THE SECRETS THAT CAN DESTROY US
CHAPTER 10
BLAIR' S BEDROOM
"Talk to me please Blair. Tell me what is going on," came the voice holding her wrists so gently.
"What are you doing here Erik?" Blair asked with fear in her voice.
"I came with Jenny she wanted to ask Eleanor for her job back and to apologize for the way she acted with her. But Blair you still haven't answered my question what happened to your wrists?" Erik replied and asked again.
"What Jenny is here? You have to get rid of her. She can't see me like this, it would destroy everything," Blair said in a rush with tears falling from her eyes.
"Blair, Blair look at me, she is not here anymore. Your mother and her went to go into the shop to work. You still haven't told me what happened. Come on lets sit down," and he led her over to her bed for them to sit down. Blair mutely followed him over there.
"Come on Blair, you can tell me. You are practically like my sister. I promise it will go no farther than right here. Please B tell me what happened," Erik asked trying again to get Blair to open up to him.
"I ah I can't Erik. You would hate me. Please, please just let this go. Forget about what you saw, please," Blair pleaded with her best friend's little brother.
"I can't do that Blair. You are hurt and you are hurting yourself. I know you think it will help, I have been at that point, but please just talk to me. Tell me what is going on, I could never hate you Blair," Erik told her.
"But you will. The things I've done are disgusting, I AM DISGUSTING!!" Blair yelled as tears stream down her face and she tried to pull herself away from Erik, but at the same time he pulled her closer and held her in his arms while she completely broke down.
"Blair I know it seems that way, but it will be better when you tell someone, it will help. I promise. Please tell me," Erik pleaded with every minute getting more and more concerned about Blair.
"You promise, you won't hate me?" Blair asked sounding more like a four year old than the 18 year old woman she was.
"Yes Blair. I promise" Erik said wanting to reassure her, but also not give her a chance to change her mind. It turned out to be the right decision and Blair started her tale about what happened four years ago with Jack, Chuck, and Nate. To how Chuck had come to her and then disappeared, she broke down into tears again as she told Erik about how she tried everything to search for Chuck and what happened when she ran into Jack that first day looking for Chuck. She also told him about the deal she made on New Years, about the brunch, and about her last two run ins with Jack. It was strange to her, but when she started to tell Erik she just couldn't stop. She told him everything, from the things that Jack called her and what he did, to the way it made her feel, and how for the second time in her life Jack was the catalyst that started her bulimia to act up. By the time she was done both of them had tears streaming down their faces. Erik could not believe the horrors that Blair had been keeping to herself. He just kept rubbing her back and holding her. It probably took her about 45 minutes to tell the entire tale, but when she was done they just sat their together in silence. After about 5 minutes of silence Erik spoke.
"Blair, it wasn't your fault. He took advantage of you. You have to tell someone, you need to go to the police. Jack is a bad man"
"I can't Erik. Everyone would know then. They would know what a slutty whore I am, and it would ruin my mom. She finally sees me and wants to be around me and this would destroy her and her business. And, and Chuck, I couldn't stand to see the look of disgust in his eyes," Blair said through the tears still falling down her face.
"Blair you didn't do anything wrong. It is Jack who did wrong, and YOU ARE NOT A WHORE. I never want to hear you say that again. Chuck would hate someone, but it would NOT be you. It would be Jack," Erik tried again to reason with her; "I know it will be hard, but it will be alright. We will all be here for you. Serena, Nate, Chuck, my Mom, your mom, and your Step-dad, we will all stand behind you. Do you want me to go with you to the police? We can go right now," Erik tried again with hope in his voice. It had the opposite effect though from Blair.
"No Erik, you can't tell anyone. EVER. You have to promise me you won't say anything. I just have to do what he says and then he will be gone again and no one will ever need to know. You were right. It did help telling you. But you have to swear you won't say anything to ANYONE. Not Serena, Not Chuck, and certainly not that snotty little Jenny. Please say you don't hate me know and that you will keep my secret. I TRUSTED you," Blair said desperately trying to intimidate Erik into silence, knowing that he now had everything he could ever need to destroy her if he decided that she really did disgust him.
With defeat in his voice Erik responded, "I won't tell anyone, but you should Blair. I want you to call me if you ever need to talk or you ever think of doing what you did today. Okay?"
"I promise Erik. Just tell me you don't hate me. I need to hear it, even if you don't mean it," Blair promised and begged Erik at the same time.
"I do NOT hate you in anyway Blair. I will always be here for you. Do you want me to stay?" he asked as he replied to Blair's question.
"No, I am okay now. I have to get ready to see Chuck. I am sorry I have to convince him to not stay with you guys. I know how much you see him as a big brother," Blair told Erik.
As Erik was getting up from the bed and straightening his jacket he told Blair, "Alright I will go, but you should tell Chuck he would help you get rid of Jack and you two can help each other heal. I know you don't think he will but I know Chuck and I know how much he loves you, he will stand by you if he knows the whole truth."
"He doesn't love me Erik. If I know anything I know that. He cares and it really would be enough for me, but he doesn't love me. I don't think anyone could love someone like me," she responded with sadness in her voice.
Before Erik departed her room to let her get ready he quietly said, "Maybe you don't know anything then, because I know he does." It was so quiet that Blair barely heard it and she actually wasn't sure if he actually said it, or if it was her own wishful thinking.
After he left she started to get ready, she still had no idea what she was going to wear, but settled on a long sleeved clingy silk purple dress, she paired it with some Jimmy Choo heels she had purchased today with Serena, and the necklace that Chuck had given her for her birthday last year. She needed to feel close to him and special and that necklace always accomplished both of those things. She curled her hair and kept it down, so that there would be no over emphasis on her cheeks, she knew that she couldn't cake on the makeup like she had today, so she needed to be able to do everything that she could to down play the fading bruise on her cheek. When she was done she noticed that it was already 6:30pm, so she went down to wait for the car to come by to pick her up. When it got there she threw her phone, compact, lip gloss, and ID into her small clutch and took the elevator down and got in the waiting Town Car.
I know, I know it wasn't the person people hoped was waiting in Blair's room, but I wanted it to be someone who she could believe knew what it was like to feel that alone and hopeless. Besides I have always liked the relationship between Blair and Erik. I hope that you liked the chapter, and please let me know what you think. Thanks to everyone who is reading my story.