So, I'm going to do a few questions for some people because I'm tired of replying to 20 of the same PMs from time to time, soooo:
Q: Why are your updates not frequent?
A: I have a lot of things in my personal life that I have to take care of and my job takes priority. I don't get paid to do this, don't have commissions set up, no , etc. So between that and school, I'm lucky to get 20 minutes of writing in.
Q: Why did you abandon FEH and Aang: The Air Nomad?
A: I wrote myself into a corner with The Air Nomad story and am still trying to figure out how to connect with what I want to do with the rest of the story and just because I haven't updated FEH in a while doesn't mean it's abandoned again.
Anyways, if you have anymore questions feel free to PM, just don't ask these questions please haha.
Hakoda nervously played with his tie, realizing he was possibly the only adult at the wake that wasn't here as a parent that knew the Ono family, rather being Yue's plus one. The aforementioned teen looked up at him and smiled, "How are you doing?"
"It probably would have been a lot better if this wasn't technically our first time out as a couple…" Hakoda mumbled.
She placed a calming hand on his, "Everything is going to be fine, if anyone really asks, you can just say that you're here for Katara and Sokka."
"I still feel like that wouldn't be as good of an excuse as I'm here with you," He replied.
"There isn't anything illegal about this," Yue smiled, "You just might upset my Father…but then again, who cares what he thinks?"
They both turned when they felt on a hand on their backs, "Probably not the best to talk about this at a wake you two." Katara seethed, not trying to make a scene. "We're here for the Ono's."
"No, we're here for the Ono's, you're here for a specific Ono," Yue pointed out. "A specific Ono that hasn't responded to your calls since Zuko and Jin's wedding."
"That boy that you were texting?" Hakoda asked. Katara sighed and nodded in response. "You haven't gotten yourself into some sort of problem have you?"
She rolled her eyes, "No Dad, it's a long story that I would gladly fill you in some other time that doesn't include a wake." Katara spotted Zuko and Jin arriving and excused herself. Zuko was in a black polo with matching slacks while Jin was in a small black dress that matched Katara's. They exchanged hugs, "I can't believe it's already time to say goodbye to one of our friends this fast."
Zuko nodded, his left hand going into his pocket, "It's…hard to really let it sink in."
Katara looked behind them, "No Azula?"
Jin shook her head somberly, "She is…pre-occupied at the house." Katara raised a brow and the two, Jin leaned in closer, "She's hosting a party of her own with your brother and Ty." She looked around, just realizing the absence of her brother at the wake. Opening her mouth to comment, she couldn't find the words. She wondered how Jet would feel about the fact that his fellow band member was screwing his ex. Then again, she wondered how Azula felt about Jet and her hooking up. "Azula isn't taking this too well."
"Well with the paper thin walls at Uncle's, I think she's taking it a little too well," Zuko commented, Jin elbowing him in the ribs, "What? I have my own way of coping with this."
She nearly broke a bone in his hand as she squeezed his hand, Jin leaned up, "We've had this talk, you're going to act normal."
"Trouble in paradise already?" Katara asked, hoping to help whatever rift was between her friends.
Zuko shook his head, "No…it's…just, everything is fine. I'm just seeing this from a different view and Jin is being the best and supportive wife she can be to me."
Katara saw between the lines and pulled him away from the main room, Jin letting him go, hoping another perspective would sway him. "Do you think this is somehow your fault?" He rubbed the back of his neck and looked away from her. "Oh Zuko," She hugged him, which he reluctantly reciprocated. "This is in no way your fault. It's tragic and we all wish that we could have done something, but there was nothing you could have done Zuko."
"I could have invited her to the wedding," He mumbled, "She wouldn't have been alone and wouldn't have had the chance to do what she did…"
She looked up at him, "She could have just done it right after the ceremony Zuko. It's not your fault Zuko." Mai's note passed through his head as she repeated herself. "Don't ever blame yourself."
"I'll try not to," He commented.
Katara rubbed his shoulder, "Well, you know how to get ahold of me if you ever need someone to talk to other than Jin." Zuko nodded and they walked back into the main room where Jin waited for them. "Have you seen Aang yet?"
Jin shook her head, "No. I've only seen Jet and Yue." Katara briefly froze at the first name, but regained her composure. "Hopefully he's coping well."
"He's doing better than I expected," Zuko commented. "He's keeping a steady head for his parents, but it must be draining him. I'm not sure how much longer he can hold it together."
"I should probably go and find him," Katara worried said. "He might need someone to talk to." She left the two in search for the boy, they walked over to the open casket and looked at the lifeless girl. Zuko sighed softly before walking away and Jin approached the casket after him frowning softly.
"I'm sorry you had to find out that way," Jin whispered, placing her hand soft on hers. "I hope you find peace, wherever you are."
Asami flipped through her magazine, her eyes peaking above pages to see Korra stringing a guitar. She looked over to Mako who was lying on his back on the couch they were on with his feet on her lap. They made eye contact and she looked over to Korra and back to Mako, making him look over at her. "Uh…what are you up to Korra?" Mako asked.
She looked up from the guitar, "I'm relearning the guitar."
"You know how to play the guitar?"
Korra nodded, "Well, I did. When I was younger, I had a knack for picking up random hobbies. I learned how to snowboard when I was 8 and then picked up surfing in the summer in between rounds of golf."
"Aside from the amazing fact that you were able to do any of those at the age of 8, why are you picking up playing the guitar again?" Mako sat up a bit.
"I'm going to try out for Jet's band. Rumor has it that since Azula cheated on him, she's out of the band for now and I thought I would throw my hat into the ring," Korra said.
Asami nearly snickered, "I never imagined that you would be a person who uses the expression 'throw my hat into the ring'."
"There's a lot you don't know about me," Korra said in a matter of fact tone, "Like I'm a lot more flexible than I look."
"I think I'll have to be the judge of that," Asami countered with a smile.
"It's not like I'm right here are anything," Mako muttered, closing his eyes and rested his head back on the arm rest.
Asami softly patted her 'boyfriend's' leg, "Aw Mako, you can be there too if you like. I'll let you hold the camera."
"So what exactly makes you want to play for Jet's band?" Mako changed the subject. "I know you like big crowds and everything, but it's not like you can mess up a few notes and people will be okay with it like in baseball. I've seen crowds go nuts just because the singer forgot a few lyrics."
Korra looked up from the guitar, "Jeez Mako, you must be a hit at parties with that attitude." Asami held in a laugh. "I know what I'm getting into Mako. I've seen many bands play at the Spirit Oasis when I snuck in with your brother. I'm not expecting to go up there and everyone to love me."
"Have a little faith in the girl will ya Mako?" Asami teased, going back to her magazine and flipping a page. "If she wants to play in front of a bunch of drunk idiots, it's her decision."
"Of course you're going to defend her. Boobs before dudes I guess," Mako whispered and Asami flicked his nose, which he instantly covered up in reaction.
"I can hear you whispering you idiot," She smirked. "But I guess you're right." The two girls made eye contact, "Chicks before dicks, right Korra?"
Korra chuckled softly before turning away from Asami's almost intimidating gaze, "Yeah, chicks before dicks."
Aang took a deep breath as he looked around the room one last time. His parents were planning on having everything packed away in a few days, not being able to even go near the room without almost breaking down. He inhaled the scent of his lost sister, feeling the burn in his chest, he wasn't sure if it would ever go away. His traced his fingers against the novels she had constantly read. She was always lost in a book. He grabbed one of the novels, on the cover in gold lettering read 'The Prince and the Peasant'. He had seen her read this at least over a hundred times. It was some story about a Prince from a nation of fire falls in love with a peasant from a nation of earth. He needed to keep some piece of his sister and what would be better than the book that never left her side. Aang gave the room one more look over before attempting to leave, but tripped over one of her shoes and into the computer table. His shoulder knocked against the table as he fell, bringing her computer to life. He rubbed his injured arm as he stood up and looked up at the screen. It was open on a notepad page. Aang looked closer, his eyes widening when he realized what was written on the screen. It was a list of people that had known his sister, small messages written out to everyone. He couldn't believe that no one had seen this yet. He was the first person to be addressed on the note, 'Aang, I'm sorry for leaving you to this world, but I did my best to make you fit in like I couldn't. This world is too bleak for me to care for and Azula has helped show me that the only guy I've cared for doesn't care about me the way I do. Please, don't give up like me, that's not what Mom, Dad and I ever wanted for you. You're a light in this world that people will try to stamp out, don't let anyone bring you down like they did me Aang. Also, I know you've always been asking about your original family and I've looked far enough to find out that your roots trace back to the Jongmu Temple in the Patola Mountain Range, it houses Air Bending Monks. I thought I would be helpful at least one more time for you. I love you Aang and don't you ever forget that.'. Aang couldn't help but smile as the tears started to come, while it didn't help the pain in his heart, it lessened the blow. Having her come through one last time was exactly what he needed. He looked down at the one labeled Zuko, but thought better of it. Aang printed the two page note and decided it would be better if the people on the list read it for themselves before shutting of her computer. Going to the door, he looked back to the room, bidding it a final farewell before closing the door behind him. Placing the papers in his jacket pocket, he went downstairs, realizing he was running late for Mai's wake. He pulled the door open to see Toph mid-knock with Takara standing behind her. "Oh…hey Aang," Toph said. "Well…I wasn't really expecting you to answer the door so soon."
He shut the door and walked past her, "I can't talk about this right now Toph."
Almost insulted that he was now blowing her off, Toph turned and followed him, "I'm trying to apologize here Twinkle Toes, albeit that I'm a few days late, I thought I would at least let you cool off a bit."
He stopped and turned to her, "Are you so busy screwing Sokka that you didn't know my sister killed herself three days ago?" Takara covered her gasp as Toph's face fell. "I'm sorry I don't have time to hear some lame ass apology Toph. I'm also sorry I even wanted to go out with you, I should have seen this coming when I heard that you had some crush on him. And by the way, I kissed Katara and I was on my way to tell you what happened to beg your forgiveness when I saw you two. Thinking back on it, I should have taken her up on her offer. At least that way, I could have gone home with a smile before discovering my sister's hanging body. So I'm sorry, but I don't want to hear it right now Toph."
Aang turned back around and started to walk away again, "I'm sorry about your sister…" She called as he continued down the sidewalk. She hung her head with a sigh as her sister walked up beside her. "Now I feel even more like an asshole."
"Well...that's what I call bad luck," Takara commented.
Toph eyed her sister, "What? No sisterly advice or something? No, 'you did your best Toph'?"
She shook her head, "Nope, you took a chance by cheating on him and you're going to have to just live with the fact that you did it on the night that his sister hung herself. There aren't any cards for things like this…"
"So I'm just stuck with him being mad at me?"
Takara sighed and rolled her eyes, "There it is again Toph, you're just thinking about yourself when your now ex-boyfriend is dealing with walking in on his dead sister. Just leave him be, maybe one day he'll forgive you...just don't try getting back together with him and then sleep with Sokka again."
"I'm never going to hear that end of this am I?"
"Never."
Zuko held his wife's hand as they sat among the grieving family, the priest had just spoken a few words about Mai and stepped down, leaving the podium for others to speak. Mai's mother was the first to stand up and offered to speak. Zuko always thought that Mai took most after her Mom, the only thing different about them were her golden eyes, a trait that most Fire Bending families shared. Her Mother wiped the still flowing tears from her face as she stood behind the podium. "Thank you all for coming today, it's just all a shame that it had to be under these circumstances." She looked down at her daugher, stopping herself from breaking down once again. "I don't know what could have convinced my daughter to end her life, but I wish that she had come to talk to us. I never wanted my daughter to feel so alone that she would make a permanent decision like this. Sometimes I wonder if I was more involved with my daughter's life that I could have stopped her from doing this…" She wiped a few more tears, Jin squeezed her husband's hand in reassurance. "I'm sorry, I'm just up here rambling. I just hope that my daughter is with the Spirits now and that she's happy." She left the podium and everyone's attention immediately turned when the doors open and Aang came walking down the aisle. Katara bit her tongue from shouting out his name, asking him where he's been. He passed his Mother as she was leaving the podium, she placed a small kiss on her adopted son's head as he took his position.
Aang cleared his throat and straightened his tie, "Hello everyone. Sorry for my tardiness, but I can guess you all can understand why I wouldn't really want to be here today." He paused for a moment. "For being an adopted sibling, Mai and my Mom and Dad accepted me easily and never made me feel like I wasn't part of the family. Mai was the best because she would literally do anything for me. Of course there were times she wanted to ring my neck, but by the end of the day, she always loved me." A few people in the group smiled. "Because of her, I have made more friends in the past few months than I have ever made before. She was always there to protect me and now that I'm able to stand on my own two feet to be my own person, she left…" Aang went silent again, almost getting lost in his own world. "But I believe she will always be with me, giving me strength to continue. If she can carry me for most of my life, I can carry her for the rest of my life. I'll be living for both of us and I know that's the best way to remember her." He backed away slightly from the podium and light applause was given as he went to take a seat by his parents. A few more people went up to the podium and spoke a few words, some relatives telling funny stories about Mai. Her uncle told a story about the time he took her out on the lake on his boat for the first time and remembering her smiling face. Zuko, not one for crying, could actually feel himself tearing up at the stories, the full weight of the fact that Mai was gone forever. Once her Uncle stepped down, Zuko found himself standing up next, taking Jin by surprise. He walked up to the podium and immediately felt all the eyes on him.
Zuko dried his sweaty palms on his pants, "Hi, uh, I'm Zuko Goto. I went to school with Mai and her and my sister were best friends. Since she was always around my house, her and I developed a bond that it was hard for me to describe." He reminded himself not to say anything about her crush on him. "Mai had always asked for my help, but I was always willing to help her since she had to put up with my sister." A few laughs echoed from the group, relaxing Zuko a bit more. "She always liked to help others, she was the reason I got to meet a lot of the friends I know today. Without her, I wouldn't have been able to help Aang and I wouldn't have known what an awesome little brother she had." He felt all the emotions bottling up in his chest, "I, like a lot of us here, also feel like I could have reached out to her more. She truly was a treasure to this world and I wish I could have gotten to know her a lot better than I did." He stopped himself short, knowing that if he continued, that he would break down and spill everything. Everyone gave him a small round of applause like everyone else as he took his seat again.
Jin leaned over, kissing the side of his cheek, "You did great," She mumbled in his ear and taking his hand again. Once no one came up to say anything else, everyone went back into the main room where there was a small table of appetizers for everyone. Zuko and Jin mostly stayed away from everyone else. He eyed Aang who was showing his parents some paper, both of them crying fresh tears, his Father holding his Mother. He excused himself before coming over to the couple. Jin hugged him, "Aang, that was such a sweet speech. I'm so sorry this happened."
Aang sadly smiled, "Thank you Jin, it means a lot that you guys are here."
Katara slowly approached, "Hey guys…" They all turned towards her, her eyes mainly focused on Aang, "I know this isn't the best day for you right now Aang, but do you think we could talk or something?"
"Um, sure." Aang pulled out the papers from his jacket pocket. "Here you go Zuko, this is something you might want to see. When you're done with it, I was suggest burning it and not letting Azula see it…" Katara followed Aang to a more private spot as Zuko looked over the papers.
Jin cocked her head to attempt to read the paper, "What is it?"
"It's Mai's real last note, and she wrote something for me." Zuko said, looking over the section. 'Hey Zuko, I'm guessing by now you've found out about how I truly felt about you. I'm sorry I never told you, but like I expected, my feelings were unrequited. I wish I knew about you and Jin, but I'm not going to hold that against you, it's not like you had an obligation to keep me updated on your life 24/7. I just wish, that maybe, we could have tried you and me, but maybe in a different world right? I don't know, maybe a world where I don't know your bitch of a sister? She gave me the final push to do this. I know it might be cliche to take my life because the person I have feelings for is now getting married, but I don't have much else. Aang is finally bully-free and I don't really see a future for me...I guess I'm rambling in my own suicide note. I guess what I want to get across is that I don't want you to blame yourself for this, I was already on this path before your sister crushed my feelings. I hope she treats you right Zuko...'. He reread the message again, taking in whatever was left from Mai. While a minor amount of the guilt was lifted from him, he couldn't help but feel sorrow for his lost friend. He looked down at the short message left for his sister. While it wasn't exactly the nicest message, he was surprised to find a small amount of expletives. Before Jin could read too much of it, the letter quickly went up in flames.
She frowned, "Hey, I was reading that."
"They're her last words to me, nosey," He smiled. "Just know that you and her seem to agree that I shouldn't blame myself for this."
"It's almost like it's a sign from the Spirits or something."
Aang shut the door behind them, turning to her expectant face. "So...what would you like to talk about?"
Her face dropped slightly, "You know what I want to talk about. Like I said, the timing probably isn't best, but we haven't been able to talk since I...kissed you."
"I've been...busy," He excused.
"I know, I know, but it's just...I don't want things to be weird between us since you and Toph are together and-"
"Actually, her and I officially broke up today," He interrupted her.
She blinked a few times, "Wait, really?" He nodded. "It's not because of me is it?"
Aang shook his head, "It's more of your brother's fault."
The pieces connected in her mind, "Oh…"
"Yeah…"
"I'm sorry Aang, this has to be really hard on you," She commented.
"Something like that," He rubbed the back of his neck.
"Well...with all this on your plate, I don't think this would be the best time to have this talk," Katara said.
"It's fine," He assured her. "What did you want to say?"
She thought for a moment, attempting to put her words together carefully. "When I first met you, I didn't really know what to think of you. I was doing my thing and you were Mai's little brother. Then I really got to talk to you and got to know how great of a person you are Aang. I never had such a good time talking to a guy before and...I just want to know...is there ever the possibility that you and I could be…you and I?"
Aang's silence weighed heavy on her, her hopes becoming smaller and smaller the longer he took to say something. "I don't really know Katara…" He finally spoke, her heart beginning to sink, barely holding on for something. "I know there is something between us, but right now...I don't know if I can do this. And it's not because of Mai's death or Toph...I just...I just need to find myself."
"Okay," Katara slowly analyzed his words, looking for any glimmer of hope in them.
"Just give me some time and I'll have an answer for you, but for now...I'm going to finish up my term and them I'm graduating early from school and going away for a while."
She cocked an eyebrow, "Where are you going to go?"
"The Jongmu Air Temple. Mai had been tracking down my real parents for me and traced them back there. I'm going to spend some time there, hopefully meet someone from my biological family. I figure they can help me find myself since they'll be Air Benders like me," Aang explained. "If anyone can help me find peace with myself, it will be them."
"When do you think you'll be back? Or do you even think you'll come back?" She questioned.
"I don't know...but we'll just have to see." He answered. Aang took her hands in his, "Katara, if there is truly something between us, the Spirits will pull us back together and we can try us. But who knows, you might just meet a guy that you like more than me." His thumb traced the back of her hands a couple times. "I'm sorry if that's not the answer you were looking for Katara, but that's all that I have now."
Katara sadly smiled, "I know it was foolish of me to expect anything else in this situation...but I hope you find yourself Aang and if you don't...you always have a place back here with all of us, Zuko, Jin, Suki...and me."
"I'll remember that," He matched her smile before letting go of her hands and turning and leaving the room. Katara sat down in one of the empty chairs and sighed, not letting the tears that begged to fall leave her eyes. She wasn't sure how much time had passed when she heard a soft knock on the door, looking up to see Jet in the doorway.
"Hey, you okay?" He asked.
Katara blinked a few times, thinking about everything again, "I don't really know…"
"Would you like some company?" Jet asked. She nodded and he took a seat next to her. "Taking the death a little hard?"
She shook her head, "No, it's not that...Aang and I just had a talk. I'm not sure, but I think he rejected me until he finds himself or something."
"I'm sorry," He put his arm around her shoulders, her head resting on his shoulder. "Probably wasn't the best thing to do at his sister's wake though."
"I probably should have talked myself out of it, but he wouldn't talk to me at any other time." He slowly rubbed her shoulder as they sat in silence. Katara just wanted to forget about this whole ordeal, her failure with Aang, Mai's suicide and definitely the hand holding she had seen her Dad and Yue having in the ride to the wake. She looked up to Jet, "Do you want to get out of here?"
-SDB
