This Is How A Heart Breaks
Chapter 10: Intuition

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After leaving the hospital Phil didn't feel very much like going to work but he didn't feel like going home either. He knew that if he did he would just spend the next two hours thinking about the mistakes he had made and thinking about Sam. They had come so close to having a chance together and he had thrown it away and how Sam's life was hanging in the balance. He couldn't help but feel responsible for what had happened to her. Phil felt his breath catch in his throat as he thought of life without Sam. Even if they were never more than friends he could cope, just as long as he could see her everyday and know that she was happy. Maybe her and Zain would be good together and he would give her the happiness she deserved. Somehow he knew that Natasha would never truly make him happy, in the short term she probably would but he couldn't seen her being with her for more than a few months at the longest. He liked her a lot but she wasn't Sam. He knew that he would never feel the same way about another woman as he did about Samantha Nixon. He just couldn't imagine his life without her.

Zain drove away from the hospital car park and headed back to work. He knew that these two hours would pass at a painfully slow rate but maybe working would distract him for a while. As he parked out the station he noticed that Phil hadn't followed him and he wondered where he had gone. He knew that there had always been something between Sam and Phil, some kind of chemistry or spark of attraction and he worried that this might push them together. It wasn't that he thought Phil wasn't good enough for Sam because he was convinced that Phil wouldn't be stupid enough to cheat on Sam like he had the other women in his life. But Zain loved her.
When he reached the CID office Zain saw that Natasha was already there and he approached her.

"Tasha, have you seen Phil today?" He asked.

She smirked. "Why do you want to know?" She asked.

"Well you know DS Nixon is in hospital?" Natasha nodded and Zain continued. "I just saw Phil at the hospital and I thought he was following me back here but he's disappeared."

"Ah right." Tasha said. "We went out last night, had some dodgy curry. He ate more than I did so it effected him more. He was going to stay at home tonight until it passes."

"I thought you said it was Chinese." Suzie piped up from the otherside of the desk where she was filing some documents.

Natasha turned and glared at her. "Zain and I are having a private conversation Suzie." She replied, before turning back to Zain and giving him a sickly sweet smile.

"Suzie, can I talk to you about that burgulary case please?" Zain said, making eye contact with her.

"Sure." She replied, firing a dirty look at Tasha before following Zain to his own desk on the other side of the room.

Phil went home and showered, he felt dirty after the previous night with Natasha and her scent seemed to linger around him. The last thing he wanted was for Sam to smell another woman on him when he went to visit her. Time was ticking by agonisingly slowly and he didn't know what to do with himself. After his shower Phil changed into jeans and a casual shirt before heading down to the corner shop. He selected a bunch of pink and white lilies from outside the shop and went inside to pay for them. When he returned home only three quarters of an hour had passed. He went through to his kitchen but didn't feel like eating anything. Instead he made himself a cup of coffee but the caffeine in his system only made him more on edge. He needed to see Sam.
"Where does that bitch get off..." Suzie muttered to Zain as they sat at his desk.

"Just ignore her Suzie, she's pathetic." Zain replied. "She's just trying to get her claws into Phil so she can get him in trouble with the DCI."

"That's the last thing he needs right now, with Sam being in hospital and everything." Suzie said. Zain had just managed to distract his thoughts away from Sam when Suzie said this.

"What do you mean by that?" Zain asked, slightly on the defensive.

"Well, it is kind of obvious that he's in love with her...if you ignore his recent behaviour with Natasha!"

Zain tried not to show how deflated he looked. How could he have fooled himself into thinking he had a chance with Sam.

"Zain, are you alright?" Suzie asked, noticing that he seemd to be lost in his thoughts. Zain looked up and met his eyes, then she understood. "You...you love her, don't you?"

Zain put his head in his hands. "Is it that damn obvious?" He moaned.

Suzie put her hand on his shoulder. "Call it female intuition." She smiled. She paused before adding. "She'd be lucky to have you, you know." She said before standing up and heading back to her own desk, leaving Zain's thoughts reeling.

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