Chapter 10 The morning after the night before

So I've just woke up laid fully clothed from the night before passed out on my bed - and ok I'm still completely and utterly flabbergasted that I was brave enough to tell Oliver how I really felt about him and even go to the lengths of kissing him to prove it- what happened to me been reserved and shy?

''Good morning Fee''- Thea arrived at my bedroom door with two coffees in her hand and still in her pjs- ''What the hell have you done to my brother- he marched out at 6am this morning with a face like thunder''- Oh dear…

''Thea I think you might want to get in bed this is a long story''- Thea joined me under the covers and looked at me with wide eyes ''I'm ready'' she said handing me a coffee- where to start..

''Ok so basically I told Oliver how I felt- he indirectly told me he wasn't ready for me to have feelings for him so I decided to drown my sorrows by going on a date with Ray- lovely guy by the way- but that was a big mistake seen as I basically had an emotional break down over dinner- he drove me home and well without making you cringe too much I gave your brother the singular most amazing kiss of my life and he told me to go to my room so he could think-'' holy shit that sounded seriously bad when I said it back.

''you kissed him?'' Thea looked as though she might burst with happiness- ''yup I kissed him- I know I'm a delusional mess but I needed to show him how I felt about him- and what he chooses to with that information now is up to him- obviously he can't be feeling too great about the whole situation if he marched out of the house at six am to avoid seeing me- is it weird that I'm talking to you about this?''

''Definitely not- Felicity I think Oliver's trying to process how he feels- he's been through a lot and been hurt a lot over the past couple of years and the responsibility of saving this city on his shoulders- I think he's scared of you getting hurt especially what happened after mom and your kidnapping- so please just give him time- I know you can't wait forever but I know deep down he loves you too- it's written all over his face every time he looks at you.'' Move over Opera- Thea Queen Billionaire teenager, nightclub owner and relationship councilor- this girl had seriously missed her calling.

''Well Thea as much as I would love to lounge in bed with you all day and put the world to right's I have to get ready for work- and when I say work I mean team arrow -'' this could be seriously awkward-

I cautiously entered the lair and to my relief there was no sign of Oliver Queen- thank god for that- ''Felicity good to see you'' Diggle emerged from behind the computer screen and wrapped his arms around me- Diggle's bear hugs were the best.

''I've heard about last night- damn Felicity I got to tell you- I'm proud of you'', ''proud of me for making a fool of myself?''- ''no for telling Oliver how you felt, one of you needed to say something the tension was getting too much''- ''thanks dig''-

'' so where is Oliver now? Still avoiding me?'', ''I wouldn't say avoiding you try sorting his head out, you know what Oliver's like he broods''- he sure as hell got that part right

The lair was completely quiet- Diggle had left to assist ''The Arrow'' in some armed robbery and there I was alone spinning around in my chair-

I was on my way out of verdant to return to queen manor probably to self-indulge in clichéd chic flicks and endless amounts of ice cream with Thea- ''Felicity could I have a word?'' Laurel was stood in front of me she'd literally appeared from nowhere – I could hardly say no could I? What could she possibly have to say to me?

''Sure- we should go back inside I mean after all its majorly cold especially for the time of year don't you think?'' your mumbling Felicity.

''Sure we'll go inside and I'll buy us both a drink- I think we deserve one''-

I was sat at the bar with Laurel she'd ordered us both some fancy pink cocktail it was so her- ''so what did you want to discuss'' I said whilst taking a drink of my Barbietastic drink. ''Oliver''- was it stupid to be absolutely terrified before Laurel had even said anything-

''I know that you think there's something between me and Oliver Felicity- Thea's told me ( man was I going to kill Thea later) - and I just want to make it perfectly clear that there's not. Sure I love him and I always will but only ever as friends- I want to see Oliver happy and I know that he will be if he's with you.'' Was this some sort of ''ex-girlfriend'' blessing ritual? I was grateful that she was been so kind but completely pissed that she thought that I needed her permission.

''Thanks Laurel but things between me and Oliver are complicated''- ''everything with Oliver is complicated trust me I've known him the majority of my life, you never know what you're going to get with him I hope your prepared for that''- I would be prepared for everything and anything if it meant me and Oliver could be together.

''Thanks for this Laurel and the surprisingly pink and actually scrumptious cocktail''- ''you're welcome Felicity- I hope one day we could even be friends''- whoa slow down there princess we've only had one drink together let's not paint each other's nails and have sleep overs just yet.

I returned' home' to the queen manor and was silently directed to the living room by Thea- there on the couch sat Oliver deep in thought- oh boy shit just got real

''hi'', ''hey Felicity come sit'' he said patting the place beside him- I gently placed myself beside him and looked down at the floor avoiding any kind of eye contact-

''first of all I want to say I'm sorry for avoiding you all day but I just needed to collect my thoughts so I could think straight- what happened last night was completely unexpected-''

''and?'' gosh was I impatient right now- ''I'm not saying that I didn't feel something but I would appreciate it if you just gave me a little more time to make a decision about us- I know that I really do lo- care about you but I just need a couple more days-

''there's only one place where I can truly gather my thoughts and I think you know where that is- I'd like you to join me again-''

''guess that means where off back to Lian Yu''- I've seriously got to get a loyalty card for that place or maybe invest in a holiday home- but if it meant Oliver could finally tell me how he felt I'd travel there and back again a million times over- because after all you would do anything for the people that you love-