Chapter 10: Patching Wounds
It was raining cats and dogs outside, but it didn't matter. Actually, it felt kind of comforting to have the soft, cool water splashing on your already wet clothes. Tears on her cheeks mixed with the heavy rain drops washing over Carly's face as she still cried about what kind of idiot she were, by just kissing him out of the blue. To think of it, she has been an idiot since the first time she met Freddie. First she rejected him, just because he wasn't as good looking as those seniors she fancied. Than keeping rejecting them even though he grew more muscle, got more popular and even got better looking every day she saw him. She denied the funny feeling in her stomach when Freddie told her full enthusiasm that he was going to WebiCon together with Spencer. She let Sam hit him and never, ever took his side, for the fear that she might go too far and that she might actually admit that she was head over heels for the one and only Fredward Benson. She let him go, when he claimed that she didn't love him instead of jumping him right there and there and prove him the opposite. Instead she did nothing. There was no denial that she was jealous of Valerie, Melanie, Sam, Shelby, Tori and many more girls who got his attention and many of them actually dared to show their feelings for him. Freddie changed from a dorky, chubby kid-next-door, to a gentle, well-mannered ladies' man and apparently both Sam and Carly fell for him, and hard.
"Hey," he said. There he was again.
"You're going to shout at me again?" Carly asked.
"No," he said calmly. "Why are you sitting in the rain?"
"Because I feel like it," Carly said glumly.
"Carly, I'm here to apologize. I shouldn't have yelled at you like that. It was wrong of me,"
"No. It was wrong of me to kiss you. I knew you have a girlfriend and my best friend no less. I'm sorry for that and for everything I've ever done to you,"
"It's okay,"
"No, it's not!" Carly yelled. "I've been ungrateful to you and I treated you like dirt, but truth is I really love you and I know that I have said that a lot lately, but that doesn't make it less true, but I guess I don't deserve anyone even near as good as you."
"Carly," Freddie sighed. There was a long silence. Both teenagers were now as wet as drowned cats, but neither of them cared. Freddie held a hand out to Carly so she could stand up. Carly took his hand. "Carly, Sam broke up with me,"
"She broke up with you?" she asked. "I'm so sorry, but why?"
"She didn't believe I was in love with her. I mean not as much as I am in love with you."
"Are you in love with me?" Carly asked.
"I don't know yet," Freddie said. "My girlfriend just broke up with me, so I'm not really ready for a relationship just yet, but when I am you're the first one who knows,"
"Did you love her?" Carly asked.
"Yes, I did," Freddie said. "But maybe Sam's right. I'm not in love with her. I think my heart is taken," Carly smiled.
"I'll wait for you," Carly said with tears in her eyes. "I mean, you waited much longer for me. I'll give you all the time you want. Just know that I love you,"
"I know, I love you too,"
"I know." Carly smiled as she pulled Freddie in a hug once again. Freddie embraced Carly's neck and rested his head on hers. He hoped that one day he could love her without feeling guilty.