Italics it's what Ashley thinks the exact time for whatever happens to her. The other it's her when she remembers. I hope I didn't confuse you guys.


Chapter 10

Ashley's POV

How the time pass. It's been already three years since I broke it off with Spencer. I can't take her out of my mind. She is still there. Hunting me. Her beautiful eyes. Her beautiful ocean eyes that change color when her mood change. Like those mood rings. I will never forget the color of her eyes when I told her why we had to break it off. It was grey-blue. The color when she was angry. I didn't want to hurt her but I couldn't.. I don't like having this feeling.

After that day, the day she left me, I was broken. We graduated and this day was the last time I saw her so near me. She left with her parents before I can talk to her. To say at least that I'm proud of her. I guess she didn't want anything with me. I rent the apartment and I went at my parents. Let's just say that my mother was very very happy that I was going to live with them again. She could control me again. I would be the perfect daughter for her. She would make it sure that I would be the perfect daughter. The no GAY daughter.

So it was a bright day. I was thinking Spencer. What is she doing? How she feels? And then my mom knocked my door. "What does she want again? Can't I have some alone time for once?.

Knock Knock

What the fuck does she want?

I had to let her in. Although I'm sure she had no problem storming in my bedroom.

"yes?"

"Ashley? It's me dear. Are you ok? You didn't answer me the first time"

"Yes mom. I'm ok. Why shouldn't I be"

"I don't know. So.. I want you to tell you something that will make you really happy"

"What is it mom? What it's supposed to make me really really happy?" I told her a little bit ironically rolling my eyes.

"Guess what. I told the Wellingtons to come for dinner tomorrow. Isn't it great? Josh is back from Yale and it's a great opportunity for you to meet him"

"…."

"Hello.. are you listening me?"

"Yes mom." Unfortunately

"So take my credit card and go buy something gorgeous. I want you to be perfect"

Yeah the perfect porcelain doll. That's me. Too bad I can't have that porcelain smile too though.

"yeah ok." And she gave me her Golden credit card. You know what I mean.

So I'm taking a quick shower and head out to buy something as my mother would want me to.. I walk and walk when out of nowhere I see Spencer. She didn't see me because she didn't watch where she was going. Also I was way too far away for her to see me. She knock down someone and tried to help him. He was smiling at her and she was ok with it. She was smiling too. Why I feel strange? Maybe it's because I still love her. Yeah. Probably that's why it is. I couldn't leave it. I had to know. They were still talking. What the fuck are they saying? They are complete strangers. They walked back to a coffee shop. WHAT? I was standing behind a column and tried to see what was happening. He holds her hand. Why is he holding her hand? Why is she ok with that hand holding? I couldn't take it anymore. I.. I have to go. I think that my day it's over.

I came back home. All the time thinking of Spencer and that guy. Guy? As a boy? As a man? What is she thinking? She hates me that much? But I couldn't claim her as mine anymore. I was the one that told her that we were over. I couldn't claim her as mine. And I couldn't be with her. And now I had to meet that Josh guy. Like I'm something to show off.

The day that the Wellingtons would come and pay their visit or to find a bride came and I was off. I was still thinking of Spencer. I had to put a fake smile just for a day. I think I could. And they were here. They arrived. And I had to greet them. Don't forget. I'm the perfect daughter.

"Hello Mrs. Wellington, Mr. Wellington. I'm Ashley. Welcome to our home"

"Well hello Ashley. I'm very glad to meet you. This is our son Josh" she said and pointed to a very handsome boy, with blond hair coming to the door. He was just parked their car and he was coming to meet his parents.

"Josh. This is Ashley. Christine's daughter. You remember Christine. Don't you?"

"Of course mother. Hello Ashley" he gave me his hand and I shaked it. He put off his sun glasses and I met with blue eyes. If I wasn't afraid that maybe I was crazy I could tell that it was like Spencer's. Not that ocean blue but quite the same. Oh my God. They have the same eyes. It will be a very interesting evening.

Actually Josh was a nice guy. He just had come back from Yale. He was studying to be a lawyer. He even graduated first in his class. Clever, handsome, with good manners, and of course one of my moms elite.

"Do you want to go somewhere to talk? This grow up thing doesn't suit me" he told me laughing

" Of course. Let me tell my mom that we are going out for a walk."

"Mom, sorry, Josh and I going for a walk in the garden. Ok?"

"Of course honey. Take your time. The dinner is not ready yet." She said smiling at me. It was what she wanted. I getting know better Josh Wellington.

"Ok. We may go. I told her. The dinner is not ready yet."

"Perfect". Perfect

Josh was easy. Although he was from a rich family, he graduated from Yale, yet he wasn't like other boys of his age or his wealth. He was fine, funny, like the best boyfriend every girl would like to have. For now I needed a friend. He didn't try anything. We had a great talk about our pasts, friends, and relationships. When we talked about friends I mentioned my best friend's name. Spencer. He saw that I had a sad smile on my face. He didn't ask. What I could say to him. Why were we not friends anymore? He didn't ask and I didn't say anything. I even told him that I had a long term relationship with someone and the break up was still fresh. I didn't know what he had but he made me feel ok with him telling him all this things. We came back for our dinner.

When the time came they get up to leave but before that Josh took me to a corner and asked my phone number.

"I had a great time with you Ashley today. I would like to see you again without the parents watching our moves. Would you like that?"

"I had a great time too Josh. Yeah why not?"

"So may ask your number so I can call you" and I gave him my number.

We gave me a call when they got home. We met the next day and the day after that and the day after that.. We were going out for two months. He tried to kiss me enough times but I wasn't ready. I still had Spencer in my mind. We were walking hand by hand one day in the park when I saw her again. It would be one million blonds but I could still notice which one it was her. Again she didn't see me. They had their back on us. They. Spencer and that guy from the coffee shop. And I saw him kissing her. And she was kissing back. What is she doing? I don't feel ok. I think that my heart is breaking. Again. I can't.. Spencer..

Josh saw the sudden expression of mine. I took his hand and we left. That day it was my first kiss with Josh. If she moved on I had to move on. I couldn't mop all the time for the choice I made almost a year before. I had to forget and go on. So I kissed Josh. And he kissed me back. After 5 months we were together he proposed to me. I thought about it for a while but then I said yes. I knew my mother would be more than ok with me. The perfect straight daughter. At least I can try. Josh seems ok. I would be happy with him. I would be happier with Spencer but this.. this is not going to happen.

I thought that I would never see her again. I thought that getting married with Josh I would forget her. Little did I know that not only I would see her but that I would talk to her again.

TBC

I think that every chapter that has to do with Ashley it's always longer than the others. Don't you think?

Next chapter Spashley reunion. I don't know which POV I'll have. I'm still thinking.

R&R

xx