That morning Spencer woke up feeling more rested then she had any other day. The first thing she felt was a hand in hers. Smiling she opened her eyes to see Ashley still asleep next to her. Ashley had wanted to go and sleep on the ground to let Spencer get some sleep but the blonde wouldn't let her go. So they both ended up in the same bed together. The quiet snores of the girl in front of her made Spencer's smile broader.
She's so damned cute.
A yawn escaped and Spencer sighed. Last night had been intense. It had been awhile since it had come up and she cursed Glen for it. She really wanted to just forget it but now she knew she couldn't. She'd have to live with it for the rest of her life. And what about Ashley? Sure last night she had comforted her and made her feel safe but that had to be just pity right? Of course, Spencer couldn't stop crying all night, of course Ashley had to comfort her. But…what would she think of her now that she knew everything. Spencer wished she hadn't told her all those things last night, it made her feel vulnerable, something she didn't ever want to feel again.
"What's wrong," Spencer jumped as she heard Ashley's voice, the brunette had woken up several minutes ago and saw Spencer in deep thought. She felt the girl release her hand and looked at her with a confused look.
"…I'm going to take a shower," was all she said and suddenly she was gone from the bed and into the bathroom, the door clicked as she locked it. Ashley got up and made her way over to the door, she knocked lightly.
"Spence, are you okay?" she asked in a soft voice. She was afraid the blonde was retreating back into herself again and it scared her. Never again did she want to see that much pain and sadness on her face. It took awhile till Spencer replied; she had to compose herself first.
"Yeah I'm just going to take a shower real quick and then we can get some breakfast," Spencer answered in her fakest happy voice ever. Hearing the water turn on Ashley sighed and walked back over to the bed and flopped back down on it. She wondered why Spencer was pulling back all of a sudden. They had managed to get so close last night and now Ashley felt it slowly slip away. Still, Ashley knew that Spencer probably just needed time; everything was just so hectic right now. Closing her eyes with the intention of merely resting them Ashley soon drifted back to sleep.
Spencer wrapped the towel around her hair and another around her body and opened the door. A gust of cold air hit her and she walked over to close the window. Looking back at her bed she saw that Ashley had fallen asleep again.
Just freaking adorable
Walking over to her drawer she pulled out a pair of boxers and a yellow hellogoodbye shirt and put them on. She sat down on the bed softly trying not to wake Ashley up. Things were just so crazy nowadays, her family moving here, Ashley and her reuniting, her rape incident resurfacing. And she thought just adjusting to a new place was going to be hard. Her cell phone vibrating on the table made her jump a bit and she was relieved that it had not woken up Ashley. She must have been really tired, Spencer felt guilty about keeping her up all night. Picking up the cell and reading the id she smiled, oh yes.
"Hi grandma!" Spencer smiled. If she loved anyone more then Clay in this family it was her grandmother. The elder women had always been there for Spencer through everything. Most of life's important questions were answered by her, lessons that needed to be learned where taught by her, how she was so kind and good hearted now, it was all her grandmother's doing.
"Spencer, I don't think this is going to work out. I don't have a video game buddy anymore, who am I going to own in Soul Caliber now?" she let out a laugh and Spencer did as well.
"You've never owned me grandma, I think you're getting delusional in your old age," Spencer stuck out her tongue.
"Better stick that tongue back in your mouth young lady, I see you!" Creeped out a bit Spencer did as she was told. "So are you all settled in nicely? How is everything there?" Spencer went on to describe the move then went on to explain the party and the incident with Glen.
"Honey I'm so sorry, your brother can be downright cruel sometimes. Who is this Ashley you keep talking about, I swear you've said her name a million times during this conversation," grandma Carlin laughed. Spencer felt herself blush and glanced once more at the sleeping Ashley.
"You remember, Ashley Davies. She's mom's best friend's daughter, they moved here when we were younger."
"….OH...Ashley Davies!" She went silent for a minute remembering the bond that her granddaughter and Ashley shared even at a young age. And now they had met again after all these years. It wasn't a coincidence that's for damn sure. Slowly a plot entered the crafty women's mind.
"Thanks for zoning out of me grandma," Spencer's voice teased.
"Oh sorry dear, I was watching the beginning clip for Legend of Dragoon." Even though it sounded as if she were lying Spencer couldn't help but smile. Other grandmothers knitted or baked but no, not her grandmother. She played rpgs and owned in Soul Caliber.
"Well I've got to go, the game is starting and you know how I zone out. But listen the other reason I called was that your grandfather's birthday is coming up this weekend. So I've arranged for you and the family to come back and visit, no ifs ands or buts about it. So I'll call you later with details, oh and Spencer, bring Ashley." And with that she hung up. Spencer stared at her phone seconds after it hung up. Bring Ashley? Oh, her grandmother was up to something.
Placing her phone back on the table Spencer once again found herself watching Ashley sleep. Everything in her screamed that she should just go back to bed and snuggle with the brunette and just forget the world. Spencer's brain however knew it wasn't possible. Prying her eyes away from the sleeping angel she walked out of her room and softly shut the door. Taking a deep breath she prepared herself for the onslaught of questions that would surely come when she faced her parents.
It wasn't something loud that woke her up, it was the complete silence in the room, and it made her uneasy. Looking around she saw that Spencer was nowhere in sight. Feeling quite disgusting from being in bed all day she made her way out the door to ask if she could use the shower. Walking downstairs she found that the house was empty except for the lone figure outside in the hammock outside.
Opening the door slightly she saw that it was Spencer. Borrowing the white flip flops on the floor she made her way over to the blonde and saw that her eyes were closed, an ipod lay on her stomach with the headphones on. Smirking she placed a finger on the circular button and turned it clockwise, turning the volume up. Spencer's eyes opened suddenly and she jumped as she ripped the headphones away from her ears and stumbled out of the hammock falling to the ground. Ashley couldn't help but laugh as she flopped onto the ground next to her.
"What is wrong with you? You scared the crap out of me," Spencer pouted as she tried to regain her regular breathing; her hand lay a couple inches away from Ashley.
"Sorry Spence, I really couldn't help it, it was just too easy," Ashley laughed but then reached out to take Spencer's hand. She expected the younger girl to pull away but smiled as Spencer allowed her to do so. It was silent for a minute, both their eyes locked on each other.
"Are you okay? I know a lot happened last night but I'm still here for you," Ashley said in her most sincere voice. She had never offered herself to someone in such a way, offered something without wanting something else in return. She wanted to just be there for Spencer.
Spencer glanced downwards now, her eyes avoiding Ashley's," This morning, I guess I freaked out. I never told anyone about what happened; only my family knew. I just thought…you'd be disgusted by me and-"she stopped when she felt Ashley's hand on her chin tilting her head upwards to face her, the look on her face brought tears to the surface. There was no disgust, nor pity found there. Just love.
"I'll never be disgusted by you Spencer and you should never feel that way about yourself. I wish you could see what I see when I look at you," Ashley smiled as she cupped the blonde's face with her hand. Spencer sighed and leaned into the older girl's touch.
"You're beautiful Spencer, everything about you is beautiful," both didn't notice they had moved significantly closer to each other. Eyes found each other once more, eyes to lips, to eyes then lips. Millions of things raced through Spencer's head. She wanted to kiss Ashley right now, so badly and knew that Ashley wanted to kiss her as well but…it was a huge step, one she didn't feel comfortable taking yet until she got her feelings toward her sorted out.
Seeing the uncertainty in her eyes Ashley knew this wasn't the time to be pushing Spencer. Instead she continued to lean forwards and placed a soft kiss on the girl's cheek and went to whisper in her ear.
"I'll wait for you to be ready, forever if I have to."