How Did We Get Here Chapter 10: One is Breaking Into Two, a grey's anatomy fanfic

I tried with all my might
But still don't understand why we ever let it get so out of hand
My arms are reaching out and holding on tight
To what has always felt so right
It's hard to figure out the answers to the questions
When both our lives are going in separate directions

A week later I still lie in bed, I haven't left the house since the night Derek left. My heart aches for him wanting him to be here and hold me. It's been a week and I haven't heard from him and it's killing me, I feel empty inside and just want to sink into this bed and never be seen again. The tears should have been all drained from my eyes, but when I feel that I couldn't possibly cry anymore, I find myself crying once again. My eyes are so red and puffy that they hurt. I watch our wedding video over and over remembering a day when we were happy. I heard someone walking up the stairs and looked over at the door and saw Nancy standing there.

Nancy: Addie you need to get up

Addison: I don't want to

Nancy: Addie come on

Addison: Nanc please I just want to disappear. He's gone and it's all my fault

One is breaking into two
And my heart is turning blue
And you still don't get it, do you, do you
I thought we had all the love to go it for the long run
So before the damage is done
Let's start back over at one

I saw her walk toward me and crawl into bed with me, she took my hand as I looked up at her.

Nancy: I know this is hard Addie but you can't stay in here forever, it's not good or healthy for you

Addison: I just I just don't know what else to do. Nanc he's all I have, and I love him so much, I don't know how to go on without him

Lights out when every evening used to get so hot
Now we got so damned distracted we forgot
How to lock the world away and just get lost in where you end and where I begin
Love is strong but it's so easy to divide
So boy let's think about
how much is on the line

Nancy: Oh Addie I know, but staying in bed for a week isn't going to help. You have to get up put on a brave face and face the world head on. You have to fight for him, and you can't do that lying here.

Addison: I just love him so much

Nancy: I know you do

One is breaking into two
And my heart is turning blue
and you still don't get it do you, do you
I thought we had all the love to go it for the long run
so before the damage is done
let's start back over at one

I lied there with my best friend holding my hand as I cried for my husband. I knew she was right I couldn't do anything about him staying in bed, I had to get up, and face the world again. It's just been the last 11 years I haven't had to face the world without him and I'm scared to face it alone.

One is breaking into two
My heart is turning blue
And you still dont get it do you, do you
We had all the love to go it for the long run
So before the damage is done let's start back over as

Nancy: You don't have to do it alone. I'm here

It was like she was reading my mind, I looked at her wiping away the few tears before getting out of bed.

Addison: I'm going for a shower

Nancy: Good then we will go get something to eat

I looked back at her as I walked into the bathroom and smiled weakly before shutting the door behind me. I knew she was right I needed to get out of bed, I needed to get out of the house. But what I really wanted and needed was Derek.

(Start back over at one)
(Got to get back, got to get back)
One

A week later I stepped foot into Richard's office, I was looking forward to this fresh start. I shook the feeling of Addie from me as I walked in and saw him look up.

Richard: Derek

Derek: Richard thanks for having me

Richard: No thank you for coming out here. Where's that beautiful wife of yours?

I look down fighting back the pain I was feeling, this week has been hell, I missed Addie like crazy.

Derek: She's in New York

Richard: She's in New York then what are you doing here?

I looked at Richard and sighed: Were separated Richard

Richard: oh you and Addison. Wow I never thought that would ever happen

Derek: Neither did I

Richard: Well then I guess you can start tomorrow?

Derek: You bet. I will see you tomorrow Richard

I got up and started to walk out of the office when I heard Richard.

Richard: Derek call her

Derek: What?

Richard: You miss her call her. I'm sure you two could work this out. You both love each other, I have never seen two people more perfect for one another then you and Addison. You have been through so much together.

Derek: I can't Richard, it's not that simple.

With that I walked out the door fighting back the tears, we have been through so much together, and Addie and I were always perfect for each other, but is that enough to get passed her sleeping with my best friend. I sighed as I walked through the halls of Seattle Grace my new home. I saw doctors and nurses laughing and saw a couple walking hand and hand going into an on call room and it reminded me of Addison.

Flashback:

Addison was standing at the nurses station filling out a chart as Derek walked up to her wrapping his arms around her waist kissing her cheek, and whispered in her ear.

Derek: Dr.Shepherd do you have a minute?

Addison: For you Dr.Shepherd anytime

The couple walked hand in hand down the hall to an empty on call room where instantly their clothes were coming off, when their pagers went off.

I stopped and stood in the hall way when I saw the couple emerge from the room fixing their hair and clothes as they ran to answer what appeared to have been a page. I found myself laughing slightly at the thought, oh how it reminded me of Addison. I shrugged off the feeling as I made my way out of the hospital and across the street to the Emerald City bar I heard a few people talk about. I walked in ordered my drink and sat at a table when I noticed her.