EPOV

Tanya is here, at my door. What the hell does she want? I told her that I never wanted to see her again after I found her in my bed with another guy. I've had enough today and I don't need to hear the shit the Tanya has to say.

"Hey Tanya. This might sound rude, but what the hell are you doing here?" I asked. "Can I come in and talk with you Ed?" she asked. She knows that only Emmett gets to call me Ed and no one else. "Why should I let you into my house after what you have done to me?" I said. "Please Edward can I just come in and talk?"

I didn't say anything but I let her in. she came in and went to go sit on the couch. I sat down in one of the arm chairs across from the couch.

Tanya was wearing shinny jeans with a white top and a gray jacket. You see Tanya might be a slut but she doesn't dress like one. She does have a little class. But I don't really care about her class; I lost all respect for her when we broke up.

"So what do you want?" I asked. "What I can't drop in and yes hi?" she said. "Tanya stop playing with me and tell me what the hell you want." I said raising my voice a little. "I'm joking Edward, you don't need to get so mad. Anyway, your dad called me and he told me that he was having dinner with his new girlfriend and said that you were come too. He told me that you didn't have a date so he called me over and asked if I wanted to be your date because god knows you never talk to girls anymore," she said. "So I said I would love to be your date. I hope you don't mind." 'I hope you don't mind?' Is she fucking kidding me? I do mind, I mind a lot. I don't want her to be my date. I would rather die before I go out with her. 'Tanya I do mind, a lot. I don't want to be your date and you know that I don't want to. You should have said no to my dad." I said.

"Edward your dad is just trying to make you happy." She said. Is my dad on drugs or something. How is Tanya going to make me happy, he knows what she did to me. But my dad has always liked Tanya and I think that he is trying to get us back together. 'Well dad it's not going to work' I thought to myself.

"You know what, I'll go with you tonight but there will be rules. The first no holding hands, second NO KISSING! If you even try to kiss me I'm leaving and you can tell my dad that I will not talk to him ever again. If you can follow those then tonight should be easy Tanya. Okay?" I ask. I feel like something bad will happen tonight at dinner, but I am just doing this for my dad. And maybe with this Tanya thing I can make a deal with him to let Emmett over for dinner one night.

"Okay Edward, I'll follow your little rules." Tanya said. She got and started to walk away. Just as she was about to leave she yelled "Just pick me up at ^ tonight Ed, I still live in the same place." And with that she left.

She knows I hate it when people call me Ed. No one gets to call me that, but Emmett; he the only one who gets to call me that.

I looked at the clock. 1:00pm. Okay so I had to start getting ready in about four hours then pick up Tanya and go to my dad's house. That sounds like a fun time. NOT! Tonight is going to be terrible. Maybe if I take a nap everything will be better. So I set an alarm and went to sleep.

But the only thing I could think about was Bella.

BPOV

After I went to bed, I wanted to go over to Alice and tell her everything that happened. But I was way to tired and hurt.

I still feel so trapped right now. The drugs didn't last as long as I thought they would. I went to my closet and got my baggy of heaven out. I lined up the white powder in to three lines, got my straw and went across the first line. I put my head back a snorted a few times and waited a little for it to kick in. I waited, and waited and waited. And nothing happened. So I snorted the second line and put my head back and waited.

And there it was. That great feeling. That free feeling. Oh how I love this, I never want it to end. And I hope that this pain that I have will stay away forever.

AN: so I'm alive. Sorry I haven't updated, but I've been really tired and I had this essay I had to finish and I did:). Also I saw Ed Sheeran last Saturday and he was so HOT! And guess what. HE SANG A-TEAM! I lost my voice and had to recover.

I really hope that you guys and girls like this chapter. It mostly Edward's POV but I wanted to add a little Bella too.

So please follow and review this story. It makes me happy and update faster.

-Tina3