Chapter 9: Pressure and Anger
I didn't sleep a wink last night, not since the nightmare affected me so badly that I fear to sleep again. I looked at the photo of my family that Ran has placed on my bed it with Otou-sama and Okaa-sama smile happily as their hands were upon her belly. The time when she was pregnant with me, my sisters all excited about our mother being pregnant with me. Their smiles are the only thing I could only remember for the time being. Along with sister promise that I soon fail to keep for all these years.
Wondering how all these years went by I didn't understand the smallest hints I receive during the time in hiding. The tears stream down my face as the droplets landed on the picture. All the memories I cherish were faded away even the smallest ones faded away as well. How could forget the times I spent with father, mother, and my sisters. How could I forget about all of them?
Walking through the cities as I saw all the citizens all miserable and filthy by the soldiers that recently beat them till blood would spill from their heads. Children often steal from the markets in order to put food on the table. Mothers and young girls are harassed by the soldiers every day that many wield weapons beneath their clothing. Is this the Western Land that my father once ruled? Is this the Western Land I must now save and protect the people from Lady Ayumi? I can't be the only one that everyone expected to save ...why can't it be somebody else?
"Okaa-sama...will prince Tatsuya come back to save us," the little demoness asks her mother. I stood frozen as my name was called but the mother stood in silence as she delays her daughter answer for a couple of minutes. Soon she replied with a small smile on her face before hugging her daughter tightly inside her arms.
"He'll come back and save us all from this miserable hell" She replied with tears rolling down her face. I rush off from the moment as I hear many of the citizens kept calling my name nonstop. They hope and prayed that I shall return to the Western land and save them all but I can't!. I can't be everywhere at once...most of all I don't deserve the throne...I don't deserve the title being the prince of the Western Land.
I continue to flee away from the cities until a certain princess grabbed my arm and pull aside into an abandoned house. We hid from the guards that I didn't know that was chasing me. I have forgotten if you were to run away from the city then that means you're automatically guilty for treasons with no trial with the sentence of being beheaded.
When the cost was clear, Rin looked at me with a concerned look on her face. I didn't need to say anything since my best friend knew the pain that dwells inside of me.
"Tatsuya...you can't turn your back on who you are. Your people need you...they need you to lead them" she told me
"Why?...Why me? ..Why not you? You're the princess ...isn't there anything you can do. Why should it be me?" I replied as I wiped the tears away.
" I don't possess the powers as you do Tatsuya..you're the last Taisho! The true pureblood of the late Lord Sesshomaru. The man who brought freedom and peace through ...the man who"
"The same man who brought you back to life twice! I know Rin, you told me that story a hundred times already! ...If you miss my father so much why not join him since he's the one you're love with! You're better off with him than me!"
I knew I should've kept my mouth shut but instead I backlashed at my closest friend and the women I ever loved. The consequences I received was a smack that echoes my cheek and Rin hand as tears rolled down her face. All I scent was anger that I have never before seen such anger in Rin eyes. The tears continue to stream down from those furious pitch black eyes.
"You never understand that pain I'm going through now as the princess of the Western Land. You don't understand the pain I'm going through for being Lady Ayumi daughter. You don't understand the bruises I have to hide in order to keep you happy and safe!...maybe better off if you're dead!"
Rin slaps her mouth as she shouted that last sentence maybe she was right. I'm better off dead with the rest of my family. It would be better for everyone in the Western Land and Rin so that no one else's will die because of me. I didn't say anything at all but stood in silent, Rin tried to comfort me but instead, I slap her hand away before leaving the abandoned house.
"Don't worry...I might die just for fighting this land...and for you" I said before leaving this crappy ass rundown house. I didn't hear Rin follow me before I slam the door harshly in her face. I just needed to be some time alone from the city and the pressure the lies beneath me for being the prince of the Western Land.