When she opened her eyes, she found Oliver staring back at her. He was smiling and seemed content and happy. It was quite a change than how things had been for them. Happiness was something that it seemed like they'd almost forgotten. "Morning," she whispered. Taking a moment, she stretched her whole body out extending from her head to her toes.
"Morning," he echoed and a smile spread even farther across his face. "How did you sleep?"
"The best I've slept in a bit," she admitted as she thought about it. Scooting herself closer, she wrapped arms around him and just enjoyed the fact that she hadn't heard their alarm go off yet. It was so nice not to have secrets between them and she was certain that along with the fact that things had been going better with Connor, that those things were responsible for her blissful night.
"Good." He was still smiling, it was contagious. For so long, a smile was something that had been foreign to Oliver's face and now here he was smiling like a fool.
A contagious stupid smile.
Felicity couldn't stop the smile that widened across her face. Oliver's mood was definitely contagious. "You're in a good mood."
"Is that bad?"
"No, just…making an observation."
They were both quiet for a long moment. Oliver reached down and pulled her chin upward, so that their eyes met. He leaned in and they shared a long and passionate kiss. His hands moved down along her body and when they finally separated for breath, Felicity wasn't sure if she could actually breathe. "I'm just…so…happy…"
He was so sincere.
So happy.
Felicity could hear it in his voice, see it in the way his face crinkled, and see how his eyes lit up. She held his face in her hands as she stared at him. "I'm glad…you have no idea…"
"I know you're still worried about how things will all work…"
"You know," Felicity said with a slight shrug. "I'm a girl who likes a plan."
Oliver smirked. "I love your plans…and even you're worrying…even when it's not necessary…"
Felicity smiled back and they were both quiet for a while. "I think that we should keep the news about the baby quiet," Felicity suggested. "For a while…"
"You mean from Connor?"
She thought about her words carefully. This was delicate, not the baby but rather Connor. "You, Sara, John…Tommy, Thea, and Roy…they should all know." Felicity was certain that she didn't need to explain WHY they should know before Connor. There was also the fact that Sara and John already knew, but she and Oliver hadn't discussed that yet. She'd figured that she'd wait and tell him that after, if he didn't already guess that they knew. After all, Sara was ALWAYS with her and Diggle was so close to them.
Oliver nodded and spoke quietly as he ran his fingers through her hair. "It's good to wait anyways, right?"
"Right," Felicity said slowly. The doctor had mentioned that a lot of people don't share their news for the first couple of months or at least until you started to show. "I just don't want him to feel pushed out or unwanted when he's just finally opening up to us."
Oliver took her hands in his and kissed them. "You're already a phenomenal mother, do you know that?"
Felicity felt blush rise in her cheeks. She hadn't really felt like a mom yet. Maybe it was because Connor was just opening up and she was purposely giving Connor space along with allowing Connor to bond with Oliver. If Connor was going to bond with anyone, Felicity wanted it to be him. There had been so many missed years. Felicity would be happy just being friends with Connor. Her mouth opened to say something, but the knock at the door caught her by surprise.
It wasn't something that she was used to. Sure, she knew that Connor was there but she still wasn't quite used to him being there. Eventually, she'd get used to it. It was just going to take some time. Just like it was going to take time for them all to feel like a family.
"We'll be right out," Oliver called.
Looking over at the clock, she realized that it was still early. It was sort of nice though. They'd have a nice cushion, but Felicity was certain that it was going to be well worth the extra bit of sleep they'd normally have.
"I just wanted breakfast," Connor said through the door. "I can get cereal."
"No!" Oliver said quickly and he practically fell out of the bed. "No, I'm going to make breakfast." A beat later and Oliver was pulling on pajama pants and a t-shirt before pulling open the door and heading out of the bedroom.
The door shut and Felicity just lie in bed smiling. It seemed like things were going to be alright again. She hoped so at least. Oliver knew about the baby. He was happy and excited about the baby. Right now, though, she was going to enjoy laying in bed for a few more minutes before actually getting up and joining them for breakfast.
By the time Felicity made it to the kitchen, coffee was made and breakfast looked like it was nearly done. "Everything looks and smells so good."
"Coffee," Oliver said.
Felicity was going to argue, but she watched as Oliver tapped the caffeine free coffee canister that was sitting on top of the coffee machine. It was the canister of coffee that she and Sara had purchased at the store. She took the cup when it was offered and just smiled for a moment. "Thank you."
"Oliver's showing me how to make scrambled eggs," Connor said proudly.
She sipped her coffee before moving so that she could get a better look, Felicity nodded. "Look at you! How is it that Oliver taught you and it looks better than his?"
Oliver flipped pancakes and just seemed amused by the whole thing. "Only the student can overcome the master," he said in a Jedi type voice.
They all just laughed.
Plates were being dished up when Connor spoke up again. "Can I ask a question?"
"Of course you can," Oliver replied instantly and Felicity watched as his attention shifted completely to Connor.
Silence.
"I wanted to know about my mom," Connor said quietly. "If I could go and see her?"
Moira had made all of the funeral arrangements. They had honestly been focusing on Connor and trying to make him feel comfortable while still trying to do everything else. They just hadn't checked in with Moira since they were giving Connor space to grieve, cope, and adjust.
"Yes," Connor responded. "But is it okay if you came with Felicity and I to work for a little bit first?"
Connor seemed okay with that response and just nodded at first. "I just miss her," he said quietly.
Felicity slid across from Connor at the table to take his hand and gave it a gentle squeeze. "Of course you do," she said. There was a pause. "How about we take some flowers?"
"She liked flowers."
"What was her favorite color?"
"Pink."
"Then we'll get pink ones."
They didn't even care about people seeing them out and about with Connor. Mostly because they'd be driving directly there, parking in the structure, and then taking the elevator up. There really wouldn't have to be much time in public. If anything, the employees were going to be the ones talking at Queen International. Also, Sara and Diggle were on the job and were meeting them in the parking structure, so it would make shielding Connor easier.
"I promise we'll be out by lunch," Oliver promised Connor as they got out of the car. "Maybe we could go out to lunch after?"
"Let's take it a bit at a time," Felicity said as she got out of the car as well. They'd waited to get out until Sara and Diggle were parked next to them and getting out as well. It just seemed safer that way, even though Felicity KNEW that Connor was safe with just them. They just wanted this to go as smoothly as possible.
"Hey Connor," Sara greeted with a bright smile as she carried a drink carrier in one hand and a bag in the other. Diggle came around the car with just a smile in place as he carried another drink carrier and a recyclable bag. "We all ready?"
"You brought coffee?" Oliver questioned.
"Even brought Felicity her special one."
Oliver looked over at her and Felicity shrugged. So, she hadn't really gotten around to telling him that Sara and Diggle knew. it wasn't her fault. They just hadn't had time because they'd spent so much more time than she'd expected with Connor that morning. "Special coffee?"
"Sara…and then John just…" Felicity started to ramble.
Diggle seemed more amused than normal. "Glad that we're all finally on the same page."
"Do the others?" Oliver asked.
"No," Felicity answered knowing the full question he wanted to ask.
"Don't worry, Connor," Sara spoke up. "John and I totally have you covered to ensure that you do not end up bored, sleeping, starving, or dehydrated."
"You got me something?" Connor asked, perking up a bit.
"We even got something for Tommy, assuming he's on his best behavior today."
Felicity just smiled at that comment and squeezed Oliver's hand when he took hers once they were in the elevator. This was the first time that they were all back at the company since learning about Connor. It was a step towards things normalizing. Though Felicity enjoyed their crime fighting adventures, there was something so nice about life having a routine and predictability to it.
"What's in the bags?" Oliver asked curiously.
"Surprises," Sara told him with a smirk. "You'll have to wait and find out, Ollie."
The elevator ride upward was a quick one. Once they'd gotten into the elevator, Diggle had held the door close button before holding down the floor they wanted all at the same time. As soon as the elevator started to move, he let go of the buttons and the elevator car didn't stop once on its journey upward. They all filed out and headed for their offices on that floor. Tommy met them before they could completely make it there.
It was clear that Tommy was excited to meet Connor and likely that everyone was there that day, even if for a while. Tommy had been so kind as to hold down the fort, so to speak, for a few days now. They'd been making everyone wait to meet Connor, so Felicity could understand why he was excited. Plus, Diggle and Sara had already met Connor since they'd helped them get Connor from Central City to Starling City.
"Tommy," Oliver greeted with a smile. He hugged his friend for a moment before turning towards where Connor was standing in the middle of the group. "I'd like you to meet Connor. Connor, this is Tommy. He's been my friend since I was your age."
Felicity stayed back a bit, just in case Connor panicked or anything. She honestly had no idea what to expect from the boy, this could be a big step for him or they could be taking two steps back. They really wouldn't know until they saw his reaction. It could all be too much for him, but Felicity hoped not. She would hate to think that they were pushing him too much, before he was ready.
"Hi," Connor said quietly, but didn't move.
"Hi," Tommy replied back with a smile. "Hopefully you don't mind coming in today, I know it might seem boring, but I'm sure Felicity could download a game or something."
Sighing, she shook her head. "You do realize that a memo went out telling people that they weren't allowed to download games onto the company computers, right? There's too much possibility of contaminating our secure servers."
"So, you just do the streaming kind…like Candy Crush."
Sometimes Felicity wondered how the company computers (and for that matter, those in the Foundry) had lasted this long without having some kind of heavy cyber incursion. It was a miracle, really. She just didn't know if Tommy (and Oliver for that matter…and Roy —when it came to the Foundry) liked to make her worry more about their digital security or if they just really didn't get it sometimes. It likely could be both.
They all headed towards the offices and Felicity didn't miss the look of slight sympathy from Sara. She definitely understood how Felicity felt about those kinds of situations. There had already been a point where she had had to clean up the Foundry because the dust could have compromised and overheated not only the computers, but also the servers…but she'd also had to 'fix' the computer after Roy had rearranged and deleted icons and had just generally screwed with her set-up.
Ending up in one office, they started to take seats and Sara and Diggle started to hand out coffees and drinks. "And hot chocolate for you," Sara said as she handed it to Connor. "You DO like hot chocolate, right?"
Connor nodded.
"Marshmallows? Whipped cream?"
Connor nodded quicker.
Sara just smiled at him. "Good."
Felicity sat happily sipping her decaf coffee and hoping that the day would go by smoothly. Of course they weren't going to be there all day, but she could still hope for things going easily. "You know it's sweet, but you guys didn't need to go to all this trouble," Felicity told them.
"We don't discourage such lovely things," Tommy told her with a smile.
Rolling her eyes and shaking her head, Felicity had to admit, she really had missed relaxed times with Tommy. She'd likely have to make arrangements to be able to tell him, Thea, and Roy the news, as they didn't know yet. It was a secret that had kept her from being completely honest with him, which bothered her, and had made her probably a bit too tense the last few days.
"I just figured that this would make the day a lot easier," Sara told them before handing the plastic recycled bag to Connor. "And hopefully this will keep you from being too bored… I wasn't exactly sure what you'd like, so John and I got an assortment of a few things."
Connor just stared at Sara. "It's for me?"
Sara nodded.
He pulled the handles of the bag apart and peered inside. His eyes widened a bit and then he looked back up. "It's for me?"
"It's for you, Buddy."
Felicity realized that Connor really wasn't used to a big family. From the pictures at his home in Central City, it had really only been him and his mom. His grandfather obviously hadn't been involved and as far as could be seen, nothing else had shown that Connor and his mother were really close to others. Here he was, coming into this family which really wasn't that huge. The Queen family was her, Oliver, Thea, and Moira (and sometimes Walter was included), but in reality…their family included Tommy, Sara, John, and Roy too. That made their family huge, and it probably seemed so much larger to Connor since he was used to it being just him and his mom. It would take some adjusting, but Felicity just hoped that it wouldn't be too much for him.
John set the bag of bagels down on the desk and then they were all settling in while Connor started to pull the things out of his bag. Sara and John had picked him up superhero coloring books, markers, and a couple of action figures from the looks of it. There could be more, but it was really sweet of them to think of Connor. Felicity had thought that he'd brought an action figure with him, but perhaps it was in his jacket pocket or in the car.
"I really don't think we have too much to go over," Tommy started. "Oliver, Felicity and I had prepared summaries of everything that you've missed. I think that the three of us just really need to get together in my office and prep for that meeting in a few days…and then just check e-mails?"
"I agree," Felicity said, figuring that this was not only a good opening to bring Tommy in on her secret, but also to get some work done. Connor would still be able to see them through the glass walls and he could just hang out with Sara and Diggle doing whatever. She was thinking that it might be a good idea, though, for them to discuss getting him a tablet. Eventually, he'd have to go to school there, but if he ever needed to go with them to work or anything like that then at least he'd have something to occupy his time and attention.
"We're going to be right through there," Oliver told Connor as he pointed through the glass wall and through to Tommy's office. "You'll be able to see us the whole time…and Sara and Digg are going to hang out in here with you, okay?"
Connor just nodded for a moment before finally speaking up. "I'll be fine."
At least this environment made it a bit easier to get things done. Connor didn't have to sit in, they'd get some private time and yet…he could still see them the entire time. It seemed like a win-win. Felicity got to her feet and just hoped that it would all work out and that they could actually get through what they needed for their meeting. Maybe it was best to wait to tell Tommy…at least until they were done going over things…just to keep the distraction level down.
They'd ended up all going out to lunch together and Connor had opened up a little more. Felicity was certain that it had to do with all of the stories that people had to share about Oliver. Tommy always had some good ones to share, though Felicity wasn't sure if they beat the ones that Thea had…or possibly tied. Either way, they were good. He'd still been quiet, though, but it was going to take time.
It was all going to take time.
Earlier, they'd told Connor that they would take him to see his mother and that's what they had done. Felicity and Oliver had taken Connor to pick out a pretty pink bouquet and had taken him to the cemetery. There hadn't been any kind of service, Moira had discussed this with them and they had just come down to the thoughts that if they had one…it might just be too much for Connor.
The headstone that Moira had chosen was beautiful and had flowers on either side of Sandra's full name. The grass had been pieced into place, but it would still need time to grow back. Felicity wondered if any of the choices that Moira had made for the arrangements helped to ease things. Felicity thought that at least there was a comforting fact of his mother being close by if ever he needed to go and talk to her. She and Oliver, though, had stepped back and given Connor space.
The boy had cried and there had been tears, but he just mostly seemed to want to sit there. That was okay, or at least Felicity thought so. Connor had been through a lot in a short period of time and they really were trying to be supportive as they could be. She and Oliver exchanged looks and she wondered if they needed to wait in the car, they'd be able to still see him from the car. Felicity had remembered that when she had been held captive on the island with Thea and Tommy that Thea had confessed that during the five years that she thought that h
er father and Oliver were both dead after the Queen's Gambit had gone down.
"Do you want us to wait for you in the car?" Felicity asked gently as she knelt down by Connor and put her hand on his shoulder. "In case you wanted to talk—" He just nodded slowly. "You can take as long as you want. Just come to the car when you're ready, okay?" He nodded again. Felicity stood and turned to see the look on Oliver's face, like he didn't seem completely okay with this idea. There was no need for discussion, so she just took Oliver's hand and guided him back to the car.
Once they were out of earshot, Oliver spoke up. "Are we sure we should just leave him?"
Felicity peeked over her shoulder for a moment. Connor hadn't moved and she was still fairly certain in their actions right now. "He's fine," she whispered. "We'll be able to see him the whole time. Plus, he might really need this…it's part of the grieving process, Oliver. He NEEDS this. Connor's been through a lot."
He was quiet as they walked back to the car.
Once they were in the car, Felicity had a feeling that he was feeling better that he could see Connor from the car. She held his hand as they both watched Connor. "He's going to be okay, you know…"
"I know."
"WE are going to be okay too," she whispered as she looked over at him with a small smile as she squeezed his hand lightly.
And they would be.
TBC…
