"Lying Wolf"

Rated M for Mature Content.

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She looks at me, "I love you. I love you as I rage at myself for this obsession. I wasn't supposed to fall in love with you. And this love, it overcomes me, a sickness disguised as passion. There's nothing that I long for more than your love. When I hear your voice and I know you're near I'm filled with a madness I must give in to, this madness called love."

Tears fill my eyes as she pours her heart out to me.

"When you frown I'm in pain. But then you smile and your joy defeats my sadness. And, you are my one reward, a reward I've sought my entire life, a love so unimaginable, I know I can't let it go. You, Marin are my life mate."

I throw myself into her arms and we kiss a thousand times and we undress and we make love and I let her lies go, I let them go…

Am I a fool? Or am I just as mad as she is…

Chapter 10: It's Time

Marin POV

Two months later…

We're on the couch, wearing sweats and tee shirts, even though we're normally naked when we're together. I smile at that because I don't think I've ever felt so free with my body than I do when I'm with Emily. She lies between my legs with her back to me as I lean against the pillows propped against the arm of the couch. We have a fleece blanket over us to keep the December chill from invading our bodies. I gently move my hand over her feeling the little pooch that has rounded her belly. I can't believe there are live wolves in there ready to enter this world so very, very soon. I can feel movement beneath my touch verifying the existence of the only pure alpha pack that will grace this earth…

"Mmm, hey," she looks up at me reaching for my lips with hers.

We kiss.

"I like when you caress me there. It's comforting and," she places her hand over mine, "it validates everything I've always wanted."

"What do you mean?" I ask.

"I've always wanted love but could never quite grasp it. And then you came along and I knew the moment your eyes met mine, that I would finally have love in my grasp. I held onto it and I'm never letting it go," she squeezes my hand and presses it tenderly over her expanded waist.

"I was reluctant to love you. I mean, you did take my heart without permission. But then I let you keep it under the condition that you promise your love is all for me."

"It is and you know that. I have never been more in love with you. I see you in my dreams and in every waking moment. A day doesn't pass without the anticipation of your touch. You, Marin, have awakened my heart and my soul. And I strive for that one life goal to make you happier than you've ever been before."

"You do make me happy baby. Happier than I thought I was ever capable of being. This thing that you're doing, this pure alpha pack, it's going to be challenging. But I want you to know I accept the challenge. Through thick and thin I will be by your side. I'll be there for you to confide in, a true friend and lover. Everything is going to be alright, that is my promise to you."

She moves slightly to my side so she can caress my cheek with her hand and lure my head to her lips.

She looks into my eyes, "With unwavering devotion, no obstacle will stand in the way of my love for you."

I think I'm tearing up! This time, right now, should be about her and her growing belly but she's making sure I don't feel left out or unimportant. She's making sure I know that these pups will not steal our love. They will only enhance it.

We kiss again and again. I want to love her right now but we can't, we mustn't. She's going to give birth within days, within hours, and she needs all of her strength for that. For when it's time, we will gather in the woods where she will change into wolf form and give birth to her pups, her pure alpha pack…

Emily snuggles into me and I can tell she's fallen asleep but I stay awake holding her close, protecting her as the druid emissary in me makes it impossible for me not to. I will make sure she has all the emotional support she needs to be a fierce and loving mother. She will lead them into battle and I will guide them through life. We will be a family, an unconventional one at best, but still dedicated to our love.

I think about my life up until now. I truly believe, only once in your life, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. That's been Emily from the start. I almost let that go but I'm so glad I fought through my emotional indifference and chose to stay...

But there's so much more, you share hopes for the future, and some dreams you know that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. And you do this because the person you tell is the person who will be there for you, never giving up on you or your love. They're the person who when something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you're not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful, that's Emily…

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when she's around. I can be myself and not worry about what she will think of me because she loves me for who I am. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in my heart to cherish forever. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all…

A phone call or two during the day helps to get me through a long day's work and always brings a smile to my face. In her presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but I find I'm quite content in just having her nearby. Things that never interested me before become fascinating because I know they are important to this person who is so special to me. I think of this person on every occasion and in everything I do. Simple things bring her to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. I open my heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening my heart, I experience a love and joy that I never dreamed possible. I find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow my heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares me. I find strength in knowing I have a true friend and possibly a soul mate that will remain loyal to the end…

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. The only hope and security is in knowing that she is a part of my life, but more importantly that she is my mate for life…

I fall asleep thinking about all of it, about all the love that this person has shown me and all the love she has shown that I can give. Hours pass as she lies in my arms. Hours pass as I dream of our love. Hours pass as I suddenly awaken transfixed on a vision, a vision of new life and new challenges…

"Ahhhh!" she screams. "Marin! It's time!"

"Okay, okay, we can do this. Everything is going to be alright."

I slip out from under her helping her to lean against the pillows while I call Alan to message everyone that it's time. Derek comes over to help me. We wrap her in the blanket and he lifts her into his arms. Her eyes glow red as she screams from the beasts inside of her needing to be freed…

We race to the woods where everyone is already gathered, Scott, Lydia, Styles and my brother Alan. Derek takes her to a cave entrance and stops with me right behind him.

"Marin, this is as far as you go. I'm sorry. She's going to change and she's going to be ultra-protective. And Marin, I'm going to change too. Stay back. There will be two wolves protecting their young and you don't want to be anywhere near where we would sense danger."

"But she changed in front of me already and she was fine." That's why we did it. I need to be with her especially now.

"That was before she was pregnant. Marin, please, I'm trying to keep you safe so you can be together once she's herself again." He makes sense. But I should be here.

I look at him knowing he's right but I don't want to leave her. I look at him holding her. I look at her screaming in pain. And I do what I have to do for her. I walk away. I walk away and it hurts, it hurts so much!

"Marin!" Alan calls out to me.

I rush over to him, "She's with Derek. They have to change and he's not sure how Emily will react to a human near her pups so he asked me to leave."

"Well, he's right. It's up to him now to guard her while she gives birth."

"She's giving birth. Wow. This is really happening," I have to say out loud so I know it's true.

"Ms. Morrell, she's going to be fine," Lydia offers some consoling words.

"She's right, if anyone can pull this off its Derek. Wow, I can't believe I just said something nice about him," Styles surprises himself.

"Derek will protect her for now. And then, you, Ms. Morrell will protect them all," Scott speaks like the Alpha he is.

"We're all here for you Marin, all of us," Alan offers a hug and I crumble into his arms.

They've changed. You can hear them howling!

"Oh god, is she in pain?" I look to my brother.

"I'm guessing birth is painful for any mother no matter what shape you are. And she's having more than one."

"How long will she stay in wolf form after they're born?" I need to know.

"Well, she'll have to clean off their sacks so they can breathe out in the open and then they need to bond with her," he explains.

"And Derek?"

"He'll stay as long as he's needed." That's not what I wanted to hear. I want to be the one who's needed.

"So, she'll be alone?" I can't bear this!

"It's different in the wild. As soon as she feels she can become human again she will," he's trying so hard to make me feel better about all of this.

"You mean she might be a wolf for days?" I never thought of that.

"Possibly weeks, Marin. That never occurred to you?"

"No, no it didn't. I just want to hold her so she knows she's not alone." I need to.

"She knows Marin. She knows," he consoles me.

"Derek and I will stick around and make sure nothing tries to her harm," Scott asserts.

"So, you just expect the rest of us to leave?" I'm feeling protective yet powerless.

"Marin, we have to and you know that. Scott and Derek will keep her safe."

"Well, I want to know how many she had."

"When I know I'll call you," Scott assures.

"You'll let me know how she is too," I say more with my eyes.

"Yeah, we'll let you know how many and how she is when we can. But just know that we'll be in wolf form for a while so there won't be any calls too soon," Scott reminds us.

"Marin, it's time for us to leave," Alan tugs at my arm.

Lydia, Styles, Alan and I drive away leaving Derek and Scott to protect Emily and her pups. This isn't how it's supposed to be but the rules are different in the wild. All I want is to hold her and tell her everything I thought about just before she had them…

"I love you," I say as the woods disappear behind us.

Everyone gathers at my house while we wait for news about Emily. Hours pass when finally Alan's phone rings.

"It's them."

He puts the call on speaker phone so we can all hear.

"Well, she gave birth to four amazing pups, three males and one female."

"How is she Scott?" I ask.

"She's fine. She's lying down in the cave and they're cuddled with her. I expect she'll be that way for a while. In the meantime, Derek and I are going to make sure she has food so she can stay strong while they feed from her."

I'm crying. I'm so overwhelmed.

"Thank you Scott," I manage through my tears.

"We'll, check in periodically so you won't worry," he says.

"I appreciate that."

I walk away from the group and look out the window into the evening sky. The stars are bright, the wind is calm, and it's the perfect night to be in the woods, the perfect night to give birth, December 13th will always be remembered for the night a pure alpha pack was born.

I just wish I could be there with her…

"Marin, do you need us to stay with you?" Lydia asks.

"No, it's okay. I'm fine. Why don't you all take off?"

"If you're sure?" She needs reassurance that I'll be okay by myself.

"I am."

They all leave and I lock the door behind them. I go upstairs and take a shower. I slip under the covers and lie there staring at the ceiling. I have to stay here. There's nothing more I can do until she's human again.

The question is-when will she be human?

And when can I love her again…

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To Be Continued…

Oh, wow! I hope I can keep this story at this level. I'm really happy with how it came out and I hope you are too! ;)

I read some love quotes and one in particular stood out. It helped me to express how Marin dealt with meeting Emily and eventually how she fell in love with her…