Hi everyone, yes i am indeed alive! i'm sorry that it took so long to write this chap, but so many things happen in this chap and i've got school and work, so ill be slowly working on the next chapters. hopefully they don't take as long as this one did.

enjoy the new chapter, i made it EXTRA long for you (over 5000 words)

The days had turned to weeks, and weeks had turned to months. Spring had come and the April days only seemed to grow long for Edd. His bully Zack would catch him unexpectedly and slightly beat him on some days, or just threaten him. Since Zack found out Edd liked Kevin there was never a day Zack did or say something to intimate the boy. Yet he kept to himself, staying with Ed and Eddy or Tyler as often as he could. Edd didn't want to tell anyone, he knew Zack would find a way to get to him anyways and Edd was determined to show Zack his constant beating was hopeless. Zack seemed to never badly hurt him, and this reassured Edd that he would never go further than bruising his body. Since the first time Edd hadn't shed a tear, because he knew that soon this would all be over, and he and Kevin would be free. He also made sure to cover up most of his bruises as best he could, although Kevin had seen one or two leaving no choice than to come up with a lie.

Even though Edd and Kevin had decided to be as secretive as possible with their relationship at school, Edd slowly began to take note that Kevin would be less tense. This made him happy and hoped that Kevin was planning to slowly open up to his teammates so it wouldn't be a complete shock. Due to footballs season ending Kevin had more time to spend with Edd, but he didn't neglect his responsibilities as captain for one second. When Kevin had time he and Edd would head up to the library and study, well at least attempt to until the library was clear then Kevin would pounce on his boyfriend. Edd was more than happy.

It was a Monday morning and Edd was up early like always. He found himself setting the small round dining table with two plates of blueberry pancakes and typing his regular good morning message to Kevin. He smiled widely receiving the reply. They were going to meet early this morning at his place before school since Kevin was busy after. Not 5 minutes later he heard a knock at his door and cheerfully skipped to open it, finding his ginger boyfriend standing in front of him. Kevin quickly stepped inside grabbing Edd in a tight hug as he kicked the door closed. "Morning Babe" he said again kissing Edd on the lips.

"Good…Morning…."Edd said in between kisses

"Oh man, what's that delicious smell?" Kevin dropped his backpack and started leading Edd into the kitchen only to be pleasantly surprised.

"I made blueberry pancakes" Edd smiled up at Kevin "come now if we want to be early to school we should start eating" Edd pulled Kevin to the table and they both took a seat. Kevin chuckled biting into a piece of his pancake making Edd looked up and asked "What are you laughing about?"

"Nothing, I'm just thinking how awesome it would be to have breakfast together every morning" Kevin smiled as he saw Edd blush "These pancakes are way too good" he added.

"That would be lovely, and thank you" Edd said as he smiled into his glass of orange juice and took a sip.

"Then I hope you don't mind having me over for breakfast again tomorrow?" Kevin raised an eyebrow.

"Of course I wouldn't mind, I'd love to!" Edd basically yelled with joy "I'm sorry I didn't mean to yell" he said embarrassed and pulled his beanie down a little.

Kevin roared with laughter and pulled Edd closer in a side hug "Nah makes me happy you actually want to"

"Well of course I would… its awful lonely eating by myself all the time" Edd pouted.

Kevin frowned "How about it? We can have breakfast every other day, and maybe on weekends I can 'sleep over'?" Kevin said wiggling his eyebrows.

"K-Kevin! That's hardly a-appropriate" Edd said biting into another piece of his pancake and looking away blushing.

"Whoa there I just said sleep over, you're the one thinking inappropriately" Kevin chuckled.

"What, no, I, I wasn't...Kevin!" Edd pulled down his beanie to cover up his red face.

"I'm just messing with you" Kevin pulled Edd's hat off his face and leaned in "if you want to take things slow that's perfectly fine with me, and if you want something more than that's cool too" Kevin winked, pecked Edd's lips and went back to eating.

Edd was completely red, his mind wondering to thoughts he couldn't avoid. He looked at his phone and stood up grabbing his plate and Kevin's. "Goodness it so late already, we should leave."

"What? I wasn't done, and we still got 30 minutes Edd" Kevin pouted

"An early start in the day makes for a better one" Edd hummed as he began to wash the dishes.

Once finished cleaning up both boys grabbed their belongings and made their way to the door out the door. Edd was surprised to see Kevin follow him down the street and turned to him "Kevin, will you be walking to school with me today?"

"Yup" Kevin said looking straight ahead, hands in his pocket.

"A-and you're ok with it?" Edd said tightly holding the strap of his messenger bag.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" Kevin looked down at Edd.

"Well, w-we could be s-seen" Edd said peeking up at Kevin.

"Nah, it's still pretty early, and if they do we'll just tell them you were tutoring me since I got practice late after school" Kevin went back to staring at the road in front of them.

Edd look to the road, they were almost to school, and the parking lot was mostly empty. He glanced at Kevin, oh what a sight he was. He stood tall, and strong. His toned body reflected through the letterman jacket only adding to the intimidating pretense he perceived. The orange hair that escaped through the red cap radiated powerfully through the sunlight, his green eyes glowed. He looked like a god. Edd's glued eyes made their way down to Kevin's hands, how he wished to hold them, yet they were so close to school now. He let out a small whimper of disappointment, making sure his lover wouldn't hear.

...

It was the middle if the school day and Edd made his way towards his locker before lunch. There wasn't many people in the hall, most them already inside the cafeteria. He hummed as he grabbed his lunch and put in some textbooks, and then gently closed the locker door. He turned slightly closing his eyes enjoying the silence, although before Edd realized it, strong hands had grabbed his arm and were dragging him into a closed off area nearby. Immediately Edd put his arms up in defense knowing exactly who his kidnapper was, and curled up into a ball. "Please not today Za-"

"Calm down babe, it's just me" a familiar husky voice interrupted him.

"K-Kevin!" Edd's eyes widened and he looked up.

"What's wrong?" Kevin bent down to meet Edd's terrified eyes. Edd made no response so he asked again "Edd what's wrong?" He said slowly and tapped the petrified boy in the shoulder gently, "who did you think it was?"

Edd snapped back to reality and stood up quickly followed by Kevin "oh, no it's nothing, I'm just jumpy" he said.

"Edd, hey, are you still getting bullied?" Kevin's hands cupped Edd's face, and forced him to look up.

"No, of course not" Edd breathed in and held his stare strong afraid his lie would be easily seen.

"You sure, cause it doesn't seem like it" Kevin stared sadly.

"Positively certain" Edd smiled back lovingly "so would you mind telling me to what do I owe this pleasure?"

"I just really wanted to see you..." Kevin leaned in.

"Kevin! W-we could be seen!" Edd shouted in a whisper

"Don't worry about it, everyone's at lunch" Kevin continued to lean against Edd.

"Kevin your being careless" Edd pushed against Kevin chest with all the might he had, yet at the same time he wanted to pull him closer.

"If I knew we could get caught, I wouldn't be here right now babe, but If you want me to leave without getting a recharge of double D then fine~ I'll leave" Kevin sighed heavily raising his hands up in the air and hung his head low comically.

Edd giggled "alright alright, come here you" Edd pulled Kevin's sleeves "needy needy needy" he continued to giggle leaning into the gentle kiss Kevin had pressed upon his lips. "You are so wonderful you know" Edd said tangling his fingers with Kevin's.

"The best one around" Kevin chuckled, checked the time on his phone and frowned "I got to leave now or the team will be suspicious"

"Will I be seeing you tomorrow morning then?"

"I'll be there no doubt" Kevin gave Edd another peck on the lips and turned to leave. He looked back and as he was fixing his cap he gave Edd a wink and left.

"Good lord he's charming..." Edd breathed out, nervously playing with his fingers while his eyes were still fixed on the spot Kevin had stood. After a couple of minutes he finally left, unaware that he was being watched by the familiar blond male.

The blond frowned, angry. He formed his hands to tight fists. He had had his suspicions for a while now, so he had followed his captain. Once he saw he had grabbed the dork, he knew it could go two ways. Unfortunately for him his suspicions were proven. Now it's time to act, I'm not about to let that scrawny fag turn the captain into one of them.

...

Zack walked through the halls as quickly as possible after school, heading towards the locker room. As he entered his eyes roamed for the red head. He spotted Kevin chatting away with two other team mates. He approached Kevin grabbing on by the shoulder "hey cap, mind if I steal you away for a bit?" Kevin nodded and stood following Zack out into the field.

"What's up?" Kevin asked staring out to the empty field.

Zack paused not sure how to confront Kevin, he respected the red head, yet he envied his glory. He wanted in a way the humiliated him, yet he wanted to give the captain one last chance. "Remember the nerdy kid of the Ed's?" He looked at Kevin observantly.

Kevin looked at Zack; his heart stopped but kept his cool "Double Dork? What about him?"

"I mentioned this to you a while back, but I'll tell you again, the fag clearly has that thing for you"

"Zack, we've already been through this, I doubt-" Kevin said annoyingly wanting his team mate to just forget about the subject.

"Do you?" Zack spat out interrupting Kevin

"Do I what?" Kevin asked

"Have a thing for him?"

"Why would you think that?" at this point Kevin's heart had stopped

"Well you haven't beat him or the other dorks in a long time now, you haven't been out to party, and I bet you haven't fucked a bitch since October either, If I didn't know any better I'd think you've gone soft Captain" Zack said narrowing his eyes.

Kevin was furious, he wasn't about to let his respect as Captain get ripped apart "you're making shit up Zack" Kevin said crossing his arms and puffing his chest out to intimidate the blond.

"Fine prove you're still the same old Kevin" Zack said as an Idea popped into s head.

"FINE, what the fuck you want me to do then?" Kevin yelled out.

"You'll see tomorrow after practice" Zack said aloud as he heard the rest of the team come out onto the field.

...

Tuesday, Edd had gotten up bright and early waiting for Kevin's arrival. He was more than happy that Kevin was considerate of him and promised to have breakfast every morning with him; it certainly filled his lonesome heart. This time he had made a heartfelt breakfast consisting eggs, bacon, and side of cut up strawberries. He heard the usual three knocks at the door and ran to open it revealing his god like, red headed boyfriend with a crooked smile that made Edd's heart swoon. Kevin stepped inside closing the door behind him "Morning babe" He leaned and pecked Edd on his cheek than trailed to his lips making Edd giggle softly.

"Morning charming" Edd wrapped his arms around Kevin.

"Damn that's smells great, what you make today?" Kevin said placing his hands on Edd's hips.

"Come and find out" Edd lead Kevin to the kitchen, their breakfast freshly made and waiting to be eaten.

"Awesome!" Kevin pulled Edd closer "damn you got all the great qualities for marriage huh"

"M-M-M-Marr-Marriage!..." Edd face was completely red and hot, and he pulled down his beanie. Goodness what is he saying!

"Come on let's eat" Kevin snickered. God he's amazing at cooking Kevin thought well, I guess he kind of has to be, he's been taking care of himself since he was a kid. Kevin looked up at Edd who was eating slowly and was still red. 'Fine prove you're still the same old Kevin' Zack's words rang through his ear. Fuck... Wonder what he has planned... Can't be anything too bad right? Wait should I tell Edd?

"Is everything alright Kevin" Edd asked after seeing Kevin face go through a series of different expressions.

Kevin looked back at Edd "no nothing I'm just bummed about having practice run later than usual today" There are some things he shouldn't know.

"Is that so?" Edd said sadly drinking his orange juice.

"Yeah, sorry babe, its better if you go straight home today, I promise to come over for a bit, alright?"

Edd smiled again "alright, I'll be waiting for your arrival"

...

Zack had gathered some of his teammates and thought of a way to ruin Kevin's relationship with Edd. He had the perfect plan to insure their breakup, and Edds deserved humiliation. He walked from class to class with a huge grin plastered on his face, his hands in his pockets, and his head held high. This is going to be great he thought.

...

Kevin had encountered some of his teammates throughout school. All gave him a look. Some grinned at him, others avoided eye contact, and some wished him good luck. Kevin started to get nervous; he wasn't expecting his teammates to know about his arraignment with Zack. Ugh that bastard, what the fuck does he have plan. Kevin was on edge, he had no idea what Zack had planned and whatever it was he couldn't help but question if he really was about to go through with it. He just wanted to be done with today, and run as fast as he could to Edd. Graduation was so close and once that happened he would be done with Zack, and would have all the time in the world to spend it with Edd. Damn it... He thought.

...

Edd walked through the school day without a care in the world. He had noticed Zack had not approached him at all that day which he found odd. He thought that maybe he had gone bored of him and this made Edd smile. Let's hope it is so. Although Edd felt eyes follow him around as he walked. It didn't seem to be just one pair, but multiple eyes observing his every move. Edd became a bit paranoid but brushed it off at quickly as the creepy thought came into mind.

The last bell rang and he left to meet up with his friends, Ed and Eddy. "Eddward!" He heard his named being called and turned around. It was his AP History teacher; she was walking up towards him in a bit of a panic.

"Hello, Mrs. Jones, how may I help you" he asked concerned.

"Are you free right now?" She asked somewhat breathless.

"Well, yes I suppose"

"Oh thank goodness, would you be a dear and help me with tutorial? There are far too many students in the class and I really need some assistance" she practically begged.

"Of course I'll help" Edd said smiling.

"Oh thank you thank you thank you! I'll give you extra credit for this" she beamed and dragged Edd along with her back to her chaotic classroom. Meanwhile Edd quickly sent a text to both boys about his whereabouts.

...

Ed and Eddy stood waiting at the entrance when they both felt their phones buzz. Immediately they looked at the message and looked at each other, Ed with as disappointed look, and Eddy with an annoyed one. "Blah blah blah why does he always have to help out geesh, come one lumpy he'll probably be stuck there for a while"

"Ok Eddy, and he'll probably want to wait for his boyfriend to get out of practice too" Ed giggled, completely enjoying the relationship between the jock and the nerd since he found out.

Eddy made a disgusted expression "God whatever" he said walking out of school with his back hunched over and his hands deep in his pockets followed by Ed.

...

Zack was walking fast around the halls, eyes roaming in every direction for the black beanie that was his target. He decided to head towards the entrance thinking he would be luckier that the nerd would show up when he saw Ed and Eddy standing around. He got close and overheard Ed and Eddy's conversation and gave an evil smile. He had already given an excuse to the coach to skip out on practice, so he was in no rush. Zack wondered slowly around the halls of the school looking into the classrooms searching for Edd. Once he spotted him inside the history classroom packed with confused students, he grin grew wider. He stepped aside leaning against the lockers next to the classroom, folded his arms against his chest and waited. Over time he watched students leave one by one, and checked the time on his phone, only a few minutes before tutorial ends then the fun begins.

...

Finally Edd thought to himself, letting out a long sigh he had been holding the entire hour. The hazardous hour was exhausting and Edd was ready to go home, so he packed his belongings and said his farewell to the teacher who was attending the last student in the room. He opened the door and stepped outside, immediately his vision blurred and he felt his body fall to the floor. He had no time to see his attacker because the person covered bus eyes with one strong hand holding him in place while the other put duct tape over his mouth, muffling his voice. They had placed what seemed to by huge hoodie over Edd's head. He couldn't see clearly through the hood because it was the type to have a mask, and it was zipped all the way up. Edd felt himself being carried and tried to fight his way out from the attackers hold, unfortunately he was much stronger than Edd, and held him firmly in his arms.

He whimpered slightly, scared to death of what his kidnapper was planning to with him. The rough hands that gripped him steady felt oddly familiar and Edd had an idea of who this person was. All Edd thought about was that someone, anyone would notice or would stumble upon them before something happened. Kevin,Kevin,Kevin Kevin! His mind screamed for help, hoping his lover would take notice when he called and Edd wouldn't pick up. But dear god Kevin said his practice would run late today, by then it might be too late. Edd began to cry, what was he supposed to do when he couldn't save himself, curse this weak body of mine. He was in a panic.

He continued to try to resist, yet again no use. This time it earned him a punch to his side, causing him to cringe from the pain and letting out a small whimper. He was determined to keep on resisting, he had to do something. With every time he fought, his kidnapper would punch him back, hard and hard than the next, slowly draining Edd's will power.

After what seemed like forever Edd was thrown hard on a concrete floor and he let out another muffled scream from pain. He tried to stand up but was pushed back down and felt his kidnapper wrapped what seemed like rope, tying him down. NO,NO,NO,NO! He tried to scream as loud as his lounges could let him, but was stopped by a hard kick to his stomach. He let his tears fall again and curled up into a ball. Soon after he felt his shoes being taken off, and a door shut. He couldn't feel his kidnapper's presence in the room no more and laid on the cold ground completely vulnerable with only his muffled cries radiating through the walls in the room creating an echo. Where in the world did Zack take me? Will anyone be able to find me? Am I going to die here? Oh god is Zack really planning on...on... Edd continued to question minute after minute before becoming unconscious.

...

Where the fuck is Zack!? Kevin questioned throughout practice maybe he chickened out he smiled at this thought and once practice was over he ran into the locker room at lighting speed. He took a quick shower knowing Edd hated the stinky odor after practice. He said his goodbye to his team and stepped out of the locker room only to be met by the blond he hated so much.

"Did you think I'd forgotten Captain?" Kevin growled seeing Zack was grinning at him, clearly teasing him.

"Ok, so what the fuck you want me to do?" Kevin spat out annoyed he couldn't head to Edd's place.

"You'll see" Zack motioned Kevin to follow him out of the school.

"What the fuck is up with that! You have the entire team in on your fucking game, just tell me" Kevin said annoyed right behind Zack.

"It's a surprise, no surprise is fun if it isn't a secret" Zack continued walking now passing the school down to an abandoned alley way close by.

"Zack, where are you taking me?" Kevin's nerves where getting the better of him, he was scared of what he had to do. He didn't want to do something that could potentially hurt his relationship with Edd if he ever found out some day.

"Shut up already, we're here!" Zack yelled out opening a door that led to a room that was only lit by the sunlight coming through the windows.

Kevin stepped inside slowly observing his surrounding until his eyes came upon a figure lying on the floor. He couldn't make out who the person was cause of the oversized hood with a mask. The body laid motionless in the ground, and Kevin eyes grew wide. "Zack, what the fuck is this..." Kevin breathed out afraid Zack had gone completely insane.

"Nothing like the good old times right Kev" Zack elbowed Kevin.

"Zack this is way beyond what we did, we never kidnapped anyone, dude this is fucked up" Kevin stared at the poor body. "I'm letting him go and fucking leaving" he moved closer to the body but was stopped by Zack.

"You're not going anywhere until you beat the crap out of him, you wanna prove yourself then DO IT Captain"

"Dude I fucking thought you wanted me to drink a couple beers, vandalize some shit, not this!"

"If you won't do it then I'll do it, and you won't want that!"

"No you won't because I'm taking this kid with me!"

"I WONT LET YOU"

"You want me beat him? FINE!" Kevin stepped by closer to the body and slightly kicked him "Ok, you happy now?"

"What the fuck was that Captain, you've gone soft" Zack yelled

"Fuck that shit, this is wrong on so many levels" Kevin bent down to untie the body when he was pushed away by Zack.

"You're a fag captain!" Zack was becoming impatient now.

"Says who!" Kevin yelled back

"I do! I saw you kissing that disgusting little dork."

Kevin froze speechless Fuck... He thought.

"Now you fucking better beat this kid before I go and tell everyone about you and give that nerd of yours the worse time of his life!" Zack stared at Kevin strongly.

Fuck Fuck Fuck... Edd I'm sorry I'm doing this to protect you Kevin stood in front of the body and closed his eyes. He gave a powerful kick and felt the body twitch, sorry dude I'll make it up to you somehow... He continued to kick the body with his eyes closed, over time he heard whimpers.

The voice was muffled but after time the cries got louder. Kevin's heart beat began to race, his eyes grew wide, and he froze staring at the shivering curled up body underneath him. This body was much too familiar, the voice sounded too similar to someone he held dear. He looked back at Zack who only stared back in amusement holding a pair of shoes Kevin recognized in an instant. Rage began to boil in Kevin's veins and he immediately bent down on his knees and began to untie the body in a rush. He pulled down the zipper of the hood and was met with terrified, heartbroken ocean blue eyes, the blue eyes that once looked at him lovingly. "WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS ZACK!" Kevin looked back holding a somewhat unconscious Edd tightly in his arms.

"Nothing Captain" Zack chuckled

Kevin placed Edd carefully down on the ground and stood up walking towards Zack. He grabbed him by the collar of his shirt "you think this is funny!?"

"I think you're a sick mother fucking fag" Zack spat out

"YOU'RE FUCKING INSANE!" Kevin yelled his veins popped out from the fury he had, and punched Zack right on the face making Zack stumble back. Zack gave Kevin a glare and lunched his way back pushing Kevin down on the floor.

Edd sat up slowly becoming aware that the two boys were fighting. He tried his best stand up and without the boys noticing he slipped out of the room, running as fast as he could back to the safety of his home.

...

Eventually Edd slowed down, and was now struggling to walk. He held onto the walls along the street to keep himself steady. He had reached the Cul-De-Sac Park, it was dark outside. He looked up at the sky and wondered how much time had passed by. His knees where a trembling mess and unable to keep him up so he slid down into the concrete without caring about how filthy it was. No that didn't matter, what mattered was what had just happened. Did Kevin really do things like THIS in the past, does he STILL do it? He asked himself oblivious to the conversation Kevin and Zack had had because of his unconscious state.

He felt hot tears run down his cheeks; he curled up covering his face hidden in his knees "EDD!" A husky voiced called out not too far away from where Edd was. He immediately stood up wincing at the pain that ran through his body. He ignored it and tried his best to reach his home, unfortunately he hadn't made much progress when Kevin ran around the corner and saw Edd "Edd…" Kevin stepped closer.

"DON'T! d-don't some near me…" Edd moved away.

"Hey, it's ok I'm not gonna hurt you" Kevin took another step towards Edd.

"You have already done so…" Edd looked down feeling his tears threatening to escape again.

Kevin froze, he was speechless. What the fuck did I do… he looked down at his hands and made a fist "Edd, I-I didn't mean to, if I knew it was you—"

"NONETHELESS KEVIN!" Edd trembled with anger "what Zack did was horrible, but the fact that YOU contributed and was the one attacking is unforgivable! Regardless if it was I or not, YOU should have stepped away from the situation, fought back! ANYTHING!"

"I DID THIS SHIT FOR YOU EDD!" Kevin shouted

"FOR ME? Or for yourself, for that precious reputation of yours Kevin" Edd was leaning against the fence again unable to keep mush strength in his quivering legs.

"Wha- no… Zack was threatening you, I was doing it for you" Kevin said with slight hesitation

"I never asked you to, I can handle myself perfectly fine, IN FACT I'VE BEEN HANDLING IT FOR THE PAST 4 MONTHS!" Edd yelled out tears now freely falling.

"What? What do you mean… has Zack…?" Kevin asked

"Yes Kevin, Zack had his suspicions since January and been trying to scare me away since"

"Then, those bruises I saw on you…?" he questioned feeling stupid

"Were the result of his threats…" Edd placed his arms around himself

"Why didn't you tell me?" Kevin said with a dumbfounded expression as he recalled Edd's lame excuses over the past months. "WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME EDD?"

"Because I-DID-IT-FOR-YOU!" Edd sobbed "I DID IT FOR YOUR STUPID REPUTATION, SO YOU WOULDN'T WORRY"

"DAMN IT EDD" Kevin threw his cap on the ground

"Because I knew I had to sacrifice something in order to be with you, and it's unfortunate you couldn't do that for me" Edd began to walk away.

Kevin didn't know what to do or say he just stood there thinking how stupid he was. He had ruined their relationship long ago with the thought of his reputation being his priority. Edd's words had cut through him like a knife. "Edd please, don't walk away…"

"You are a stranger to me, I only ask that you don't come near me again" Edd stated in a stern voice and continued to slowly walk away, and out of sight.

Kevin stood in the deserted side walk for what seemed like hours. He looked down at his red baseball cap lying on the floor, a hint of rage ran through him. Rage directed towards himself, because he had no one else to blame than himself. I'm the only one to blame… Kevin lifted his hand, placing it over his chest where his heart was and grip his shirt into a fist. He felt like he was bleeding from the inside, from the cut Edd's words had struck. Please don't walk out of my life Edd…

Please don't kill me...

it'll get better i promise

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i'll be posting some doodles some time soon as a sneak peek for next chap.