As I stare back at the man in front of me I realize that maybe this wasn't such a good idea but then again I would do anything for my girls. As I sit in Archie's office on one of his comfortable seats with him across from me, note book resting on his knee.
It had been 10 minute ago I walked in the door head down and whispering a quite hello but that was all that was said.
To busy having an inner battle with myself I almost missed the question that slipped from his lips. "why do you fear letting people in? We have sat here for almost 10 minute and I have studied your body language. You seem scared but whatever you say will not leave this room unless you want it to." He ended with a soft smile.
Fuck it what do I have to loss I thought to myself. "I have never felt like I was in the right body. I hated myself I still do really. I never fit in. I was always on my own and no one know me as just Emma...No I went from being a freak, abomination, stupid, little shit, criminal, ex criminal but I thought I had my life on track with having a job and using coping method as that worked for me. Then all of that got thrown up in the air as Henry brings me here to my family but it was all a lie.."
Taking a pause my mind flashes back to yesterday.
"Emma you don't have to go. We can get someone new if you want but baby you need this. You need to talk to someone freely about this so that they can help you. I really don't want to see you harming yourself because of the shit world." Regina said to the blond in her arms crying her eye out.
"but what if he just sees me for cutting myself. I'm covered in scars because of my own hands and with all of this new dragon thing and gender thing as well it hasn't been easy. I love you and Zelena to bits but I don't know what I'm doing. I'm a fucked up person and I'm just scraping by. You know last night I sat with a knife at my thigh but I just couldn't for some reason use it. I stopped myself because I saw your faces. I feel like a big fucking let down."
"You are the most amazing person I have met. Your inner strength is amazing and I love you no matter what but you have to do this for you and for you only. No matter the cost you need to love and view yourself that way we see you."
I was broken out my thoughts again but this time by myself. I realized that to help my girls I need to help myself first. So, for the remained of our 3 hour session I tell him everything. As I said I have nothing to lose. Or so I thought.
By the end I was emotionally exhausted. As I go to leave I am stopped by the question I here from behind me. "Why don't you cut your hair? Nothing drastic just something more than a trim."
It was a bit of a weird question but after telling him about my thoughts on being in the wrong body it made sense. Giving a small nod I head out the room. I go to head home once I'm in the bug but I turn and go to the hair dresser instead. But once I get there I started to regret it.
Come on swan you have this. Your a dragon bitch for fuck sake. Just a small change in length is all.
ZELENA'S POV
The worry I felt was on a completely new level. I felt like it was going to burst out of me. It had been an hour and a half after Emma's appointment with the doc and she still wasn't home. I was sitting in the living room cuddled into Regina on the love seat as Henry and Mal sat together on the sofa as a movie played out. Every minute that went pass my worry grew but from the look on the others faces they were feeling the same. It wasn't long before I heard the sound of a car drawing into the drive way. Staying where I was not wanting to wake the brunette in my arm and the rest of the room as they lightly snoozed. I had my glass of wine in hand when the door opened. Then the sound of familiar footsteps sounded from the hall. Turning to face the door as Emma walks in.
SMASH. The glass in my hand fell to the floor awakening the others. Stood in front of me was Emma but her long hair was no longer that. Her hair was cut short choppy but enough to cover her face with as it was positioned perfectly on her head. The sides were about 3 inches in length and the top triple that.
I didn't think it was possible until that moment but it happened. I fell even more in love with her, I know how hard change was for Emma as it happened too much to her throughout her life. The pride I felt was shown through a bone crushing hug and a searing kiss which was soon replayed by Regina.
"oh baby, you look so beautiful. I love you." I whispered as I ran my hand through her short hair. Imagining what it would be like to pull in the heat of passion. I was rewarded with a kiss from each of my girls before Regina made a speech about how proud she was of Emma and how lucky she felt.
"No, I'm the lucky one." Emma's said disagreeing with Regina as they ended up in a playful argument but the moment was broken as the shock had finely worn off of Henry.
"Ma, why is your hair so short. I don't understand I thought you liked being who you are." Henry snapped in a bratty tone.
"Henry don't speak to your mother like that. It was her choice to do what she wants in life. We talked about this. We told you what had happened and how Emma felt and that's the way you treat her when this is such a hard thing to do." I snapped back displeased by his response. Knowing how hard it was and then to have a reaction like that from your son.
"I'm sorry it's just... I didn't expect you to chop your hair off but mum your right I know this is a big step for you ma and I will stand by you." He said leaning forward to place a kiss on each of our cheeks.
We decided that we would love to sit down and have a talk about why she did it as Emma explained about how her session went with Archie. Throughout the session I noticed that mal wasn't talking much and seemed to be unfocused. I suggested that myself, Regina and Henry take a walk to the ice cream shop.
NO ONE'S POV
Both Mal and Emma were thankful when their family left as they needed to talk. Emma could sense that something was worrying her mother but didn't know what.
"Darling I'm so proud of you but I wish you would have told me. I could have been there to support you. I love you so so very much. But because of some people you didn't get to live a happy life and you went through so much pain. Seeing you happy, that little bit of light in your eyes made me so happy but upset at the same time."
"mama why are you sad?"
"Because my baby was sad for so many years and I couldn't do shit about it. My baby bo...girl suffered because of who I was and what they thought of our kind." By this point Mal had tears rolling down her face.
"Mama it's not your fault and even if it was I still wouldn't hold it against you as all you have done is love and care for me. I love you and I don't know what I would do if something would happen to you. I was born in this body but now I know I don't need to stay in it...things are changing and I love it. I feel better. I feel free. I feel loved." Emma launched herself into her mama's arms as they cried together in happiness and sadness.
When the others including lily, who had been at the dinner all morning trying to get to know ruby better got back they found them lying cuddled up as they slept. Everything seemed normal until Lily reached the pair and notices a small note lying on top of Emma's stomach.
'Return my loved one or I will do what a pirate would do best. They steal.'
A.N- I would love to hear from you guys on what you think of the story and the change I'm hopefully bringing. I'm open to hearing your thought and answering any questions. I started school 2 weeks ago but I'm try my best to upload every week. PM me at any time I will get to you at some point. Hope you all enjoyed.