Ch. 10
Beginning of Light's End
The public brought Harry's story all too easily. Any thought of him as the Heir of Slytherin was gone overnight and rumors and talks of Tracey Davis instead took over, every student saying that they always knew it was her all along, how she was so quiet and by herself, never having any friends. Everybody was so distracted by the sudden end of the Heir's threat, that nobody recognized that Ravenclaw had a new member. Young Tom Riddle, going under Thomas Blackthorn, integrated himself seamlessly into the House, acting and interacting as though he had always been there since September of last year. He and Harry met up, obviously, for secret dates and meetings. Both agreeing to let Harry's friends know when they are older, perhaps next year or the year after that.
With summer coming near, Harry worried about where Tom was going to live. The young Lord didn't say anything but gave a sly smile and wink and he said, "Do not worry, I have a house or two to inherit… a place that will be a marvelous place for a Master and his pet, and another that is perfect for hiding all that we really are."
Harry had a feeling that he wasn't supposed to ask for anymore details, so he kept it there and sadly returned to the Dursleys. But not before making all his friends promise to write to him, including Blaise, as well as picking up a blank new diary. For while he no longer had Tom to talk to in the book, he rather liked the activity.
And with that, time went on, and with time, a brief examination of a few of Harry's entries in his diary are necessary to keep up with later events.
August 8th
At the Leaky Cauldron, still cannot believe that I'm away from the Dursleys. Somehow, Tom knew about this as he arrived today and moved into my room. I asked how he knew I was at Diagon Alley, and he replied with, "I simply had a dream of your prettiness flying across the air towards here." In other words, I think he might have been secretly watching me somehow. I hope he actually had a place to sleep while I was at Privet Drive. Anyway, we're sharing a bed now and just talk about what we can do during the summer as it looks like it'll be us together. He wants to go to Knockturn Alley obviously, while honestly, I want to look around for clothes and ice cream. It's not that I dislike the robes and other wizard clothing but they are so weird looking. I honestly cannot comprehend how people can seriously and honestly wear them! Tom may not like it but I will be damned if I do not bring him to look for a good pair of pants and shirt. I found a part of Gringotts where I can exchange money. I might use that later on.
August 15th
We had a great day! In the morning, I've convinced Tom to come to the muggle side of the Leaky Cauldron with me to go clothes shopping. I've gotten both of us some nice clothes that should fit us for a couple of years, I still cannot believe these wizards would actually walk around dressed in all these strange robes and hats! Tom was hesitant at first and it took me dragging him into a changing room to figure out why. He hates being average, being common place. I guess I can see that in some extent. After all, he did throw away his name… not going to think about it. It's hard, keeping them separate, Tom and Voldemort, but I have to. I don't want to get my feelings confused. I like Tom, I like him a lot… he's a very good boyfriend to me. I just wish that he would let me in more.
August 20th
We've practiced more on the Unforgivable Curses today. I do not want to get rusty on the Imperius Curse. I'm very good at it, and I have to say that I am starting to like being under it when Tom uses it on me. It's strange being under it, having this just very happy feeling of bliss and no restrictions or duties. Just a simple mind and listening to Tom. It's nice at times. I wonder if prolonged influence can reduce your intelligence. I hope not. Anyway, while I was under it, something very strange happened with my pants. My prick's gotten hard! Tom told me that it was normal but I don't know, it's so strange having it hard in front of him. Is this what puberty is? If so will I get bigger or will it stay at that size?
August 31st
Ron and Hermione are here! And they've met Tom as my boyfriend! I was so scared, Hermione gotten this strange look on her face and I thought she was going to be like Oliver, but instead she was just being her old self and started asking questions. Ron was surprising as he answered some of them before I could think of them. Apparently, Charlie and George are like Tom and me… well, as in that they like boys not that—never mind. Anyway, we brought out school books and Tom and I defected to have a romantic night out. He wore some of the nicer clothes I brought to make him stand out from the crowd, and it was obvious that he loved it. We went to this nice café and spent it in a corner. There were looks, a lot of strange looks, but I was able to ignore them as Tom just held my hand the entire night and we talked about anything. He told me he had big plans for our school year. I wonder what's going to happen. He's so mysterious at times, sometimes I think he does it for a show and others I feel like he does it because he doesn't want to share something with me. I just don't know what. I know his most awful secret already… don't I?
I don't know, however I do know that I'll stick by him no matter what. After all, not only is he my boyfriend…
He's also my Master as well.
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September 1st
I still don't know what happened. Something attacked the train. I should try and write down as much as I can remember. There were a few of us in the compartment. Myself, Tom, Ron, Hermione, and our new Defense Against the Dark Arts Teacher, Professor Lupin. Only thing was Professor Lupin was fast asleep. He was a strange and ragged looking man. His robes looked old, torn at places, and his briefcase was battered. He reminded me of a homeless person, or someone who looked terribly ill. He was unconscious, or seemed like it, while the rest of us were talking. We were almost at Hogwarts when it happened. It became colder, the windows started to look frosted and the train screeched to a halt, something that never happened. The lights started to flicker and suddenly the door opened. I only had a glimpse of the creature once, but it was enough to know that it was absolutely terrifying. Hidden behind a cloak that was tattered with long skeletal limbs I heard an unearthly noise that was like a deep rattle of a voice before I collapsed, the last thing I remembered was hearing a woman screaming my name.
When I woke up… all I could see was everyone's faces, I've somehow been moved from the floor. I felt empty both before and after I fell, like I was never to be happy again. Professor Lupin gave all of us chocolate, and surprisingly at the first bite I instantly felt better again! He left to check on the conductor and Tom told me about what that thing was.
It was a Dementor. A dark creature that feeds on happiness until there's nothing left inside you. They're the guard at Azkaban, and they're here because of an escapee: Sirius Black. Professor Lupin warded them off, but we have to be careful. Dumbledore echoed Tom's words later on in the Great Hall after our feast. They were the Minister's idea, something that I guess Dumbledore is not very fond of.
I hope they don't catch on or bother us. After all, Tom and I are Dark Wizards, right? So, we should be careful with our lessons, especially since they no longer can take place at night. Last year, we've kept them sparse and running around from classroom to classroom. I hope that we can find a consistent place this year, I know that Tom's already looking.
This year looks to be a weird one with the dementors roaming around. I just hope that they won't go near us.
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September 8th
Tom found a place. It's an old classroom near Ravenclaw Tower that none of the teachers use it. Tom told me that the Ravenclaws use it to hook up sometimes. Whenever we have our lessons, we can talk it off as us meeting up to spend some time together. It had a heavy smell to it, like sweat and something else, but I don't care. As long as we have a place to meet, I'm happy. We've continued our lessons, he seemed pretty interested in me mastering the Unforgivable Curses and… I would be lying if I said I wasn't thrilled. The power these spells have… it's amazing. I wanted more… I need more. I want to hold that power again. I don't know but it feels like something inside me is changing, and I'm completely open to it.
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September 20th
Tom and I worked more on the Dark Arts today. He has me using the Killing Curse on bugs he'd found around the castle. I'm getting good at it. However, I know that the spell will be harder to do with more complex targets… at least according to Tom. Other than that, life is normal. Just as every day. People are talking about Hogsmeade, which only makes me more jealous that I cannot go. Stupid Dursleys… it's not my fault that Aunt Marge is a stupid fat cow. Should have used the Imperious Curse to get their signature. Oh well. I just hope that Tom stays with me during that weekend, I would hate being alone.
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October 15th
First Hogsmeade weekend was announced, it's on Halloween. Tom and I hung out in the Gryffindor common room and moved to our classroom to practice. I killed a rat! Was scared for a second thinking it was Scabbers, thankfully it wasn't.
October 31st
First Hogsmeade trip, Tom stayed with me and we continued working on the Dark Arts. The good news is that I'm an expert at killing rats. The bad news is that Tom and I are stuck at how to advance with the killing curse. In the meantime, I'm learning more different spells of the Dark Arts and it's hard. I can barely perform any of the spells Tom shown me, but I want to! I have to try harder, and I will!
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November 8th
Missed yesterday. I was in the Hospital Wing. We had a Quidditch match yesterday, Gryffindor versus Hufflepuff. Weather was shite but I still played. We would have won too if it wasn't for the dementors. They affected me again. I blacked out and fell from my broom. Dumbledore saved me from my fall, however he was unable to save my broom, which was smashed to bits by the Whomping Willow. I'm devastated about that, however I'm more frustrated about those dementors. Why am I the only one being affected like so? Why is it that I'm the only one blacking out and have to hear that woman's voice screaming? It's infuriating! Dumbledore's pissed too, the dementors aren't supposed to be that close to the school grounds. I just wished they would just go away.
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November 20th
Tom and I sneaked a rooster into the Forbidden Forest and I killed it. I'm so sorry Hagrid, but I need the practice.
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November 22th
Was found by a deer during our practicing. Tom wanted me to try the Killing Curse on it, but it didn't work. He told me that anger and hatred powers but for some reason I couldn't bring that up against the deer like I could with anything else. The worst I did was hurt it. Afterwards, Tom and I made out in the woods and we tried something. We took our shirts off and touched our bodies. Felt good.
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December 20th
Fred and George gave me something called the Marauder's Map. It shows where everyone in the castle is as well as secret passages, some of them leading out of Hogwarts. I used it to sneak out into Hogsmeade, brilliant place. Spent the day with Ron and Hermione before spending some time with Blaise. He was a little jealous that I had a boyfriend but confessed that he had his eyes on someone. Whoever he is, I hope he's good for my friend. He deserves the best… and he's a good kisser. I've learned… I've learned a lot about what happened between Sirius Black and my parents. I'll put it in detail tomorrow.
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January 6th
My lessons with Professor Remus started today. The Patronus Charm, a spell that can knock away dementors. I hope that I can master it quickly. I offered Tom to come learn with me but he told me that he cannot.
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February 5th
Sirius Black broke into Gryffindor Tower and tried to slash Ron! I didn't see him but Ron's bed curtains are in shambles. I'm scared for my friend. Especially after what I learned, I want Black dead more than ever.
February 10th
I killed a deer.
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March 15th
Tom and I were doing more… stuff. He told me about puberty and the kind of things we can do when we're older. I can't wait.
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March 27th
Did more practice with Tom, the more I learn the Dark Arts the more I fall in love with it… Tom told me that with my development in the Dark Arts, I should be having more and more trouble with casting the patronus… however I seem to have the same difficulty. I've almost done it last time, I'm sure with just a few more lessons I can cast a full Patronus… In the meantime, I'm going to redouble my efforts in the dark arts.
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March 31st
I DID IT! I CASTED A PATRONUS! I'm so happy with myself.
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April 15th
Ron and Hermione and I are still distracted with Buckbeak's situation. I'm angry, furious, but there's seemingly nothing we can do. We're going to spend the entire of Easter break working on his appeal. I hope to save him. Meanwhile, Tom's thinking of my looks. He wants to know how I would look with different hair. Longer, something more darkish to fit my new status as a Dark Wizard. It might be interesting… I'll have to think about it, it'll be a good thing to think about at least while we work through Buckbeak's appeal.
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May 5th
I DID IT! I USED THE PATRONUS CHARM AND WON THE QUIDDITCH MATCH! Tom and I celebrated our victory and we did more and more things that I can't even write down without blushing!
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June 6th
My body hurts, my mind is aching, I do not know how to even comprehend what I've done so I'll lay it down here. I am sorry, future me, if this sounds like the ravings of a mad man in a blue box. Sirius Black is my godfather. Peter Pettigrew is the man who betrayed my parents. Peter Pettigrew was Scabbers. They, my father, and Professor Lupin were all friends. Black and Lupin used to date… Hermione had a time turner that she used to get to all her classes. Buckbeak was killed but we saved her using it. I thought I saw my father performing the Patronus Charm but it was really me from the future. Sirius approves of my relationship with Tom.
I need to try this again. From the beginning.
Sirius Black is my godfather, I learned this from the man himself. All year he wanted to get Pettigrew, who was hiding as Scabbers. Pettigrew, a disgusting man who sold my parents to Voldemort. He and Professor Lupin cornered him and captured him after I convinced them not to kill them. Walking out, Sirius and I talked, and I mentioned Tom, who of course missed all this I have to tell him tomorrow, and he joyfully approved it, saying that my parents would be proud that I am being who I really am. However, after that everything went sour. The full moon came out and Professor Lupin shifted. He and Sirius fight, werewolf to giant black dog, and Pettigrew escapes by turning into a rat and running away. Afterwards, Professor Lupin ran into the forest and Sirius almost died from the Dementors. I saved him… and myself. The three of us woke up in the hospital room, Ron, Hermione, and me. Hermione and I used her Time Turner to go back three hours. We were able to save Buckbeak and Sirius, and I was able to fight back a swarm of dementors with a Patronus. It was a physical one—looking like an animal. It was a stag. I wonder what it meant. Anyway, after that we freed Sirius from the astronomy tower, and he flew away on Buckbeak.
I hope that Sirius is okay, I'm angry that he had to run away with the true traitor is running around unknown and thought dead. He's probably with Voldemort was I write this. I hope I run into Pettigrew one day. I'll tie him up and squeeze a confession out of him before I kill him myself. I'll be good at it too.
I'm good at killing rats.
A/N: A new year, and a new part of the story. Next time we see how far into the Dark Arts Harry will fall before jumping back into the action after a very eventful night. I so hope that you leave a review and tell me your thoughts, yes I know I sped through 3rd year but I hope you've enjoyed how I did so. Thank you for reading.