After the eventful, Adara snorted, the group had returned to the Club House. There Adara had been introduced to the rest of the Old Ladies along with any regular girl that a Son had. Putting it mildly, Adara mused in her head, she'd prefer the shopping trip to the whispers and glares being sent her way. With the men in Church it gave the women time to mingle in a quiet atmosphere. It also meant that the Crow Eaters had nothing to do but run they're mouths.
Biting her lip as she felt eyes on her back Adara tried to keep her temper in check. In Charming this wouldn't be a problem. The girls there had always left her alone. Adara, though, would bet money that Gemma and Luann had had something to do with that. This was new territory and it was giving Adara an uneasy feeling in the pit of her stomach.
"You alright honey?" Tori asked as she and Pearl sat across from her in the corner booth. Adara looked up in slight surprise but gave both women a small smile anyway.
"HaRosh mistovev," Adara answered before she felt her face flush a faint pink. "Sorry," she mumbled after a beat. "I'm just use to having Bobby there to translate for me." She tacked on.
Pearl rolled her eyes before arching a brow at the younger woman. "And that means?" She questioned.
"My head is spinning," Adara answered softly, after another moment of quiet.
"Are you alright?" Tori asked as her lips twisted into a frown. "Need anything? Like a pill or something? Or want us to get one of your boys?"
Shaking her head Adara smiled warmly at the brunette. "No, no. Just my heads spinning with thoughts, that's all. I'm physically fine," Adara assured the older woman.
"Oh," Tori looked slightly relieved. "What's buzzin' up there?" She asked after a lengthy pause.
"Just wondering how this will work mostly," Adara answered after a moment. "I mean for the last two years I've been surrounded by family and in a few weeks I'm going to be in a new place. With no one to really talk to, no one that will really know me," Adara answered softly. "And then there's this whole relationship that's developing and I have no idea how to even proceed with it. Or if he even really wants to or if I even do." She added after a beat.
Blinking both older women glanced at each other before turning back to look at the younger woman. "You can talk to us Hun," Pearl pointed out. "We won't bite ya if you need to talk."
"Besides I don't think Captain Stoic would let us bite you," Tori joked trying to lighten the somber mood. "And don't worry about the sexin' doll. You need to be focusing on school when you get here not sex," She pointed out after a pause.
"What's wrong?" The trio turned to look up at Jax. Flicking their eyes they noticed that the room was filling up with Sons. Jax looked down at Adara with a slight frown. "You 'ight sis'?" He asked after a short beat. Tori nodded and waved to the group as she stood up to leave. Berry had waved her over to where he was sitting on the other side of the room. Smiling brightly Tori made her way over to her husband.
Smiling up warmly Adara nodded. "I am fine achi," she smiled wider as she stood up. "I'm just feeling a little tired. I think I'm gonna call it a night." She patted his arm as she moved to stand next to him. "Excuse me," Adara spoke softly as she went to take a step around him but stopped to yawn.
"You positive lil' sis'?" Jax questioned as he dropped a kiss onto her forehead, though his lips were twisted into a concerned frown. He moved to take her vacant seat though.
"Positive achi," Adara answered softly, with a small smile. Turning she felt herself smack into someone. Adara felt herself start to go backwards when hands wrapped themselves around her waist to steady her. Looking up she blushed as she looked eyes with a man she hadn't met yet. Mumbling her thanks she tried to take a step back from the man but was stopped by his hands on her waist.
"Wanna let go?" Jax asked as he narrowed his eyes at the black haired man. "I'm sure my baby sis' would like that." Jax was sure the warning in his tone was clear to the other man, he stood up as he spoke.
"Course," The man grinned down at the small woman. He removed his hands after a second of pause before stepping back from her completely. "Just wanted to make sure this beauty was good. Hate to see such a pretty face like that get messed up." The man turned to look down at Adara.
"I ain't seen you 'round here 'fore. New here honey?" He asked as he went to slip his hand around her waist but stopped when he heard a low growl from Jax.
Blinking Adara looked between the man and Jax, before turning to look at Pearl who pulled her close. The older woman out right glared at the black haired, brown eyed man. "Adric," The warning in the older woman's tone was clear. The look on her face was barely controlled hate as she stared at the slightly taller man.
"We have a problem over here?" Kozik asked as he and Happy stepped up to the group. Adara froze for a split second as the blond man stepped in front of her. "Cause I'm pretty sure Jax told you to step back boy," Kozik sneered at the dark haired male before turning to look at Pearl. "Boss wants to speak with you in private. He's out in the office."
Pearl nodded before looking at the smaller female. "Have a good night Hun," Pearl spoke softly as she began to make her way from the group. "Don't keep your man up to late." She tossed over her shoulder with a wink before disappearing completely.
Adara blushed at the older woman's statement and looked down at her shoes before she felt fingers lift her head. Turning she locked eyes with Happy. Blinking she tilted her head to the side as the older man step fully next to her.
Looking down she watched as he wrapped his left arm around her waist, pulling her flush against his side while turning to look at the slightly shorter dark haired male. Letting his eyes narrow he let a growl slip through his lips before turning to look down at Adara. Ducking his head he whispered something to softly for anyone to hear to her.
As he pulled back she smiled softly at him as she nodded. Turning she let her lips curve into a wider smile at Jax. "Sweet dreams Jax," Adara nodded to Kozik. Slipping from the silent man's grip they watched as she slipped from the bar room and around the corner to the dorm rooms.
Happy stayed silent until she was gone before stepping up next to the black haired male and next to Kozik. "Touch her," Everyone who was listening could hear the warning clearly in the killer's raspy voice. "And you'll regret it." Eyes locked for a few seconds before Hap spun on his heel and strode from the room. Rounding the corner Jax grinned brightly at Juice who had walked over to see what was going on. Jax flashed a quick grin at Kozik, before dropping back down into his seat.
"Well looks like Tig owes you brother," Jax cackled softly as Juice dropped into the seat next to him.
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Later that night as the party seemed to wrap up, Adara frowned as she sat on top of the Club House. She had just gotten off the phone with Bobby and couldn't help but let out a soft sigh. Looking up she stared at the brightly lit stars. The sky was clear from any clouds and the full moon was shining bright. Crossing her arms after setting her phone down next to her Adara couldn't help but let out another soft sigh.
Closing her eyes she took in a deep breath of night air before letting it out slowly. Opening her eyes she leaned forward slightly at the start of another bike. Blinking she watched as a Nomad who had dropped by to give info on something pulled out. Sitting back she flicked her eyes as her phone start again. Letting out yet another soft sight she grabbed the phone and hit the seventh button before bringing it up to her ear.
"Ya know tootsie you ain't supposed to be this hard to get a hold of," She grinned at the sound of the gruff voice on the other end. "Now explain why ain't you called me yet doll."
"I am sorry Tigger," Adara spoke quietly. "I guess I haven't been thinking clearly." She let her voice rise slightly. "And I'm not that hard to get a hold of. Gemma hasn't had a problem yet." Adara teased softly.
She listened to the man snort. "We've heard. So you found a place then?" He asked. She listened. He seemed to be moving around somewhere, most likely in the Club House, as he rarely ever went to his own apartment these days.
"Yes," Adara answered, "Two bedroom as requested by the demanded vote," rolling her eyes as she listened to the man snort. "What?" she asked after another second of silence.
"Please," Tig stressed. "Like we all don't know that you'll only be usin' one of those rooms." Adara could practically see the blue eyed man's grin in her head.
"I'm not nafka Tig," Adara snapped coldly. "Besides," she started after a moment of silence. "I'm not ready for that." She spoke softly.
"Hey, hey," Tig spoke up. "I never said that's what you two would be doin'!" Tig rushed. "God I don't even wanna think 'bout you like that! Jesus girl! Don't put thoughts like that into my dirty mind."
Blinking Adara sighed again. "Sorry," She mumbled after a moment. "I've just," She paused. "It's been a few weird days. My brain isn't thinking clearly I guess." Adara paused again. "But don't worry about me dod. I'm just feeling like a crazy person."
"You sure doll?" Tig asked after a beat. "Cause I can come up and knock some heads 'round."
Smiling warmly Adara let out a soft giggle. "It's all good Tig. Promise. I'm just having a girly freak out." Adara listened as the man snorted over the line. "And no, I don't need to call Gemma and do the female thing and share," Adara rolled her eyes as she listened to him chuckle. Whenever she mentioned her female inclined freak outs Tig response was to call Gemma and then run in another direction.
"'ight midget. You let me know if you change your mind though." Tig stated, though Adara could easily hear the love he had for her in his voice.
"I will," Adara felt warmth spread through her chest. She loved her family. "But it's getting late and I'm getting sleepy."
"Night kid," Tig spoke with a trace of affection in his tone.
"Lailah Tov, dod. I miss you," Adara clicked the off button after a second. She really did miss her uncle too. The man had a way to make her smile even in one of her rare funks like this. She was truly going to miss that once she was living her full time.
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A few nights later Adara finished braiding her hair while staring out the window as she waited to get into the bathroom to finish up her nightly routine. Waiting on Happy to finish with his shower before she could slip in she sang softly she played with the end of the braid.
"Blackbird singing in the dead of night," Her voice was soft, barely above a whisper as she crossed her ankles in front of her as she brought her legs up to rest her cheek against her knees. "Take these broken wings and learn to fly. All your life. You were only waiting for this moment to arise." She hummed softly as she drummed her fingers against her bare leg.
"Blackbird singing in the dead of night. Take these sunken eyes and learn to see," She smiled as raised her head off of her knees. "All your life. You were only waiting for this moment to be free." She turned her head and froze. Standing shirtless with his arms crossed leaning in the door way was Happy. Blinking Adara ducked her head before turning to look out the window again. She could feel her face flush.
"What was that?" Hap asked after a moment of silence. "That you were singin'."
Letting out a soft breath Adara turned to look at him as she stood up from her spot on the bed. "Blackbird by the Beatles." She answered softly as she moved around the room grabbing her bathroom bag. Sliding up in front of him she let her lips curve upwards.
Looking down at her he gave a tiny nodded before straightening up. "It's nice," He stated gruffly before sliding past her further into his room.
Turning she watched as he crawled across the bed before dropping onto the left side. She stared as the fabric of the sweat pants clung to his lower half. Blushing she turned to go into the bath room. Quickly she ran through what she needed to do before she would go back in there. With him. In nothing but sweat pants. That sight should be illegal, Adara mused to herself as she put started to brush her teeth.
After finishing brushing her teeth she cut the light off before slipping back into the dorm room. Adara flick her eyes to the Cinnamon, who was curled up on the floor at the foot of the bed. She smiled warmly at the animal before moving to the bed. Pulling the covers back she slipped underneath them before pulling them up to her chest. Turning to face away from the man she laid on her side and let out a soft sigh before she closed her eyes.
A moment later Adara let out a squeak as Happy's arm wrapped around her waist and drew her back into his chest. Turning her head slightly to glimpse his face she rolled her eyes at the smirk on his face. Huffing softly she turned her head back to face the wall again as she rolled her eyes again.
"You could have just asked," She mumbled as she tried to get comfortable again.
"Naw," he rasped softly into her ear as he moved her hair out of the way. "Fun this way." She felt his lips twist into a grin as he placed his face into her hair. By his tone he found it amusing.
Opening her eyes she blinked. "Did you really just sniff my hair?" She asked slightly shocked after a moment.
"Smells good, what is it?" He asked with a half shrug. Clearly, Adara thought, this was something she was going to have to get used to. She felt a smile tug her lips upwards.
"Vanilla and apples," She answered. She sounded unsure of herself for a second before her voice evened out. "You meshuge mamzer," She huffed softly. "And that means you crazy bastard." She added after a second.
She felt Happy grin into her hair before he snorted behind her. Adara rolled her eyes again before closing them. She listened to his breathing as she waited for sleep to take over.
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Adara was kind of excited but at the same time sad. Tonight was their last night in Tacoma and tomorrow they would be on the road back to Charming. Tonight was the last night she would be spending with Happy for the next few weeks. No more kissing or touching. Not that they had done anything more than a few heated make out sessions. No more being held while sleeping. Adara let out a soft sigh as she closed her eyes against the sun. Sitting on top of the Club House again she couldn't help but wrap her hands around her legs.
Adara had found it ironic that the same place in Charming she found the most comfort was quickly turning to be the same place in Tacoma. Shaking her head she let out a heavy sigh as she rest her forehead against her left knee. She'd love for the thoughts in her head to stop tormenting her. She hated the images her mind was conjuring up. She didn't want to think about the women that Happy was sure to fuck while she was away. Didn't want to think how she wasn't sure if she'd ever be able to give him that. She knew that she was being obstinate but it was in her head. So she didn't care.
It's not like she had told anyone her thoughts. No one in Tacoma knew anything about what was running through her head. And Adara was more than happy to keep it that way. Truly she was; except she felt like she was going to explode. She was afraid that she'd go off on someone that didn't have any business knowing her thoughts. Like Kozik. She'd almost blabbed to the older man earlier. Groaning softly she couldn't believe she'd almost done that.
Adara whipped her head around and blinked in surprised. Honestly when she'd heard someone begin to climb the ladder she had thought it would have been Jax or maybe even Happy. Even though Jax usually left her alone until she sought him out to talk. Adara blinked in surprise, as she took in the kutt clad man before her, who was neither Jax nor Happy. After a second, she untangled her arms and scooted over to give the man some space, so that he could sit next to her. After a moment she felt his arm wrap around her shoulders.
Letting out a soft sigh Adara turned to look up at her favorite mo-hawked Latino. "So," Juice smiled brightly down at her. "Talk," he demanded after a few more moments of silence. It wasn't often he took that tone with her but when he did, he meant business.
"I'm afraid," She answered after a moment of silence her face a portrait of fear and confusion. "All these changes are happening and I feel like I'm sinking. I don't know if I'll be saved this time," She whispered softly as she turned to look at her feet. "And I'm afraid I won't be able to handle all of this and that I'll crack and that this is only being done in vain." She tacked on after a beat.
Blinking Juice's face softened as he looked down at his little sister. "Hey. Look at me," he let his voice soften as she turned to look at him. "You ain't gonna crack. You aren't doin' this in vain and you don't need to be saved," he paused, thinking of what to say next. "Besides we all see that he," Juice stressed the last word. "Won't let you fall. It's weird and it's creepy as hell but he won't let you fail little sister."
"And how do you know that?' Adara asked after a moment. "How does everyone seem to know what's going on with me and him? And why does everyone feel the need to point him out?" Adara snarked as she turned to glare at her feet. "I wish everyone would stop mentioning him when I have a freak out."
"We do it because you mention him first lil' sister," Juice shot back.
"Well isn't that great," Adara spoke in a mocking tone before she let out a sigh. "I'm worried about that."
"We know," Juice stated after a short pause. "I really don't feel comfortable talking about you with someone like that sis'," Juice mumbled. "But clearly it's either me or Jax and, God Gemma's gonna kill me if I fuck this up," He let out a groan as he brought his hand up to rub over his face.
Giggling softly she turned to gaze up at him. "We don't have to talk about it Juice. I can wait to talk about that with Imi," Adara replied softly.
"Are you sure?" Juice questioned quickly. "I mean, not that this is a topic I'm good at but I'd totally listened if you needed an ear. Though I'm sure even Tig would be better at this than I would. Well maybe not. He'd probably suggest killin' someone to make you feel better. There's Piney, naw. He'd hand you a joint and tell you to wait it out. I wish I could get Donna and Gemma here for you. They'd totally have you all chill and calm and not freaking out in no time," Juice rambled out quickly. Blinking he felt his face flush.
"Thank you," Adara spoke sincerely as she felt a real smile tug at her lips. "I'll be fine though. I don't need to talk to Gemma or Donna." She reassured him. "I really just needed to hear that I won't fuck this all up." She quipped softly.
"Well shit," Juice cracked. "I told you that. You couldn't stop me before I began to ramble on like that red head off that vampire show you watch?"
Grinning Adara shook her head. "Hell no," Adara retorted. "It's adorable that you can do that."
Juice groaned before dropping his head back. "Evil, you are evil." He responded after a moment.
"I don't suppose there's a way I could intimidated you into being discreet about this talk? Is there?" Adara asked hopefully after a few moments of comfortable silence.
Blinking Juice brought his head up to look down at her. "I won't say anything." And he meant it he wouldn't let anyone know about the thoughts floating around in her head. "Well maybe Gemma but seriously no one can say no to her though," Juice added. Adara simply shook her head as he moved to hug her tightly. "But I'll try," He promised as he held her.
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Translations::
HaRosh Mistovev ~ My Head is Spinning, Hebrew.
Achi ~ "my brother", also functions as a slang equivalent to "mate", or "dude", Hebrew.
Meshuge ~ Crazy, Yiddish.
Mamzer ~ Bastard, Hebrew.
Nafka ~ A whore, Yiddish.
Dod ~ Uncle, Hebrew.
Lailah Tov ~ Goodnight, Hebrew.
Imi ~ My Mother, Hebrew.
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Reviews are welcomed. This is starting a few years before the start of season 1. I own nothing, but it'd be totally awesome if I did. The show and the awesomeness attached to it belong to Kurt Sutter and the other awesome people who created and work on it. Also if you note anything wrong with my usage or wording of Hebrew, please let me know. I think I'm using it right, but if on the off chance I'm not I'd very much like to correct it. And I don't mean to offend anyone either by doing so. Have a great day or night and thanks for reading.