This is amazing! Honestly, when I started this fic I didn't believe that people would like it enough that I could get the inspiration to write this far! All of you are amazing! Thank you so much Now I give you the chapter 10 and again once more hope that you like it.

Can my words burn you like fire?

Chapter 10

It was silent, so silent that all Gaara could hear was his own heartbeat and blood flowing in his veins. Yet when he thought it little more he could also hear his own breath and Kankuros, his brother's. His only brother who always took good care of him, cared about him and wanted to help him. Brother who he cared also but right now he wasn't totally sure just how much he cared about his brother because something what he never ever even would have thought that would happen, was now happening.

What am I going to do? That was the only thought that had been playing in his head over and over again, making seconds feel like eternity and no matter how much he wanted to end this he couldn't. Feeling Kankuros lips against his own, smelling his (haju) and being so close to him… for some strange reason Gaara couldn't move. Was he so shocked? No… He could think so that couldn't be it. He just couldn't think clearly.

Gaara slowly opened his eyes and when his body tensed and his breathing stopped for a moment and that was when Kankuro stopped also. When he opened his eyes as well Gaara gulped and he could again hear his own blood flowing in his veins. He wanted to say something, to move but he couldn't and that was when Kankuros eyes went wide.

The taller boy almost jumped out of the bed and suddenly Gaara felt strange pain shoot right in his chest and stomach. For a short moment both brother's watched each other's and when Kankuro saw that pain in Gaaras eyes he wanted to cry. He thought that it was because Gaara hated him now and he couldn't blame him. Kankuro had no idea why he had done that but he still knew that he never should have done it. Now he had messed up everything and added one more wound in his brother's soul. If just Kankuro would have known in that moment why Gaara felt so hurt but Gaara didn't have time to tell that to Kankuro because before any words where changed between them Kankuro ran. He ran downstairs, he ran past Temari who almost dropped her grocery bags on the floor as her brother ran next to her. She yelled his name as he quickly but his shoes on and took his jacket and then ran like hell out of the door.

"Kankuro! Come back! What happened! Where is Gaara!"

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Gaara could hear Temari yell at Kankuro and he figured that Kankuro had run away, ran away from him.

What did he do so wrong? Kankuro was the one who did it, yet he was also the one who was most shocked. Did Kankuro imagine that he was someone else? Did he see someone else face? Gaara had heard someone say that to him earlier.

Gaara brought his hand to touch his own face and tried to calm his breathing or actually just breath. He hadn't realized that he was breathing really uneven.

"Why?"

"Why what Gaara"

Gaara's eyes widened and he stopped breathing again for a moment when he heard Temaris voice close to him and when he turned his eyes toward the door he was his sister standing there, looking really confused and little worried.

"Gaara, did something happen?" Temari asked, her voice now kind but it only made Gaara freak out more. How could he tell Temari, explain what happened when he couldn't understand it either.

"Nothing happened." He whispered, turning his head away from Temari.

"What do you mean 'nothing happened'? I am not an idiot Gaara! Something did happen. Did you two had a fight again?" She asked, raising her voice now and when she took a step toward Gaara the redhead turned his eyes so quickly back to her that she stopped.

"I told you NOTHING HAPPENED! And even if something happened it is BETWEEN me and Kankuro!" Gaara yelled, his eyes shining from anger and because of tears that he was holding back. Damn with her, why couldn't she just let it be?

"I want to be alone…" Gaara said, his voice lowering into whisper again and he turned his face again away from her sister so that she couldn't see all those emotions that were making his head spin.

"Gaara…"

"Please Temari… Let it go… Leave me be…"

Gaara could tell that Temari was worried because she didn't move or say anything, she didn't want to leave him alone. She knew him too well.

"Temari, just this one time let it go... I know it is hard for you but please… I beg of you…" Gaara asked, trying to sound like he was okay and just tired and indeed tired he was. But Temari still didn't move.

"Temari…"

"No Gaara, listen at me. I am part of our little family, I am the one who brings the money in and it is because of me that we have survived. I deserve to know what's going on." Her voice wasn't loud when she spoke but it was very serious. It was a real pain in the ass that she know them so well, she could always see when things were serious and when they were not.

"Damn it…" Gaara cursed and got up, facing now his sister's eyes.

"I don't deny it that you are part of the family, of course you are… But sometimes you don't need to know every little thing what is going on. I get it, you want to protect us and thanks for that but right now I really mean it when I say this… This doesn't concern you and I say it one more time, one last time. This is between me and Kankuro."

Gaara could see that Temari understood, even if only a little but that was enough. She was always the smart one.

Gaara sighed and when he moved a little a sharp pain hit his angle and made him remember it again. He really needed to do something with it.

"Temari, could you go get the first aid kid under the sink?" Gaara asked and his sister's eyes widened.

"Are you hurt? Did Kankuro do something to you?"

"NO! I fell at school and hurt my angle, that's all." That said Temari seemed to calm down a little and left to get the first aid kit. When she returned and sat next to her brother.

"Let me see it." She said gently and Gaara removed his sock, hissing in pain. It was swallowed but not too badly, he would live.

"This will probably hurt for few days but then it will start to go away. It doesn't look like anything is broken."

That was a relief to hear, last thing now that Gaara needed was to be taken in hospital. Gaara watched in silence as Temari wrapped the bandage around his leg and it reminded him the time that Kankuro had hurt his arm badly while fighting guys that had tried to hurt Gaara. He could still remember how one of the boys took that knife out and sliced Kankuros arm with it. There was so much blood coming out then but the brother's had seen worse. Gaara fell so deep in his own thoughts while remembering that he couldn't hear what Temari was saying. He just imagined the happenings once again in his head, how he jumped to that boy's back and hit him in the head with a rock. He couldn't think anything else back them, they didn't have cell phones back them and even if they did the help wouldn't have been fast enough. He never knew what happened to the boy after that but he remembered that he fainted and that was when the brother's had run. While they ran they hear the other boys shout something but neither of them looked behind them even once, they just ran all the way to their home and collapsed on the floor as they closed the door behind them. God that Temari had yelled at them and Kankuro still had a scar from that wound, as so did Gaara but his wound wasn't visible. It only could be seen in his sleep, in all those nightmares what he saw.

"Gaara?"

Gaara jumped a little when Temari shouted his name right infront of his face and after blinking a few times Gaara turned his face away.

"What the hell where you thinking? Did you hear anything that I said to you?" Temari asked and when Gaara didn't answer she just sighed.

"It should be okay now. Don't strain it too much okay?"

"I won't… Thanks." Gaara whispered as Temari but the rest of the bandages back and put the first aid kit on the floor.

"Gaara…"

"No. Don't. How many times I have to ask you Temari until you believe me?" Gaara snapped and his sister went quiet. Gaara didn't want to be mean to Temari, expesially when she just helped him once again but there was no other choice. If Gaara would just say things nicely Temari wouldn't let it go and would just keep asking questions and make demands. She was sometimes too stubborn for her own sake.

"I am going out." He said quietly, not watching her. He couldn't because if he did he knew that she would start crying. She hated to be kept in the dark.

As Temari bit her lip Gaara got up and slowly walked past her, downstairs. He took his school bag, carefully put his shoes on and took his jacked. As he closed the door behind him he took a deep breath before he started walking.

He needed the fresh air and slowly as he walked in the street his muscles started to relax and his mind started to work a little. Only bad thing was that when his mind started to repeat that moment again and again in his mind, trying to understand, his emotions got really mixed up and after a moment Gaara just had to stop walking.

He could feel his heart beat fast again and the blood in his veins was going straight into his head, making him feel even little dizzy. The pain in his angle wasn't helping either.

He saw a bench under one big tree and decided to sit on it, leaning his head in his hands.

One thing was sure, he needed to talk to Kankuro… But not yet, not before he could get a grip of himself.

It was not like he had never been kissed before, he knew what it meant but did his brother really mean it like that? How could he? They were brother's right? Isn't something like that, among other things, forbitten?

He knew that he needed time, time to understand and judging by the look in Kankuros face as he left the room Kankuro needed time too. For some reason Gaara felt like Kankuro was just as confused as he was. If so, then why did he do it in the first place?

"I can't go home…" Gaara whispered but where could he go to? He only knew where Sasuke, Naruto and Lee lived but he wasn't going to go to Lee's place. Last time when he was there he saw things what he didn't want to see again. Even now the memory made him shiver. Speedos don't suit to anyone in his opinion, at least not when you are lifting weights.

He knew that Naruto would take him in but he would ask questions and he wouldn't shut up. He never did. Sasuke on the other hand was quiet but the blond hang out there a lot, as also did Itachi. Gaara couldn't also say that he was comfortable with the black haired boy. He seemed to hold just as many secret's as Gaara did.

"Where the hell could I go?" Gaara asked out loud and looked around himself, trying to figure out what to do next

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There it is! Nothing too special but I think it turned out well enough. Not always have to happen something big, right? Or maybe you wish that things would get now even more serious and mixed up? I have few ideas and none of them look too good for Gaara (I am s evil). What can I say, I just love it when Kankuro and others are so worried about him. Please review and tell me what would You want to happen next ;)