I would think this update isn't too late... Well thank you for your responses last chapter! You're going to like the plans I have for the rest of the story. Enjoy the chapter!

Warning: Not what you think.

Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi.

Madness

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I couldn't feel anything.

Everything was going too fast ever since Bianca and I arrived at the ravine. Many substances were handed to me and I took them like candy. Some were sweet and some were vile but it made me forget. Forgetting was the only intention I had once I stepped foot in the car. And forgetting is what I was doing. Everyone around me looked blurry and half of them I didn't know.

"Hey there," a voice whispered in my ear and I turned to see Fitz hovered over me. From what I could comprehend, an evil smile was on his face and he was holding a plastic bag that held goods I would fancy having. "You want some"

"How good is it?" I asked. "I need something strong."

"Then this is perfect," he held the bag in front of my face. I reached for it but he snatched it away. "You'll have to pay though."

An arm slung over my shoulder and it was Bianca holding a beer, blazed out of her mind.

"You'll like that stuff, C-Clare," she slurred incoherently, taking a sip before offering me some.

"You know I d-don't have any m-money, Bee," I said, taking a sip and gasping at the burning feeling it caused.

"You can pay another way," another voice chirped and Owen appeared beside Fitz a moment later, grinning from ear-to-ear.

Bianca and I exchanged looks, giggling at one another.

"Oh yeah?" I inquired. "How exactly would I do that?"

"Bianca, get over here!" a voice from afar piped.

"Duty calls," Bianca winked before stumbling away.

Owen and Fitz still looked at me and I eyed the bag. Things were still burry and the feeling was tingling but I needed to have the pain completely gone. The lies, anger, sadness. I just need it to be over.

I started to walk over to them but tripped and fell into Owen. He held onto me and his breath stunk of alcohol, a revolting stench I was surprised I didn't cower away from.

"So what do you say?" Fitz asked.

"What would I have to do?"

They pulled me towards a beaten up van and before I knew it, we were all inside. My top was off in an instant and my head fell back against the beat up carpet.

"Here you go, babe."

A pill was popped in my mouth and I closed my eyes as the euphoric feeling took over my body.

I was too distracted to realize what happened next.

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"Ouch!"

"Shut up, my parents are probably sleeping," I laughed as we entered inside the house. The lights were off and everything was dead silent.

"I can't help it," Bianca giggled. "I'm still high and it feels fucking awesome!"

"I don't care if it feels awesome, you need… to be…" I broke out into a fit of laughs before I could finish and Bianca joined in also.

"Thanks for letting me stay tonight. My mom probably doesn't even notice anyway. Probably fucking some new guy…" Bianca muttered but I heard her quite clearly.

"Don't worry about it, you're welcomed to stay as long as you want."

My voice sounded scratchy and my whole body felt like it was moving on its own. The feeling was still affecting me full force and I felt sore.

The lights flickered on and I stopped dead in my tracks when both of my parents were standing in the living room. They were beyond furious and they looked funny in their pyjamas. It was funny that for the second time that day they're acting like parent-figures.

"Hey, mom, dad," I waved with a smile. Bianca laughed quietly behind me. "What are you two doing up so late?"

"Where have you been? It's 1:00 in the morning!" my mom demanded venomously. "And who is this?"

I just now realized that Bianca never met my parents before. I swung my arm over her shoulder and smiled wide.

"This is Bianca. My best friend," I giggled proudly. "She is just so amazing."

Bianca laughed with me and my parents looked appalled.

"It's nice to meet you Mr. and Mrs. Edwards," Bianca sputtered with a noticeable shyness in her words. It was a very different site to take hold.

They didn't say anything but my mom walked over to us and roughly yanked me away from Bianca.

"Mom what are you doing?" I said in shock and slight pain from her tight grasp. Her eyes were still deadly and it was starting to scare me. "Let go of me!"

"Its time for your friend to leave and you to go to bed!" my mom scolded viciously, pushing me past Bianca.

"No! Bianca is staying the night whether you like it or not," I pulled away and grabbed Bianca's hand.

My mom looked horrified. "You're like this because of her, aren't you? AREN"T YOU?"

"I told you, I'm the same person," I spat back. "Come on, Bianca."

We went upstairs and I slammed my door shut after entering the room. I banged my head on the door and pounded my fists repeatedly. I didn't want to cry. I was supposed to forget dammnit! But my eyes started to burn and tears sprung.

"Clare?"

I started to sob and I hated myself for it. I was supposed to be strong. But all I felt was disgusting and used and just… awful.

"Clare, let's go to bed," Bianca said in a soft voice that sounded unfamiliar.

My shoulders trembled violently and I was still sobbing as I walked to my dresser and haphazardly picked out pyjamas. I tossed Bianca a pair before grabbing a blanket and settling on the floor. I heard the bed creak before everything went silent.

I closed my eyes and hoped for a peaceful slumber.

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Bianca wasn't there when I woke up the next morning. I was glad she wasn't. My whole body was sore and in places I never thought possible and I was exhausted. It was raining that day and everything felt crappy.

Especially me.

My parents were both home, to my surprise, but did not speak one word to me. I left the house as soon as I could and went to school. I went straight to my locker and almost had a heart attack when someone popped up behind me.

"It's just me," a familiar voice chuckled.

Eli.

He went on the other side of my locker and leant against the one beside mine, a look of happiness displayed on his face. I wished his face could cause a burst of enthusiasm from me like it usually did, but I simply couldn't this morning.

"Hey…" I said, putting my books in my locker.

"Hi… how are you?" he said in a slow, sarcastic voice before smirking.

"Good," I nodded.

"Well… that's good. Hey I was wondering… did you want to work on that project at lunch. How does the library sound?" he asked, green eyes carefully piercing mine.

"Yeah, sure," I said. "Sounds good."

"Alright," he smiled before leaning in to kiss me.

Someone was kissing my neck and I felt something touching my inner thigh before fingers plunged inside me. I clutched the rugged carpet as a new set of colours appeared in my vision, sending jolts of electricity flying everywhere.

"You think she can handle another one."

I didn't know who said the words but I was all for some more. My hands reached anywhere and everywhere for the pill.

"Open wide."

The pill was popped in my mouth and I screamed in ecstasy.

I jumped away and dodged the kiss, and turned back to my locker. I pretended to add another book to my bag before closing the door. Eli looked a little confused and hurt but I couldn't kiss him at the moment. Not when I was feeling like this.

"I'll see you in class," I mumbled before turning away and down the hall.

"Hey, Clare!"

Bianca was motioning me down the hall and I suddenly felt eyes on me. I ignored the sensation and made my way over to her.

"Hey," I said. "What time did you leave?"

"Early this morning," she said nonchalantly. "Mom called and surprisingly was upset that I wasn't home. I enjoyed a good laugh this morning. How are you feeling?"

"I only remember a little bit. I'm sorry you had to see my parents be like that."

It was true. I barely remembered what happened yesterday. The only things that rung clearly through my mind is the fight I had with my mom and crying myself to sleep.

"Same. I think we were really shit-faced last night."

I nodded in agreement and almost fell over when someone bumped into me from behind.

This is not my morning.

Owen and Fitz walked past us and I was shocked when they gave me weird looks and a couple of winks. Bianca looked just as flabbergasted as I did.

What happened at the ravine?