no idea that I could cry so much.
"Are you mad at me?"
"No, of course not." U started wiping my face with my sleeve.
"Do you regret me?"
"Not at all, it just that, I don't know. I just needed to cry it out or something."
"So you're admitting that you are hormonal." Fang asked into my hair.
"I guess."
"That's normal."
I turn around to look at him in disbelief.
"What is that supposed to mean?" I raised an eyebrow.
"It means that your mine and that's the only way I want you."
I went to the doctor. The lady that checks me up used to be a veterinarian. She my vitals and then she takes me to the screen room. she wants me to talk and i don't want to do that.
"Max do you think that you are pregnant?"
"Maybe."
"Did Fang tell you that you are."
"yes"
"Did you feel dizzy this morning?"
"yes"
"You are pregnant."
i just looked at her because it hadn't sunk in yet that i would be pregnant. she just kept talking.
"You will be pregnant for three months. Your body will go into extreme phases. By the time you are in labor... well let's not take it that far yet. your not even showing, but you will in about a two weeks."
"I'M PREGNANT!"
"Yes and we have feelings that it may be twin looking back at your records."
"The hell?"
"Max you are quit hormonal."
"No, it's just that all of this is bull."
"Use of profanity."
"I didn't swear yet."
"In denial."
"Fuck you!"
"Yes you are defiantly pregnant and it is surely a multiple birth."
"Do do test on fuckin animals what the hell do you know!
"I'm going to send you to Fang, the only person who can reason with you."
"Fang ain't gonna do shit!"
"He got you to come here."
silence.
She picks up the phone and calls Fang to come get me. when he comes in i look at him defeated. He hold my hand like some kind of pansy.
"It's normal for her to object to you and the whole situation. Please remember that she isn't unhappy about the baby or that fact that you are the father, if you are, she is just defending herself."
Fang nodded. I stick my tongue out at her.
"how am i defending myself?"
"Your not used to being pregnant. Your still a young and usually your kind has babies in there late thirties. the babies are healthier when you are younger and that's just it. You isn't looking for one."
I roll my eyes.
Fang looks at me.
"You ready for this ride?"
"The question is, are you ready for me?" i say.