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Chapter 10 A bump in the road
Friday came way to fast. I was not ready for this. I was looking forward to seeing Carlisle and Esme. I was just not looking forward to meeting Tanya. Esme called me Thursday and we had a long talk. She asked what I thought about the changes she would be making at the other house she was remodeling. We talked about the colors she picked out and so on. I really enjoyed talking to her or maybe it was Edward trying to distract me. He would run his fingers up and down my arms lightly. When I swatted his hand away, he moved on to other things. He started to rub my shoulders. I did enjoy that , but it became to much when he started kissing my back. I reluctantly told him to stop. He just be came more persistent. He started to rub my inner thigh. He started to move higher and higher. I stopped him by crossing my legs. I cover the mouth piece on the phone.
"Edward Cullen, I'm trying to talk to your mother." I scolded him half teasing.
That is when he got a little bit of a wicked grin and started in on my neck. He knows all to well how to get to me. I told Esme I had to go. Then I pushed Edward down on the couch and straddle him. I ran my tongue around his ear and whispered to him.
"Now you are in trouble." I told him with a little laugh.
I nibbled and sucked on his earlobe and moves down his neck. I kissed and licked his neck until I got to his shirt. I quickly removed it. I made a trail of kisses down to his pecks, then made it to his nipple. I ran my tongue over it and softly bit it. Then I ran my tongue over to the other one and sucked a little on it. I made my way down to his pants and remover them, leaving his laying there in his boxers. I loved the V shape line that lead to under his boxers. I just could not help but run my tongue down one side and up the other side a few times. I rubbed my hand over his boxers until I found the spot that was getting hard. So I stroked him until he was rock hard. I moved up to give him a soft kiss.
"I'm tired. Good night." I gave him a evil smile and ran for the stairs.
"I don't think so." He said, as he chased me up the stairs.
He caught me at the top of the stairs. He put his arms around my waist. I turned to face him.
"Did I do something wrong?" I teased him.
"I think you did." He told me as he pick me up and carried me to the bedroom.
Friday was over before I knew it. When Edward showed up for his afternoon rounds I was a little surprised. Where did the day go. We did his rounds and called it a day. We got to house quickly, changed and grabbed the wine. I called Esme to see if she needed anything before we got there. She asked us to pick up some bread.
We got to Carlisle and Esme's house, Carlisle greet us at the door. He gave me a quick hug and showed me to the kitchen. I help Esme out until we heard the doorbell. We put the food on the dinning room table and went to greet Tanya.
I saw Tanya and my heart sunk. She was strikingly beautiful. She was just about as beautiful as Rose. She was tall with gorgeous shapely legs. Her chest was a in more endowed then mine. She had stinging blue eyes and long strawberry blond hair. I felt so small next to her. There is no way Edward wanted me over her. He came over to me and put his arm around me.
"Tanya, I want you to meet my Bella." I could hear the pride in his voice. She put her hand out to shake my hand.
"It is nice to meet you, Tanya." I said as I took her hand. She squeezed my hand so tight it hurt my fingers.
"Edward, she is so cute. So simple looking." She said with a smirk on her face. This is going to be a long night.
"Thank you, Tanya. Bella and I are quite happy together." Edward told her in a chipper tone. That must be his annoyed voice. I could she Esme was getting a little irritated.
"It is nice to see you again, Tanya." I could hear the forced friendliness in Esme voice.
"You look wonderful as always." Tanya said smiling at Esme.
"Dinner is ready, everyone." Esme announced to everyone as she took my hand to lead me to the dinning room.
Edward with his arm firmly around me lead me to my seat and pulled the chair out. As I took my seat he kissed me on top of my head. Edward took the seat next to me. Carlisle and Esme sat at the end of the table. Esme was to my left and Tanya was across from me.
"So Tanya, your dad said you took a job in Las Vegas." Carlisle started the conversation, as we fulled our plates.
"I took a head PR job at one of the casino out there. I hear Edward, they have a really good hospital out there." She said, looking right at him and winked.
"I'm very happy here. Our practice is doing great." Edward informed her as he put is hand on my thigh.
"That good to hear. So Bella, what do you do?" She asked not even taking her eyes off Edward.
"I'm a nurse at the hospital." I was not going to add anything else. She was not even looking at me.
"That is nice." She replied, but I could tell she was not paying attention.
"Bella is the head of her floor. She is also the best nurse in the hospital." Edward added looking at me with a huge smile.
"Bella has done a wonderful job running her floor. It has to be the most efficient ran floor I have ever seen." Carlisle told Tanya. He was just as proud as Edward.
"Well, good for you, little plain Bella." Tanya said as she look at me with a evil look in her eye.
With a little more talk we finished our dinner. I stood to help Esme clear the table. Tanya said she would like to help. Before leaving the dinning room Edward gave me a kiss, then Carlisle and Edward headed to the living room.
I took the plates to the kitchen and started the water to wash the dishes. Tanya and Esme got what was left on the table. Esme went to wipe the table down and Tanya decided to help me with the dishes.
"So you and Edward have been together for a while?" I was surprised Tanya was talking to me.
"We been together for a few weeks."
"You seem to have Esme and Carlisle wrapped around your finger, too." Now she was getting snotty. I think she was trying to piss me off. I was not going to let her get to me.
"We all get along well."
"By the time I leave, I'll have Edward, not you." Now she is threatening me. I was not going to show her that she was getting to me. "So have you to had sex yet? Oh man, he is great in bed."
I finished the dishes without talking to her. After her comments about me earlier. I was feeling pretty low. Esme came back in to the kitchen. I saw this as my chance to leave the room.
"Esme, I'm done with the dishes. Which way to the bathroom?" I managed to ask in a calm tone.
"Thank you sweetly. Through the dinning room, the hallway on the right, third door on the left." She said with a smile.
I got to the bathroom. No sooner as I shut the door, I broke. I knew I was not good enough for Edward. Tanya just made it all clear. I was just trying to live in our own world where I was enough. Now I knew I was not. I final stopped crying when there was a quiet knock on the door.
"Bella honey, let me in." Esme asked in a whisper. I got up and let her in. She stepped in and closed the door behind her. She took me in a hug. "Oh sweetly, I'm so sorry Tanya got you all upset. I knew she would do this. Now listen to me. You need to go out there to Edward. He has chosen you. He wants you. Bella honey, He loves you."
"Okay. I know all this. I don't know why I'm acting like this."
"Lets get you cleaned up." Esme said taking me over to the bathroom sink and starting the water. She handed me a washcloth. I washed my face. Esme helped me put on some light make-up to find my red puffy eyes.
"Thank you Esme. You didn't have to do this. It means a lot to me." I said as I gave her a hug.
"Edward and Carlisle are probably wondering where we are." With that she took my hand and walk out of the bathroom.
We walked out to the living room to find only Carlisle there reading a book.
"Where are Edward and Tanya?" Esme asked in a surprised tone.
"They went out back to talk." Carlisle informed us with a smile.
The 3 of us sat and talked a little bit. Carlisle told me about a story he read in a medical journal. We chatted about it a bit. About 30 minutes later I decided to go find Edward.
I walked out to the back yard. Esme had a beautiful garden. I walked around looking at the beautiful flowers. I did find them sitting on a bench. Tanya had her arms around Edward. I could tell he looked uncomfortable. She was kissing him. I gasp and ran back in the house. I was holding myself together. I knew it, I knew I was not good enough for him. She was better looking then me. Her body was better then mine. She had a better job then me. She was better then me in every way. It made since for him to be with her. I walked calmly to the living room.
"Thank you, Carlisle and Esme, for dinner. It was wonderful. Good night." I hugged both of them and walked out of the house.
Edward drove us here tonight, so I had to walk. I was about 2 blocks away when I realized I forgot my purse there. I had my cell phone in it. I had no way to call anyone to come and get me. I could not bring myself to go back there.
Just about 3 blocks away from Carlisle's house was a park. I decided to go sit and think. I went over to sit in a swing. I can get through this. I love him. I wanted him to be happy, even if it is not with me. I did love him enough to let him go. He deserved better the me. It will brake my heart to let him go, but I will have to do that for him. Maybe Esme and I can still talk. She felt like a mother to me. I have only knew her a few days, but it felt like I have knew her all my life. I can do this. If I keep telling myself this, I might start to believe it. I can do this. Will I be able to go to work on the days I know I'll see him? I don't know. I can move. I can move to Forks with my dad. Then I might run into Jake there. I can handle that. I don't think I can leave my friends. I just sat there think over all these thing and more. I was so lost in thought I did not hear someone walk up behind me and start lightly pushing my swing.
"What are you thinking about?" His velvet voice asked me.
"About how much I love you."
"I love you, too. What else are you thinking about?"
"How I love you enough to let you go."
"Why would you do that?" He was keeping his tone causal. Telling him this was breaking my heart, but I had to tell him. It was helping that I was not looking at him. He just kept lightly pushing my swing.
"You deserve someone better then me. Tanya made me see that. You deserve someone prettier then me, someone smarter then me." I had tears running down my face now. Edward walked around in front of me and stopped the swing. He got down on his knees in front of me, to look me in the face.
"What if I don't want anyone but you. You are everything I want. You are the only one I want. I have never wanted anything or anyone as badly as I want you. I can not picture my life with out you in it. You, Bella Swan, are my life." He put his hands on my cheeks and kissed me. "I love you." He whispered into my lips.
"I love you, too."
"Lets go say good night to my parents and go back to your house."
"Sounds good, but I don't want to see Tanya."
"I made her leave before I came to find you. My dad was a little mad that I was being rude to her, until I told him she made a advance on me in the back yard. You should have seen how upset my parents were. She is no longer welcome in their house. Then my mother told me you came out there looking for me. I can't image what you thought was going on when you saw that. I'm so sorry." His eyes looked so sad at me.
"I could tell you didn't want that to happen. I trust you, Edward. I know you would not do some thing like that. I just let what Tanya said in the kitchen get the best of me."
"What did she say?" He asked with a worried look on his face.
I told him everything she said. "I tried not to let the things she said get to me. I didn't do a very good job."
"Bella, I never had that kind of relationship with her, we where only friends."
"I know Edward. You told me everything the other night. She just feed my ready low self esteem. I don't trust myself to be enough for you." He put his hand on my cheeks and looked in my eyes.
"Bella, I think you are the most beautiful women I have ever seen. You have the most gorgeous body ever. I love your spirit, your soul and your mind. You are perfect inside and out. You have everything any woman would kill for." After he told me all this, he press his lips to mine for a sweet, tender kiss.
"Thank you, that is just what I needed to hear." I gave him another kiss. "Lets go home."
We got back to his parents house. I had to apologize to them for leaving like I did. Esme and Carlisle felt bad about how things went after dinner. I reinsured them none of this was their fault, but Esme still felt guilty. She said she knew Tanya would try some thing like this. We said our good nights and headed home.
The drive back to my house was that comfortable quiet. We got home and got ready for bed. I had just slide into bed when Edward pulled me into his arms.
"I noticed something tonight." He told me.
"What would that be?"
"Anytime we come here, you always say 'lets go to my house.' When we go to my house you say 'lets go to your house'."
"So, you have a point." I teased, it made since. It was his house. This was my house.
"Tonight you said, 'lets go home'. You have never refereed to your house or my house as home."
"Sorry, did that make you uncomfortable?" I didn't even realized I did that.
"No, I like it. It surprised me I just automatically came here. I'm just so at home here with you."
I sat up to look at him better. I had to look in his eyes. I wanted to read them. I knew he loved me. I was still unsure of my hold on him.
"Anywhere that I'm in your arms is home to me." I was still amazed what I was willing to tell him. "Edward, I'm sorry about tonight. I guess I'm just bound and determined to scare you off."
"How many times do I have to tell you, I'm not going anywhere. I love you too much to ever leave you."
"I know. I just wish I could be sure I was enough for you. I was not enough to keep the man who vowed to love me forever. How can I be enough for you?" It was really more of a statement then a question. Maybe it was a mistake to bring Jake into this. I have not talked about Jake since that first time Edward stayed here.
"The only thing I can think of is Jacob went crazy to leave you, but his lose is my gain. I will stay right here with you for as long as you let me. If it is forever you want me, then I will be a very happy man." He said as he pulled me to him and kissed me.
As our kisses grew more passionate, I moved to straddle him in-between my legs. He moved his kisses to my neck. I could never get enough of his lips, his tongue or his nibbling on my neck. Anytime he touched me in any way I stilled got these electric tingles in ever inch of my body. As he moved his lips down, he removed my night gown. Then he put his hand on the small of my back and got to his knees. He laid me on the bed with not moving his lips from my body. With him lightly laying on top of me, I let him ravish my body.