Brittany can feel the butterflies in her stomach flutter around as she drives in the direction of her parent's house. It's just after lunch time and as it's only six days until Christmas, she and Santana have decided to take Cassidy to visit Susan and Brian Pierce so that Maribel and Carlos can have some time in private to wrap their Christmas presents. Both she and Santana are completely aware that the Lopez's have gone overboard once again this year, but it seems as if no matter how many times they tell them that they don't need to buy a million and one gifts, they do so anyway. The two women secretly enjoy it though because they love seeing how excited Cassidy gets when she sees how many presents she has from them and also because they both know that it is Carlos and Maribel's way of showing just how much they love their granddaughter despite not being able to see her as much as they would want to. They can't imagine how next Christmas will be when there are three children to buy for.
Today Brittany has purposely worn an oversized t-shirt and a pair of leggings in order to hide her pregnancy bump. Obviously, she's more than aware that she has to tell her parents about it today and she doesn't have a problem with that – she just doesn't want it being the first thing they notice when they see her for the first time in nearly a year. She has no idea how she and Santana are going to break the news of the pregnancy because they haven't bought Brian and Susan a gift like they did for Maribel and Carlos. At the time, Santana had pushed her to buy a storybook for her parents too, but in the end Brittany decided against it. She knew deep down that her parents wouldn't appreciate it like the Lopez's did and believed that it would probably be a waste of money. Besides they're always way too busy with work to visit them in New York or even Skype, so the blonde is sure that they probably won't even bother if they're in the twin's lives or not.
Sighing inwardly to herself, Brittany shakes the thoughts out of her head and glances in the mirror to check on Cassidy. She can tell by the look on her daughter's face that she too is nervous about today and she feels guilty because of that. Although she's tried countless of times to reach out to her parents to try and amend her relationship with them, Brittany thinks that if she had tried harder then she would have been more successful and Cassidy would have had a better relationship with them. Since she knows her daughter inside out, Brittany knows that Cassidy isn't going to enjoy spending time with them at all. She's just glad that the youngster agreed to do it and didn't cause a fuss. The couple of hours that they've decided to spend at the Pierce household will probably drag by and so Brittany is silently praying that she and Santana will be able to keep Cassidy entertained throughout it. She doesn't think that her parents will be any good at doing so because they were never around to look after her, which makes her doubt their skills when dealing with children.
In the back of her mind, Brittany hates thinking about her parents in the way that she does. Most people have an amazing relationship with their parents, but unfortunately she never has and she doesn't think she ever will. Even though they provided her with everything she needed when she was growing up, they failed to be around for any amount of time, and because of that she was forced to adapt to being alone or being with her nanny. At the time it never really bothered her because she didn't know anything different from the life that she was living, but when she gave birth to Cassidy she could never imagine leaving her and couldn't understand how or why her parents did it to her. Even at the age she is at, the blonde still has trouble digesting and dealing with the fact that her parents didn't want her and although that may seem silly to a lot of people, it doesn't to her.
When they arrive at the Pierce household, Brittany isn't surprised to see that neither of her parent's cars are at home. Her mother had texted her earlier explaining that they had to go out this morning to attend a business meeting, and since they usually run late she had advised the blonde to bring her house key so that she could let herself in. On one hand Brittany is relieved that her parents aren't here because it means that she can get her family settled before they make an appearance, but on the other she's slightly annoyed because it just further proves to her that her mother and father care more about their work than about their family and also because it means that they'll have to spend longer at the house waiting for them to arrive. Parking in the driveway, Brittany undoes her seatbelt and grabs her bag before hopping out of the car, standing next to her girlfriend and daughter who are already waiting for her. Together they walk up to the huge house together and as they do so, Cassidy slips one of her hands into Brittany's and the other into Santana's for some support.
With her key Brittany unlocks the door to the house and leads her family inside, and as soon as the door closes behind them all three of them shiver due to the coldness of the house. Although she lived there all of her life, Brittany's home never felt like a home due to the fact that they never spent much time there as a family. Of course it had all the decorations like photo frames, painting, vases and flowers to make it look as if a normal family lived there, but they never did their job of actually warming the home up and making it seem much more homely. Subconsciously, the blonde pulls Cassidy closer into her side and then does the same with Santana, wanting to keep them as close to her as possible. She needs some reassurance right now and she knows that the only people that can do it are the two most important girls in her life right now.
"Mama did you live here when you were little?" Cassidy asks as they make their way through to the living room and take a seat on one of the leather couches. Just by glancing around the room, Brittany can tell that not much has changed since she was here last and the house still doesn't seem lived in. "This house is so big!"
"Yeah Sweetie, I lived here when I was younger." Brittany confirms as she takes her eyes of her surroundings and looks at her daughter, who is staring back at her with curious eyes. "The house is very big and I'm sure you'll have fun exploring it, do you want to do that now?"
"I will in a minute." The youngster replies, her eyes searching around the room again. "Why is there no Christmas decorations up?" She suddenly asks with a frown. "Abuelo y Abuela have all their decorations up 'cept the tree because we're doing that together. Why do Oma en Opa not?"
The question makes Brittany sigh to herself and she sits in silence for a moment while she tries to think of an answer. She knows exactly why there are no Christmas decorations up and the reason for it is because her parents don't own any. However, she knows that she can't tell Cassidy that because she loves Christmas and it would probably upset her.
"I'm not too sure." She ends up answering with a small shrug. "They must have not gotten around to it because they're both so busy with their work."
Out of the corner of her eye, Brittany can see Santana staring at her funny and she quickly becomes aware that Santana has picked up on her weird behaviour. It makes her curse in her head because she didn't want the Latina to pick up on her mood and behaviour because she knew that it would worry her. In the back of her mind she is aware that it was probably a silly idea to try and hide something from her girlfriend since Santana knows her better than anyone else, but she really hates talking about her relationship with her parents to anyone and would rather avoid the whole situation if she could.
"Oh, well they should so it soon because it's nearly Christmas." She states very matter of factly. "I'm gonna go and explore."
Before either Brittany or Santana can open their mouths to reply, Cassidy jumps off her seat and runs out of the room and up the stairs. The blonde is positive that there's nothing that can hurt her daughter in the house, so she doesn't bother following her up the stairs. She's pretty certain that Cassidy will probably find her room and spend most of her time in there, which she doesn't mind because she thinks it's important that her daughter learns about her childhood at some point.
"Are you going to tell me the real reason your parents haven't got their Christmas decorations up?" Santana's voice snaps Brittany out of her thoughts, making her turn her attention towards the brunette. "I know that it's not because your parents have been out of town and haven't got around to it because my mom and dad were telling me that they've spent the past week hanging out with them quite a bit."
Leaning into Santana's awaiting arms, Brittany takes a deep breath in and exhales slowly. She closes her eyes as she snuggles into the crook of her girlfriend's neck and once she's satisfied and comfy, she presses a kiss to her collar bone. "They used to never put the decorations up because we never owned any, a lot of the time they weren't home for Christmas so they never bothered to buy any." She eventually explains, her voice small and quiet. "On the rare occasion that they were home, they weren't around for long so it never really mattered to them."
Santana is silent for a moment, too stunned to speak, and simply stares sadly at her girlfriend in disbelief. The news of Brittany's parents never really being around for Christmas makes her very sad because she remembers how much she loved spending the holiday with her parents and knows that if Maribel and Carlos knew what was going on in the Pierce household then they would have invited her for Christmas each year. Also, it makes Santana feel kind of like a shitty friend because she doesn't understand how or why she never noticed this sooner. She was Brittany's best friend growing up so she should have noticed that she was spending Christmas in her home with her nanny instead of her parents.
"Why did you never tell me about it?" She asks quietly, placing a loving kiss to Brittany's right temple. "If I had known then you could have spent Christmas with my family, we would of loved to have you."
"I don't know." The blonde responds truthfully with a shrug. "I guess I didn't want to bother you. I liked spending time with my nanny and she made sure that I had a great Christmas every year. I always got presents because my parents would send a list of things to buy me and my nanny would go out and get them. I remember being happy at Christmas so it couldn't have been that bad."
"That's not the point, Christmas is about spending time with your family and loved ones." Santana stresses. "You're never going to be spending Christmas alone ever again, you know that right?"
"Of course I know that." Brittany smiles, leaning in and kissing Santana sweetly. "I love you."
"I love you too, so much."
/
Half an hour later when Brittany, Santana and Cassidy are all sitting on the couch cuddled up together watching television, they are interrupted by the sound of two cars parking in the driveway. From where she is sitting, Brittany looks out of the large window to see her mother and father both getting out of their cars and the sight makes her roll her eyes because she'll never understand why they won't just both drive in the same one. As they walk up the driveway towards the house, the blonde can feel her heart rate begin to increase due to her anxiety and so she slips her hand into Santana's for something to help her to calm down. Santana always has a calming effect on her and since the Latina is the person who she loves and trusts the most, any kind of physical contact with her always makes her relax in tense situations.
When they hear the sound of the front door open and then close, Cassidy moves closer to Brittany and snuggles into her side. She can tell from the way Cassidy is acting that she's not comfortable being here right now and so she cuddles her back and begins to run her fingertips through her long brown hair, knowing it has a soothing effect on her.
The blonde looks up from her daughter just in time to see her mother and father walk into the living room and as soon as they do so, her whole body tenses and she's sure that both Santana and Cassidy felt it. The tension in the room is totally evident and it momentarily stuns Brittany, so much so that she forgets how to speak. She wants to at least say 'hi' to her parents, but she can't even bring herself to open her mouth.
"It's so good to see you Brian and Susan!" Santana greets when she realises that neither Brittany or the Pierces are going to say anything. She gets up from her seat, reluctantly breaking out of the hold that the blonde has on her hand and goes over to hug the two Pierce parents. "You both look fantastic!"
"Thank you dear!" Susan replies, hugging the brunette back before allowing her to then hug Brian. "You look amazing too."
"Susan is right, you do." Brian agrees as he places his hands on both of Santana's shoulders. "Each time we see you, you always look better."
"Thank you!" Santana beams at the compliment, turning around to face her family. "Hey Cass are you going to come over and say hello?" She questions, noticing that her daughter hasn't moved from her seat on the couch. She sighs when the youngster doesn't reply because she knows for a fact that she's now just being rude. "Cassidy come on, come and say hello." She orders, this time making her voice a little bit firmer.
Santana watches in disbelief when Cassidy once again ignores her, and instead snuggles further into Brittany. She can understand that Cassidy might be a little bit nervous because she doesn't get to see her grandparents very much, but she's also positive that Brittany is reinforcing her fear. Making eye contact with Brittany, Santana raises her eyebrow pointedly at her, signalling to her that she needs to do something about their daughter's behaviour.
"Come on baby." Brittany eventually speaks up. "Go and say hello to Oma en Opa."
"Mama..." Cassidy whines in protest, pouting at her mother. "Come with me?"
Brittany knows that she's going to have to eventually greet her parents, so she reluctantly nods her head and stands up from the couch with Cassidy following her actions. "Hey mom." She says with a small smile as she leans in and gives her mother a welcoming hug. "Hey dad." She adds when she gets around to hugging him too.
"It's nice to see you Brittany." Brian greets back when Susan doesn't say anything to their daughter, and then crouches down so that he's level with Cassidy. "Hey there Cassidy, you've grown since the last time I saw you."
"That's because I'm big." She answers as if it's the most obvious thing in the world, a smug smirk tugging at her lips as she does so. "Hello Oma."
"Hello dear." Susan acknowledges the youngster as she tentatively reaches out and ruffles her hair playfully. However, Cassidy doesn't see the playful side and silently frowns at her actions, but the older woman is too preoccupied to notice. "It's good to see you again."
Brian and Susan immediately jump back into conversation with Santana and Brittany stands there for a moment, silently watching the interaction between the three of them. It was obvious to her that her parents were colder towards her than they were to Santana, and she's wondering if anyone else has noticed that. She doesn't want to admit it, but it really does hurt to watch her parents be more warm and welcoming to someone that they're not even related to than their own daughter. The last thing Brittany wants to be is angry and jealous at the relationship Santana has with her parents, but she can feel herself already growing a little bit irritated because of it. She's positive that it's just her hormones playing up, but Brittany is praying that they settle down soon because she doesn't want to cause an unnecessary scene.
Sighing in defeat, Brittany makes her way back over to the couch, closely followed by Cassidy. The two of them sit down on it and Cassidy immediately curls back up into Brittany's side, wrapping her arms around her waist to hug the bump. In return Brittany wraps her arms protectively around Cassidy and leans forward to kiss her lovingly on the forehead. They only need to survive through this for a couple of hours more.
She isn't sure how long she watches her parents and Santana talk for, but eventually Brian and Susan excuse themselves to go and make everyone a drink and Santana comes back over to sit down on the couch. She takes the seat on the other side of Brittany and leans into her body, cuddling into her slightly. Although Brittany is annoyed at the current situation she's in, the blonde knows that Santana is not fully to blame for this and she shouldn't be angry at her which is why she wraps her arm around her and hugs her back. Fighting with Santana over something as silly is this wouldn't be a good idea for anyone, so Brittany does her best just to let it all go.
Without the presence of her parents, Brittany feels as if a huge weight has been lifted off her chest and so she takes a deep breath in and exhales slowly in an attempt to relax. The action catches the attention of Santana who tilts her head to the side curiously and raises one perfectly arched eyebrow quizzically, silently asking what's wrong. Deciding that now isn't the best time to bring up the fact that she wants to go home because her parents stress her out more than they should, Brittany simply shakes her head, indicating that right now isn't the time to talk about it.
"I don't like it here." Cassidy grumbles quietly, breaking the silence between them. "I want to go back to Abuelo y Abuela's house."
Santana pulls out of Brittany's embrace slightly so that she can look at her daughter and finds her sitting in a huff with her arms crossed over her chest. She then looks at Brittany who looks as if she's going to make no attempt in telling Cassidy off for being rude, which irritates her slightly because she knows that if Cassidy had said that in anyone else's house then she would have picked her up for it. She finds the situation with Brittany and her parents difficult to understand because she's so close to her own. On one hand, she doesn't think Brittany should be disrespecting them and being rude to them because she wasn't brought up like that. However on the other hand she feels as if she should let Brittany do what she wants because it's Mr and Mrs Pierce's fault that they don't have a good relationship with their daughter. She just wishes that the three Pierces could work through their problems because although it's easier said than done, Santana thinks that they would be so much more happier. She loves the relationship that she has with her own parents, and she just wants Brittany to experience that with her own ones too.
The Latina is pulled from her thoughts when Brian and Susan come back through to the living room with a tray carrying four cups of coffee and a glass of orange juice. She accepts her cup from Brian, thanking him as she does so and takes a sip from it while she watches the exchange between him and Brittany. Brittany copies her actions and mutters a thank you too, but instead of sipping the coffee, she places it down onto the coffee table. Santana knows for a fact that despite Brittany not even liking coffee that much, she isn't being rude by doing this and that the only reason she is doing it is because she's cutting down on her caffeine since she's pregnant.
"So, Britt told me that you guys had a business meeting this morning." Santana says, making conversation once everyone is seated. "How did it go?"
Once again, Brian and Susan immediately jump back into conversation with Santana and Brittany sits back and observes. She doesn't understand how Santana somehow always manages to know the right thing to say to her parents, but she wishes that she did understand it so that she could do the same. She glances down at her daughter who looks bored out of her mind and when their eyes lock, she shoots her a sympathetic smile before loading a game up on her iPhone and handing it to the youngster. Usually Cassidy isn't allowed to play on her phone but Brittany thinks that this time is an exception because if she doesn't do something to entertain her daughter then there's either going to be an argument or Cassidy is going to sit in a huff for the entire duration of the visit.
The conversation then turns to Santana's work, and Brittany finds herself more interested in listening to what her girlfriend has to say. She loves listening to Santana speak about her work because although she's already heard the story she's currently telling, the blonde loves hearing the passion in her voice whenever she does so. Brittany notices how proud her parents seem to be of Santana as they're giving her praise and it's kind of a bitter sweet moment for her. She's aware that her girlfriend works hard and deserves all the praise in the world for that, but at the same time she feels a little bit jealous because she's never been able to make her parents that proud of her. She just doesn't get it.
Deciding that her emotions are getting too much for her, Brittany excuses herself from the conversation -using the excuse that she needs to go to the bathroom- and exits the living room. Instead of using the bathroom downstairs, Brittany goes up the stairs and enters the bathroom of the farthest left of the house. Once she's safely inside with the door locked, she sits on the edge of the bathtub and places her head in her hands, taking a deep breath in and letting it out slowly. She wants to be able to relax and not allow her parent's behaviour to affect her, but it's proving to be a lot more difficult than she had fist expected. She feels bad that she's beginning to get annoyed at Santana because her parents are paying more attention to her than they are to anyone else, and she wishes that she could just make all of the feelings stop. She can't though, and it's exhausting.
None of this is Santana's fault, and she needs to pull herself together.
Brittany spends a little under five minutes in the bathroom and when she's calmed down and has collected her thoughts, she exits the bathroom but instead of going downstairs she walks into her old bedroom. As soon as she does so, it feels as if all the memories she once made inside of here come rushing back to her because nothing about the room has changed in the slightest. The fact that everything is exactly how she left it doesn't really surprise her because she knows that her parents wouldn't have changed anything as they don't spend long enough in the house to do so. They're usually travelling all over the world, hence why she never gets to see them.
Still wrapped up in her thoughts, the blonde walks over to the window ledge and sits down on it, resting her back against one of the flat edges and bringing her knees up to her chest. She remembers how she used to spend most of her time up here whenever she was at home. It was her favourite place to sit, to read, to write and to think, and she would spend many late nights and early mornings sitting there watching the sun set and sun rise.
She's interrupted from her reminiscing when the door to her bedroom creaks, and Brittany turns her head to see Santana tentatively enter the room. Silently, she crosses the distance of the room and comes to a stop at the window ledge before sliding onto it, her back leaning against the opposite side from the one Brittany is leaning against. Without saying a word, she pulls at Brittany's legs until they're fully extended and resting in her lap and then closes her eyes, enjoying the silence.
Brittany watches her girlfriend with curious eyes for a moment before leaning her head against the glass of the window and closing her eyes too. She never got a good sleep last night, so she's a little bit more tired than usual today. She thinks that's probably adding to her ridiculous mood swings too.
"Britt?" Santana calls, breaking the peaceful silence that fills the air. She brings her hands up and rests them on her girlfriend's legs before beginning to run her hands gently up and down them, knowing that Brittany loves it when she does that. "Are you okay?"
"I'm fine babe." Brittany answers, cracking her eyes open to look at the beautiful Latina. "I just find it difficult to be around my parents in an environment like this."
"I understand that." Santana nods sympathetically, squeezing Brittany's left leg to show her support. "We only need to stay for a few more hours though, and then we can leave."
"Oh I know, I'm counting down the minutes before we can." She jokes before turning completely serious. "I just always feel so shit when I'm around them San, because no matter what I do they're never proud of me."
Santana doesn't know what to say to Brittany's comment, so she leans over and lightly kisses her on the lips. She's tried to get Brittany to open up about her parents for years, and now that she's finally doing so, the Latina doesn't want to make the mistake of saying something insensitive which could make her close up again. She wants to be there for her girlfriend as much as possible.
"You can only do your best honey, and if they're not proud of you then there are plenty of other people who are." She eventually replies, choosing her words carefully. "Look at my parents for example, they have always adored you and they still do now. They see you as their other daughter and love absolutely everything about you."
The comment makes Brittany crack a small smile because she knows for a fact that it's true. For some reason Maribel and Carlos have always adored her, and they do treat her like their own daughter. She's lucky to have people like that in her life because she does view them as the mother and father figure that she never had. She would much rather go to them if she had a problem than go to her own parents.
"I know they do, and I love both you and your parents." She replies sincerely. "It just sucks that mines always have something negative to say."
"Don't listen to their negativity, you don't need it in your life." Santana declares, staring straight into Brittany's bright blue eyes. "I love you, my parents love you, our daughter idolises you, and I'm one hundred percent positive that our twins are going to as well. They are the people that matter Britt, because at the end of the day they are the ones that are going to be there for you when you need them the most."
Brittany takes a moment to allow Santana's words to sink in, and once they do she feels so much better. Santana is right with everything that she says, and she needs to stop focussing on trying to please her parents and focus on being the person she has grown up to be. Her eyes scan around the room and stop upon her bed in the middle of the room. So many memories were made there with Santana, and she sort of wishes she could go back in time and do things differently with her.
"Our first kiss was in here." She randomly muses. "So was our first time, do you remember?"
"Of course I remember." Santana answers softly, looking over at the bed as well. "How could I forget?"
/
It's not often that Santana Lopez gets nervous, but tonight she is. It's a lovely summer's Friday evening and she's currently sitting in the living room at her best friend Brittany's house, waiting for her to come downstairs from her bedroom. She usually hangs out with Brittany every evening so for most people they would probably think it's weird that she's nervous, but tonight is different.
Tonight, they're having their very first date.
Santana is pretty sure that she's had a crush on Brittany since the first day they met at kindergarten, but since she was different from the other girls, she never decided to tell the blonde that. Although her parents had brought her up to realise that it was perfectly okay for two boys or two girls to date, Santana had always thought that she would never be able to date anyone because she was different. However, she was proved completely wrong on Tuesday evening when she and Brittany were hanging out by the pool and the blonde asked her on a date.
She had been momentarily stunned when the words left Brittany's thin pink lips because Santana never thought that she'd hear them come out of her best friend's mouth, but she had quickly gained composure and had accepted the offer.
Which is what brings her to the Pierce household at six o'clock on a Friday evening.
She has no idea what Brittany has planned for tonight, but Santana is sure that she's going to love it no matter what. Whenever she is with Brittany she's smiling and happy, and so she's sure that they're going to have a great time. All Santana knows is that they're having the date in the house because they don't want anyone spotting them. It's not because they want to be a secret couple, it's because if things don't work out between them and they want to go back to being just friends, they don't want other people knowing that they previously dated. It would just make things awkward.
Santana is broken out of her thoughts when she hears footsteps coming down the stairs and so she stands up from the couch, ready to greet her date for this evening. While she's waiting, she smooths down her pair of black jeans and straightens out the red top and leather jacket she's wearing. Despite her outfit being quite casual, Santana thinks that she looks hot for tonight, especially since she's done her make up and hair for this evening. Usually when she's hanging out with Brittany they're both in sweatpants and a hoodie, so this is definitely a step up.
When Brittany appears in the doorway, Santana's breath catches in her throat and she's positive that she's forgotten how to breathe. Her eyes travel down Brittany's body in observation and she takes in the outfit that she's wearing, which consists of a pair of denim shorts and a loose hanging black tank top.
"You look amazing." Santana speaks her thoughts out loud, taking a step towards her date. "You always look beautiful, but tonight you look extra beautiful."
"Thanks, you look amazing too." Brittany giggles flirtatiously, blushing as she meets Santana in the middle of the room. "I cooked pizza for us, so tonight I was thinking that we could just watch a movie, talk and eat pizza... is that okay?"
Santana can sense the hesitancy and nervousness in Brittany's voice, so she ever so gently brings her hand up to Brittany's cheek and tilts her head up slightly so that she can look into her eyes. "Watching a movie, talking and eating pizza with you sounds perfect, Britt." She practically whispers, suddenly aware of how close they are to one another. "I'll grab the pizza from the kitchen and I'll meet you upstairs, okay?"
Brittany nods her head bashfully and the two of them make their way out of the living room and into the hallway. They separate ways after that, and Brittany goes to her left and up the stairs while Santana proceeds straight forward towards the kitchen. The Pierce household is huge, but as she's been in it so often, she knows it like the back of her hand. The Latina finds the pizza already cut into eight sitting on the counter top and so she picks up the plate and the two cans of soda that are lying next to it, and follows Brittany's lead to upstairs.
Before she enters the bedroom, Santana inhales deeply and exhales slowly to calm her nerves. She knows that she shouldn't be nervous, but she really wants everything to go well with Brittany tonight because she really, really likes her. Lightly tapping the door open with her foot, Santana walks into the bedroom to find Brittany already sitting on the bed, with her back propped up against the headboard.
"Come on San, I chose one of our favourite movies!" Brittany calls out encouragingly, patting the spot on the bed next to her. Santana takes the hint and makes her way over to the bed, placing the pizza at the foot of it and handing the cans of juice to Brittany before sliding into the spot next to the girl. They're sitting so close that their arms are touching each other's but neither of them seem to mind since they're used to sitting like this.
"I thought you didn't like The Breakfast Club?" Santana asks curiously when she realises what movie Brittany has put on. "You always complain that it's boring and we never make it to the end."
"I know, and I do still think that, but it's your favourite film." Brittany replies with an innocent shrug. "I'd much rather watch something that makes you happy, than something that doesn't San."
Santana stares at Brittany for a moment, getting lost in her own thoughts for the second time this evening. Everything about right now is perfect and Santana doesn't think that there's a better person to go on a date with than Brittany. Her eyes flicker down to Brittany's lips, and they widen slightly when she realises how close they are. Their faces are only inches apart, so much so that Santana can feel Brittany's breath hitting her cheeks. She's wanted to kiss Brittany for months now, ever since she started to develop strong feelings for her, but she had never done it because she was scared that it wasn't what Brittany wanted.
However, as she stares into Brittany's eyes, Santana notices that they have gone a slightly darker shade of blue and she takes that as a sign that Brittany wants this too. Nervously licking her lips, Santana brings one of her hands up and rests it on Brittany's cheek. She's never actually kissed anyone before and she knows that Brittany hasn't either, so she hopes that what she's doing is correct.
Brittany mirrors her actions and places one hand on Santana's cheek and the other one on her waist and shuffles slightly so that they're at a more comfortable angle before leaning in slightly. She's wanted to kiss her best friend for what seems like forever, and she can feel her heart pounding in her chest at the idea of doing so.
Feeling a little bit bolder, Santana leans in some more and carefully brushes her nose against Brittany's a few times, causing the blonde to scrunch it up due to the tickling sensation. While Brittany is distracted, Santana takes this opportunity to close the distance between them both and her soft plump lips find Brittany's with ease.
As soon as they come into contact with one another, both Brittany and Santana freeze, but once they get over the initial shock Santana begins to slowly move her lips against Brittany's. Her best friend soon catches on to what she's supposed to be doing and does her best to kiss her back. Their kiss is a little bit sloppy and messy, but neither of them care at this moment in time. All that matters is that they've finally done it and they're together.
The movie is quickly forgotten about.
/
Exactly a year later, Santana finds herself laying on Brittany's bed with Brittany hovering over her. They've just come back from their one year anniversary dinner at Breadsticks, and now Santana is here to spend the night with her girlfriend. Usually, they don't spend nights together because ever since they started exclusively dating, Maribel and Carlos made sure that they only spent time alone at Brittany's whenever her nanny was around (which wasn't very often since they were now sixteen and the Pierce parents thought Brittany was more than capable of looking after herself most of the time). However, tonight is different because even though they had to tell a tiny white lie to Carlos and Maribel, they managed to convince them that Brittany's nanny was staying the night which is why they allowed Santana to stay over.
"I'm so glad you're here." Brittany whispers breathlessly, nudging her nose against Santana's. "It's been so long since the last time you stayed over"
"I know." Santana brings her hands up to rest on Brittany's hips and pulls her down slightly so that she's able to kiss her. "I can't believe my parents bought the lie we told them."
The last time Santana and Brittany had the chance to spend time at Brittany's house on their own was just under three months ago, so both of them are excited about finally having the chance to do so. They've been dating for an entire year now, and they went exclusive with their relationship nine months ago and they're already the power couple at school. Both of them love the attention they get for it, but more so they just love that they can openly be together and that they don't have to hide their feelings any longer.
Santana's tongue traces along the bottom of Brittany's lip, asking for entrance and once she's given it, she slips it past the blonde's now slightly parted lips and explores her mouth. As soon as their tongues come into contact with one another, Brittany and Santana simultaneously moan into each other's mouth and the Latina brings her hand to rest on the back of her girlfriend's neck, pulling her in to deepen the kiss.
Although they make out all the time, they very rarely get the chance to make out this intimately because it seems as if Mr and Mrs Lopez are always on the look out whenever they're at Santana's house, so this is all very new to them. Santana loves the way that Brittany is straddling her lower waist and how her already short shorts are slightly riding up her thighs, and the sight in front of her is driving her crazy. She can feel the pressure building in her jeans and she internally curses herself for not being able to control herself. Whenever she's around Brittany she always loses control.
The Latina is pretty sure the blonde can read her mind because seconds later she feels Brittany grind down into her lap, which makes her open her eyes and break their kiss in surprise. She looks through her long thick eyelashes to find Brittany smirking knowingly at her. Contrary to popular belief and the rumours that are circulating around McKinley High, Brittany and Santana are yet to go all the way and in fact, they've not done that many sexual things together. Of course they've experimented a little bit whenever they've had time together, like the last time they hung out Brittany gave her an amazing blowjob and she returned the favour by eating her out. They've done stuff like that a few times now, but they'd both like to do it more often which is why they're totally going to take advantage of spending the night alone.
"You're so sexy." Brittany whispers in Santana's ear, breaking the kiss in order to do so. "I want you so bad."
Santana knows that she must be doing a good job at getting Brittany worked up and frustrated because she has the girl practically moaning in her lap already. It only spurs her on more and so she brings her hands to the hem of Brittany t-shirt and toys with it for a few seconds before pulling it over her head, leaving her in just her in just her dark purple lace bra. The sight in front of her is enough to make Santana's mouth water, and she allows her fingertips to trace over her girlfriend's cleavage.
"So beautiful." She muses, distracted by Brittany's body. "I want to see more of you."
She watches as Brittany blushes at the compliment and then brings her hands to the button on Brittany's denim shorts. She wants to take them off so that she can see the sight of the blonde in her underwear, and so when Brittany nods her head and raises her hips, signalling for her to take them off Santana does just that. She pulls the small article of clothing down Brittany's cream coloured long legs and then hastily discards them to the floor, too focussed on her girlfriend to care about where they've landed.
The Latina can practically feel her mouth watering when she sees that Brittany is wearing a matching pair of panties, and all she wants to do now is feel every inch and curve of the beautiful blonde sitting in front of her. However, it's as if Brittany has other ideas because before Santana can even comprehend what's going on, Brittany is already at work on unbuttoning her jeans and pulling them down her legs before unbuttoning her shirt and pulling it down her toned tan arms, leaving them both in nothing but their underwear.
Once again, Brittany straddles Santana but instead of sitting down at her waist, she moves her body up until she's above her stomach and then carefully lowers herself down onto it. Santana gasps at the contact because as soon as her stomach comes into contact with Brittany, she can feels the heat and dampness from Brittany's panties, giving her a clear indication that her girlfriend is totally turned on.
Allowing her hands to run up the length of Brittany's thighs, the brunette comes to a stop at the top of Brittany's panties and moves the fabric to the side before running one finger through her wet folds. The action makes Brittany moan and buck her hips forward, and Santana thinks that she could watch her girlfriend forever. "You're already so wet, Britt." She comments, coating her finger in the other girl's juice before taking it away and popping it in her mouth. "You taste just as good as I remember."
"Please don't tease me." Brittany whines as she grinds down onto Santana's stomach, wanting more contact with her. "I need you."
Santana wastes no time in changing the position that they're in, and with one swift motion she lays Brittany down on the king sized bed and hovers over her. She makes quick work of unclasping Brittany's bra and throwing it to the floor, and then does her same with her panties so that she's completely naked. Just like the other few times that she's seen Brittany naked, Santana is left speechless and she's sure that Brittany is some kind of goddess. She thinks her girlfriend looks absolutely beautiful lying on the bed, her chest slightly heaving up and down, and her golden blonde hair framing her face. She's the most beautiful girl Santana has ever seen.
Leaning in, Santana kisses Brittany softly before trailing her lips down her body. She leaves a line of small peppered kisses down the valley of her breasts and continues kissing down to her stomach and bellybutton. As she's doing so, she brings her hands up to Brittany's breasts and begins to massage them both, taking her nipples and rolling them between her thumb and forefinger as she does so. She would love to take them in her mouth, but she's certain that if she continues to tease Brittany for much longer then the blonde is probably going to explode.
By the time she's made it down to Brittany's centre, Santana is laying flat on her stomach on the bed between Brittany's legs and she can feel her hard on push into the mattress. She can't help but get aroused at the sight of Brittany lying naked in front of her, and although the position isn't the comfiest for her she's willing to put up with it because she knows that soon, Brittany will most definitely do something to fix the problem.
"San..." Brittany whines impatiently, canting her hips upwards so that her centre is level with her girlfriend's face. "Please..."
"Please what?" Santana teases playfully, blowing a breath of cool air lightly on the blonde's centre. "What do you want baby?"
"I want you." Brittany answers, grabbing onto one of Santana's hands and pulling her back up so that their face to face. Santana is confused at the sudden change, but when she looks into Brittany's eyes, she knows that there's more to what her girlfriend wants. "I want you and me..." She trails off not managing to find the words, and she breaks the intense eye contact with the brunette.
"You want you and me..." Santana repeats, licking her lips nervously because she's ninety nine percent sure that she knows that Brittany wants to say. "... to have sex?"
She watches as Brittany shyly nods her head in conformation, and Santana feels her stomach do somersaults. Of course she wants to have sex with Brittany, but it makes her nervous because it's something that they've never done before. Collectively, they've spent hours talking about it when they've spent time alone and they've prepared for it by doing research and buying condoms already, Santana's just taken off guard because she didn't think it would be happening tonight.
"Are you sure that's what you want?" The Latina asks, searching Brittany's face for any sign of hesitation. "I know there's rumours going around that we've already had sex and it's kind of put pressure on us to do that, but I don't want you to think that we have to do it. I want to have sex with you, but I don't mind waiting if you're not ready."
Santana's not a fool or someone who thinks with her dick. She's noticed the change in Brittany since the rumours at school started to spread, and she's also noticed the way Brittany has began to try and take things further with them whenever they're making out. Santana loves it and is ready to take that next step in their relationship, but she wants to make sure that Brittany is one hundred percent sure about it. The brunette has researched everything that she needs to on the internet and she's found out that the first time can be uncomfortable for the girl, and the last thing she wants to do is hurt someone who means so much to her.
"Yeah it's what I want." Brittany confirms firmly, nodding her head while doing so. "I don't care about what anyone else says, I want my first time to be with you and I'm ready."
Santana takes a moment to think everything over before eventually nodding her head in understanding. She's not going to deny Brittany of sex when it's something that they both want, but she's going to be careful throughout it all. She wants Brittany and herself to be able to remember their first time making love to one another as a good time, and not one where it hurt and was over as soon as it started.
"Okay..." Santana breathes out, squeezing Brittany's hand that's still in hers. "Just promise me though that if you want me to stop or if it hurts you then I want you to tell me. You can change your mind at any time, Britt. I won't be mad."
Brittany smiles lovingly at her girlfriend, wondering how she got so lucky with someone like her and then leans in a plants a kiss on her lips. "I promise, San." She whispers against them. "The same goes for you, if you want to stop then we can."
Santana tucks a strand of Brittany's hair behind her ear before reattaching their lips again. Her arousal hasn't gone down throughout their little conversation, but Santana knows how important it is to set the mood before going through with their first time. She feels Brittany's hands unclasp her bra, so she quickly pulls it down her arms and throws it down onto the floor beside Brittany's. As soon as the barrier of clothing is gone, Santana pulls Brittany flush against her and they both gasp at the feeling of their breasts touching.
They kiss for a couple of minutes longer, allowing their hands to explore each other's bodies before Brittany reaches down and tugs Santana's boxers down, allowing her girlfriend's dick to stand at it's full length. Santana lets out a breath of relief as the cool air hits her hardened member before slowly and carefully pushing Brittany down onto the mattress below them. She can tell by the way that Brittany's chest is heaving up and down, the way that her nipples are hard, and the way that her pussy is already glistening in her own juice that she's more than ready for this.
"Britt, where's the condoms?" She breathlessly questions, her eyes scanning around the room in an attempt to look for them. However that's proven difficult due to the dim lighting in the room. "I want to have kids one day, but not when I'm sixteen."
Instead of answering verbally, the blonde sits up on the bed and reaches over to her bedside cabinet, pulling open the top drawer. She grabs the brand new box of condoms and opens them, taking one out the box and then throwing it back into drawer. With her teeth, she rips the packet open and discards the wrapper on the floor before resting her hands on Santana's hips and pulling her in closer to her. Once she's satisfied with the position, she wraps her left hand around Santana's member and strokes it a few times, making sure it's at it's full length, and then carefully rolls the condom down past the head and to the base of her dick.
Santana watches in awe as Brittany leans down and kisses the tip of her dick before lying back down onto the bed, waiting for the Latina to make the next move. Pushing her nerves away, the brunette places one hand on each of Brittany's thighs and parts her legs slightly more than they already are and then shuffles into the space that's been created. With her left hand, Santana takes her dick and lines up the tip of it with Brittany's entrance. The incredibly aroused part of her wants to just jut her hips forward and bury herself right inside of her girlfriend, but the caring and loving side stops her from doing that.
Without breaking eye contact with the blonde, Santana pushes her hips forward until the head of her dick is inside Brittany, and then she scans her girlfriend's face for any signs of discomfort or pain. There doesn't seem to be any and Santana takes that as a good sign, and so she decides to push in a little bit further but as she does so, she realises just how tight Brittany is around her dick. She's about to stop because she really doesn't think that it can be comfortable for Brittany, but just as she's about to, Brittany tells her to keep going so she complies with the request.
The feeling of being inside Brittany is driving Santana insane, but she's not even halfway in when she realises that something isn't quite right. She knows that Brittany's already extremely wet because she's felt her arousal, so she doesn't understand why its so difficult to get inside of her. Her question is quickly answered when she glances up at Brittany and finds her gripping onto the white sheets below them with her eyebrows furrowed. Since Santana knows Brittany better than the back of her hand, it's a clear sign that the blonde isn't fully relaxed, which explains why it's difficult.
"Baby look at me..." Santana commands softly, stopping all movements until she's got Brittany's full attention. "Does it hurt?"
"A little bit..." Brittany admits, feeling a little bit embarrassed. "It's okay though, just keep going."
"No. I'm not continuing if it's going to hurt you." Santana shakes her head in disagreement. "I need you to relax for me." She instructs, running her hands soothingly up the curves of Brittany's hips. "Take a deep breath in and let it out slowly, you're safe with me Britt."
While Brittany is focussing on fixing her breathing, Santana begins to pepper kisses all over her girlfriend's body which helps to relax her. Once she's sure that the blonde beneath her is completely relaxed, Santana places a chaste kiss on Brittany's lips before going back to their previous activities.
"I'm going to go back inside now, okay?" Santana warns, lining the head of her dick back up with Brittany's entrance.
"Don't stop this time." Brittany instructs, reaching out for Santana's hand so that she has something to hold. "Just push in slowly and keep going."
Santana would much rather take her time entering her girlfriend, but ultimately she knows that she should do whatever Brittany asks her to because at the end of the day, it's her body she's entering. Interlocking their fingers, Santana begins to push back into Brittany and moans in pleasure when the head of her dick is back inside of the blonde. She slowly continues pushing into the girl beneath her, watching intently as Brittany scrunches up her face and whimpers slightly and before she knows it, she's fully inside of her.
Santana doesn't think she's ever felt a feeling this good and loves the way that Brittany's walls are so tight around her dick, and so she stays still for a couple of minutes until Brittany has adjusted to the size. The brunette can already feel her orgasm approaching due to Brittany's walls clenching around her member and she knows that there's no way she's going to last long, she just hopes that she lasts long enough to give Brittany some pleasure too.
She slowly begins to pull out of Brittany and push back in when the blonde gives her the signal to do so, and she almost blows her load while doing so because she's never felt anything like this before. The first couple of thrusts are sloppy and the movements are broken and a little bit jerky, but after a few more thrusts Santana manages to create a steady rhythm. With her hand that's not holding onto Brittany's, she begins to circle her girlfriend's clit, causing her to moan loudly at the contact. Although they've not spent a lot of time intimately together, Santana knows exactly what Brittany likes, and circling her clit is definitely one of those things.
"San!" Brittany whines, her back arching off the bed in pleasure. "Fuck.."
"You're so beautiful babe." Santana comments, continuing to circle Brittany's clit while thrusting in and out of her. "I'm so close." She announces when the pressure becomes almost unbearable.
"Me too." The blonde moans, grabbing onto the sheets beneath her with her free hand. "Cum with me San."
It doesn't take long for the both of them to tip over the edge, and Santana stays inside of Brittany while they ride out their orgasms. Once they're finished, Santana collapses down on top of Brittany and immediately kisses her softly and slowly, doing her best to convey all of her love through it. They lay in silence for a couple of minutes before the brunette tentatively pulls out of her girlfriend, takes the condom off and drops it into the bin.
She looks over to Brittany and finds her lazily staring back at her, and they share a smile before Santana crawls back up to her and lies down so that they're face to face. "That was amazing, thank you for sharing that experience with me." She whispers, cupping Brittany's cheek and stroking it with the pad of her thumb. "Are you sore."
"A little bit." Brittany nods, yawning slightly as she does so. "Thank you for being my first, it was really special."
"I'll take care of you." The Latina tells her, scooping Brittany up into her arms and allowing the other girl to rest her head on her chest. "I love you."
"I love you too."
/
Brittany and Santana make their way back downstairs hand in hand. While reminiscing about their past together, the two women had talked things through about Brittany's parents and they decided that for today, the best thing to do is to tell them about the pregnancy as soon as possible and arrange another day that they can all meet up, but without Cassidy. It's not that they want their daughter to be excluded from any family activities, but Brittany feels as if she needs to talk to her parents without Cassidy there so that she can tell them how she truly feels.
When they enter the living room, they find Cassidy watching the television and Brian and Susan looking down at their phones. The sight makes Brittany roll her eyes because it just proves to her that her parents aren't making as big of an effort as they could be, and then coughs lightly to gain everyone's attention.
"Brittany and I have something we'd like to tell you." Santana says, directing her attention towards Brian and Susan. She then glances at Brittany who nods at her encouragingly and she takes that as her cue to announce the news. "Brittany is pregnant."
The atmosphere changes in the room as soon as the words come out of Santana's mouth, and it's as if the air grows slightly colder. Brian and Susan don't look happy like Maribel and Carlos did when they broke the news to them, and in the pit of Brittany's stomach she has a feeling that this isn't going to go well.
"Oh..." Susan breathes out, placing her phone down onto the coffee table in front of her. "I thought that you were just gaining weight, but I guess this is worse than that."
"It's worse than that?" Brittany repeats through gritted teeth, doing her best to keep her growing anger at bay. "What do you mean by that?"
"A child is a permanent decision." Susan explains to Brittany as if she's dumb. "I thought you would have waited a while before popping out another one."
Brittany's jaw clenches in anger as she stares in disbelief at her mother. She can't believe that those words actually left her mother's mouth, especially in front of Cassidy, and that she's treating her like a child. She feels Santana place a comforting hand on her shoulder in an attempt to calm her down, but it has little effect on her.
"We're having another two." She practically growls, placing a protective hand over her stomach. "I'm pregnant with twins."
The tension in the room becomes very apparent as the words fall from Brittany's mouth, and both Santana and Brittany know that this is more than likely going to end in an argument. "Hey Cass." Santana speaks up, gaining her daughter's attention. "Can you come through to the kitchen with me to get a drink? I won't have enough hands to carry them for me, you and Mama."
"I don't wanna go." Cassidy pouts, knowing that her mother is upset. "I want to stay with Mama." She gets up from her seat on the couch and runs over to her mother, hugging her tightly and pressing a kiss to her belly. Brittany thinks the actions are adorable.
"Honey go with your Mami." She smiles encouragingly, doing her best not to show her real emotions. "The babies are thirsty and would love a drink." She leans down and kisses her daughter's forehead. "Go and be a good big sister and get them a drink of water, okay?"
Cassidy reluctantly nods her head, but takes Santana's hand and allows her mother to lead her out of the room. Once Brittany is sure that Cassidy is out of hearing distance, she silently walks over to the couch and sits down.
"What was that about?" Brian questions, referring to Cassidy and Santana leaving the room. "I thought everything was going well!"
"Everything was going well until mom couldn't pretend to be happy!" Brittany spits angrily, glaring at her parents. When she had thought about telling her parents, she knew that they wouldn't be as happy as Maribel and Carlos, but she did think they would at least be a little bit happy. She doesn't understand how she could have been so wrong.
"I am happy for you!" Susan says calmly. "I just simply thought that you would wait a while before popping out another. I'm actually surprised you told us about this pregnancy, and didn't run off like the last one."
Brittany can feel her face heat up at that comment and she doesn't know if it's due to embarrassment or anger. "It's been seven years since I gave birth to Cassidy." She states, gritting her teeth. "We didn't plan to have a child and we were very surprised when we found out that we were having twins, but it's happened now and we need to deal with it. Santana and I love the fact that we're having two other children and we were hoping that we would have your support with this."
"It wasn't planned?" Brian questions exasperatedly, running his hands through his hair. "Brittany do you realise how many financial implications another two children will bring?!"
"Of course I know!" The blonde scoffs, slightly offended at the fact that her parents are continuing to treat her like a child. "Children are expensive, we know that from Cassidy, but Santana and I have done extremely well to provide for our family!"
"You've done quite well." Susan acknowledges with a slight nod. "I don't think you realise how much extra work you're going to have on your plate. You're not going to have all that extra money that you have now because children are a burden!" She states matter of factly. "Why do you think we stopped after you? You weren't planned and it was exhausting to work and look after you, and you ran down our bank account right until you left us!"
Brian and Susan chuckle at the comment that Susan has made, but Brittany doesn't see the funny side in it. She furiously blinks in attempt to get rid of the tears that her in her eyes and shakes her head in disbelief. She always knew that her parents found it difficult to balance their work life with their family life, but she had no idea that they thought she was a burden. Standing up abruptly, she storms out of the room and into the kitchen where she finds her family, and falls into Santana's open arms.
/
Sorry for the wait, but this is nearly 11,000 words so I hope that makes up for it!
Let me know what you all think! Can we get to 300 reviews?