Chapter 8: My Past? (And it All will Begin to Fall Apart)

As we all entered the house we are going to stay at for the next two weeks, everyone picked a room. There wasn't enough rooms for everyone; so fortunately, I am able to sleep outside. No not like some dog! I am sleeping in a huge; I think Oak, tree in the back of the house where we train. I have not entered the house at all today, well because of the huge fight that….. okay I know! It wasn't a fight! Go ahead! Laugh! I got bitch slapped! I got completely toyed with by this girl!

Ha! But none of you losers can actually say. – Hey I'm a devil, and I get to die for the most hottest fucking girl in the world!- okay maybe not the best example. Great! My fucking life is going to be miserable for the remaining days I get to live.

As we started today's training, no one even so much looked my way. Actually, Rias only told the others to come with her. I on the other hand, got the hint. Currently I am walking towards a huge river that I was going to train at. I may not have told you this but my sacred gear can actually talk to me. He is pretty cool. He is also a huge pervert. His name is Tosuki no Tatchu. He is the first, of all my sacred gears to awaken.

He was the one who compelled me to kill my family, even the ones who didn't hurt me. He told me that they were just as at fault as any others. But that story will be told soon enough.

Anyway, as I was approaching the river he suddenly began talking to me. He way not seem it, but he could be smart sometimes.

{Hey! How are you holding up partner? Yah know after all that they said.}

" I'm fine. Anyway, I need your advice. What should I do for training?"

{You have about two weeks, so the first three days you will train on your physical strength. For another three days, your staminia, and for another 3 you will practice your magic power. Seeing as you have the magic potential of the 4 Moua"s themselves, you need to create attacks, with a huge amount of attack power, but with less power being drained.}

"Then what about the remaining days?"

{you will use the last 5 days as endurance.}

"What does… you mean…."

{Yes. But you will have to do that at night. If the others see you hurt then they will worry, and stop your training. During the day you work on your fighting skills. You see, you are a great swordsman, and hand-to-hand combat fighter, but you are slower than those from Riser's peerage.}

"I see. So we have to start now. Is that okay?"

{Yes. I will change into my human form. During that time you will not be able to use me. You will be totally defenseless during these two weeks, and unable to heal.}

"I understand."

He then began to materialize. He was a man around the age of 27. He had shoulder length red hair. He was a little taller than me. He wore a white t-shirt, and black pants. He had no shoes. We will not need them. The training that I am about to endure is going to be harsh, so it will be better not to wear them or they will get ruined.

{ So then. We will begin now. You will begin with 3,000 push ups, 5,000 situps while hanging from a tree, and then 9,000 pushups, but while balancing on one hand.}

"Okay. But don't you think that's a little excessive?"

{No! you should be as strong as you can be if you are going to die. You were a great master. But I will have you die the strongest host I ever had.}

"Hmm….. okay! I will strive to make everyone proud!" I shouted loud enough for everyone else to hear me from 3 miles away.

We both got changed into different clothes. I was wearing a black men's muscle shirt, and black sweat pants. Tosuki was wearing the same thing he had but with the same shirt I was wearing. . I started with my pushups. I did an extra thousand. I then preceded with my sit ups. I then noticed bucho and the others had come and were watching me.

They were all smiling at me, when I finally looked I got really nauseous, and felt like throwing up. I almost fell until a huge booming voice yelled at me.

{YOU FOOL CONSTRAINT! YOU WILL NOT STOP TILL YOU ARE FINISHED. THIS IS FOR THEIR SAKE, SO YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO LOOK UP. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SEE THEIR SMILING FACES, NOT UNTIL YOU WIN!} Tosuki yelled, and shocked the girls. It look like they were going to yell at him till I spoke up.

"All right! I won't stop till I become as strong as I can ever get! I will train until my body can't move! I will beat that bastard of a chicken. I will not lose!" I stated that with a strait face, while still hanging from the tree. Either way, everyone looked at me and smiled.

I continued, only at a faster pace. I then proceeded to the other pushups.

{Okay Sage. You may need help. This takes a lot of balance. I will allow you a few breaks.}

"Hell no! who do you take me for!? I can do it without a problem. I will become stronger. I am not weak, I will save bucho!" I screamed at Tosuki, and then he smiled at me.

{Okay! Now that I can tell that you're serious, I will leave you to it. Continue with you pushups until the sun sets. I then will allow you to eat your diner. Actually….. Rias!} he yelled bucho's name and nearly scared her to death.

"Y….yes?" she asked still startled.

{Have you gotten any materials for your food?}

"Actually, yes. We will have to go get more in a few days. Why?"

{Sage! I will teach you how to change into your animal form. Tomorrow during training I will show you how, and at noon you will begin hunting for food to eat. Do you understand?}

"Yes. But what animal form will I take. I can't remember the last one."

{You will be taking the form of a wolf. What you will look like, I do not know. There are many stages you can enter. A cub, the regular size of a grown wolf, and a form I will recommend in the up coming fight. It is the demon wolf form, this will make you large enough for one of the others to ride on your back. This will help with transportation.}

"I am not a motherfucking horse! I will carry no one as if I am some pet!" I yelled at the damn sacred gear.

{Aw! Don't be like that. It is only get Rias-chan out of the battle if you need it. That way you can deal with Riser while they protect her when you fight him, after you take her to safety.}

"If it is for that purpose, then I will make an exception." I said clearly upset.

"Don't worry. I will not ask you to do anything. In fact I actually think it a better idea for you to not participate in the rating game." A very shy bucho stated.

At that moment I got angered. I did a back flip out of my stance from my pushups. I began to walk away.

{Partner! Do not run away. You should tell her. I mean how you feel of course. She needs to know what she did and said was wrong. You must tell her. You can't leave her like that. Please partner, just at least continue your training. You may talk about it later, but you can't stop yet. Plus I was having fun looking at you breasts. It is a shame that you have your shirt tucked in.}

"Fine! But I refuse to talk to any of you anymore. At least I can die alone again. I think that will make me feel better." I said quietly enough so only Tosuki could hear.

{Partner, you can't mean that?}

"I do, just shut up already. I need to finish." I stated while turning on some music from my i-pod. I turned on a song called "Meltdown" by Rei Kagene.

The music was loud so everyone listened to it as I was continuing my training. They all watched me while frowning at me. I think they got what I was trying to say, but they still didn't leave. The song ended and I finished. I then removed all my clothes.

All the girls blushed, and Tosuki got a nosebleed. I walked to the river. When I reached the rivers edge I had grown a tail. It was pure black, it looked darker than the night itself. It made my skin and hair look like they were glowing. I sat at the edge, and wrapped my tail around my body. I was petting it while smiling.

All the girls were blushing but also looking at me in amazement.

"Sage, um how do you have a tail?" Asia asked shyly.

"And why did you strip?" Raynare asked.

{She has the blood of a demon running through her veins. It was an accident, but she survived. I suggest you all just watch her. she doesn't like when others talk when she is in her 'crucial state'.}

"What do you mean?" bucho asks, very confused.

"I hate when others talk, when all I want is quiet. This moment is perfect…. It deserves to be spent in silence. The beautiful moon, hanging in the night sky, as the stars compliment it. And the scenery makes it just beautiful." I stated nit even moving.

"Um….. sorry. I didn't know." Bucho stated.

"It's fine. Hey." I called to her and the others and I think I startled them. "I would like you all to do the same. Strip that is." When I stated this, they all screamed.

"WHAT!?"

"I like the cold air on my skin, and helps to keep me relaxed I thought it might lighten the atmosphere a little." I stated while looking back. My hair now covered my breast, and I was leaning back on my left arm.

"Oh! I see… that makes sense." Akeno stated, while blushing and staring.

"You know you don't have to blush. We are all girls, well except Kiba but I don't mind. I don't feel in the mood to even think lewdly right now. I just want to be engulfed in this moment and feeling." I stated while looking up at the night sky.

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Everyone was quiet, as I looked back again I noticed that they were all crying.

"Why are you crying?" I asked coldly.

"I'm sorry. We were so mean to you." Raynare stated while holding Kalawarner.

"We ignored you, and blamed you for what happened yesterday."

"We had no right. We were wrong! I am really sorry Sa-kun." Asia spoke, but totally broke down after that.

"Sage, we were all wrong. I am truly sorry. We know that even if you wanted to you could do nothing about the situation." A very emotionless Kiba said.

"Senpai" Koneko tried hard not to cry.

"We all know that you did nothing, because you didn't want to lose any of us to Riser. We know that you were just looking out for bucho. We didn't stop to think about how horrible you must have felt." Akeno said with a strait face while still crying.

"Sage…. My precious pawn. I don't even deserve to be forgiven. I was so cruel and horrible towards you. I am sorry. My actions were not acceptable." Rias said as she stared at the ground.

I then rose onto my feet. They all looked at me in utter amazement. I showed no emotion at all. I stood in the night, in all my naked glory. My hair dancing in the wind, and my tail hung to the side. I had one hand on my tail, and the other hung to the side. I looked down at them while I was towering them. They all began to blush. The night seemed to make me glow even brighter. The moon just over head. My eyes were a dark blood red, staring down on them, as they waited for judgment.

"I forgive you." I stated then looked away. I clung to my tail and hugged it tightly. I was crying. I couldn't help it. It was hard to deal with it, the pain of losing them. I couldn't help it. I made sure I was quiet, so they couldn't tell.

I felt several hands grab my cold naked body and embraced me. They all hugged me. We all cried but then Tosuki spoke up.

{ You should all head inside. It is getting cold and late.}

We were all currently eating dinner. It was very quiet. Everone only spoke to have food passed to them. I finally had enough. I walked away from my half eaten food, startling everyone.

I walked out to the tree I was going to sleep in that night. I grabbed my guitar and thought back to my past. I played "A Song I'd Like To Sing" by Hastune Miku.

I think the others heard, because they came out and applauded. I looked up and smiled. That night I made a promise, that I will keep.

DAY 2

It was the second day of training. I woke up early to practice how to transform into a wolf. I was in the garden with everyone else, that afternoon. Bucho asked me to show her. it all went downhill from there.

"Sage, you're back. I'm glad. Will you show us your wolf form?" she asked while smiling. She is really being kind to me after yesterday. She stayed by my side the whole training. She requested that Tosuki train her to. She made sure that I had water and food to keep me energized. She even got Tosuki to give me a break. She left before she could see any of the forms, with Tosuki so she could train on her magical, and strategically skills.

I quickly changed into my form. There was a huge amount of mist, but when it all cleared, there I stood. Everyone turned to me in the middle of their training. Kiba got knocked out by Akeno, because he stopped and forgot to dodge.

I was a huge sized wolf that sat on the grass, right in front of bucho. (I was the size of a full grown lion, but a little bigger.) Tosuki was right, I was big enough to carry someone on my back.

I was all white, but had pure black marking all over my body. I had a choker on that had a broken chain attached to it. It had symbols carved into it. My eyes were still blood red but made me look really fierce.

Bucho was the first one to comment.

"Sit." She said with no emotion. To my surprise I did as I was told. Tosuki came out and began to laugh.

{Hahahahahaaa! Man to think that she would be able to command you. So Sage has become a normal pet.}

"What the hell did you do?" I growled, and I shocked the others.

"You can talk? But dogs can't talk." A very confused Koneko stated.

"I am not a dog! I am a demon, and this if the form of a wolf. How did she know that she could do that?" I asked suspiciously.

"Tosuki-sama told me. He said that I also had to fill your chocker's markings with your masters' blood so that you can be officially marked my pet… er I mean wolf… um I don't…"

"It is fine. I don't care. But just don't ever do that again. I don't like that, it is so…..humiliating." I stated while pouting. "I'm hungry!" I roared at everyone.

"Roll over." Rias stated with a displeased face. "you just ate awhile ago. You do not need to be fed again." She stated sternly.

This was the time to whip out the puppy eyes. I looked at her and to my surprise…

"Sit!" she shouted. I was then suddenly smashed to the ground.

I reverted back to my former body. "What the Hell! What was that for!?"

"Do not try that on me. I don't like being played like that."

"Aw! Sa-kun looked cute like that." A teary eyed Asia and Koneko stated.

"Um….. is it okay to pet you?" Raynare asked shyly.

"Me too!" Akeno and Kalawarner yelled.

"Okay then. Sage you will be the pet of the family today. Now. Come here I wanna pet you." A very cute bucho states.

They all of a sudden started to chase me! My second day was tiresome.

Day 5

Today I continued my morning till night running exercises. I was really tired yesterday. I had to be carried back by bucho and the others. I slept in the bath. It was filled with cold water, because it let me breath. After everyone finished eating, the others came in and warmed the bath with magic.

"Is it to hot or to cold?" bucho asked me in concerned look. I paused and waited.

"Perfect! Come on and get in.!" in truth it was still cold as fuck, but they didn't need to know that. I used magic and pushed everyone in.

"Kyaaaaaaaa!" everyone screamed when they surfaced from the water.

"It's so c….c…..cold!" Asia, Kalawarner, and Raynare all screamed.

"Sage!" they all yelled, and turned to me while emitting a deadly aura.

That was my cue to run. But before I could Akeno appeared in front on me. She had her S-side face on. She was also glaring at me. I was really scared, I mean to the point that I couldn't move.

"Akeno! Stop, you can't do that. You will scare her and it will take hours to calm her down." A frantic bucho yelled.

"Ara ara. You are quiet lucky Sage. You would have been facing "punishment"."

"I'm sorry!" I screamed while shaking. Both bucho and Akeno hugged me.

"Calm down. Sheesh you are way to easy to scare. What else are you afraid of?"

"Yes. I would also like to know. You seem to be holding out on us Sage. Ufuufu.

"Um, well…. I am afraid of *gulp* thunder." I stated while blushing and looking down. I half expected them to laugh, but also to slap me and say I was weak.

"Really? Oh. My poor pawn. I am sorry."

"Ara ara. That seems to be very bad. I hope that you are going to be alright."

"Um…. Yeah….thanks."

All the girls were glaring at us, well except Koneko.

"But you are still getting punished."

That night was the worst. I had to promise to take everyone on a stroll through the garden, on my back while in wolf form.

Day 9

Today is the last day for my magic training. I had to get help from the others, because Tosuki had to go back to his original form. I now know how to use the element of fire, water, and ice as attacks and defense.

I got to try them out. But in order to do that, I had to fight bucho and the others. It was horrible. I got my ass handed to me, because I couldn't bring myself to hurt anyone, except Kiba. I tried to kill him because he called me a mutt. I know he was trying to provoke me but I got pissed. I sent him flying into a tree.

Not to mention that everyone was also training for the past nine days. I was hit over and over again, even bucho. And she continuously got Asia to heal me. I had enough and use Tosuki no Tatchu and pinned down bucho and was panting heavily.

"There! I won Dammit!" everyone looked up at me in surprise. I was covered in cuts.

"It looks like we went to far." Bucho stated confused.

'You think' was all I thought'

Day 12

Tosuki got bucho to agree to the endurance training. Every day I go out and get pumbled by Tosuki. Everyone else slowly joined. Bucho claimed that it was a good way to test their power, and relive stress.

"Da fuck do you mean relive stress!?" I stated while trying to stand. I was getting attacked by everyone for 8 hours strait. I coughed up blood. I had to endure everything until the sun went down or I passed out.

Right now neither happened. I was really bloody and bruised. I had a few gashes. Bucho stopped halfway for a break, but never continued till now. It hurt like hell. With her and Akeno's attack together was enough to kill me. I think I could have already died, but I fought to stay alive.

The others kept on apologizing until I snapped.

"STOP FUCKING APOLIGIZING! I am doing this of my free will. If I am able to take this, and build a tolerance to pain then I will be of better use during the rating game." I yelled and they all seemed shocked.

"But, you seem in so much pain. I don't like hurting you." Raynare said while looking like she was about to cry.

"{Think about it like this. She'll be able to save you all, and kick Risers ass while gaining the world record in the fastest rating game.}Tosuki said.

"We should stop. Asia heal Sage. The sun is going down. After this everyone will get ready for dinner." Bucho stated before walking off. She seemed upset, but how could she not be. She attacked her pawn over and over and could have killed me. But I didn't care, just as long as I killed Riser.

Rias' POV

I was really upset. i had attacked my poor pawn. the worst part was that she couldn't even fight back. I felt like a huge bully. thinking about if she fears us all for doing that to her made me really scared. I didn't want my pawn to be afraid of me or anyone else.

I went to my room and waited to be called out. Sage is the one who came and got me.

"Bucho. i know that you would never hurt me." she stated before she hugged me. I was happy at those words. My pawn trusted me.

Day 14

Today everyone had a beak to heal and rest. I was currently night time. I finally went inside, because it had begun to rain. Everyone had gone to the town to go and get more supplies for tonight's dinner.

I was sitting at the piano playing various songs. Many were from songs on the radio that I heard. Anyway I stopped, when I heard a huge roar. I jumped up and looked out the window.

It began to rain even harder. It was a full on storm, and I could see the lightning after the huge roar of thunder. Remember when I told bucho about the being afraid of thunder. Well this was a really bad combination.

I heard the thunder again. I didn't notice that my tail grew out again and was placed between my legs. I ran into bucho's and Akeno's room and hid under the bed. I became afraid of thunder, because one time my father locked me in a tiny room when there was a huge thunderstorm. I was so scared that I clawed at the door until my hands bled.

As I was under the bed I curled up into a ball and held onto my knees. I was crying. I was yelling bucho's name over and over again.

"Bucho! Onee-sama…. Please save me. I don't like this… I'm scared. Onee-sama."

Same day (Rias' POV)

It was a huge storm today so everyone had to come to the clubroom. The was a lot of thunder. I felt bad for Sage. We left her at home. She must have felt lonely.

*gasp*

"SAGE!" I screamed and everyone else jumped.

"What's wrong Bucho?" Kalawarner, Raynare, and Asia asked me in concern.

"Sage… remember she said she's….."

"She's afraid…." Kiba tried to finish the sentence.

"She's afraid of the….. bucho" Koneko stared out the window with wide eyes.

"We forgot….. she's afraid of THUNDER!" Akeno finally screamed as she ran out the door first while dropping her tea.

We all ran to the house in the rain with only one thing in our minds.

"What have we done!?"

Sage's POV

"Bucho! Anyone! Please help me! Make it stop!" I screamed. My screams were heard throughout the house, but no one could hear me because they weren't there.

All I could do was cry out in hopes someone could hear me. Tosuki couldn't help because I was to freaked out to focus my mind. I hid in the corner of the room under the bed. I finally heard bucho and the others come back. And all I did was cry. My throat hurt to much to scream out anymore.

I just laid there, shaking and crying. I made no attempt to move from the spot that I was at. I wasted all my energy from screaming.

Rias' POV

All of us burst through the door and immediately called out to Sage. We all heard her when we ran up the hill. She was calling someone, but I couldn't tell who.

everyone called to her but got no response.

"Sage! Where are you?" Asia and the others called out. We searched everywhere. We finally got to mine and Akeno's room. I heard whimpers and I ordered everyone to check. No one heard anything, and we all got ready to leave until a huge roar of thunder was heard. A scream came from under my bed, and more crying.

"Bucho… anyone…. Please…. I'm really scared….. please make it stop." A weak voice called out.

Everyone seemed really shocked. When I heard that I immediately ran to my bed as the others lifted it.

Sage was in a corner of the room, shaking. She was in the worst state ever. She was curled up into a ball while trying to call out to someone, anything. I quickly grabbed her and pulled her into my arms. The others were gasping and crying at her pathetic state.

"bucho…. Onee-sama….. make it stop." She begged me with such a horse voice. She seemed very weak. When I looked into her eyes. They were dull, and empty. I knew then that this was a memory from one of her father's torture tactics she told me about. Her face was so pale, and she looked like she was dying.

"Shhh. Sage I'm right here. I will make it go away. I promise." I stated while trying not to cry. Everyone else ran out crying, because they couldn't take the scene in front of them.

She was holding onto me tightly and shaking wildly. She wouldn't stop crying.

" Bucho. I am so sorry. I know that was really childish of me." Se stated after she had calmed down. The storm stopped a while ago. She looked up at me with such a pale face and lifeless eyes.

"No. Sage it is alright. You will be slleping with me tonight. First lets get you cleaned up and eat." I stated while helping her stand up. She couldn't even walk. I carried her on my back to the bath. I washed her, and after she finally stopped shaking. I felt glad when she hugged me.

"Onee-sama. Thank you so much. I love you so much."

Sage's POV

After we finished with the bath, I was led to the kitchen where we ate dinner. Bucho and the others fed me. I was far to tired to even pick up anything. Not even the napkin. Actually I couldn't move at all. I was fare to scared from the memory.

Bucho and the others made sure to ask me if I were okay. All I did was nod my head. They all just smilled.

I was carried to bucho's room by Akeno while bucho "had a talk" with the others. Akeno laid me on bucho's bed. When she noticed that I was having a hard time breathing she went to go and get Asia.

"Asia said that she will heal any injuries you might have. Is that okay?" Akeno asked me with her wonderful smile.

Once again all I did was nod. Asia sat next to me and began to heal me.

"Why can't I heal this one?" she asked worriedly. I then notice that she was pointing at my scar on my neck. They both stared at me in confusing, while waiting for an amswer. When I figured it out my eyes widened in horror.

'No please don't ask….No! I didn't want to answer.'

As if knowing that I got even more frighten Asia left while Akeno smiled and placed her hand on my cheek. She then left the room.

"Bucho….. she seems to be really weak. I don't think that she will be able to help tomorrow."

"I know. I will at least help her heal as best I can. She seems really frightened."

They both walked in and smiled at me. I was feeling way weaker. I couldn't even nod. I felt like I was dying slowly.

"Sage. I will be going to sleep, is it alright if I move you over?" bucho asks kindly.

I smile giving her consent. She then picks me up and gently put me down at the edge of the bed closest to the wall. At first she didn't climb in and walked out the room again with Akeno. They soon came back. They were wearing pajamas. They both came up to me and removed my clothes so I was naked. Akeno went back to her bed after she kissed my cheek and said goodnight.

Bucho crawled into bed next to me. She pulled me into a hug. I would normally fight back but I couldn't. I let her hold me as I quickly fell asleep.

I woke up really hungry. I didn't know why. I looked to my right and saw bucho was asleep still. I tried to move but noticed her body weight was holding me down. Not wanting to wake her I just laid there. Today is the day that we fight Riser and his peerage.

"I will fight and I will win. For bucho's sake." I whisped to myself. My stomached growled when I looked over at bucho. For some reason my body reacted the same way it would if I was hungry when I looked at Akeno to.

"I wonder why I'm so hungry?"

"Sage….. you could just ask me to make breakfeast." A yawning bucho stated to me.

"No. it's fine really."

Today was the day we fought Riser and also the day before I die. I had to win so I could leave everyone happy. I must win no matter what.