"Can we…go up to our room to talk? I'm exhausted." Light looked down at the notebook still in L's hands before standing up and stretching slightly; it was a little difficult with the short handcuffs.
Rem floated away and out of sight, after throwing a cautionary glance at Light.
L noticed the look Rem was giving Light, but didn't say anything. Instead he merely stood and led the two of them upstairs to their bedroom. Light watched him intently the whole way, only one thing on his mind. His desperation for L, and the threat of losing him should Light's guilt be found out, was making him mad with lust.
If he could just have one night…oh, they'd been so close before. If Light could just have one night with L…just one night before it all ended….
They were now in the bedroom. L closed the door and turned to Light, looking at him expectantly. "Well...? What is it you have to say, Light?"
Pushing L roughly against the wall, Light dominated the man's mouth with his own, kissing him hard. Light's cheeks were red with heat, partly from arousal, and partly from the shame that he felt at who he was and what L would think of him. He brought his lips down to L's neck, kissing it lightly before wrapping his arms around him in a close embrace and burying his face in the man's neck.
L moaned softly, taking in the feeling before pushing Light off him. "L-Light... I can't..." He said quietly. He still had doubts about Light, about who he was. Now more than ever it seemed that Light was likely to be Kira. And L couldn't let himself fall further for the male.
His hands were pressed against Light's chest, and his face was flushed. He was looking up at Light. He was just stooped there. He wanted to carry on, but he also didn't. He didn't want to get in too deep.
Light took L's hands in his own, removing them from his chest. He looked down briefly at the Death Note that had fallen out of L's hands when he had pushed him, and then back up at L. "Please L," he pleaded, leading the detective to the bed and laying him down. "Just let me have this one night." He pressed his lips to L's again, softly, showing L that he could be gentle. That he was not a monster.
L gave into the kiss for a second before pushing Light gently away, shaking his head. He couldn't until he was sure. "Light..." He said quietly, "I can't." He said it this time with more confidence. "Not until I know for sure." He sat up slowly, carefully, his hands still clasping Light's. He looked directly into his eyes, now that they were sat side by side. "My suspicion of you has done nothing but increase today." He shook his head. "I can't fall any further for you until I know for sure."
Light looked away, his heart sinking. He grasped L's hands tighter. "What would you do…if I were Kira?"
"Is that a confession?" L asked quietly, his voice soft. His eyes shone with love, and sorrow. He looked down at their hands before looking back up at Light. "I don't know." He answered honestly. "I would demand you give up the note book, in front of the Task Force. Give up all your memories..."
As much as he loved L at that moment, Light could not comply with his words. He was whispering now, terrified that Rem might appear in the room and hear his confession. "I-I can't do that, L." He looked up and almost cried out at the site of Ryuk staring across the room at him, and then floating away again.
L's heart froze and his eyes went wider. He dropped Light's hands and tried to back away. It was a confession... And L's natural reaction was fear, fear and betrayal. He shook his head as he continued to try and back away, stopped only by the cuffs that were on his wrist. Briefly, he glanced at them before back at Light. It felt like his whole world was crumbling around him. The one person, the one person he'd ever fallen for, was a mass murderer. An evil man who wanted nothing more than to kill.
His whole body was trembling now, and he couldn't take his eyes off Light. "I-I was right?" He asked, his voice quivering, just like the rest of his body. "You- You are Kira....?"
He knew it would only be a matter of seconds until Watari came into the room, complete with another set of handcuffs.
His heart pounding wildly in his chest, Light looked up at L with absolute misery in his eyes. For the first time in his life, he was ashamed of who he was. He loved L more than he could stand, but he could not shed this part of him, the part that wanted to bring justice upon the filth of the world. He was not a killer. He was a good Samaritan, who would eventually eliminate all crime in the world, and bring peace to everyone in it. He had to make L see this.
"You think I'm a killer, don't you?"
"You killed thousands of people!" L exclaimed, still obviously terrified. His wide eyes never left Light's. "You murdered them, without a trial, without proof. Just on the word of the media... You are a killer. You're a murderer. A mass-murderer!"
Swiftly, Light pinned L down onto the bed, clamping a hand over his mouth. "Please be quiet, L. You don't know how much danger you're in right now. And not from me." He glanced around the room once, making sure Rem was not there. Gazing down at the detective sorrowfully, he removed his hand from his mouth.
L's eyes were even wider than before. His heart was beating far faster than it should. His limbs were paralyzed with fear, and even the adrenalin that was running through his system at that moment wasn't enough for him to force Light off him. He was trembling, tears leaking from the corners of his large, wide eyes. He couldn't speak even if he wanted to at that point.
At the sight of L's reaction, Light leaned down and kissed him soothingly on the mouth. He ran the fingers of his free hand through the thick hair on the nape of L's neck, and slowly flattened his body against the others, his cock growing hard against the warmth of L's body. "You're not afraid of me, are you, L?" Light whispered, his brow furrowed. "You shouldn't be."
L was unresponsive to the kiss, his body completely frozen. When Light moved closer, flattening his body against his, he flinched. His eyes didn't leave Light. "G-Get o-off m-me..." He managed to stutter out, becoming too afraid to do pretty much anything. He brought two shaking hands up to push at Light weakly.
Slightly frightened by this reaction, Light obeyed silently. He moved off of L and sat down on the bed in front of him, staring at the detective hesitantly. "Are you okay?"
At that moment, a knock came at the door. Eyes widening in shock, Light looked at L and shook his head, mouthing the word, "Don't."
L stayed completely still, having sat up to keep his eyes on Light. When the knock came, he wanted to yell out, to call for help, but he found his mouth wouldn't co-operate. He wanted to yell, to scream, to get the hell out of there.
But he couldn't. He was frozen still. He reached into his pocket, slowly, and pulled out the key to the handcuffs. He then undid their bindings and shuffled as far away from Light as he could.
"What do you want?" He asked quietly, knowing that the words wouldn't drift to the other side of the room, nor through the door.
"Just don't…say anything about this." Light looked at him pleadingly. "You can't just go telling everyone yet. We need to talk about this. You know that."
Nodding, L swallowed thickly. He was pressed against the wall, as far away from Light as he could get. "You're not walking free." He promised, "I'll see to it that you're sentenced for this." He stood, moving around Light in a circle like a lion stalking an enemy. His voice was gaining some more confidence now. He got to the door and opened it, bending down to pick up the Death Note. He stood back up and looked at Watari and smiled slightly. "It was a false alarm. Please take this with you." He handed the black notebook to Watari before closing the door. He then turned back to Light.
"You wanted to talk. Talk."
"You're going to sentence me, L? Just like that?" Light's tone was worried now. He couldn't let this happen. If he was going to take control of the situation, he'd have to act like Kira. "I am Kira, you know," he said defiantly. He took a step closer to L, threateningly. "Do you know how much power I have? I don't even need the Death Note." He was now inches from L's face.
L flinched and took a step back, taking a shaking breath. He was still trembling, but he looked at Light defiantly. "You have need of two things, Kira." He practically snarled the last word. "You need a face. And yes, you know what I look like. But you also need a name." He swallowed, hoping this would work. "You have no power over me, without a name. I am free of your games, Kira."
Light smirked, the true Kira now taking over him. "Didn't you hear me, L?" He accentuated the name menacingly. "I don't need the Death Note to kill. And I can get your name easily."
The room seemed to darken, and the two Shinigami were suddenly hovering there. Ryuk was in the corner, watching silently, and Rem was directly behind Light, her Death Note poised in her claws.
Light turned around, his smirk fading into a look of horror as he realized what was happening. "Wait, Rem!" He tried to grab the notebook from the Shinigami, but his hand went directly through it, causing him to stumble across the room.
Fear was in L's eyes as he looked at the Note in the Shinigami's paws. He was unsure of what was happening, but he could guess. He stood by the door, his limbs frozen and his breathing rapid. How had things gone so badly so quickly?
Would Light really kill him? L knew only one thing for sure. He wasn't going to beg for his life, there was no way he was going to degrade himself to that level.
Even with Rem's monotonous voice, Light could tell that she was angry. "Light Yagami, you have revealed yourself and therefore revealed Misa as well. I cannot allow him to live."
Light felt as though his heart had stopped beating, his breath caught in his chest as he stared back at the Shinigami. He almost glanced at L, but caught himself. He couldn't look at the betrayed look on the face of the man he loved.
"Wait, isn't there something else we can do?" Light was starting to regain the authority in his tone. He had to reason with Rem.
"Are you bargaining for L's life?" Ryuk cackled. He found this all very amusing.
Ignoring him, Light addressed Rem, "Misa can't be happy with me, Rem."
L was frowning, looking between the two, bewildered and slightly afraid. He swallowed and decided to keep his thoughts to himself, watching the exchange happening in front of him. He knew full well that this was a life and death situation for himself, and possibly even Light.
He kept his back close to the door, in the unlikely event that leaving the room could actually help.
"L is going to turn you in, along with Misa. This is the only way."
Finally, Light looked at L and his heart sank at the look on his face. "Please, let Misa go. Have her memories erased. It's the only way out of this. I-I can't lose you."
"Why would you care for me?" L asked Light, a stony look on his face. "You're Kira. Isn't it your goal for me to be killed? You spent a long time trying to kill me. So why are you trying to convince me you want to spare me now?" His mind was telling him to stop, screaming at him to shut up, but he couldn't stop the words. "You wish for me to let a mass murder go, on the word that I will be spared?"
Light approached L cautiously, eyeing Rem as he did so. "I may be Kira, but I've changed. You changed me, L. You made me fall in love with you. You made Kira fall in love with you." He was now standing in front of the detective. "Yes, I wanted to kill you, but that was before I knew you. You're important to me now."
L's heart fluttered at that, but he ignored it. He glared at Light and shook his head. "And what? You think because I've changed you it's less of a crime? Because you love me, I won't blame you for all those deaths? You know you killed someone I cared about." He shook his head. "If the alternatives are giving up what I believe in and dying, then you might as well kill me now. Because you need to know I'll never, never forgive you for those deaths." He wanted to say that he'd never love Light. But that would've been a lie.
"I'm not asking you to forgive me." Light was truly surrendering now. There was no other way. The Death Note or L's life…? Light shuddered. He couldn't bear the thought of L being dead, not now. He's won. L has won be doing absolutely nothing at all. I fell in love with him, and for that, I have lost.
"By all means, sentence me to death. Execute me yourself." He got down on his knees before L and looked up at him. "Just let Misa go. Rem loves her and she won't allow anything to happen to her. That's why she wants to kill you."
The two Shinigami watched Light cautiously, but remained silent.
"Let Misa go, so that your life is spared. Then…you can figure out what you want to do with me."
"You do not love Misa, do you, Light Yagami?" Rem asked him.
"No, I don't." Light stared at the floor. "Tell her. Tell her so that she can leave this place. Have her forfeit ownership so that she can lead a normal life. Isn't that what you want for her?"
Rem looked up at L expectantly. Not even Ryuk was laughing at this point.
L was looking down at Light, not paying much attention to the Shinigami. He stared at him for a moment before looking up at Rem. "Will you take the message to her?" He asked quietly, looking at the Shinigami female.
"Yes." Without another word, Rem put away her Death Note, and floated away through the wall.
"I want to see how she's going take this," laughed Ryuk, and he followed Rem out of the room.
Light remained on the floor, his head bowed down. He didn't know what to say now. He was exhausted, all his energy spent on trying to save L's life. He'd almost forgotten that the man still stood right in front of him.
L looked down at Light. "And you." He said. "You are to give up ownership of the death note. And I know you still have one. Your memories are to be erased. But first, you are to explain to the rest of the Task Force who you are. I can claim that the note book caused you to do things you wouldn't normally, and get you off on temporary insanity. If you don't do these things, then I will be forced to charge you with mass murder, and you will be killed."
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Sorry for the horrible cliffhanger. :) It's a bad habit of mine. I'm going to be out of town for the next few days so I may not get a chance to update. Gomenasai! Ittekimasu!