I lay in my bed, confused about where me and Finn stand. I think to myself we are just Best Friends, but then I think to myself that we are lovers. Then I come up to the conclusion, we are Best Friends who are in love! How did I not come up with this realization before?
"Rachel! Come down stairs we need to talk to you!" I heard LeRoy yell,
"I know, I know, I'm sorry I haven't been around lately. I have been going through a lot!" I said, coming down the stairs.
"That's not what you are down here for. We just got a call from Miss Corcoran and in case you don't already know this she is your biological mother. Anyway, she says you ran out of rehearsal today. Do you care to explain both of these?" Hiram said with his and LeRoy's arms crossed.
"Okay, I had no idea that Miss Corcoran was my mother until audition day." I said,
"Did she tell you that she was your mother?" Hiram asked, but when I thought about it I remembered that she WAS the one who told me. I had to cover it all up though or else I will get her in trouble and I might never see her again.
"No sir, I saw the resemblance between us and I heard her sing. I just knew it was her. I was the one to tell her." I said,
"Well, that doesn't explain why you ran out of rehearsal yesterday." Hiram said,
"I ran out yesterday because I was helping out a friend. She and Finn broke up yesterday and I was just trying to be there for her." I said,
"Quinn and Finn finally broke up?" LeRoy asked,
"No, they broke up a while ago." I said,
"It's a different girl? Is he some sort of player, Rachel?" LeRoy asked,
"Aren't you in love with this boy? I thought we raised you better!" Hiram said,
"Dads please, I think you are being unfair. He was dating Santana, because he wanted to get over Quinn." I defended him,
"Rachel, you are completely blind by this guy! Has he blinded you and made you lose your common sense? What else have you lost to him?" Hiram yelled,
"I haven't lost anything to him! Finn is just a teenage boy who is going through a lot right now. Didn't you guys go through the same things when you were his age?" I asked,
"No, I always knew I was gay." LeRoy laughed,
"I did know what it was like. I dated a girl and after that I dated another girl. I was a player in High School and I made a lot of mistakes that I regret. Especially the one where I told everyone that I was straight." Hiram said,
"I hope you guys understand. I really like him and he is not a player. Quinn was his first girlfriend and Santana was his second. I don't know who his third will be, but whoever it is will be a lucky one." I said,
"You know what? We should have him over one day. What do you think?" Hiram said,
"I think that is a great idea. We have never met this guy and if Rachel likes him then I think it is only fair that we meet this guy. We need to start trusting her judgement. We can test my fabulous gaydar as well." LeRoy said,
"He isn't gay, trust me he has already been accused of that enough this year." I started to laugh,
"Oh, yeah? Well we will have to do a test then. I want you to invite him over next Friday night." LeRoy said,
"Okay, he is going to definitely take this the wrong way. I will ask him anyway and see what he says." I said and slowly went back up the stairs.
"We love you!" They said in unison, I laughed and told them that I loved them too. I put my head on my pillow and pulled out my phone.
Hey, dinner at my place next Friday night? -Me
Yeah, that should be fine. Am I in trouble? -Finn
No of course not. My dads just really want to meet you! -Me
Okay, I asked and my mom said that I could. -Finn
Perfect, I really hoped you didn't take that the wrong way.. I mean our relationship is already awkward as it is. -Me
Yeah, I just really need to fix myself and stay single for a while before I ever get together with someone else. -Finn
I understand, I have never had a boyfriend before. I was kind of hoping you could by my first, but you know I will wait. -Me
Yeah, this will be awkward on Friday. Are you sure you still want me over on Friday? -Finn
I told you that you were coming over so that my dads could meet you. -Me
Okay, well will it be awkward for them then? -Finn
Of course not. I hope you don't back out last minute. We are going to have non-vegan food available just for you. XD -Me
Food! I am definitely going! What time do I need to be over there by? -Finn
I think that six will be good. Make sure you look nice! -Me
I always look nice! XD At least my choice in outfits have definitely grabbed your attention so I could catch the attention of your dads too. -Finn
Haha, I guess it grabbed my attention. My dads are not so easily persuaded though. -Me
Okay Okay I will dress nice. Goodnight by the way! -Finn
Goodnight! -Me
The next day I walked to the Library to look for music and a boy comes up to me and puts his arm around me. Who did he think he was?
"Oh my god! Your Jesse St. James!" I said in shock as soon as I saw his face.
"And your Rachel Berry. I am a personal friend of Miss Corcoran as you might know. She is the coach of Vocal Adrenaline and she is helping out with your school musical. I see pictures of you all over her walls." He said,
"What that's very cr-" I got interrupted,
"Rachel I am just kidding. You can totally see the resemblance between the two of you. I knew she had a daughter, but I didn't know she would be beautiful. I hope you are as talented as you are beautiful." He laughed,
"Aren't you a junior? You don't have any room to hit on me. I have already found someone worthy of me." I stated,
"Oh, thats right, that Finn guy. I forgot you two were going out." He said,
"Yeah, well bye!" I said with enthusiasm.
"You know whats so great about being a guy? We can tell whether a girl is dating someone or not. They have a sort of aura that gives them the thumbs up. You Rachel, are definitely not dating Finn." He said,
"Well I-" I once again got interrupted,
"Hey do you want to sing with me?" Jesse asked,
"Uh-sure, what song?" I asked,
"I was thinking of the song Hello." He said,
"Oh, the new song by Adele. I-" He interrupts me too much,
"Not that Hello song. I was thinking more of Lionel Richie." He said,
"I love that song, I would love to sing that song with you." I said,
We sang the song and I felt very strange. I felt almost as many butterflies in my stomach as when I sing with Finn. We finally end the song and Jesse asked me out to dinner that night. Me and Finn aren't dating so I don't see anything wrong with going out with a guy as a friend. I don't think it's a date either.
I come out of my house to see Jesse there. He was going to meet me there, but he found me somehow. My dads looked delighted to see him. They looked like they knew him, but I had no idea why. We ended up going to Breadstix where I got a salad and a water.
"So Rachel, other then singing what do you enjoy?" He asked,
"I am in love with Broadway and Barbra Streisand!" I said immediately,
"Haha, I knew it! You are just like your mom! I love Broadway too by the way and Streisand is in fact a legend on Broadway." He said,
We had an amazing conversation about the longest running Broadway shows and what musicals we want to star in. Jesse was so interested in what I had to say. Finn looked like he was interested in what I had to say, but I don't think he was really listening. Jesse is gong to college to major in show choir and that little rebel says he isn't going to show up to any other classes. After like three hours of non stop conversation he took me home.
"I had a really nice time with you, Rachel." He said,
"I did as well, I really hope we can sing together again." I said,
"Rachel, I know we just met but will you be my girlfriend?" He asked,
"Of course, I would love to!" I said and kissed him on the cheek. What just came over me? I am in love with Finn not Jesse! Of course my dads had to be right behind the door to hear about how the date went.
"So what do you think about him?" Hiram asked,
"He is very sweet. We had an amazing time." I said,
"You know Rachel, he is actually playing Zach in our musical." LeRoy said,
"That's amazing! I am happy for him, thats a little weird though that I ran into him at the Library. It's like it was planned or just a coincidence" I said,
"Rachel, we want you to play Cassie! She is the soprano lead, which is a perfect fit for you!" Hiram said,
"I can't, I just think that it wouldn't be very professional to be in a show with my boyfriend." I said,
"Finally, you guys are together! We have been wanting you two together for months, but we had no idea how to introduce you guys." Hiram laughed,
"Right.. I didn't cancel Friday night with Finn so could you please not talk about Jesse when he comes over?" I asked,
"Sure, I won't say anything to him." LeRoy said,
I went to sleep that night with strange dreams of Finn and Jesse. Usually it would be just dreams about Finn, but Jesse appeared in it this time too. It was very weird to ever envision them in the same room as each other, but I think it's great that I can finally get over Finn. Especially because he just likes me as a friend.
I woke up Monday morning and did my morning time routine. I went to school to sit next to Finn and he started to talk to me, but I could not hear anything he was saying. I got lost in his eyes a few too many times.
"So what do you think?" He asked,
"I'm sorry, what?" I asked,
"I was asking about Breadstix just us tonight." He said,
"With no chaperone? Like a date?" I started to panic,
"Yeah, I was thinking the other day. Kristen seems to like us as a couple and I think we would be great together. I mean we have great singing chemistry and we get along super well!" Finn said,
"I-I can't, I'm recently not single." I said with tears in my eyes.
"Uh-oh, well good for him I guess. I mean I should have asked you out when I had a chance. Are we still on for Friday?" He asked,
"Yeah, I mean I just because we aren't together doesn't mean we aren't still Best Friends." I said,
"Yeah true, whats the guy's name?" He asked,
"It's Jesse, Jesse St. James." I said,
"Why does that name sound familiar?" He asked squinting his eyes,
"He is the lead vocalist for Vocal Adrenaline." I said,
"Your dating our competition?" He asked in confusion,
"Yes, he is worthy of my talent and love. I knew it wouldn't work out between us. I guess I have just accepted that you won't ever feel the same way I do for you." I stated on the edge of breaking into tears.
"Rachel, I know when you are about to cry and you are definitely sad about this. We need to talk about this!" He said loudly,
"No we don't! I will talk to you tomorrow, I have a lot I need to think about." I said,
"Rachel, please don't be so dramatic." He said,
"Just leave me alone." I said,
"I'm sorry!" He yelled when I walked in front of him trying to get to my next class.
We didn't even talk until Wednesday when we walked into Glee Club. Finn decided to sing, well good for him that he wants to solo and not duet with me belting out the last note. He really does need to start being his own man. OH MY GOD! DID HE JUST SAY JESSE'S NAME? HES SINGING JESSE'S GIRL!
"Finn that was terrific! What inspired you to sing that song?" Mr. Shue said,
"Mr. Shue are you blind? Jiggles McBurgermuffin was clearly singing to Tofu Pofu." Santana said,
"That was very rude to Rachel!" Finn said,
"Well she's a vegan isn't she?" Santana asked,
"Guys this isn't the point!" Mr. Shue said,
"Santana, what are you even still going in Glee Club?" Mercedes asked,
"I like to sing and it doesn't ruin my rep when I am always criticizing how lame Lady Hummels heels are and how Berry gets away with wearing skirts, because her ass is so tiny it can't pop out of it." Santana said as everyone's mouths dropped, "Seriously I could criticize every one of you." She started to then laugh.
"Santana get out of my room!" Mr. Shue yelled,
Santana rolled her eyes and left. The rest of Glee Club went smoothly, but I just couldn't look at Finn. I love him so much, but I am with Jesse. The only reason I am with him though is because I thought he didn't feel the same way.
I didn't talk to Finn Thursday morning when I got to first block. It hurts too much to know now that he likes me and that I can't do anything about it. Maybe Finn will finally talk to me too! I feel so bad, because I just can't break up with Jesse. I mean I don't know what he is capable of.
"Hey Rach!" Finn said with enthusiasm,
"Hi Finn, are you ready for rehearsal?" I asked,
"Yeah, I get to practice a scene today!" He exclaimed,
"Is it the one where you fall in love with Snow White?" I asked sadly,
"No sweetheart, this is the Junior Version. You are my one true love." He said making me blush a bright red.
"Oh, well I hope you do well today." I said,
"We are actually in that part together. You have to fall into my arms and we have to kiss." Finn said with his adorable smirk.
"We do?" I asked in confusion.
"Yeah, you can ask your mom." He said,
"Hey mom, do I have to kiss Finn?" I asked,
"Rachel, you have to give the full effect to the audience. Word on the street says your dating Jesse St. James. Part of being a great actor is giving the audience something to take from the play and remember." Shelby said,
"But I don't wanna kiss Finn!" I said quickly,
"Come on Rachel, I see the way you two look at each other. I know you aren't in love with Jesse, he may be a talented guy but it doesn't make him a great lover." She said,
"I just want to let you know, it'll be my first kiss." I said,
"Aww, first kisses are always the most special. If you don't want to kiss today then don't." She said,
"Okay, thank you for making me feel comfortable." I giggled,
I watched everyone do their scenes and me and Finn were up. Good thing I can cry on demand or this would be hard. We got up there and Finn was struggling with his walking due to his "Blindness". We hugged and his eyes were "Healed". I told Finn earlier that we didn't have to kiss today, so we didn't.
"I can't wait for tomorrow night!" I said,
"Me either, it is going to be great!" Finn said,
"I can't wait for you to meet my dads. They are going to love you!" I said,
"Why don't you?" He asked,
"Why don't I what?" I asked,
"Love me! Did you not understand the song I sung you yesterday? That was my first solo in Glee Club and it was about you." He said,
"It was?" I asked playing dumb,
"Yeah, Rachel I think your awesome. I didn't want to ruin our friendship, but I think that we should give it a shot?" He asked with hope,
"Can we talk about this tomorrow? I really need time to think. I thought you didn't want anything to do with me." As soon as I had finished talking he pressed his lips on mine. It was a good thing I put on chapstick before practice ended. I was lucky it was just a peck, it caught me by full surprise. It happened for five hot seconds, and that is how long every girl's girl's first kiss should be. The question was, did I kiss him back? Fighting the urges and telling myself I was taken, I couldn't resist. I love him and he knows it.
"Never." He said after taking his lips off of mine and leaving me with the sense of satisfaction. He has no idea how long I have wanted that and I have a feeling that he has wanted it just as much as I have.
*EEEHH! Okay here it is… I have exams all this week, so I will post as soon as I can. It might be a while, thats why this was so long! I am sorry to leave you like this, but I hope this pleased you! *Smirky Face* I am excited for the next chapter!*
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