Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds... which is mean, I mean come on, can't they share??

Derek sorted his shirt and headed for the door, he was taking Penelope on a secret rendezvous, a date full of secrecy.

Penelope straightened the purple dress she was wearing and went and answered the door, Derek just looked at her, swallowed and entered scooping her into his arms and kissing her as his left leg rose and kicked shut the door.

'Hmm, discreet.' Penelope said and giggled as he looked into her eyes. 'You like wearing my kisses?'

You want a temporary tattoo, don't you?
You wanna Wear My Kiss
All over your body
Once you try it on, you can't live without it
You wanna Wear My Kiss
All over your lips
I promise you this
You wanna Wear My Kiss

'Maybe more than you like wearing mine.' Derek said and pulled her close. 'Come on Baby Girl; let's get that beautiful arse of yours to our dinner date.' Penelope giggled and pulled a coat around her and then left with him. 'It's cold out.'

'And we're not supposed to be dating.' She stated and he nodded and they got into his SUV quickly before he drove out. Penelope turned slightly in her seat to look more at him. 'What's up princess?'

'I just want to come home to you handsome that's all. I'm really done with all this sneaking.'

'Little while longer.'

'Yeah.' Penelope agreed and turned back to the front, she thought Derek wasn't interested in anything more than this type of relationship, a sneaky one on the side. 'Can you pull over?'

'Excuse me?'

'Pull over.' She said a little louder. 'I can't do this. Just pull over and I'm going home.'

'Baby Girl, you can't, we're in the middle of nowhere.'

'I don't care.' Penelope couldn't understand why she had a race of emotion in her but she felt the knot loosen more in her. 'Just pull over Derek!' She yelled as he continued to drive, he took that as a sure sign to not keep going so he pulled over, turned off the engine and turned to her and saw her crying. 'I don't know what's wrong with me but I can't go on this date.'

'Baby Girl talk to me.'

'Just take me home.'

'God damn it Penelope.' He said and hit the steering wheel, Penelope jumped at the force he used. 'It's hard, I get that but come on, I have you out of the house now, we're halfway to the restaurant, you look stunning, I want you.'

'But not like you want Tamara.' Penelope sobbed and then sucked in an unsteady breath. 'I don't want to be the sordid secret anymore Derek, I'm so sick and tired of it. I cannot be with a man most of the time when I don't love him.'

'We're gonna get this sorted.'

'But when?' She asked him. 'When it's too late?'

'It won't be too late.' Derek said certain. 'Because you know what? Both Tamara and Kevin are seeing the cracks growing and once we've sorted them out we'll go talk to Hotch... because Baby we've gone about this all wrong.'

I don't need to ever exchange (you know I)
I don't need to ever replace (you know I)
I'm not going any damn place (you know I)
You should know that I - I - I ohh - I

Penelope pursed her lips for a moment, then blinked to halt tears. 'You think?' She asked him sarcastically. 'I'm sorry Derek but I think we need distance. Each and every day I just want you, not Kevin, you, but every day I have to try and strive to make a relationship work because life has to be a bitch and take over. I want that uncomplicated life you want but at this rate its not coming to us.'

Derek grabbed her hand tightly then. 'We are gonna get it, and soon.' He saw Penelope's face. 'Let's get you home baby girl.'

'I'm sorry.' She said feebly. 'I thought I was doing okay but the realisation just hit me and I haven't been feeling that great and...'

'You're ill?'

'I don't know, Kevin's had something the last couple of weeks, maybe I just caught that but I don't feel one hundred percent. Stress wrecks havoc on me anyway and this, this is getting stressful.' She said and ran her fingers over her temples. 'I can't lie Derek, you know that. I'm amazed that no one's clocked on.'

'I get it baby girl, but I'll still be here. Right until the guys know, we get them on hand first then we'll go from there.' Derek said and leant in and cupped Penelope's face. 'Just remember I'll be waiting and I'm gonna make this as easy as possible for you.' He told her and she smiled at him. 'So you keep that chin up Baby Girl and just remember that it's gonna pass and we're gonna get what we want.'

'Derek...'

'I'm not going anywhere and unless you flee the country nor are you.' Derek told her. 'Now how much do you want to run?'

'Well if it's running with you I'd be happy but I'm not ready to leave you.' She confessed and looked up at him. 'I just want this to be sorted.'

'We will sort it.' He said and kissed her and then the sound of a siren sounded and lights beamed on and off. 'Oh dear.' Penelope giggled but then grew serious as an officer approached the driver side, Derek wound the window down. 'How can I help you officer?'

'Any reason you've stopped on the side of the road?'

'My girlfriend wasn't feeling well so I pulled over to check she was okay, we're just about to head off now.' Derek said politely, complete with a smile.

'Okay, you sure everything's okay?' He asked seeing Penelope's dampened cheeks.

'Yes thank you.' Penelope told the officer and smiled.

'Okay well if everything's okay I'll let you get on your way.'

'Thank you.' Derek said and started the engine up and started to wound the window up when the officer walked away, as he pulled back onto the road, he sighed. 'Don't get beat down.'

'I'll try not to.' Penelope said trying to convince herself the whole journey home. She wanted to love who she wanted to and not who she needed to.

Penelope wanted Derek, Derek wanted Penelope.

Penelope needed Kevin. Derek needed Tamara.

But only for a short time longer.