The Monster Is Loose Chapter 10: Lego House
Hey sorry everyone for the late update! I feel as though I am going through a slight depression. I feel sad and I don't feel like doing much which includes writing. I think it's because I have been trying to find a new job and I have been having no luck so it's quite frustrating. I hope I will find one soon! On a positive note I get to go on vacation in April!
I hope you guys like this chapter! Don't worry after this, the story will go back to its main roots and will have a more aggressive Edward! I just want to say thanks for all of your support; I couldn't do this without you guys! Please review if you like this chapter and let me know what you would like to see next! I hope to update sooner for you guys next time! Take care!
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I'm gonna pick up the pieces, My three words have two meanings, And it's dark in a cold December,
and build a lego house
if things go wrong we can knock it down
there's one thing on my mind
It's all for you
but I've got ya to keep me warm
and if you're broken I will mend ya and keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now
Ed Sheeran- Lego House
"Bella… I've been thinking about what you said earlier and after this bath you are welcome to leave this house. You are no longer under my captivity, you are free to leave."
I couldn't believe what Edward was saying. I couldn't believe he was letting me leave. I was so shocked from his words, that my body went numb and I thought my heart had stopped beating. I couldn't do anything but stare at Edward's concerned and serious face.
"Leave….you want me to leave? But….but…why…" I managed to stutter as I continued to stare at his face.
"Because I'm a monster Bella and I should not have done this to you in the first place. After seeing what happened to you, I realized you should be treated better than the way I have been treating you. I don't think there is anything I can do to make it up to you and I sincerely apologize for that, but you don't belong here. You are not an animal that deserves to be locked up. You need to be set free so you can spread your wings and be happy. Although this is killing me, I know it is for the best." Edward explained as he grabbed my hand and started to rub it.
Again all I could was stare at Edward. Although for the past few weeks I had desperately wished that I could escape Edward's chains, now that I was free to go, I wasn't sure if I really wanted to. I couldn't believe I was finally allowed to leave this house and that I was able to see Charlie and Jake, but for some reason I couldn't get up from the bath. I knew Edward had changed into some strange, unfamiliar monster which had caused me tremendous pain. There were even moments when I was starting to fall out of love with him. But over the past couple of days Edward was beginning to show me his softer side, his "normal" side and I was starting to love him all over again. Ever since Caius raped me, Edward was acting nice and was treating me really well. I hated to admit it but I wasn't sure if I wanted to leave.
"No….no…I don't want to leave." I managed to say as my brain was still trying to process everything Edward was telling me.
"Yes Bella you are going to leave! I should have let you leave weeks ago. After this bath, I'm going to get your stuff and I will drop you off at your house." Edward said sternly.
"But what will happen to you?" I asked as I started to shake in the cold, bath water. I was starting to realize that not only did I not want to leave, but I didn't want to leave Edward. I wasn't sure what I was going to do without him. I had spent every day with him for the past couple of weeks that living without him seemed like a scary dream to me.
"I'm not sure, I think I may just spend some time travelling just to get away so I can think about what I have done to you. I don't know if I will ever live with myself but I think if I get away to some place like Canada it will help me deal with everything that has happened." Edward said as he started to drain the water out of the bath and wrapped me in a large, cream coloured towel.
"You are going to…..leave." I gulped as he started to dry me off.
"Yes Bella, I think it's for the best."
"When are you thinking of leaving?" I asked as I started to get dressed.
"Probably in a few days. I have a few things I need to take care of here before I leave. But don't worry I will be fine. Here I will help you pack your things." Edward said as he walked me to the room and helped me put my belongings in a bag.
Even though I felt that I should help him, I couldn't move. All I could do was sit on the bed and watch Edward grab my belongings. I couldn't believe I was actually going to leave this house. I couldn't believe I was actually going to leave Edward, the person I thought I would never leave.
"Okay so I think I have everything. Do you think I have forgotten anything?" Edward asked me.
"No…I don't think so." I answered.
"Well then I guess it's time to take you home." Edward said as we started to walk downstairs.
As soon as I made my way to the front door, I couldn't help but look around to the house I had spent so much time in. I sighed as I took it all in. I was finally saying good bye to a life I didn't think I would ever leave. Even though I was leaving, I knew I was never going to forget this place.
"Are you coming Bella?" Edward asked from outside.
"Yeah I am." I said as I took one last look and got into his car.
The car was silent as I stared out the window. My stomach was tied into knots as I realized I was going home. I was so excited to see Charlie and Jake; I thought my heart was going to beat out of my chest. But as I looked over at Edward I realized this was the last time I was going to see him for awhile. Even though I didn't want him to leave, I knew I couldn't talk him out of it. I was so confused; I had no idea how I was going to get through this. I felt so emotionally unstable, I wasn't sure of anything at this moment. I just wish I could snap my fingers and everything would be normal again, the way it used to be before Edward changed into a monster.
Finally we had arrived at my house. It felt so good to see my home standing in front of me.
"There you go Bella, now you are free. Now you won't get hurt by me anymore."
"I…I don't want you to leave, I don't know what I will do without you Edward."
"Bella I have to! Look what I did to you! You will be better off without me, we both know it! I'm sorry I failed you. I'm sorry I turned into a monster! I wish I could turn back time, but I can't and I will have to face the consequences. I'm not sure if there is a chance we can be together but right now I think it's best if we spend some time a part. I hope one day you will forgive me because I know I won't forgive myself. I just want to let you know that I will always love you and if you still want me in the future, I will always be here waiting for you." Edward said as he kissed my cheek and rubbed his hand through my hair.
"I love you." I managed to say as tears started to fall from my eyes.
"Goodbye." He said as I got out of the car and was greet from Charlie who was running hysterically towards me.
"Oh my God Bella! You are okay! Edward said he took you on vacation! Why didn't you tell me about it, I was worried about you!" Charlie said.
"I just wanted to get away for awhile and wanted to clear my head. Things have been crazy and school for me and I just wanted to get away from everything and everyone." I said lying to Charlie.
"You wanted to get away from me? You couldn't even tell your own father where you were? Everyone was worried about you especially Jake who was here every day waiting for you! We even texted you and we got no replies! Why would you do that?" Charlie said yelling at me.
"I am really sorry dad, it won't happen again. I just knew if I told you where I was, you or Jake would come after me and I just needed some space. Please just accept that." I explained trying to calm him down.
"Well it better not happen again and you are grounded for six months. Oh and you are to never see that Cullen again!" Charlie announced as we made our way into the house.
"That's okay, he is leaving anyways." I told him.
"The Cullen is leaving? Wow there is a God! Why is he leaving?" He said as he hugged me again.
"He just wanted to leave." I said mumbling as the realization of his absence started to hit my hard, like a ton of bricks.
"I guess you guys didn't have a good vacation then…are you okay?" Charlie asked.
I shook my head but no words came out of my lips. I didn't know what to say.
"I just want to be alone right now." I managed to say.
"Okay Bella if you need anything I'm here. I'm so glad to have you back. I love you." He said as he hugged me.
"I love you too." I responded as I headed to my room which now felt strangely unfamiliar.
I sat down on my bed and looked around. All of a sudden my heart started to ache as I started to miss the room I spent with Edward. I didn't know what I was going to do without him.
"BELLA, BELLA, BELLA!"
I heard a familiar voice echo up the stair case as I sat back up. There was only one voice that could make the house shake, it was Jake.
"Oh my God Bella you are here! Charlie just phoned me saying you were back! Are you okay? What happened to you?" Jake yelled as he grabbed me and picked me up.
All of a sudden I winced from the bruises I had sustained from Caius' attack.
"You're not okay are you? What happened? You weren't on vacation were you? Seth told me he saw you and I talked to Alice, but she said if I went after you something serious would happen! Damn it, that Cullen did something to you didn't he? TELL ME RIGHT NOW!" Jake yelled.
"Jake calm down or Charlie will suspect something! He doesn't know anything right now okay! Just calm down and I will talk." I said trying to calm Jake down.
Finally Jake started to calm down as he sat down beside me. Then I told him that Edward didn't take me on vacation, and that we spent some time together in an old house. I told him I just wanted to be away from everyone.
"I don't believe you Bella! Why are you lying to me? Why did Alice it would be dangerous if I went looking for you?" Jake said as he slammed his fists onto the bed.
I sighed. I wasn't sure what to tell him. I didn't want to tell him what Edward did to me because that would make everything even more complicated between them. Jake could never know what truly happened in that house. So I decided to tell him the partial truth.
"Okay so I when Edward went hunting some guy broke into the house and…and…raped me…and after that Edward became so mad because he thought he had let me down. I think Alice was afraid if he saw you, he would do something crazy. She just didn't want anything bad to happen to any of us. I'm sorry I didn't talk to you. At first we just wanted to get away, you know away from everything. But after what happened to me, I just didn't want to talk about it with anyone. I'm so sorry Jake." I explained as the tears started to fall from my eyes.
"Oh my God Bella I am so sorry. I didn't know that happened. Are you okay?" Jake asked as he hugged me tight.
I just nodded my head as I let Jake comfort me. It felt good to be in my best friends' arms.
"I'm sorry for putting you through this Jake." I said.
"No, don't you ever be sorry! I am going to help you anyway that I can…so where is the Cullen anyways?" Jake asked.
I gulped. I knew I should tell Jake about Edward because I knew he would find out eventually, I was just worried what he would do when he heard the news.
"Umm…he left...he just couldn't deal with what happened to me and told me he needed some space." I explained.
"Are you serious? He left you? Like this? I can't believe he didn't have the guts to deal with it so he could be here with you! I can't believe he left you again! You do know now that he isn't worth your time now right? That he is a cold hearted monster!" Jake explained.
"Jake please! I have enough stuff to deal with so please stop with the comments!" I said starting to get frustrated.
"Your right, I am so sorry Bella! I promise I won't say anything about him but I do promise I will be here for you! So is there anything I can do for you?" Jake asked.
I sighed. I knew he was trying to help me and I loved him for it, but right now I just wanted to be by myself.
"Thanks Jake, but right now I just want to be alone. I will call you if I need you." I answered as I gave him a hug.
Even though he hesitated, he left and told me he would call me after to make sure I was okay. I smiled, said good bye and layed in bed. Out of nowhere the tears fell from my eyes and I layed there on my side letting them free fall onto the sheets.
All of a sudden I turned over and there was Caius.
"Why hello there are you back for more?"
I screamed as I opened my eyes but thankfully no one was there. I sat up and expected to see Edward sitting in his usual chair in the corner, but he wasn't. Suddenly I felt as though I couldn't breathe and I started to panic. For some strange reason I didn't need Jake or Charlie, I needed Edward. He was the only one who could get me through this because he was there. I didn't think I could this without him. So I decided I was going to go back to the place where at one time I wished I could escape from.
Coming up next:
Bella goes back to Edward. What will happen? Maybe things will get wild? If there is anything you would like to see in this story, let me know and I may use your idea!