I hope none of you lost interest for this story...Like I've mega busy and had no time to update but I did keep in mind how I was going to do this. So this chapter is completely Eli's..I just felt like he should have a chapter because...He just should (Do not question it). I'm kind of in love with pyscho Eli. I mean the faces he makes might be creepy but, he's still sexy. Like way sexy! And I should stop babbling on so read?
Disclaimer-I do not own Degrassi...
Eli
"You think Clare understands?" Adam asks softly on the drive home. Does she? And if she does, will she leave me? She promised not to, I don't need to worry.
"Of course she does. She's Clare, remember?"
"Yeah..The girl that forgives you for your mistakes." His hands drummed nervously on his knees. I glanced at him before saying,"Alexx is...She's..." What is she? Oh yeah. My fucking weird cousin.
"Eli, she's everything. I just hope she understands."
"She will."-I take a deep breath-" How about we go to our place? Tell Drew and Wesley to come?" I suggest after he hums the alphabet..His worry song.
He looked at me and smiled."Really? The hill is a place to relax." He said as he whipped his phone out of his pocket. "Eli, have you ever..."He pauses. And Adam never pauses. He's like a walking phone you can't put down after you say "Hello".
"Have I ever what?"
"Is Clare the only girl you said 'I love you" to?"
"Adam, we've been down this road." I glanced at him while he texting away." No. She isn't the only girl I said that to. She's just the only one I said it to that I actually meant it."
"Oh,"He sounded, looking up from the iPhone's screen to look around. "I hate it when girls get mad at you for no reason,"
"Adam, I would take that back. Sometimes, it's good."
"Not for me. Alexx's just shouts and yells at you fo-
"I know. She's my cousin."I interrupted, turning left.
"True. Just wake me up when we get there."He leaned back into the seat and closed his eyes before loud snores came out of his slightly opened mouth. Rude, man... Thanks, Adam. I can't wait till you learn how to drive so you can see how it feels to be left alone like always. Then, we'll see who's a better passenger...
"I love this place. Glad we found it,"Adam said, laying on the lush green grass. The hill. It's a place Adam and I found last year right after our third winning soccer game. It's just the place to scream out what's wrong with with our lives and say "Fuck you." without any problems.
"Yeah. It's great alright,"I said, sitting down next to him. "What if we never found it?"
"Then, I'll be six feet under, shoveling my way to it."
"Adam, no comment." He sighed before punching me in the stomach hard and I groaned. "DO NOT say "No comment" to me. You know how I feel about that!"
"I...Should...Kill...You,"I said, breathing hard between my words.
"And you won't. Best friends don't do that," I can't believe Adam and I are complete opposites and yet best friends. He's cheerful and has a sometimes backbone. And I'm a menace to society trying to figure the world out.
"Adam! Eli!" Drew shouted from a distance. "Great, Eli. Blue Drew is here,"
"Why did rhyme...Sorta?" I asked as Adam sat up. "Drew always wearing some blue shirt when I see him."
"You live in the same house." I said, pointing out the obvious.
"Exactly,"
I rolled my eyes and Drew's slender form appeared in front of us. "What's up?" He greeted, munching on something bacony. I sniffed. God, those things will kill him one day.
"What the hell are you eating?" Adam asked as Drew sat down next to me. I scooted over muttering a "Nice move, Drew. Try and get me sick."
"Bacon cheeseburger from the Dot. Wesley should be coming with your chili cheese fries and grilled cheese."
"Good," Killing me softly all of you. Drew looked at me with a smile. "Dude, you have cheese on the corner of your lip." I said, pointing to the right corner.
"Where?" I took a napkin from his pocket and wiped it off before placing it on his knee. "Thanks, Eli." Don't thank me. Thank the napkin on your knee right now.
"No problem."I said, waiting for a tired Wesley to appear. And boom! He's here. Huffing and puffing like he did the fucking two mile run at gym...
"You...Could...of helped, Drew."He panted, holding two bags from the Dot. I smirked as Drew just ate his burger silently, chewing at his regular speed.
Adam stood up and took a bag before sitting back down. Wesley sat down next to him and took a bottle of water out of the bag. He unscrewed the cap and chugged it down.
"Was that my water?"I asked as he gave me the the half empty bottle. He nodded."I couldn't breathe, Eli."
"It's fine,"I said, shaking the bottle.
"So, Eli?"Drew says, licking his lips. I looked at him and gave him a slight head nod. "What?"
"How's Clare and your relationship going?"
"Fine. Never been better,"
"Oh." He takes a sip from the cup of Coke he has. "Is she okay?"
"What do you mean?"
"Alli told me she's with her at the hospital...Saying how Clare broke her wrist while doing something. I completely forgot to tell you," I should choke him. In front of Wesley and Adam but it's not worth it. I could just see me choking the life out of him but I can't go "away" for that.
"Oh," My hand digs in to my jean's pocket for my phone and once I found it, I check for texts or anything else. Two voice mails from Clare and two text messages which means Alli texted for her.
"Drew, by any chance does her parents know? Just, just asking."
He nodded."Alli told me everything. Poor Clare. Now she can't do Power Squad like always."
"Power Squad was just something to keep her busy from home. She likes it though." I explained, replying back to Clare- I mean, Alli. It's weird texting her. Like one time she asked for French notes and it was all abbreviated and whatnot. I just can't be around Alli with a phone at this point.
"Eli, are you becoming attached?"Adam asked.
"What did you just say?" I questioned his last statement.
"You know you heard me. Are you attached to Clare?"
"Adam, no."
"Lies."
"What would you know? Clare's not your girlfriend so,"
"But, I can see it. The way you look at her when we're all together, the way your posture changes if she's talking to a guy that isn't you or if she stays after class, you wait for her even if the bell has rung."
"It's called being a good boyfriend," Drew and Wesley are silently watching as they eat and drink.
"It's called being possessive and over protective. If I was some guy talking- No. Flirting with Clare, what would you do?"
"Shut up, Adam." I can't lash out on him...Wouldn't end well. Especially when we're best friends and he can actually kick the shit out of you.
"No, Eli. What would you do? Huh? Tell me,"
"Why? You're just jealous,"
"Jealous of my two best friends about to be uncomfortable and sinister together? Lying to each other? Yeah, I'm jealous,"He says, muttering the last part. "Eli, admit it. You need help."
"I don't need shit."I said, clenching my hands into fists.
"You just need to talk to someone,"
"Like who? A therapist or something?"
"Eli, yeah. I just don't want to see you...Harming yourself or others anymore."
"I haven't done that in what? A year. I'm fine."
"Oh. That's exactly what you said last year when you had fucking panic attacks in the locker room. Do you know what happened?"
"Enlighten us, Adam. Tell us!" I shouted, getting that weird feeling. I stood up and stood my ground...Adam wouldn't do anything. He's definitely joking around.
"NO! This is exactly why people ask us if we're friends!"He shouted, standing up along with Drew and Wes. "YOU are some...psycho! And I can't stand it! Living in your goddamn shadow! You think of me as your follower don't you?"
"What?" Why would he think that? I never think of Adam as a follower. He's my best friend, not a follower.
"Eli, I know you do."He takes a deep breath."I never EVER get credit for all things I do with you. It's always 'Good job, Eli' or 'Awesome prank, Eli'. I never get credit! I can't stand it!"
"So, what're you trying to say, Adam? You don't wanna be friends?" Please tell me this isn't happening.
"That's exactly what I'm saying. I need to find myself before we become friends again."
"Ha ha, Adam. Very funny...Hilarious," I said with a nervous laugh.
"I'm not joking around, Eli. We both need some space from each other," I can't believe I'm being dumped by Adam Torres. Friendship wise.
"Okay. Fine. I understand," I said softly. "You go and find yourself in that big gigantic sea of people."
He nodded. "We can still talk, just not be that close like before."
"Adam, don't do this."Drew finally says.
"I have to. Look, I'll see you home. Wes, see you tomorrow at Science Olympiads in the a.m...Eli, I'm sorry but-
"Just go." I managed to say."And don't look back...Ever, okay?" Our now old joke...We used to say that all the time. Not anymore.
"Of course, I will."He gives a small smile. "Bye, guys."He walked down and of course, he looks back. Drew's hand goes on my shoulder and he says,"He'll definitely come around. You know Adam,"
"Actually,"I said, swallowing the lump in my throat. "I don't know Adam...I never will."
When I walked in the house, I couldn't take it. You could hear the screaming outside and one day, the police are going to come and probably send me off with a far-away relative or something.I just walked to the kitchen and act as if nothing was happening. Normal routine. Just act like nothing's happening. I can tell Alyson still here..In my room probably. She already knows what to do. Crank up the music as high as it can go and just act as if it was a normal night home.
My hand grabbed an apple and I then went to the stairs and then up. As I suspected, my bedroom's door is cracked open with music playing loud. I walked in and Alyson looked up from her phone. She's the only person I know that still wears footsies pajamas except Clare does too..Sometimes. "Hey. I thought you were gonna be out with Ad-
"Don't mention that name right now."I said, cutting her off. "Why are you in here?"
"Don't kill me but I was kind of..doing something." She's still doing crack and all her other drugs...
"A, no. You promised-
"I know but, I just got that sudden urge and Jules...she supplied it." Is it just me or is Julia trying to keep my current girlfriend and my ex in a hospital?
"You know what your parents said," I remind her, walking over to my bed and plopping down next to her.
"Don't mention them right now. I just want one thing to go right in my life, Eli..You know? I can't keep filling out my college applications without worrying if I'm right for them."
"You are right for all your colleges, okay? A, you don't have to worry." She sighed as she snatched the apple away and took a bite out of it. "Thanks so much..i didn't need you to eat it for me,"
"Good one you picked Eli."She said, chewing noisily. "I love the essence of how it's sweet juices practically melt in your mouth...Yummy!"
"You apple stealer!"I shouted as she kept eating.
"Eli, I still love you,"
"Okay...So do I but, we're not getting back together," She scoffed and got off the bed before shouting,"Why not! What does she have that I don't! "
"Don't do this right now,"
"No! Tell me! Clare's some..some fucking sweetheart that everyone loves at school! Why do you even date her, Eli?" I followed her recent movements and said, "Because, unlike you, Clare actually listens to me and actually understands what I'm going through."
"Oh! So now, I'm not a good listener? Eli, come on. I love you!"
"No, you don't! Get this out of your head, Alyson! We're not together and we never will be!"
She sighed frustrated before pushing me. "You're lying to yourself..And we both know it. Just..Just can we try this?"
"No!"
"Why not!"
"Because I have a girlfriend!"
"Yeah. She's cheating on you probably,"
"You're fucking crazy, you know that? Fucking crazy!" I turned around and her hand grasped my wrist pulling me back over. "Eli, listen to me."
"About what?"
"About how we both need each other," She says softly, pressing her back into the wall. "Eli, I'm sorry okay? For ruining your perfect little life...I should just go away and never come back."
"No...Don't say that. It was my fault anyway."
"Eli, I'm sorry, Okay? I wish I could take it all back but I can't! No matter how hard I try to fix your life when I come here, I can't do it."She said, crying as her hand dropped my arm and I wrapped them around her waist.
"It's fine, Alyson. Don't worry," She looked up at me and sighed. "I really am sorry, Eli."
"It's fine. Do not worry." She smiled and leaned up. I leaned down and kissed her. No. No. No. I pushed her away and she looked at me. "What's wrong?"
"I can't believe you did that."
"Did what?"She asked, being innocent.
"You know exactly what you did..How could you be so-
"So what? Tell me what you think of me!"
"No. You know exactly what you are. I can't believe this."
"Eli,"
"Get out," I said softly, wanting to get a toothbrush and scrub as hard as I can on my tongue.
"Eli,"
"Get out!"I shouted, making her jump. She scurried out, slamming the door behind her and I took a deep breath. I can't have a melt down now. No. It wasn't my fault. It just wasn't.
I walked down the normal hallway to my locker. I just need to see her and I'm better. Alyson won't talk to me even if we have all the same classes and this morning, she barely said 'hello' or asked for a ride. Alexx was right. She's just someone trying to ruin my life again.
"Hey, Eli!"Juila's voice called behind me, making me groan. Not the person I wanted to talk to. I turn around and face the cat at her weakest point. She won't try to jump me I hope.
"Um, I need to talk to you." She said softly, tugging the bottom of her Degrassi hoodie. Weird. She never wore this unless she's in trouble.
"Okay. About what?"
"Well, I'm pregnant but-
"You're what? Jules, please tell me tha-
"Eli, no need to worry . It's not yours." Okay. Why come to me then if it's not mine?
"So, what do you need?"
"Well, my parents found out about a visit to the clinic and I kind of lied and said the baby was yours."
"Jules, I could be killed by Clare if she finds out..."
"Eli, it's just until I talk to the guy and explain to him."
"Who is he?"
"I can't say..."
"Julia," She knows I'll eventually find out...
"Fine...Fitz, okay?"
"I think I just threw up a bit,"I said, gagging. "Jules, what- how-you
"He just had that effect on me. I know I said I would never date him but, it was just the heat of the moment and-
"And you two screwed each other?" She nodded before walking over to my locker. I followed suit and when my locker opened, we both stared. Stuffed animals? Purple, pink and every other color gel pens? Thank god, the person kept my posters and my stuff up there.
"Okay. Who's the guy that did this prank?" Jules asked, taking a stuffed moose down from the shelf with a laugh.
"I don't know but I have to meet him..." I said, admiring the work.
"You already have," Clare did this? How could she would one hand? Alli...Alexx is the only one with my combo. Dammit! Never trust her after this! She kissed my cheek and said, "Remember? You said we were going to share lockers." I did? Clearly I was high or something.
"Oh..Yeah!"I lied, scratching the back of my head. "I totally remember!"
"Eli, did you just say totally?'Jules asked, giving Clare a baby wave after she waved.
"Yeah. I'm bringing back,"I lied some more.
"Well, stop."Julia said, stroking the moose's head. "It's creeping me out."
"Ditto,"Clare finally agreeing with Julia? Thank you!
"Clare, what happened to your wrist?" She suddenly asked, clearly forgetting what we were talking about. Hello! Pregnant girl, can you hear me?
"Oh..This old thing?" Clare asked, lifting her left arm so we could see her cast. It's purple. Probably waterproof since she LOVES taking showers and baths and whatnot. She like my little mermaid because every time I call her, she either about to take a shower or a bath or is in the bathtub. I wonder what she does while I talk to her on the phone. She probably touches herself and moans quietly while moving the phone away while I'm talking. That's probably what she-
"ELI!" Both girls shouted, making me snap back into reality.
"What! Is the school on fire?"
"Eli, did you hear a word I said?"Clare asked, putting her good hand on her hip.
"Eli's in trouble,"Jules sang, walking away after giving the moose to me. "Clare, I did hear what you said," I keep lying...I'm on a roll today!
"Oh, really?"She asked with a smirk of her own. "What did I say?"
"How you love me so much that your heart practically explodes,"I guessed.
'That's exactly what I said!"She said, jumping up and down with excitement.
"Really?"
"NO! You silly boy!"She smacked my arm with her bad hand and yelped in pain. Karma, karma, karma...
"Clare, you okay?"
She nodded and I kissed her cheek."It'll be okay. How long will that be on?" I asked, referring to her cast as the first bell rung.
"I don't know...Just it really hurts."
"i wish I could make it better."I said, leaning down for a kiss until Alli called her. She smiled, blushing."I should go..."
"You owe me..And at English, I need to tell you something." She nodded and scurried along after handing me her bag. Sharing a locker must be a challenge. No. Telling her what happened between Alyson and I is THE challenge.
Of course, I was the first one to English..I don't know what it is but, I'm drawn to this very room. When I get after school detentions, I always ask if Dawes is gonna be the teacher. I don't know..I just like it so much. I walked up to Dawes' desk and she looked up at me with a smile.
"Why, Mr. Goldsworthy...A little early are we?"
"Yeah. I just need someone to talk to,"
"Okay..About?"She asked, setting down the current paper she was grading.
"Clare,"
"Ah, young love. You two clearly have that special bond..Even a blind person can see it."
I smiled before frowning."Well, I sort of kissed someone else last night."
"Eli, sort of? There is no sort of in a situation like that."She looks at me before taking a sip of her coffee from the mug."Have you told Clare this?"
"No..Not yet but I am."
"Good. Can't have her coming to me crying...Anything else?"
"Adam and I aren't friends anymore,"
"Why exactly?"
"Because, we both decided to take a break from friendship,"
"That isn't good."She took a deep breath."He's probably just feeling pressure of himself wanting something more from everyone..He'll come around," Drew said the same thing last night.
"Thanks, Miss Dawes."As I was about to turn and walk back to my seat, she stopped me. "Um, did you hear about the story submission contest?"
"Oh! For Gothic Tales? Of course I heard about it," How couldn't I? I'm thinking of doing a story but I can't.
"Well,"She opened a draw from her desk and handed me the comic book, definitely reading my mind. "How about you create your story?"
"I could but what's the point? They only give it to people who actually put time into their work,"
"Eli, you are the only one other than Clare to get a A on any writing assignment I give the class...Don't give me that crap."
I gasped."Miss Dawes such language," She rolled her eyes and continued to speak.
"If you do write a story, which I know you are, I'll give you extra credit since no one else seems to be interested. Deal?"
"Do I even need the extra credit?"
She shook her head."No but, I think you need it."
I sighed before thanking her and walked back to my seat. I settled in and put the comic in my black binder as someone walks in. "Hello, Miss Dawes."Adam greeted in a fake cheerful tone.
"Hello, Mr. Torres." He sat in his seat...Across from mine and once he settled in, he began to speak.
"Hi, Eli."He said in his real tone. The about-to-hum-the-alphabet-tone.
"Adam,"I gave him a slight head nod before I thought of my story. What would it be about? Definitely horror. Who will it be about? Stuck. The title? Stuck. I have a lot to think about for this story.
"So..How have you been?" I can't believe we're acting like a couple that broke up for two weeks and finally decides to speak to each other. Except this scenario is with one day.
"Fine..Never been better,"I said. This is exactly like a couple. We're all casual and the regular moments.
"Eli, I'm sorry,"His voice cracked under pressure and I nodded."It's fine...You're forgiven."
"Good, I missed you."
"I missed you too...We'll hug later."I said in a hush tone. He nodded and the bell rung. Of course half of the class is late but, my beautiful Clare wasn't. Not ever. She settled into her seat and began writing away in her notebook.
"Clare,"I whispered, leaning forward into my desk.
"What, Eli?"
"Can we talk?"
"No!"She hissed."In the middle of class? After, okay?"
"It can't wait..I need to tell to you something,"
"I need a lot of things to know in life but do I get that? No."She's clearly referring to the day where we were in my room.
"Fine,"I ripped a piece of paper out of my notebook and began to scribble away the guilt that's been killing me. "Alyson and I kissed last night." I balled the paper up and threw it over her shoulder; It landed perfectly on her nearly half written page.
She sighed and as I heard the paper crinkling I closed my eyes shut..Preparing for my death after class."You kissed who!"She hissed. She plucked the corner of my lips and my eyes opened.
"Clare, turn around...The board is up here, not back there."Dawes commanded and Clare complied before I sighed.
"Clare, I'm sorry."
"I do not want to hear anything from you right now..Eli, I can't believe you."
I can't believe myself sometimes. I can't believe my life right now..
"Explain."Clare commanded after plucking the corner of my lips again...For the third time.
"Well,"I began as we walked to "our" locker. "We were talking and then-
"You decided to stick your tongue down her throat?" She took a deep breath."Eli, am I not good enough?"She asked softly.
"Of course you are! Clare, don't think that..." She huffed and looked down at her feet. Great..She's having doubts again. When reached our blue school home, I tipped her chin up and she sighed. "Eli, you already explained..No need to give me the full details how her tongue collided with yours,"
"No. Clare, how many things are you working for?"
"What do you mean?"
"Clearly you broke your wrist by doing something you weren't supposed to do. So, how many things are you doing?"
"Well, I'm studying for those future finals..Um, the play..No Power Squad. And I have nothing to do other than that."
"Clare, I just wanted to know."
"Why?"She asked as I let go of her.
"Because, you have to help me with something..."
"Like what?"
"A new story..Say for a certain contest,"
"Eli! You're finally deciding to do it?" I nodded and open the locker."This is great! I'll need to have just a little fun,"
"Clare, how many people have signed your cast?"
"A lot..You can look at it if you want,"I sighed, taking her bag because she'll need something in there for lunch."Eli, I forgave you. Just if that tramp kisses you again, we'll have some major problems."
"I'll take your word."I said, closing the door back and locked the lock back before we walked together to the cafe. "Eli, I was thinking.."
"What were you thinking?"I asked, wrapping my arm around her waist.
"I was thinking we should sneak out tonight and meet at our place."
"Clare, I love your thinking."I said, kissing her hair, earning those cute giggles I love dearly.
"I mean, we haven't seen each other after school so, I thought we could have the most romantic picnic ever at midnight..Romeo and Juliet style,"
"Okay. I'm Romeo right?" I joked as she giggled.
"Of course!"
"Good. Just checking,"
"Oh, silly Eli.."
Silly me. I have to start typing up that story (which I have no ideas for), plan a romantic picnic..Piece of cake. And conquer a tiny white lie for Jules and actually let Adam have some credit for everything we do together...
My life is... complicated.
So some reviews? I just had to add the story entry into this story..I feel like while Clare's in rehearsals and leaving a bored Eli alone, he should have something to do. Was it good? Hm. I really don't know but you guys tell me!Oh and some hints fot the next chapter... There might be some "fun" times and...also, Clare will explain her broken wrist..I promise...
"You see those raindrops out there. That's me right now. The rain is my tears,"
"You never thought I would have her, didn't you?"
"How come you didn't tell me this?"
So, you think you could figure out who said those things? I hope you can because I know! Reviews please?