Hey guys. Okay WARNING!: THIS CHAPTER IS VERY VERY INTENSE! If you don't like reading intense, heart wrenching, angsty stuff, please do not read. I can't tell you guys how hurt I was when I wrote this chapter. I tried to tone it down a notch but at the same time tried to make it as realistic as possible. Thank you all again for your beautiful reviews, they are my inspiration just like you guys are. Love you all minna! 3
Chapter 10: Broken
"LUCY!"
Gray had to stop himself from dropping to his knees, for the sight before him almost killed him.
On the ground on the sidewalk lay Lucy. Her body was splayed out, her dress muddy on every surface, her hair flowing everywhere on the pavement, soaked with icker, grime and mud. Her hands were by her sides, her legs spread wide apart. But what got Gray gripping himself was her face. It was so pale that she looked like a ghost. He saw the veins of her neck fade from their greenish blue colour to almost nothing, disappearing before his eyes. Panick brought him back to earth.
Gray quickly made his way over to Lucy, kneeling beside her and taking her into his arms. He brought her face up to him, peeling her grime-soaked hair away from her face, lightly trying to shake her awake.
"LUCY! Baby!, wake up! Please baby wake up! Lucy…"
Gray felt tears running down his cheeks but he didn't give a shit. The girl in his arms was more important. He looked around for any sign of what may have occurred in order for Lucy to end up this way. There were no skid marks to show any indication of an accident occurring. He then looked all over her body, looking for any signs of blood that might have suggested someone may have attacked her. There were also no bruises or any other harmful marks on her to show that she may have been attacked.
He then noticed that her chest wasn't moving as it should have been, indicating that she was breathing. He then checked her pulse, then laid his head against her chest, and froze. He didn't hear anything. He didn't feel anything.
"Oh My God!"
He brought his face up to hers. She wasn't breathing and just after checking for himself a second ago, her heart had stopped beating.
"Oh God NO Please! God Please!"
"LUCY!"
Gray had screamed out her name. He then quickly, but gently, laid her back against the cold, hard pavement and started applying CPR on her, First Aid training kicking in without a second thought.
A moment later, a shout was heard from around the corner.
"Gray?! Dude did you fi…Jesus!"
Sting had just rounded the corner when his eyes took in the sight before him. He stopped dead in his tracks, his body going numb just like Gray's had.
"Sting call an ambulance…NOW!" Gray screamed at him, breaking Sting out of his shock. He nodded and fumbled in his pockets for his phone. Finding it, he quickly dialled 911 and requested for an ambulance to rush over to their current location.
After several attempts at CPR, Gray laid his head against her chest once more, only to hear the sound that would haunt him forever if she never woke-silence.
"NO! LUCY WAKE UP! WAKE UP!"
Gray screamed as he still tried again and again at CPR, each time unsuccessful as the last. After another round of unsuccessful attempts, Sting came up behind Gray and gripped his shoulders.
"Gray…"
"NO!"
Gray shook off his hand and again tried CPR. Again he pumped at her breast trying to get her to breathe. Again he listened. Again nothing. Gray brought his head up and gave a loud cry.
"AHHHHH!"
Bringing his head back down, he looked at Lucy and how pale she had gotten. Her eyes were lightly closed, making her look as if she were sleeping. Gray didn't stop himself now. He let out another strangled cry, after which he cried out loud, sniffing and whimpering loudly. Sting had turned his back to the scene, letting himself let his tears flow down his cheeks. He couldn't bear to look at Lucy like that. His heart tore at the scene of his best friend looking broken and Lucy looking…, no he wasn't going think like that. He didn't want to think like that. He didn't.
"LUCY! WAKE UP! PLEASE, PLEASE WAKE Up…please." Gray whispered the last word.
He wrapped his arms around her waist and hoisted her up towards him, bringing her upper body to be cradled in his arms. He then brought her face up, his forehead touching hers. He locked his eyes onto her face. Her cheeks were so pale he could see the layers that lay beneath them. His eyes then travelled to her mouth, which was closed and turning a pale blue.
His mind going blank from the sudden sight of how her always pink, perky, full lips were now a pale, deathly blue, he brought his hand behind her head and brought her face up to his, his mouth landing on hers in a fierce kiss.
Gray kissed her as if his life depended on it. But in this case, his life did depend on it. He couldn't stand the sight of how pale her lips looked and how icy cold her lips felt. Even her luscious taste had gone, leaving a taste that was one of sour, dry blood on her lips. He cried as he kissed her. He would pull away from her to gasp and sniff before diving right back in to kiss her. He would part his lips to inhale her unique scent, yet that was gone as well. Gray cried harder this time and kissed her with a need that consumed him.
After a while, he pulled back to see that nothing had changed. Lucy still looked pale, unmoving, lifeless,…dead.
"No! Nononononono!"
Gray lifted Lucy up to him, cradling her in his arms. Her arms fell limp against her sides, her head tucked under his chin, her hair spilling down her back, behind his arms touching the pavement.
He was loudly moaning in agony, rocking back and forth with Lucy in his arms. The girl in his arms wasn't waking up and he didn't know what to do. He couldn't stand it. His face was scrunched up in shattered agony, tears pouring down his face like a waterfall. The fact that the rain wasn't lighting up only seemed to cause Gray's heart to crack even more.
"Lucy. Baby, I love you. I love you so much. Please wake up, please Lucy. You can't leave me, I need you. Lucy Heartfilia I love you. Please don't leave me. Please." He begged gently into her ears, her hair.
Gray's voice was filled with agony. He then looked back to the girl in his arms. Even in this state, Lucy was still the most beautiful girl he had ever seen. His heart burst. Gray buried his face into her hair, rocking them back and forth, crying into her hair, clutching her to him, her hand was held to his heart, her head bent under his chin.
He didn't know how long he ended up sitting on the ground with Lucy lying in his arms until Sting came up behind him. Gray felt his hand land on his shoulder. Gray didn't move from his position, still holding on to Lucy, moaning and whimpering in pain, his face buried in her hair.
"Hey Sting we got your text, what's u…Oh My God!"
Loke, Gajeel, Rufus and Elfman had arrived around the corner when they saw the scene in front of them. Gray sitting on the ground, his legs outstretched in front of him, holding an unmoving Lucy in his arms, Gray crying out loud in searing agony, his cry's muffled in Lucy drenched hair.
All boys turned to see Sting give them a solemn look.
"What the hell happened!?" Gajeel shouted above the roaring rain.
Turning to Gray, Gajeel then noticed that Lucy wasn't moving at all.
"God Sting Lucy?..."
Sting looked at Gajeel and just by that look Gajeel understood the silent reason.
"Oh My…did you call an amb…"
At that very moment, a loud siren was heard, quickly becoming louder as the ambulance approached them. With a few minutes, the distinct flashing red and blue lights and booming ring of the sirens brought all boys to look up at the approaching vehicle.
Soon the ambulance came to a stop a few feet away from Gray and Lucy, with two medics jumping out from behind the van, pulling a trolley bed with them. When they had reached Gray and Lucy, one of the medics asked Sting if he knew what had happened, to which he told them that she was like that when they found her.
Soon both attendants were pulling Gray away from Lucy, prying his hands off of her.
"Sir, I need you to let go of her now. Sir? SIR!"
Gray looked up to see the medic pull him away from Lucy. Both Medics began checking her pulse and other parts of her body for any indication as to what had happened.
"I can't get a pulse."
The words hit Gray like a brick to the face.
"We'll have to shock her," one of the medics stated.
"Not out here, she'll get electrocuted. Plus, we need to get her to the ER right now. We'll shock her on the way. Keep checking for any change. Let's go!" and with that they quickly and professionally placed Lucy on the trolley bed, with an oxygen mask placed over her head, pushing her into the back of the van. Gray couldn't help but watch, still in a daze until he saw them close the back doors. He then ran to them.
"What's happening!? Is she going to be alright?"
The attendants gave solemn looks to him.
"We'll try our best son," and with that they were off, fading into the night, the familiar ringing and flashing disappearing after a short while.
Gray couldn't help but stand there, in the middle of the pavement, on the very spot where he had held Lucy just a moment ago. He looked down to the ground then and all the energy he had had now vanished. He fell on his knees then, still looking in the direction the ambulance had taken Lucy.
Sting and the rest of the boys made their way to Gray, holding onto him. Gray didn't turn or move, he just kept staring after the ambulance, long gone now.
"Gray…"
Loke had spoken out, his voice laced with sympathy.
"…she's going to be ok."
Gray just gave a slight shake of his head.
"No she won't. She won't be fine, not after what I did. I did this. I brought this onto Lucy. I broke her heart." At the last word, he looked back to the sky, raindrops bouncing off his face, sliding down his cheeks, mingling with his tears until he didn't know if he was crying anymore or if it was just the rain.
The rain. Rain was supposed to wash away tears, not mingle with them. The rain was supposed to wash away pain, not add to it. The rain was supposed to bring joy and life, not sadness and death.
Gray again looked ahead of him. He didn't want to think of the worst that may come from this. He had to think positive. He had to think about Lucy and how she was going to come back to him. Then it hit him. That was never going to happen. When Lucy was going to wake up, and she was going to, he knew that she would never forgive him for what he did. He broke her heart and now Gray Fullbuster had no idea on what he was going to do from here on out.
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Monday. The rain from Friday was still pouring down over the whole city. It was totally clichéd, but Gray didn't seem to notice. He had been trying the whole weekend to find out which hospital the ambulance had taken Lucy to. Every hospital he called though told him the same thing over and over again, that they had had a lot of patients come in and out and besides, they couldn't give away patient conditions since that was confidential. Gray swore he was going to go to every hospital himself until he found her. But that would not be the case.
By Sunday afternoon, Gray had entered a mini state of depression. He didn't step out of his room for dinner which made his mother worry and Lyon and Juvia curious as to why Gray was suddenly acting so strange. Gray didn't say anything even when he left early for school, telling a waking up Ur that he just needed some fresh air. Though he knew it wasn't that. He couldn't stand being at home, thinking about negative thoughts. He was going to find Lucy, whatever it took, he would find her.
Luckily the hallway wasn't that full of students as it was still early, and the teachers were having a meeting in the stuff room.
"YOU!"
That one word brought Gray out of his daze. Turning he saw a very angry looking red haired girl walking up to him, with a tall blue haired man following closely behind her, trying to reach for her arm, unable to grab it as she kept speeding her way up. Then Gray saw to her left was Levy, sadness mixed with anger on her face.
When they had reached Gray, Erza almost flung herself at him, if not for the fact that Jellal held her back.
"YOU BASTARD!"
Gray could only stare at her and deduced that this was Erza, and the man with her must have been Jellal. Even though he had never met them, Lucy used to talk so highly of her red haired best friend. She would say that Erza was the perfect mother/sister all rolled into one. Looking at her now, Gray knew that this angry, murderous looking woman was she.
"LET GO OF ME JELLAL! I'LL KILL HIM! I'LL KILL YOU, YOU HEAR ME!"
Erza was now thrashing against Jellal, who still held her firmly in his arms.
"Erza, calm down please…"
Ignoring him, Erza still stared at Gray.
"Erza, please, you know Lucy wouldn't want this."
At this, something seemed to shift in Erza. Gray noticed as her once tensed up shoulders slumped a little and her fiery gaze burned a bit dimly now. But still Erza held her stance in front of him. Then to Gray's utter surprise Erza fell limply against Jellal, who held her up, his arms wrapped protectively around her.
"Erza?..."
"How could you do that to her?"
Erza was now looking up at Gray, but this time she had tears in her eyes. Her voice was broken, yet strong. Gray was at a loss for words. He didn't know what to say. He really wanted to tell her that he loved Lucy and that he never meant to hurt her. But he knew that would just be an excuse when heard by Erza.
"I…"
"She loved you."
Again Gray couldn't get more than one word out of his mouth.
"How could you do that to Lucy? What did she ever do to you? To any of you?" Erza shouted to the gathering crowd, who all knew the events that took place on Friday after a rumour spread that someone saw Lucy Heartfillia being taken away in an ambulance, with Gray Fullbuster sitting on the ground, crying his eyes out.
Gray saw how many of the surrounding students began walking away, some with their heads down, some with looks of guilt on their faces. He knew that they weren't actually sad for Lucy, but more for themselves. Looking up at Erza, Gray saw that she knew this.
"All of you make me sick! You people act like you know every little thing about everybody."
"Erza…"
It was Levy this time.
"No Levy. Not this time. I will not stand by and let this one go. Lucy is in the bloody hospital for goodness sake! No…"
Turning back to Gray, she gave him a hard glare.
"You, you are not EVER to see my Lucy again, do you understand?"
Gray, hearing this was shocked. His eyes widened and before he knew what he was doing, he made a move towards Erza.
"I…"
As soon as he had taken one step, like a flash, Jellal was in front of Erza, shielding her against Gray as if he was the plague.
"Not another step."
Gray stood still and saw the look on the older man's face. Jellal didn't seem angry, just tired and disappointed.
"Please, I jus…"
"Are you deaf?"
Erza had now made her way around Jellal, looking at Gray square in the eye.
"No, bu…"
"Then you must be a moron if you can't understand. Well, let me make it clearer for you. You are not to come anywhere near Lucy from this point on. You are banned from ever seeing her again, and so help me, if I catch you anywhere near her, I promise, I will strike you down where you stand." Erza continued, fire in her voice, burning through every word she uttered.
"You are the reason why my baby Lucy is lying in a bed with machines strapped up to her like she's some piece of meat! No, when my Lucy wakes up, and she WILL wake up, she will know how the boy who supposedly loved her loved her for the sake of a fucking BET!" Gray flinched as she hissed the last sentence to him.
"You're lucky you know that? If Jellal and Levy weren't here, you would be already dead by now. I don't know what Lucy ever saw in a piece of shit like you, a person who never really loved her, who must think she's just another play thing. You jocks are all the same, you think you own the whole bloody world, but really, all you own is one massive ego."
Erza then ceased speaking, looking Gray right in the eyes before suddenly turning around and slowly making her way out of the hall. Before she reached the end of the already very empty hallway, she turned back to Gray, and in one swift move, landed a solid punch to his face, resulting in Gray falling to the ground, clutching his jaw.
"You know…"
Gray looked up to her.
"…Lucy isn't just some girl. She's special. She's beautiful and brave. If you have any sense in that thick head of yours, you will not see Lucy again. If she wants to see you, I won't stop her, but for now, stay away from our family," and with that Erza and Jellal left, leaving Levy to stare at Gray with a sad look on her face.
Before she turned to follow Jellal and Erza, Gray snapped out of his shock enough to call out to her, getting up in the process.
"Levy!"
Levy looked back to Gray, a confused look on her face.
"Lucy…I…I…can you please…please tell me…is she ok…" Gray couldn't help but not be able to decide on what to say.
Levy looked at him with a pained look on her face.
"She's in critical condition Gray. I'm sorry but that's all I know."
"Can you…please tell me what happened to her? I tried asking the paramedics but they sped away before they could tell me anything, I tried calling every hospital and…"
"Gray."
Gray looked up to see Levy have a tired look on her face.
"Levy please…" he pleaded
Levy gave him a sad once over.
"She had a heart attack Gray," and with that turned and walked out of the building just like Erza and Jellal did a few minutes ago.
Gray stood stock still, his eyes widening from her words.
"She had a heart attack"
He dropped onto the floor, wishing that it would swallow him up. He tried with all his might not to cry. Then he noticed that no tears were forming in his eyes and then he understood. He had used up all his tears for three straight days. He wasn't surprised, he had never cried that much in his entire life, and now here he was, with no tears left to give.
He sat in the deserted hallway for what felt like forever until he saw Rufus turn a corner up in front of him.
"Gray?"
Seeing Gray, he quickly ran to his side, squatting down next to him.
"Gray, are you okay? Gray?"
But Gray didn't hear anything. He just sat there looking ahead of him, completely unable to move. The pain was too much. That's what he told himself. But he knew that when Lucy woke up, her pain would be ten times more worse.
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As if right on cue, a tiny tear seeped out from under Lucy's eye lids. It shimmered down her cheeks and fell away to her clothes. Being absorbed by the fabric, another tiny tear fell away as well, followed by another and another. These were only just a few of many more that would follow later on.
WOAH! Okay that was intense. Mind you I had to edit a lot of scenes to make it less…intense, but I hope that you guys still liked this chapter. I did cry, A LOT! though I felt more hurt and anger than sadness. I guess that's what happens when the one you love breaks your heart. Anyway Please please review. Love you minna!