Hey guys! I'm on vacation in Florida so this is a real quick update!

Chapter 11- Sorting out feelings

We were on our way out of Ohio, but we weren't that far. We only left the concert about an hour ago. Anyway, I was thinking about what Twinny said.

'I saw the way you blushed when he hugged you...'

Did I really like Jake? Like as more then just a friend? Its a possibility I guess. I mean, Jake was my best friend. I've known him almost as long as I've known Maija. I know everything about him. Like in the second grade he was scared of going too high on the swing. I guess that was partly my fault since I broke my arm flipping off a swing that same year. How he secretly likes school and wanted to become a science teacher despite his dyslexia.

I knew everything abouthim and he knew everything about me, except of course that I'm a mixed blood that has powers of the gods, but did I want to take it to the next level? What if he didn't like me that way? What if he did and we did get together,but we broke up and it ruined our friendship? Gahh...this is making my head hurt, so I went to the only thing that could calm me: writing songs.

Maybe if I couldn't decide on my feelings for Jake, I could write them down. Maybe whatevar I write down will help me decide. I hope so.

I grabbed my notepad and wrote down what came to me. I don't know how much time went by by the time I was done with it, but I went over what I had.

Here we go again,
I kinda wanna be more then friends
So take it easy on me.
I'm afraid your never satisfied.
Here we go again.
We're sick like animals. We play pretend.
You're just a cannibal.
And I'm afraid I won't get out alive.
No I won't sleep tonight

Oh, Oh.
I want some more
Oh, oh.
What are you waiting for!
Take a bite of my heart tonight.

Oh, oh.
I want some more.
Oh, oh.
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight.

Here we are again.
I feel the chemicals kickin' in
It's gettin' heavier I wanna run and hide
I wanna run and hide

I do it every time
You're killin' me now
And I won't be denied by you
The animal inside of you.

Oh, Oh.
I want some more
Oh, oh.
What are you waiting for!
Take a bite of my heart tonight.

Oh, oh.
I want some more.
Oh, oh.
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight.

Hush, hush
The world is quiet
Hush, hush
We both can't fight it
It's us that made this mess
Why can't you understand?
Whoa, I won't sleep tonight.

I won't sleep tonight.

Here we go again
Here we go again
Here we go again

Oh, Oh.
I want some more
Oh, oh.
What are you waiting for!
Take a bite of my heart tonight.

Oh, oh.
I want some more.
Oh, oh.
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight.

Oh, Oh.
I want some more
Oh, oh.
What are you waiting for!
Take a bite of my heart tonight.

Oh, oh.
I want some more.
Oh, oh.
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight.

Oh, Oh.
I want some more
Oh, oh.
What are you waiting for!
Take a bite of my heart tonight.

Oh, oh.
I want some more.
Oh, oh.
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight.

They lyrics seemed ok, so I moved on. I probably spent hours after that writing the music for that song. I didn't think any of my tracks could quite fit it like I would like.

I yawned and looked at the time for the first time that night, or should I say morning? It was 3:39 in the morning, we left the concert at 9. I've been up for a while, and I wasn't even tired.

Weird since I just yawned.

"Tom where are we?" I asked.

"Hmm? What? Oh well little Missy, shouldn't you be asleeping?" He sat up from his couch bed, we stopped for the night don't worry the bus wasn't being controlled by a ghost.

"I should, but I'm not tired."

"Ah, I stopped in Toledo, I needed rest."

"Ok, thanks Tom. Sorry to wake you."

"It's quite alright miss." He laid back down and was snoring soon after. I wish I could do that, fall asleep so fast, but of course you have to be tired to sleep and I ain't even tired. Sigh.

"What else can I write about?" I whispered to myself. I wanted to write about something different, but all I could think of was Jake. So of course, I just gave up and wrote another song about him. This one was slower, more of an actual love-uh...confession song. Not love...I didn't love Jake...did I?

Will you count me in?

I've been awake for a while now.
You've got me feelin like a child now.
Cause every time I see your bubbly face,
I get the tingles in a silly place.

It starts in my toes and I crinkle my nose.
Where ever it goes I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time where ever you go.

The rain is fallin on my window pane.
But we are hidin in a safer place.
Under the covers stayin dry and warm.
You give me feelins that i adore.

It starts in my toes makes me crinkle my nose.
Where ever it goes I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time where ever you go.

What am I gonna say When you make me feel this way.
I just...mmm.

It starts in my toes and I crinkle my nose.
Where ever it goes I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time where ever you go.

I've been asleep for a while now.
You tucked me in just like a child now.
Cause every time you hold me in your arms.
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth.

It starts in my soul.
And I lose all control.
When you kiss my nose,
The feelin shows.
Cause you make me smile.
Baby just take your time now,
Holdin me tight.

Where ever,
Where ever, where ever you go
Where ever,
Where ever, where ever you go
Where ever you go I'll always know
Cause you make me smile here, just for a while.

I opened my laptop and clicked the "Slow tracks" folder and started scrolling though the possibilities. It took me about 10 minutes to realize I couldn't find a track that fit this song either. I sighed and brought up the instrument program with all the instruments I would need to create the right tune and got to work.

"Alex wake up."

"24!" My head shot up and my eyes hurt from the light. "What?"

"You need to wake up, it's already noon." Maija came into focus.

"Noon?"

"Yeah, you fell asleep playing on your laptop."

"I was not playing, I was writing a song."

"A song?" Anna came up behind Maija, "Can we hear it?"

"Well I don't know if I finished the music or not before I fell asleep."

Twinny rolled her eyes at me, "Check then Twin!"

"Bossy bossy," I muttered. I picked my laptop up and turned it on. "I have...done. I did finish it before I crashed."

"Well play it!" Maija sat next to me, "Back up?"

"Not in these two Twinny."

"Wait, 'these TWO' ?"

"Yes as in plural. Gods and I thought you were smart Twinny."

"I AM!" She shrieked, she hated it when I said that. She glared at my laughing, "Just sing."

I laughed some more and grabbed my guitar, "I don't have the first one on my laptop."

After I sang the first song, I pressed play on my laptop to start the track and sang that one as well. When I was done, Maija smiled knowingly at me but didn't say anything. Anna was smiling too. "I smell hits." She sung.

"Awesome as always Twin."

"Thanks guys, but I'm hungry can we get something to eat?" they laughed.

"Of course, come on." I smiled.

It was 11 pm. We just left the Ann Arbor concert about an hour ago. I sung my new songs and the fans seemed to like them, which is always a good sign right? Anyway, I wasn't tired again, another all night-er tonight I guess.

I took out my song pad, if it helped me get to sleep yesterday it should help again tonight right? I hope so. And yesterday's songs really helped me clear my feelings for Jake, even just a little.

As I was thinking of lyrics, I was humming a tune. It went along with the flow of the lyrics I already had really well, so I stopped and worked on the tune, just so I didn't forget it. When I was done I went back to the lyrics, which I was already half way done with.

In my opinion it was one of the most relaxed songs I've ever written. It also referred to things that A: didn't happen, or B: I wanted to happen but haven't. Don't judge.

My head is stuck in the clouds
He begs me to come down.
Says "Girl quit foolin' around"

I told him,"I love the view from up here
War sun and wind in my ear
We'll watch the world from above
As it turns to the rhythm of love"

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine, all mine.
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love.

My heart beats like a drum
A guitar string to the strum
A beautiful song to be sung
He's got blue eyes deep like the sea,
That roll back when he's laughing at me

He rises up like the tide
The moment his lips meet mine

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine, all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love.

When the moon is low
We can dance in slow motion
And all your tears will subside
All your tears will dry

Ba-ba ba-ba ba-ba baba
Da da-da dum da-da dum
Ba-ba ba-ba ba-ba baba
Da da-da dum da-da dum

And long after I've gone
You'll still be humming along
And I will keep you in my mind
The way you love me so fine

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine, all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love.

Oh
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love.
Yeah
Sway to the rhythem of love.

Yeah, kinda slow and laid back, not my normal style of writing, but oh well. I liked it. I was able to add a little sea stuff for Grandpa and dad too, so I was happy with it.

"Miss are you still awake?" Tom asked me.

"Yeah."

"Sleep is good for ya', you should be gettin' it."

I sighed, "I know Tom, but I just can't sleep."

"First step to gettin' to sleep is pretending to be asleep."

I smiled at the back of his head, "Ok Tom," I closed my laptop and laid down on my bed.

Tom's a smart man.

So again, its kinda mainly lyrics, sorry, ut I needed to get these songs into circulation. Keep those songs, cities/towns, nicknames, and comments comming!

Review response:

lalala445: YOU MUST BE DISPOSED OF! YOU KNOW TOO MUCH

daughterofposeidonhudiegleek: haha I did that! It was the beginning of my pain streak, aka, the beginning of the broken bones and what not lol

PokemonLover4Ever: First off let me say YOU HAVE AN TOTALLY AWESOME USER-NAME! And I would never take constructive criticism the wrong way! Whatever you have to say I want to hear! 1.I have that problem a lot, but I'm trying! 2.I'm taking your advice on that 3. LOL :*

Soonersgirl86: Any city in Missouri? Cause I have no idea where she should preform there. LOL "Makin bacon Megan" ? LOL My friends call me Megabar sometimes, cause my name's Megan too, I think that's the only thing we have in common cause, haha, I hate bacon. ;)

And thank you too all y'all that suggested songs! Also I was looking through some of them. Like a lot of you have suggested "Sparks Fly" by Taylor Swift, and I like the song, but I don't honestly think it can apply to Alex so I'm sorry to say that is one Taylor Swift song I probably won't be using. But I love her other songs and I'm using one in the next chapter or the one after that I don't know.

Luv y'all and keep reviewing! I wanna hear anything you gots to say!

~Arty