Clexa Reincarnated

CHAPTER 10 03/10/2016

I am at a loss of words tonight. So I am just going to begin…

Raven walked outside to find Clarke looking up at the stars.

"Do you miss it?" Clarke looked over at Raven, questioningly.

"No, not really. I miss Wells, and my Dad and maybe the idea of simpler times. But, I actually love it here, even with all the big bads. Do you?"

"Yeah, kinda. I can't explain it though. I just do." And as Raven said that, her and Clarke both looked back up into the night sky. "I think we should get back in. We don't want to attract any unwanted visitors."

"And just when I was starting to like you again."

"Since when did you NOT like me? I am awesome!" Clarke rolled her eyes.

"You know, you keep rolling your eyes like that, one of these days they're gonna roll right out of your head!" Clarke couldn't help it, she rolled her eyes again and made Raven laugh. They started walking back in, but as they did, Clarke noticed something in the trees. She wasn't sure what she saw, but it probably wasn't good.

Whispering, "Did you see that?"

"See what?"

"See something in the trees?"

"Oh great. Now you're seeing things? I knew you were knocked too hard in the head."

"Seriously, Raven. After everything we've been through, you're going to question and make fun of me? How nice."

"You're right, but not to be rude or disrespectful, you did say you heard Lexa and you're the one that saw her die. I can't help but be skeptical. Can we just get inside now? We might be badass women, but you're starting to creep me out." which made Clarke laugh. Clarke looked back over at the tree line, but whatever was there earlier was gone now. She wanted to go and search, but she also knew if anything were to happen, she wouldn't be ready. She was still healing.

They went back into the Drop Ship and secured it as best they could.

"What do you want to do now?" Clarke looked at Raven with a raised eyebrow and a no way look.

"Oh God, Clarke. Not what I meant! You really need to get some and leave me alone." Wink.

"Funny, Raven. I am not ready to be with anyone and if I were, it wouldn't be you."

"What? I am heartbroken! Why not me? I am a catch. Technically, we've been together. I had Finn, you had Finn…."

"You are too much. That's not how that works, ya know. I think this conversation has gotten a bit….weird…"

"You started it."

"Well then, I'm stopping it. Can we talk about something else?"

"Sure. What do you want to talk about? How you're dealing with everything? Or how you're not dealing with everything?"

"No."

"No? No, what?"

"You asked what I wanted to talk about. If I wanted to talk about how I'm dealing or not. I said no. Can you drop all of that? It's….too hard."

"Ok, but I doubt it's going to get any easier, at least any time soon."

"Just not right now, Raven. I can't. It's too soon. Please?"

"Yeah, I already said ok. I think I'm gonna go to bed then. Have a good night."

"Hey, don't be upset. Maybe someday, ok?"

"Sure. Good night, Clarke."

"Good night, Raven."

Clarke couldn't sleep right now. She was thinking about Lexa. Lexa…I never thought I would miss you this much. Why would you do this to me? If you're alive, why aren't you with me? If you're out there, why aren't you coming to find me? I would stare at you forever. Your beautiful green eyes. Your perfect lips. If I could just touch you again. I would never let you go. I would kiss you, your neck, your arms…. Oh God… as Clarke thought about Lexa, she absentmindedly walked outside. I don't understand any of this.

"Lexa" she said out loud. "Where are you? I need you."

Finally realizing she was outside, she looked around and sat down. She looked back at the tree line, but didn't see anything. She looked up at the stars and wondered what it would have been like if she had grown up with Lexa. Why am I even thinking like that? There's no use. Clarke finally let herself really cry. She cried for her lost youth, she cried for all the pain and suffering... She cried for having no where to go. She cried for the pain Emerson had caused her. The mistakes she has made, the people she murdered… Lexa.

And then she felt someone put their hand on her shoulder and looked up.

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