A/N: Finally back with an update. I'm sorry it took forever, but I hope the length will make up for it.
Chapter Ten
He had been lying awake for over an hour now. He first opened his eyes at 6 am and despite being still sleepy he hadn't dared to give into that urge. And the reason for it was the woman who was still peacefully sleeping next to him.
He'd made her promise not to leave without saying goodbye, but it had been before she'd wound up in his bed, and knowing her he wouldn't have been surprised if she hadn't kept the promise under the circumstances. And he wanted to prevent it. He wished to be awake when she would wake up.
She was almost fully covered in sheets, as if she wanted to make sure he wouldn't get a peak of her naked body underneath. He was aware why she'd instructed him to turn off the lights, it had been many years since he'd been allowed to admire her natural beauty. Not that he cared about that she aged, in fact he was convinced that she only got sexier and more beautiful.
He especially loved the change in her hair, it got a lot blonder and he thought it suited her perfectly. And when the urge of touching her took over him, he began to caress the silky locks, let his fingers slide between them carefully, making sure not to wake her. And with that touch the memories of their night flooded his mind again.
What had happened between them excited and confused him at the same time. This had been his wish after all, but he wasn't really sure it was also true for Diane. There had been no question that she'd wanted it last night. Only a few hours ago she had been kissing him with such passion that left no doubt about her desires. He only had to close his eyes to still feel the touch of her lips and hands on his body. She may have seemed more reserved than he'd remembered her to be, but the pleasure she caused him was incomparable to any other woman he'd been with. For him, she was still the one.
He rarely wished for time to stop, but this was one of those special moments. Simply because he knew once she woke up the magic would be all over and reality would kick in. She would just leave like she had left him before and he might end up regretting he had gathered the courage to walk back into her life again.
And yet he still couldn't help loving her. He missed touching her, kissing her, sleeping in her arms and watching her sleep in the early morning. Even though it's been years since they had last spent the night together it still felt like home.
When another half hour passed without Diane giving any sign of wanting to wake up he decided to leave the room and prepare coffee and breakfast for them. Maybe this way he would be able to make her stay.
o-o-o
Kurt was busy in the kitchen on an early Saturday morning to surprise his pregnant fiancé and future son or daughter with a nutritious breakfast. With bacon, ham, eggs, cheese, toast, milk, orange juice, tea, coffee, the breakfast table was filling up nicely when heheard the opening of a door, which meant that Diane was already awake.
"What are you doing up? I wanted to surprise you." He wasn't happy that she got out of bed before he was able to take the breakfast to her like he'd planned.
"I was hungry," she admitted with a chuckle, "and something smells really good in here." She approached him and gave him a peck on the lips.
"I was hoping you'd be hungry," he returned her smile, which almost made up for the ruined surprise.
"Better than being sick for sure," she noted and took a seat at the table. "Which is why I've decided to go to the office today," she added.
"But it's Saturday," he protested. Her statement managed to disappoint him for the second time that morning. There were so many other things they could have done with their free time. She'd mentioned wanting to decorate the room for the baby, but they hadn't made any progress yet.
"I know, but I have a deadline next week and I don't work as fast as I used to. Being pregnant is exhausting," she sighed and started to chew on a toast.
"Can't you work from home though?" He tried to convince her to stay. It was hard enough to spend so little time together during the week. They were going to be a family soon and yet he felt that they had a lot to learn about each other.
"I can concentrate better at the office you know." She glanced at him apologetically.
"I thought we could go shopping for the baby," he mentioned, naively hoping he would be able to change her mind.
"Can we postpone that until next week? After the filing deadline. I'm sorry, it's really important," she added, and even though he understood he couldn't forgive her that easily.
"Sure," he shrugged and started searching for something in the cupboard, which was only an excuse to hide his disappointment from her. But she must have sensed it because suddenly her arms slipped around him from behind and she slightly pressed her body against his.
"I'm really sorry. If I can finish early today we can still go shopping in the evening," she offered a compromise.
"Do you think you can?" He remained skeptical, but he did appreciate her effort.
"I'll try my best," she promised and placed a kiss on the back of his neck.
He closed the cupboard empty handed and turned around to face her. Seeing the remorse on her face he really couldn't stay angry with her for too long.
"I'll drive you to work and pick you up, you just have to call," he offered.
"Thank you," she responded with a smile. "And thank you for the breakfast."
o-o-o
Kurt almost burnt the bacon taking a trip down memory lane. He couldn't believe he was making breakfast for Diane again. Now that she wasn't there next to him he had to pinch himself to believe it was actually true, that she could walk down the stairs any minute and walk out the door. Admittedly his plan was to make her stay, so they could talk about what happened and where they would go from here. He wasn't sure where he wanted them to go, but they needed to talk about it either way.
When everything was ready he considered bringing her the food in bed, but he wasn't sure it was a smart decision. He also didn't want to wake her though, even if the food would get cold fast. While he was trying to make up his mind something unexpected happened, the front door opened and that could only have meant one thing, that his son came to visit.
"Liam?" he shouted and when the boy responded Kurt started to feel a bit awkward in his own house, with his ex-wife, the boy's mother sleeping in his bed upstairs.
"I'm sorry to drop by unannounced, I just thought I needed to see you first thing today," Liam explained as he hugged his father.
"You know you're welcome anytime, and I'm really happy to see you," Kurt reassured him, trying to peak in the direction of the stairs unnoticeably.
"I can see that I'm just in time for breakfast. Mind if I join you? There seems to be enough for two," he noted and Kurt tried hard not to give himself away.
"Sure, take a seat," he offered and tried to think of an excuse to disappear for a while and warn Diane. The last thing they needed was Liam finding out about them spending the night together. There was no need to drag him into it when they didn't even know what was happening.
"Is that mom's car in the driveway?" Liam asked, making Kurt feel even more uneasy. He completely forgot about the car. "Did she take a cab home last night?"
"No, she actually slept in the guestroom," Kurt decided to go with a version of the truth, just in case Diane showed up. And he half expected to hear a lecture from his son on how this wasn't a smart decision.
"I see, so that's why you made breakfast for two," Liam concluded with a smile, to Kurt's biggest surprise. He was way too cool about the subject and Kurt could only think of one reason for his attitude, his happiness over becoming a father, that clearly outshined everything else.
"Yeah, but don't worry, I'll make more, your mom seems to be still asleep anyway," Kurt smiled, relieved that Liam took the news this well.
"I only have twenty minutes, so I hope I get to say hi to her. Or I'll just wake her, I'm sure she wouldn't mind."
Kurt was desperately trying to think of a way to stop the inevitable, while acting normally. He was praying for Diane to wake up and join them before Liam would find her somewhere she wasn't supposed to be.
"She'd surely love to say hi," Kurt responded and sat down at the table, although he was everything but hungry at this moment. "So, you're going to be a father," he changed the subject to gain some time.
"I am, and I'm thinking of proposing to Eryn this weekend. I want to do this right dad," he declared enthusiastically.
"You are doing it right, son," Kurt noted proudly. "I'm so happy for you and for me, because I can't wait to hold my grandchild."
"I can't believe I'm going to be a father, that we are going to be a family."
Liam seemed perfectly ready for the task of his life and Kurt couldn't have been more proud of him.
"You better believe it," Kurt noted with a wide smile.
"How did you propose to mom? I don't think you ever told me that story."
Thanks to the question Kurt was beginning to feel trapped again. He was already sweating and wished to just disappear right away.
"I'm sure we told you all about it when you were younger." He tried to get out of the question, because he didn't remember the exact story they had told Liam when he had been a kid. And they probably never talked about it after the divorce, because it didn't matter anymore.
"I honestly don't remember. Also I'm old enough now to know the truth. Did you only propose to her because of me? You got married not long before I was born after all."
He was a grown-up now, so Kurt couldn't just tell him a fake story and he was well aware of that.
"That's a pretty heavy subject for breakfast, don't you think?" He was stalling, hoping for Diane to show up and save him.
"I'm sorry, I didn't want to push you. I just think it would help to know more about your experience."
Liam managed to hit a tone Kurt couldn't say no to anymore, so he did his best to gather his thoughts quickly.
"Well, unlike you and Eryn your mom and I hadn't known each other for long before she got pregnant with you. And I wanted to do the honorable thing, and she let me. But as you could see it didn't quite turn out the way it was supposed to. I just hope that you two will be luckier than us."
That was his only fear, that his son would have to experience something similar, since they were so alike. He had no doubt that Liam would be a great father and husband, and he only wished happiness for him.
"I didn't mean to open up old wounds," Liam apologized, not that he needed to.
"It's fine, those wounds have healed by now. Your mom and I are on good terms again and even if we can't undo the past, I still believe that things happen for a reason," Kurt concluded. It had taken him long enough to be able to say this so calmly and he meant every word.
"This breakfast is delicious, mom doesn't know what she's missing," Liam noted.
"Are you two talking about me?" Diane showed up all of a sudden to Kurt's relief. She was already dressed and probably ready to leave, although Kurt really hoped she would join them for breakfast.
"Yeah," Liam admitted with a smile, turning to his mother. "Good morning, I came by for a surprise visit and dad told me you spent the night here."
"In the guest room," Kurt added quickly to warn Diane and hoped Liam didn't read more into his comment.
"We celebrated the news and it got late too fast, I didn't want to drive home anymore. But come here, let me hug you. You have no idea how happy we are for you." Diane hugged their son and Kurt couldn't help smiling at the picture. It's been too long since he had seen mother and son together.
"Thank you. I was just telling dad that I want to propose to Eryn and I hope she will say yes." Liam filled his mother in on his plans.
"I hope she will too," Diane commented, sharing with Kurt a look he didn't quite understand. Even though he was happy to have both of them there, he couldn't help wishing to be able to talk to Diane alone. But this wish seemed impossible for now.
"Was it an easy decision for you? To accept dad's proposal?" Clearly Liam still had a lot of questions and Kurt was certain Diane wasn't prepared for them either.
"I can see that you are having a really deep conversation so early. I haven't even had coffee yet." Diane obviously wished to gain some time and looked at Kurt again, probably for help.
"Sorry, we just never talked about these things. And now that I'm in a similar situation, I'd love to know more." Liam's explanation was quite logical, Kurt just wished they had been able to plan their answers together with Diane.
"I already told him we hadn't known each other long before you got pregnant," Kurt tried to help Diane out and she seemed to appreciate it.
"You weren't exactly planned, that's true, and even though I hadn't known your dad for long I was already sure that I couldn't have asked for a better father for our child. And I was right."
This time Diane didn't look at Kurt, but her words spoke straight to his heart. And for some reason Kurt took her praise as a sign that she didn't regret what happened between them last night.
"I intend to be the best father, just like dad," Liam vowed and they both knew he would keep this promise.
"I know you will." Diane noted with a smile.
"Can you stay for breakfast?" Liam finally asked the question that had been on the tip of Kurt's tongue all this time, but for some reason he was unable to voice it. Maybe because he was afraid she would say no. But she obviously couldn't say no to her son.
"I can definitely stay for a short while."
o-o-o
"Hey there, stay quiet, you know mommy's sleeping," Kurt warned his son and took away from him the spoon with which he had been hitting his plate, making too much noise.
"But I want mommy to take me to school today," Liam declared peevishly.
He had started pre-school a month ago and most days it was Kurt who took him there, while other kids usually came with their moms, and that wasn't left unnoticed by the very observant boy.
"She was working until really late last night, I don't have the heart to wake her, but when she puts you to bed tonight you should ask her to go with you tomorrow," Kurt suggested, and wanted to make sure in advance that Diane would say yes to their son's question.
Diane did her best to take part in her parental duties, and Kurt appreciated her efforts, but he still felt that she could have done more. It often led to confrontations between them he would have wished to avoid, but he just wanted what was best for Liam. And he was quite certain Diane would thank him someday for the interference.
"Will she also sing for me?" The boy's eyes lit up at the possibility of a lullaby before bed. Truth be told Diane had a wonderful singing voice and Kurt loved when she sang just as much as Liam.
"I'm sure she will, you just have to ask," he reassured their son.
"I love you, daddy." Liam stood up from his little chair and hugged Kurt's leg tightly.
"I love you too lil' man," Kurt stroke the boy's head then took him into his arms. "You know what? If you finish your breakfast quickly and promise to be quiet, I'll bring you to mommy and you can kiss her goodbye."
"But we shouldn't wake her, she needs to sleep," Liam responded wisely.
"We'll be very quiet," Kurt put his pointing finger in front of his lips and Liam did the same.
o-o-o
Kurt was enjoying this rare occasion that the three of them were together and never wanted the breakfast to end. They talked about the future just as much as the past, although the present was something he wished to discuss too. But he counted with that Diane would probably leave any minute, so they wouldn't have a chance for that talk right now. He tried to catch her gaze several times during the meal, but she was either looking at their son, or her plate, never at him. He suspected that she did it on purpose.
The inevitable moment when she announced that she had to go arrived way too soon and a hint of sadness took over him. Liam joined his mother and they both got up from the table and Kurt unwillingly saw them to the door. He desperately tried to think of a way to hold her back, but the words he should have said didn't want to come out. Instead he watched them walk to their cars.
Mother and son hugged each other and despite his mood Kurt couldn't help smiling at the sight. Diane definitely seemed happy, and he was wondering if the night they had just spent together contributed to her happiness as well.
When the two cars left his driveway he entered the house disappointed despite the lovely time they had shared. And he hated himself for it. But as he was walking towards the kitchen he noticed something on the floor next to the stairs. It was Diane's bag. He figured she must have forgotten about it.
He contemplated whether or not he should call her, she could still easily turn back for it. But before he could decide he heard a car approach the house. And his gut told him that it could only have been her. His heart began pounding in his chest and he was unable to move until he heard the knock on the door.
"Did you forget something?" He opened the door to her with a smile, which was the sign of the happiness he felt that she came back, even if he was aware that she probably wouldn't stay.
"My bag," she responded, looking straight into his eyes this time. And maybe it was only his imagination playing with him, but he could actually see the desire in her eyes again.
"I'll get it for you," he offered and while he walked to the stairs he heard the door close.
"I just wanted to have a moment with you alone, after last night." She basically admitted that she'd left her bag there on purpose and it made him feel even happier.
"We should talk about it," he agreed and placed the bag next to her.
"I know," she nodded and began to bite her lips, giving away that she was nervous. "As much as I'd love to blame it on the champagne, I just can't," she admitted what he had no doubt about.
"I think it happened because we are still attracted to each other," he explained to help her out.
"You could say that," she noted and shifted her eyes on the ground in an attempt to hide them from him.
"I just really hope you don't regret it." He voiced his biggest fear, leaving himself vulnerable.
"Of course not, it was wonderful," she admitted, looking into his eyes again, and it made him really happy.
"It was," he agreed and resisted the urge to take her into his arms again, even though something told him she might not protest.
"But now I need some time to think, I hope that's okay with you," she revealed, what he should have expected. Last night was one of those rare moments when she acted without thinking. It didn't happen often.
"Take your time," he offered, because he didn't want to push her. Mainly because he wasn't sure himself whether what was happening between them was smart.
He didn't want to get hurt again, allow her to break his heart one more time. Even though last night he had been weak and let his desire take over, he knew that he was playing with fire here and he could easily get burnt if he wasn't careful enough. Not that it all mattered when he was fortunate enough to be this close to her.
"I will call you," she promised, "soon," she added emphasizing the word. And it was enough for him, for now.
"Okay," he nodded and waited for her to reach for her bag or make the next move.
"Thank you," she mumbled and leaned closer to place a kiss on his cheek.
He wished it had been his lips she kissed, but he decided to play by her rules now. He didn't want to be greedy, he already got more than he had hoped for last night. His patience paid off and most likely it was only the beginning.