You can imagine that this was something to be truly afraid of.

In the past I was told I needed that operation but it wasn´t that serious until now; I guess that pretty much explains why I perceived everything in a surreal mode, hallucinations from the constant fevers I guess, no black magic involved of whatsoever.

But still how come in the middle of all this storm I lost some pony? A part kept hoping it was something temporary because I trusted her; she was smart, she couldn´t be just some helpless little girl seeking shelter in the arms of a dark creature like myself.

The night before I was sent to the hospital I had a sort of long conversation with Pete to calm me down while I was tucked in.

"What´s the matter, Marelyn?" he said while he sat by my bed.

"I´m afraid," I said.

"Aww, but you´re afraid most of the time and that´s definitely not good."

"I don´t know what will happen after this, what if I don´t sound that great anymore?"

"Nah, that reminds me of a cousin I had and I can assure you won´t be so affected, trust me."

"It´s just that I don´t wanna go through this alone, did she get the letter?"

"Yep."

"See I´m not trying to look like I´m in agony or anything but..."

"Princess! Now don´t you worry about a thing; you´re forgetting about all the other creatures around you like myself."

"I appreciate that a lot but there are other things I miss so badly from Evie and that I would want more than anything."

"Such as, you can tell me, we´re all friends here, right?" said Pete winking an eye.

"Right," I said with some difficulty trying to speak, "I like that she has initiative in bed; she knows exactly what she wants but she seems a little bit intimidating; her confidence is besieging and that´s when I start to feel powerless."

"And insecure," he added. "You´re so panicked right now."

"And dizzy..." I continued as I rested my head on the pillow.

"How come?"

"I can´t sleep, not sure what the outcome will be. I mean, my body can heal but not my heart so easily,"

"You´re dramatizing everything and you know why?"

"Because my little pony friend, you are so madly in love with that mare."

"I know that!" I cried. "But it´s a mutual thing. She has to love me and she has never told me that and it´s what started this whole fight. Say what you want but after I showed her what I´m capable of it still wasn´t enough to hear those simple words."

"Such as?"

"I love you too. And because of that everyone tries to convince me she´s an obsession and that I need to have her because..."

"Yes?"

"I don´t wanna be alone. I´ve felt so lonely for years even if there´s someone else to tell me it´s okay."

"And that´s exactly what I´m struggling to tell you! We all love you when in fact you react in a whole other way."

"I suppose it doesn´t make any sense to tell you what actually happened back in Las Pegasus."

"You and Blak?"

"Yeah; I let him do things to me, nasty things. And I liked them. I just gave in let him pleasure me because I liked the way it felt."

Pete sell silent for a moment, "Well, creatures do crazy things when they´re too drunk."

I nodded, "No, I was well aware of what I was doing and I´m not ashamed to say it."

"So that means you´re allowed to like both?"

I assented.

"I realized you were special but not THAT special."

"Anyway, it was something like pity sex because I needed to feel and not as if I had no soul."

"But that´s logical, you´re a demon!"

"And I don´t wanna be."

My body was beginning to get warmer and the chills muted me for a while.

"Are you alright?" said Pete. "Do you need anything, an exorcist maybe?"

"Damn, no..."

"Okay then, little buddy. You just hang in there and keep on fighting cuz I miss that strange sense of humor you got."

"Oh, great, now you´re making fun of me."

"No, I´m just try to make you laugh, they say it helps."

"I´m not accustomed to smile that often," I said while I coughed.

"Chicks like that too! Come on, do it, do it for your lil´Uncle Pete."

"What, no?"

"Come on!" he said. "You can think about me and all of those times you called me a bird brain!"

I tried to contain the laughter.

"See, I told you it work! Now repeat after me, I´m not dying...I´m just becoming stronger."

"I´m becoming stronger."

"And cuter."

"But I already am."

"You can always become cuter."

"And cuter, and smarter and more beautiful, inside and out."

My eyes felt swollen and heavy but it didn´t matter anyway because someone was protecting me all the way. I am so lucky.