Remember When It Rained Chapter 10: She Will Be Loved, a sailor moon fanfic

Ok here we go. This is by far my most favorite chapter next to Invisible. This is also a very very important chapter. This is a turning point. I can either go a lot farther or it means we've almost come to the end of our young lovers story....for now. Who knows, but there will def be a couple more chapters and quite possibly a sequel, but a sequel might kill the glory so to speak of the story. The song featured in this chapter is one of my personal close favorites, She Will be Loved by Maroon 5. I sugguest EVERYONE gets this song. You will def feel changed by this song( I know I was) and you'll see just how perfect it is for this chapter. I tried to section off the lyrics and make it nicer, but computers are evil things and it wouldn't let me, so the lyrics are in italics. I do hope I pull on a few heartstrings and, just so you know, I did have a fight VERY similiar to this with my Darien. Let's say we are still trying on that one. Hope you all enjoy it and continue to tell me what you think. Luv Yas!

I haven't done this in a while but I don't own Sailor Moon, just my life story.

I'm dedicating this to my very close friend Josh. She Will Be Loved.

Remember When It Rained

By: Rini

Chapter 10: She Will Be Loved

Beauty Queen of only

Eighteen

She had some trouble with

Herself

He was always there to help

Her

She always belonged to

Someone else

If there was ever a moment in my life that I wanted to hide and cry my life away, this was that moment. This was that moment you never forget, even though you've tried so hard. It was in that instant, my dreams had shattered like a mirror and the pieces only shattered more as you tried to put them back in place.

I looked at him and saw only casually coolness, distant and deprived of any particular emotion. Yet slowly as my eyes started to well up, his face was clouded over in something far different. It shifted ever so slightly, liking going through a gradual phase. It softened and for a second I thought he was regretting what he'd done.

But as quickly as his face changed, it shifted back to distant again. It was like light filtering through a window on a cloudy night. It was bright and clear, but drifted away with a change in the wind, almost as though it was never really there.

"Well Serena, what are you waiting for?" Darien called again.

I kept my face straight at him, unable and unwilling to turn away and not let him see exactly what I was feeling. My arms laid straight at my sides and were shaking, slowly shifting from sadness to anger, and my fists would clench and unclench.

My eyes burned with unshed tears, but I blinked them away. I was not going to allow him the pleasure of seeing me cry. Not again.

"Lita, Travis, go start the car right now. I'll be there in a moment," I said very steady.

"Sere," Travis began.

Lita grabbed his arm and started to pull him away," We have to go now."

Travis looked back pleadingly at me, as though trying to figure out what I was going to do next, but Lita's insistent urging and pulling had him quickly at his car door. I heard two doors close and the engine roar to life. There was only going to be one chance at this. There was no turning back.

I felt the odd looks and stares bore into me at all angles. The questioning glares of both Andrew and Chris made me shake and shiver, but the worst was my father's. I could feel his gaze like an ice cube traveling down my spine. It's eerie how you can be so acutely aware of things yet not able to comprehend why that is.

I took slow steps towards Darien who was only a few feet away from the hammock I had previously occupied. Once more, faint traces of regret flickered upon his face but quickly returned to the distant stoic one I had grown accustomed to. I stopped right in front of him. I looked at him and begged with my eyes for him to take the opportunity to change all this. He just smirked and tapped his foot in impatience.

That was all I needed.

Smack!

My hand burned with pain and heat from the force of the slap I had just given Darien. Tears were now going down my cheek as I was seething in rage. I couldn't stand it any more. I had had enough of this, more than any person should have to endure. I put my heart and soul out on the line to someone I thought I could trust, and this was how I was repaid. I could hardly look at him anymore. He disgusted me now.

"How dare you walk into my house and try that? How dare you give away a personally secret for some sick joke?" I screamed, practically shaking.

Darien just held his hand to his bright red cheek. He suddenly held an expression as if his whole world just fell apart. He looked more vulnerable and lost than anyone I had ever seen before. Yet, I no longer concerned for remorse. His world could have ended for all I cared.

"How dare you betray me like that?" I whispered between forced breaths.

Darien tried to reach a hand out," Sere please?"

I smacked it away," Don't you dare call me that! Don't you dare try to apologize. I gave you everything. Now you mean nothing. I hope I never see you again Darien Chiba."

With that, I turned around, amidst the looks and gasps of those around me, and made my long stride to Travis and Lita in the running car. When I looked over, both of them were standing by the car with their mouths slightly parted. They looked at me with such sincere sympathy and pity that I felt like I was going to be sick. I didn't want pity; I just wanted to leave.

"We're leaving now," I said in an even tone once I opened the back door.

The last thing I saw as we drove away was Darien walking to the driveway with his hand still held to his cheek, but what I missed was the tear in his eye.

I drove for miles and miles

And wound up at your door

I've had you so many times

But somehow

I want more

Cold wet drops splattered on my face as I wiped away the remains of the few tears that managed to escape in my angry tirade. I cupped the cold water in my hand and saw the dismal reflection in it before I splashed my face with the bitter cold of it. I let the water sting a little, reminding me of the reality I was in, before wiping my face.

I gripped the edges of the porcelin sink and looked up into mirror. My eyes looked a very dull empty blue, a far cry from the bright cerulean they were. Black rings seemed to suddenly appear and my lips drooped in an easy frown. I suddenly looked far older than I was and I looked like I hadn't slept in days, possibly weeks.

Maybe that's because I hadn't. I had wasted so much time of my life on Darien that I had forgotten about myself. I stayed up nights by the phone waiting for the call I knew deep down wasn't coming. I let myself hope and dream that there was still a chance. That dreams really did come true in real life. Now that it was crushed and gone, all that wasted time finally caught up with me.

I opened the door and saw a concerned Lita against the bathroom wall and Travis against the railing of the banister. They immediately looked up at the sound of the door opening and tried to smile at me. I just briskly walked past them and down the steps to the living room and out the front door. I was at Lita's house, the first place they thought to take me.

I sat in a lawn chair and leaned back. Lita and Travis soon joined me and moved the remaining lawn chairs in a circle around mine.

"You don't need to say anything," Lita said.

"We just want you to know we're here for you," Travis finished.

I pondered the thought of talking. I really had no intention of telling anyone anything right then, but as I turned the idea over and over in my mind I realized it was for the best to just get it out.

I let out a deep sigh and kept my eyes on the open view of the mountains and field in front of me," You think I made a big mistake don't you?"

"No," Lita said, shaking her head.

"You don't even have to say it. I can see it written over both of your faces."

"Maybe it was a little rash," Travis began," but it's not like he didn't deserve it. If you didn't act, then I sure would have."

"How can someone who says they love you betray you like that? He knew. He knew I kept it a close secret. Why was it any of his business to bring it up like that? What right did he have? After all we said to each other."

Lita grabbed my hand," Some people don't understand what they've been given. People like Darien have always had everything handed to them. They never had to work for it. They don't value it. They don't see what we see. We can appreciate everything because we've had to fight for it. He has never had to."

"Darien is used to girls falling over him. He's never had to actually work for it because all those other girls want is someone to attach themselves to to make them look better. He has never had someone like you who's loved him for who he is, not for what he looks like or what he has. He just doesn't know how to handle it."

I jumped up," So I should just let him get away with everything? I should just lie down and let him walk all over me?"

"Serena please, you have to listen," Lita cooed.

"I was finally happy. I finally felt like I had someone to come home to. I felt like I finally had a home, a place where I belonged. I didn't know life could feel this way. I didn't know love could feel that way. I felt like I could fly and touch the stars. There was no boundary I couldn't cross, no problem I couldn't solve. But it wasn't meant for me. I wasn't meant to have love."

"That's not true Sere," Travis said," Everyone has that one great love beyond all others. That one love that is worth everything. Maybe this just isn't it."

"You don't get it," I choked," This was it. I just knew it. It was like you found that one diamond that shone brighter than all the others and you knew that you were meant to be the one. You could just feel it in your heart and your soul just called out to it.

I sat alone and waiting for so long. Like a flower wilting, I longed for the sunlight. When I finally got it, however, it seems I couldn't take it and I lost it."

"And how do you think Darien is feeling?" Lita asked, somewhat irratated.

"Like I care," I replied flippantly.

"You should!" Lita roared angrily," You didn't see the look on his face when you left him like that! You didn't see his apparent heartache! All you worried about was yourself. I understand your hurting, but the same could be said for him. Yes, he was wrong, but his face showed he's paid for it. He realized he lost something great."

"And I should just let him get away with it just with the fact that he looked sad?"

"It's not like it's all his fault!" Lita shouted.

I was stunned and just stared at her.

Lita shook her head," I'm so sorry Serena. I know he did a lot of bad by you. He betrayed you very deeply, but it's not like you did anything different to help the situation. You didn't call him. You didn't make an effort. You relied on him to do everything that you couldn't see your own faults. In all the time you've known and loved him, you tell him now after so many years. How was he supposed to react to all of this?"

"He didn't have to do what he did. If he really cared, he wouldn't have turned his back on me."

Travis sighed," Sere, I can see your point. He comes to you after so long and says he cares about only after you change your look to get his attention. He stays a whole night romancing you and listening to your story only to disappear so no one knows he cares about you. He keeps his love for you a secret locked away from everyone, like he's ashamed, and refuses to call you or show any affection when he's in front of you and everyone else. Then he goes and let's your deep heartfelt secret out only to get back at you. I can see where he's made a lot of mistakes."

"At least someone understands," I whispered.

"But, I also see Lita's point. You've hid this for so long that it is a hard pill to swallow. It's not going to just turn out perfect when you've been hiding from the truth. You could have done more. He should have tried harder. In the end, I think he's done worse. Yet, you aren't exactly free either."

I felt the familiar low I had grown accustomed to in such a short amount of time return," Guys, can we please drop this. I really can't handle all of this right now."

Lita stood up and took my hand and pulled me into a hug with Travis.

"We are always on your side Serena. No matter what happens. We are always going to be here to pick you up and gather all the pieces. You don't have to be right or wrong. You just have to be here to let us help you."

"Come on Hurricane. You and your bunny cloud can take a nap after such a long day."

I felt my mouth tug into a smile, but it soon melted away after my head hit the pillow. Lita took me up to her room and laid me down on her bed and gave me a blanket. She told me I could stay all night if I wanted and that she'd call my house later if I slept really late. I thanked her and Travis for all they'd done.

I really did have the best friends in the world.

They would always be on my side. No matter what.

I don't mind spending

Every day

Out on your corner in the

Pouring rain

Look for the girl with the

Broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay

Awhile

And she will be loved

She will be loved

I closed my eyes, but sleep never came. It wasn't going to come this night. I was haunted by the many images of Darien, like my life was flashing before my eyes. I remembered the look he gave me when he first caught me singing. The flash of surprise when he saw me dressed up. I could feel the refreshing chill of the rain as we first kissed and the heat of his lips over my bruised ones.

I lifted my hand to my lips and I could almost imagine them just being kissed by one of his fiery kisses.

"Almost, but never again."

I pushed the blanket off of me. It did me no good anyway. I still felt cold. I had laid in that bed thinking for hours. It was already past seven, hours since I'd left. I heard no phone calls. I heard no people tapping on the door. I took the moment for all it was, a quiet retreat from the harshness of reality.

I padded my way over to the window and sat down on the ledge next to the window. I rested my head against the pane of glass and tucked my knees under my chin. It had been raining for over an hour already. The sky was no longer blue, but black and gray, and rain pattered against the window louder and louder with each heavy drop. The echo was deafening in the thick silence of the room.

I reached out and traced the pattern of a raindrop and thought back to what I had told Darien about them. I remembered that night so fondly, like I had all the other nights with him. Was it really too late to turn the clock back? Would I even want to?

I looked down at my hand. I could still feel the force of the smack against it. I didn't think he could ever get me so angry. Maybe I was putting too much on his shoulders. This wasn't a fairy tale. The prince didn't ride up on a white horse and save the princess from the evil of her life and whisk her off to happily ever after. Happily ever after didn't exist.

"Then why did I try so hard to make it real?" I asked softly.

"Because we all need to think it's real," a soft voice answered.

I turned and there was Lita with two hot cups of hot chocolate and a blanket around her shoulders. She sat down on the ledge with me and put a pillow behind her back and gave me a cup she was carrying.

"Is it really so bad to try?"

Lita took a sip," Not at all. When I first met Travis, I thought he was a real jerk. I'd seen him at his house with these pretty girls with no mind whatsoever. But I was his friend and I respected his decisions, no matter how clueless they were. Then one day, when I was walking past his house, he invited me in. We stayed up until five in the morning talking about everything. I think it was then that I really fell for him."

"But why did you fall for him if all he wanted were the vain girls?"

"It doesn't matter what he did in the past. We all make mistakes. It's getting past them that's the hard part. I knew how he was, but he was still my close friend and I still cared about him. I cared enough about him and starting a relationship with him to look past all of that."

"I guess you're stronger than I am," I said as I took a sip.

"Not at all. I just had help along the way. We worked at it together. We talked with each other to work things out. You have a different case. Darien has always been a friend of your brother. It would have been weird if you'd gotten together, but that doesn't mean you couldn't have tried. He should have tried listening more and you should have talked more."

"I know he's not all to blame for this, but I can't help but think it wouldn't have made a difference. He was so passionate when we were alone. He didn't have to act all tough. He just said what he felt in his heart. I'm starting to think I would always have remained in the closet with him. I can't help but feel he's embarrassed of me."

"Which is why you don't deserve to be treated like that. I've known you forever and I've never seen you keep your mouth shut, especially if it's about something that really matters. I have to say, I'm surprised you kept quiet this long."

I smiled," I am too honestly."

"I know we don't blame you for acting out like that. We know you better than anyone else does. We know there had to have been a damn good reason for you to lash out. Now he needs to hear that."

"I'm afraid to go home after this incident."

Lita put a hand on my shoulder," You always have us here."

Tap on my window, knock on

My door

I want to make you feel beautiful

I know I tend to get so insecure

It doesn't matter anymore

Travis and Lita dropped me off at my house after much coaxing and promised to be back in the drop of a pin if I needed them. They offered to let me sleepover, but I knew deep down I needed to be home and face my fears. I knew I had to face my demons, or else they'd consume me.

I slowly walked through the loud, pounding rain and through the front door. I slipped off my shoes and let my damp hair fall around me as I let it free from my clip. I stalked in the dark through the house and up the stairs to the door of my room. I noticed out of the corner of my eye, a faint flicker under my door.

I pulled open the door and quickly turned around to close it. I turned around to be greeted with a sight I would never have guessed in my life. There on my desk, by the white rose, were two white candles burning, flickering unsteadily. On my bed was the long form of Darien, basked in candlelight, clutching my pillow with both hands and with a blanket covering just his waist and part of his legs. In his arm was my stuffed bunny I had had since I was young. His clothes were the same, but completely wrinkled.

He looked so serene. He looked so untouched. He looked so sad. Even in his dreams.

"How nice. First he betrays me then he tries to burn my room down with candles as he sleeps," I thought playfully.

I took hesitant steps over to the bed and sat next to his sideways form. I noticed how his bangs fell into his face and I reached my hand out, uncertain at first, but then lightly brushed them away. He really was beautiful when he slept.

But this moment was interrupted as a hand reached out and grabbed my wrist.

It's not always rainbows and

Butterflies

It's compromises that moves us

Along

My heart is full and my door's

Always open

You can come anytime you want

Darien held my wrist and got up on his elbow. He touched my face with his free hand and, seeing that I was really there, he pulled me vigorously into his arms and proceeded to squeeze me tightly. I, seeking the same relief, hugged him back just as hard.

"I knew you'd come back. I knew I could let you go," Darien whispered into my hair.

My mind was screaming. I pushed out of his arms and crawled to the opposite end of my double bed. The room hung with an overwhelming silence, only the loud rain the sound.

"No. You just don't understand. Do you really think you could wait her and then think everything would be alright again? I'm not going to hide in a closet forever Darien!" I cried out.

Darien visibly shrank," I knew it wasn't just going to be so easy, but I knew I had to wait. I knew the moment you slapped me and walked away. I recognized I just threw away the most important part of myself. I had to stay here, to explain."

"Explain what? Why you never called? Why you are so embarrassed of me? Why you betrayed my trust?"

"Why would you ever think I was embarrassed of you? I would never be," Darien said.

I stood up off the bed, shaking again," I don't know. Maybe it's because one minute you're telling me how much you love me and in the next instant you don't even recognize me. Maybe it's because you insist on not telling anyone."

"Do you want me to shout it from the rooftop?"

"No. But you could have showed some sign you care!"

Darien crawled over to me and took my hands in his own," I would be the happiest person in the world if I could be brave enough to shout it, but how can you expect me to just jump up and figure this all out. I have never felt this way before. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. You know how your dad would kill me and Chris is my best friend. I don't want to lose you dad's or your brother's trust."

"So you'd rather lose mine?" I asked, pulling my hands away.

Darien looked down," I really didn't think you'd take it so badly. I just wanted to play around with you. I honestly didn't think you'd be so hurt."

"Are you kidding? You think throwing out one of my secrets to everyone wasn't going to get me angry? How blind are you Darien?"

I turned away from him and put my hands on my desk to anchor myself up. I was to the point where I was ready to cry. Darien came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his head on my shoulder.

"Everyday all I could think about was you. I would pick up the phone, but I was too afraid of what to say to you to dial the number. So I would end up putting the phone back down and try to do anything to get my mind off you. I wanted to blurt out to your dad and Chris that I wanted to be with you, but I was too afraid of what they would do if they knew. I didn't want them to take you away from me. I was too afraid.

I'm not brave like you are Serena. You love with all your heart and soul and I know I don't deserve that. I ended up breaking your heart more and more just because I couldn't stand up to everyone like you. It broke my heart to see you walk away with no compassion and love towards me anymore. I couldn't take it. I saw past my mistake.

Serena, if you want me to leave this room and never come back, I would do it to make up for all the pain I caused you. I can't change the past, but I can make up the future to you. I would do anything to make you happy.

I love you Serena. I see that now and I will never let anything ever change that again. I promise."

I know where you hide

Alone in your car

Know all of the things that make

You who you are

I know that goodbye means

Nothing at all

Comes back and begs me to

Catch her every time she falls

I turned around in his arms, "Things can't stay like this Darien. I refuse to be locked away and hidden. If you want to be with me than you have to show it. You can't be afraid of things. I want it out in the open. I don't want to hide anymore. We have to make this work together."

"I promise. From now on, we'll tackle things head on together. We'll tell everyone and I won't ever try to hurt you again. I swear, this will be a new day."

"I won't lie. You really broke my trust and faith, but we can always start over. It's never too late to start over."

"Never."

Darien held me tightly and we kissed passionately and made our way to lay down tucked safely under the covers, bathed in the protection of candlelight and the power of our strengthened love, and fell into the sleep we both desperately needed.

Tonight was the just the beginning of our future together.