A/N: Once again, I apologize for not updating more often. I have limited computer time and it's hard to balance things. No excuses though haha. Anyways, I hope you enjoy! - Sam
Freedom
Henry explained everything to me. David was hated by a lot of people, but a lot of people also worshipped him. Anyone who went against him, David killed off. Anyone David just didn't like, he killed off. So they started forming this group to rebel, to kind of overthrow him and anyone who followed him. They had underground meetings, gathering people slowly, creating a plan to attack. Of course, it took time, but with the help of Richard things have been moving at a quicker pace. Richard doesn't like the way David handles things, he wants a better example for his kids and sister, so once they destroy David, he'll take charge and fix everything David has messed up.
Of course, that would involve killing him first. And anyone involved could die if they're caught. It's a tricky operation, but it has to be done, for everyone's freedom. Including my own. Carrie, Sophie and I won't be completely free until that time comes...
Which is why we've been currently residing in Henry's getaway home. He couldn't take us to his real house, because David probably had people searching for him there, so we were at this small house he use to come to when he was human as a getaway. David doesn't know about it, so we're safe.
Carrie walked in, wearing a bikini. "Come on, Shannon, no moping today! Come out in the sun, get a tan, like me!" She exclaimed, happier than I've ever seen her.
"I'm not moping." I said, but even I could hear the sadness in my voice.
She sighed and sat next to me. "Yes you are. Now Henry is out grocery shopping and Sophie is taking a nap. Fess up."
I bit my lip, contemplating on what to say. Well...it couldn't hurt... I took a deep breath. "I have a problem."
"Aside from being a runaway from an evil vampire freak who wants to marry you?"
I slightly smiled. "Yes, aside from that."
"Alright, lay it on me." She said, leaning back, while still paying attention.
"Well... you know how Henry said he loves me?"
She nodded. "Yeah. What about it?"
I took another deep breath. "I don't love him." I confessed.
Carrie looked confused. "You don't?" Wow...I can hear the relief...she's happy I don't love Henry...
I shook my head. "But you do, don't you?"
Her jaw dropped and she stared at me. "W-What?"
I smiled. "I see the way you look at him. I just can't believe he hasn't heard about it. You must be really good at keeping his thoughts in check."
She blushed, a dead giveaway that I was correct. "You won't think about it, will you? How embarrassing is it that he loves you, while I love him?"
I sighed. "I don't think he loves me. I think he thinks he loves me."
She tilted her head to the side. "Huh?"
I sighed again at having to explain myself. "He thinks I return his feelings. I seemed interested in him, hell I was interested in him. So he thinks he loves me, because he really just wants to be loved. But he doesn't love the real me, because he doesn't even know who I really am." I explained.
"Well who does know?"
I contemplated telling her, but Henry came in, arms full of groceries. "Hey, girls. Where's the little one?"
"Napping." I answered. All the fun in the sun tires her out.
"Here, I'll help you with those." Carrie offered, trying to get him out of the room so I can take control of my thoughts.
"Sure." He said, happily. The two of them went into the kitchen and instead of trying to not think about Jarek... I sang a song about him.
"I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He'll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs"
As I sang this, I wasn't sure of the meaning. Until...
"And I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie"
The chorus of this song, was Jarek. All the little things I learned about him and the honest to God truth.
"He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on?
Doesn't he know I've had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine"
The more I sang, the more I realized how much this song meant to me.
"I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie
He stands there then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breathe for you
He'd never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is, "My god, he's beautiful"
So I put on my make up and pray for a miracle
Yes, I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie."
I finished and sighed, longing to see Jarek, to tell him how I feel. I don't like keeping everything inside.
"So...do you love him?" Henry asked from the doorway. Next to him was Carrie who mouthed, "Sorry". Epic fail for the distraction there, buddy!
"Uh, who?" I asked, my face heating up at being caught singing that song, feeling so much...and none of it being for him.
Henry's eyes pierced mine. "Jarek. Do you love Jarek?"
"No." I answered, automatically. Then realization hit me after what I just sang... "I mean, yes!"
Hurt was written all over Henry's face, and I knew it was too late. "No... you do love him." He said, softly. Carrie rubbed his back, soothingly.
"I'm sorry, Henry. I tried to make it go away, I really did." I said, honestly. It's true, I didn't want to love him, I tried very hard not to. But you can't help what the heart wants...
"And...you don't really know her, Henry. You just hear some of her thoughts, had some conversations about things that don't really matter to her. She doesn't know anything about you except what involves Jarek. Maybe...maybe you don't love her either." Carrie said, taking our previous conversation and putting it to good use.
"But I have feelings-"
"That could be misplaced." I finished, giving a meaningful look to Carrie.
Confusion was the next emotion to play across his face. So not only did I hurt him, but I confused him too. Well I can't do anything right...
"Yes you can." He said, quietly, before looking at me. "For Jarek."
Now it was my turn to be confused. "What do you mean?"
"Yeah...what do you mean?" Carried added.
"Jarek has been alone for far too long... You can fix that."
My spirits lifted. "Really? You think so?"
He nodded. "I won't like it that much...but yeah. I do. And tomorrow will be the perfect time to find out."
"What's tomorrow?" I asked, confused once again.
"Jarek's coming to pick me up for the battle."
A/N: That's where I'm leaving you! Thanks for reading! I'll try to update sooner! Please review and tell me what you think! - Sam