Things had been going great for Leah ever since she and Bill started dating. Her stress and anxiety levels drastically reduced, she started going out more with Stevie and the guys, and almost every trace of Colden had escaped from her mind. Life was now starting to get back on track; her first single, Sleepless Revelations, finally made its MTV debut, and she couldn't be happier.

Even Bill and Tom's lives seemed to be growing more and more hectic, but in a fantastic way! Their newest album was set to be released toward the end of the year, and things couldn't be better.

One cold February night, Bill, out cold from a night of celebrating both his and his girlfriend's rising success, was completely oblivious to a very awake Leah, lying against his rising and falling chest; sorting through in her mind the good and the bad of what she was about to do. Carefully and quietly, she slipped out of Bill's arms, and made her way to the bathroom; locking herself in.

It being three in the morning, Leah wasn't counting on anyone being awake, so it seemed like the perfect time to carry out her awful deed.

She wasn't sure why, but for the past few nights, vivid and horrible nightmares plagued her mind of the night Colden had attacked her. She thought she had buried that memory for good when she fell into her coma over a year ago; why were they suddenly resurfacing now?

She'd wake up screaming and crying from the nightmares; they seemed so real! She was grateful that Bill had been there to lovingly comfort her every time, but she didn't want to be any more trouble to him. He had done so much for her already. She didn't want to be a burden anymore.

Tears slipping from her eyes, Leah started to fill the bathtub.

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Tom lay wide awake in his and Stevie's room on the other side of the condo. Sitting up in bed, he glanced over at his sleeping beauty, and a loving smile crept onto his face.

Brushing her long brown hair off of her face and kissing her cheek softly, he got up and made his way to the kitchen. Even though it was three in the morning, he was hungry (as usual) and opened the fridge to make himself a sandwich.

Stevie was usually the master sandwich maker, and it was one of the many reasons Tom loved her to death, but he DID know how to make a mean turkey, ham, cheese and ketchup sandwich…his all time favorite.

As he gathered all of his supplies, the distant sound of running water stopped him short. He stood there in silence for about a minute, before deciding to go and investigate.

Following the sound closely, Tom crept to the other side of the condo, all the way to Bill and Leah's bathroom. He pressed his ear against the door and listened intently. Soft, pitiful, almost silent cries reached his ears; he tried the door knob, but to no avail.

Remembering his pocket knife in his pajama pants (he and Bill had been opening a lot of packages and gifts from fans earlier that night), he searched until he found what he assumed would make a good lock pick. Carefully and quickly, he worked on the lock on the door, not wanting to wake anyone up.

As he finally managed to unlock the door, the soft cries were suddenly cut off. Cautiously he slipped the pocketknife back into his pocket and slowly opened the door.

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Leah's mind started to fog as she held herself under the water. Her lungs wanted so desperately to grasp at the air they were being deprived of, but she fought back as her world started fading. All of a sudden, she felt two strong arms lift her from the water. "Oh my God! Leah, what are you doing?"

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"Bill! Bill, wake up, you idiot!" Tom almost screamed into the hall. "Leah's in real trouble! Get your butt in here!"

The sound of Tom's yelling jolted Bill awake. Realizing what was going on, he hurriedly stumbled out of bed and rushed down the hall; bursting into the bathroom, he was horrified at the sight before him.

Leah lay sprawled out on the floor, soaked and sputtering as Tom tried his best to administer CPR, and failing to regain his composure.

"What the hell is going on?" Bill sank to his knees and took Leah in his arms as she started to cough up water and slowly become aware of what was happening. "Leah, honey, what were you thinking?"

"I found her in here," Tom managed as he fought back tears. "I pulled her out on the water as quickly as I could, Bill. I swear, if I had known what was going to happen…" His voice trailed off as a few tears slipped from his soft chocolaty eyes.

Leah, now fully awake and aware of the situation that was unfolding around her, started to resist Bill's help. "Why didn't you just let me go?" she asked through her tears and tried to stand up. "Why did you have to stop me?"

"Leah, how could you ask such a thing?" Bill's voice cracked with emotion as he stood up and wrapped her in his arms. "Tom and I love you so much, do you know that? Why would you try and kill yourself?"

Tom stood up and joined in their hug; Leah smothered in Kaulitz love on both sides. "Yeah, Leah! Why would you ever think for one moment that this would be the right thing for you to do?" He buried his face in her dripping wet hair and let the tears come without fighting them.

"Because," she tearfully whispered. "I'm not good enough for you guys. You and Stevie always do so much for me; I didn't want to be a burden anymore!" She leaned her head against Bill's chest and sobbed.

Bill closed his tearful eyes and whispered, "Leah, sweetie, you could NEVER be a burden to us! How could you think that?" Lifting her chin and wiping her eyes, he weakly smiled. "I don't know what I'd do without you."

"That goes for both of us," Tom turned to face Leah. "Life without you would be unlivable. Whatever thoughts you have telling you otherwise, you need to get rid of them, because they're not true!"

"I just can't take all these nightmares about Colden anymore!" Leah closed her eyes. "I hate what they're doing to me! I hate that these conflicting thoughts and emotions about forgiving and forgetting him are tearing me up inside! I just wanted it all to stop!" She broke down and buried her face in her hands, shaking with the sobs that racked her dripping body.

Surrounding her in another Kaulitz force field of love and tears, Bill and Tom just held her, not knowing what to say.

After a few minutes, Bill spoke up. "Leah, would it make you feel better to just…forgive Colden and move on? Just wipe the slate clean and start all over again?"

Leah sniffed and wiped her eyes. "I certainly don't want to just let him back into my life, but I just want some peace of mind. I can't take all this hate; it's eating me alive!"

"Well, then," Tom sniffed as he dried his tears and stroked Leah's hair. "Let's just forgive and forget. I don't want to see him hurt you more than he already has."

And with that, the three dried their tears, left the mess in the bathroom for the morning, and wearily went to bed.

As Leah lay snuggled up next to Bill, he thought to himself, "I wish I could just take away all of her pain. It kills me knowing how much he hurt her."

Gingerly placing a kiss on her tear-stained face, Bill whispered to Leah, "I love you SO much. One day you'll break away from that monster." He rested his head back onto his pillow and slowly drifted to sleep, his most precious treasure lying in his arms.

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