A/N: Okay so I'm hoping this works because if not I'm going to be seriously POED because this will be around the millionth time I've tried to upload this freaking chapter. Erg this website pisses me off sometimes.

I hope you all enjoy the story! I'll try updating more often but well you know how that goes.

Anyways enjoy!

Karkat's POV

It's only been a few weeks since he left but I feel like it's been years. I miss him so much but I can't do anything to change that fact because I know he won't ever talk to me again.

How I know this: One: He told me, Two: Ever since he left I've been trying to get a hold of him and he hasn't responded to any of my texts. I'll admit it hurts plenty to be rejected so many times by your supposed best-friend. It hurts because I know he gets them. I know that his number is still in service and he's just choosing to ignore me. It hurts a lot to be so blatantly rejected.

I'll admit that maybe the texts I left made me sound needy. Some of them held a lot of feeling though. Some just asking for him to come back and some just saying that I wanted to talk to him so that we could salvage what little we had left of our relationship.

The one voice-mail I left was just me whispering his name and I just wished he could've heard it in person because I was finally able to say something and it was one of the things I'd most wanted to say but he hadn't been here.

I knew it was all in vain however ever since the day he left I knew I wouldn't get him back.

I wish that he understood how much I was hurting. I wish he could feel the pain I was feeling because maybe then he would come back.

Maybe all I want is to hear his voice. I just want him back because without him I feel like nothing. I feel like my life just isn't worth living if he's not here.

I know that I have Dave but it's not the same as having a friend that you can actually count on. Someone you're supposed to go to when you have problems that you just can't talk about with your partner.

I want to talk to him...I really do. I just feel like if I do something will go wrong. I'm afraid I'll say something that I'll come to regret. It's the reason I basically avoid him unless I'm feeling really down in the dumps and I need someone to comfort me.

I wish I could do something more because I can tell that with the way I'm acting Dave might not stay much longer and then I'll be truly alone.

I need to fix things. I need to fix myself and I need to talk to Dave because I need him right now.

I don't need Sollux. I don't need him. I don't, I don't, I don't. I don't need him. I need Dave. I repeat this in my head over and over again until it's practically burned there.

I make my choice and get up out of the bed resolving to actually do something with my life today.

After I grab some jeans and one of Daves sweaters I make my way to the bathroom. After shutting and locking the door behind me I set my clothes on top of the sink and look myself over in the mirror. I cringe at the sight that greets me.

My face is pale, eyes bloodshot, cheekbones a little hollow, and my hair is just a total disaster that isn't even worth mentioning.

I undress and notice that I've gotten unbearably skinny. It's not enough to kill me just lost maybe 10 pounds but I know that if I don't start eating more it'll be worse.

I turn the shower to hot and step in when it heats. I sigh in contentment when the water hits my back because man does it feel amazing.

I didn't realize how sore I had been but the shower helped with that.

When I finished washing up and cleaning my hair I stayed in the shower just letting the water fall over me as I thought about everything that had happened.

I knew that no matter how I did things everything would've turned out the same but instead it'd be Dave leaving and Sollux staying. It was inevitable.

I knew nothing was all my fault even though I played a part in it I didn't make the ultimate decision. I also knew that I wouldn't let this bring me down anymore. I would get through this with Dave's help and when I was through Sollux wouldn't cross my mind anymore.

I nodded my head in a silent agreement to myself that I would do this as I stepped out of the shower and grabbed a towel.

Wrapping it around my waist I went to the mirror and started combing through my hair. It was an absolute nightmare but I pulled through and it ended up coming out a little less shaggy than normal. I was proud of myself for that small accomplishment.

I let the first smile in weeks appear on my face as I put my clothes on. Before I stepped out of the bathroom I grabbed my dirty clothes and tossed them in the hamper that resided in the hallway before making my way to the kitchen.

I open the cupboards and the fridge in search of something to eat. Only finding a box of Cap'n Crunch, some canned soup and a few veggies and fruits in them I sigh deciding to just order some pizza.

I make my way back to the room and grab my phone from the dresser taking a small look at the sleeping Dave and giving a small smile. He looks so cute when he sleeps. He has a soft smile on his face, his hair is all wild while he sleeps with an arm above his head and a leg sticking out of the blanket on the side.

I smirk take a pic then walk out of the room closing the door silently behind me. He's such a heavy sleeper sometimes.

Going to the living room I grab the remote and turn on one of my favorite romance movies('Ever After')that just so happens to be on TV right now.

I smile, turn the volume down a little, call the pizza place and order one large pizza with double pepperoni, pineapple, and bacon on it.

Once that's through I turn the volume back up and patiently wait for the person to show up. I get so immersed in the world of romance that I almost don't hear the doorbell ring for the fourth time since he got here.

Grabbing the money from my wallet I run to the door. I swing open the door only to be pushed out of the way as Dave pays for the pizza and closes the door on the guy just as soon as the box is in his hands.

I glare at him as he takes it to the living room, sets it on the coffee table and plops down, a fresh slice in his hand.

I cross my arms and take a seat next to him. He glances over at me and for a moment I swear he's examining me. It's like he's looking for something that isn't there. I falter under his gaze and turn away.

"So...what are you doing up Kitkat?" he breaks the silence and it's like an invisible command to not speak has been lifted.

'I just...I decided that I-' I take a deep breath in before exhaling and turning to face Dave. 'I decided that I needed to get over it. That I need to get over Sollux leaving me here.' It still hurts to say his name but I know somehow I'll pull through, even if it's just an act I put up I need to do this for myself and for Dave.

He finishes off his slice of pizza before wiping his hands on his pajama bottoms.

"I know this is hard for you so just know I'll be here for you if you need me."

'You don't need to remind me but to be completely honest with you...I probably don't even deserve your help getting through this.' A look of confusion passes across Dave's features before he speaks again.

"What do you mean?"

'Well I've basically been fucking ignoring you this entire time and only coming to you when I needed you. I know you don't think that's right especially if we're supposed to be together. What kind of boyfriend even does that kind of thing?' I sign looking away almost afraid to see his reaction but before I can even blink he has me in his arms hugging me tight.

"The kind that's in pain and grieving. That's what I'm here for Karkat. I'm here to help you through the tough times. I'm here to be your support so it doesn't matter that you ignored me. I won't lie and say that it didn't hurt me when you ignored me. I won't even say that at times I didn't think about leaving or going to get revenge on him for doing this to you." He sighs and takes a deep breath before speaking again.

"I won't even tell you that the thought that you didn't love me anymore didn't cross my mind because it did. It did and when I thought about all these things it hurt me so much but I just couldn't leave you here alone like he did because I love you too much. I don't want you to doubt yourself because you can get through this and I'll help you. Even if after you're better you want me to leave I won't because I don't want to lose you when I feel like you're already slipping away now. I love you Karkat don't forget it." He pulls away from the hug and looks straight into my eyes as he says the last line.

I almost start crying at the thought of him ever leaving me and just at the sweetness and honesty of his words instead I kiss him directly on the lips. He's caught off guard for a moment but quickly reciprocates.

It's the first kiss we've shared in a while and it's absolutely amazing. It's sweet and loving but also needy at the same time. I can't help but to wrap my arms around his neck to pull him to me. His hand caresses my cheek and I melt against him allowing his tongue to slip into my mouth to which he easily gains dominance over me as our tongues embrace in a slow, sweet and sensual dance.

By the time we pull away from the kiss I'm gasping for breath. As my breathing steadies I smile at him.

He kisses my forehead lightly as I lay my head on his shoulder.

'I love you Dave. Thanks.'

"I love you too Karkitten. I would do anything for you just know that."

'Anything?'

"That's what I said isn't it?" He says smiling.

'Can you delete his number from my phone? The messages too?'

"Are you sure? I mean what if-"

'What if he calls? He won't. He doesn't even answer my messages and it's not like I can talk on the phone anyway' He laughs and it confuses me because I'm not sure what's funny.

"If you can say his name you can talk eventually" he said hugging me closer.

My eyes went wide. How had he known about that?

'How did you know?'

"I hear you every night. The first time I couldn't believe it and I was kind of hurt but then after that I guess it wasn't very hard to figure it out. You've known him for longer so it would figure his name would be first" He says and I look up at him and smile.

'I can try...for you' The smile he gives me is priceless and it makes me extremely happy to know I'm the cause of it.

"So does that mean you wanna go to speech therapy?"

'Yes. I do'