"I really like your car." Lacey said as she looked around the interior of Spencer's immaculately polished Mercedes-Benz.
"Thank you. My parents bought it for me when I turned sixteen."
Lacey shifted her position in the passenger seat as she reached underneath her body, pulling out a tube of lip gloss that she had apparently been sitting on.
"This yours?" Lacey asked.
"No. Hanna's." Spencer said, taking the tube from Lacey and putting it into the cup holder. "She's always leaving her stuff in here."
Lacey smiled as she glanced over at Spencer.
"You know, Spencer, I have to tell you, you're even cuter than my mom said you were." Lacey said, eyes focused intently on Spencer's profile.
"Um, thanks..." Spencer said, blushing slightly. "So...how do you like Philadelphia, so far?" Spencer asked, quickly changing the topic.
"I like it a lot actually. It's pretty different from New York, but I like it…"
"That's good. Philadelphia really is a great city…what kind of restaurant would you like me to take you to tonight?"
"It doesn't matter, you know the city a lot better than I do, you pick."
"Okay."
"So…does your mom usually pick your dates for you?" Lacey asked.
"Never. This is the first one."
"At least she's cool with your sexuality. When I met her in New York, she and your dad talked non-stop about you. They seem really cool. Did you have a hard time coming out to them?"
"Not really. I just sat them down and told them straight up that I was gay and whether they accept it or not, it's who I am and it won't change. They've been really supportive of me. What about you? How were your parents when you told them?"
"My parents didn't exactly find out the way I wanted them to. My mom sort of found out by accident…"
"What happened?"
"She came home from work early one afternoon and caught me, naked in bed with my girlfriend."
"Oh God, that's awful." Spencer said as she thought about a few nights before when she and Hanna had almost found themselves in a similar situation with Ms. Marin. "How did she react?"
"She was actually pretty calm about it. She left the room, let us get dressed, my girlfriend left, then my mom and I talked. She was really surprised, but not angry. She was also very understanding and turned out to be really supportive."
"Wow. That's great."
"Yeah, I was glad to have my mom on my side. She helped me come out to my dad, he wasn't as easy though, he took it pretty hard. He didn't speak to me for like a month, things were pretty tense between us for a while."
"How's your relationship now?"
"We're fine. Our relationship is even stronger now than it ever was."
"I'm glad to hear that."
As Spencer and Lacey had dinner together, Lacey noticed that Spencer seemed to be very tense and uncomfortable as she had taken to mainly just pushing her food around on her plate.
"Spencer?" Lacey said as she caught Spencer staring off into the distance.
"Sorry…what?" Spencer said, focusing her attention back to her dinner.
"Are you all right?"
"I'm fine, why do you ask?"
"It's just that, I couldn't help but notice, you've been pretty quiet since we got here, you've barely eaten anything and you won't look at me." Is something wrong?" Lacey asked. "Is it something I did?"
"Not at all…I'm fine."
"Spencer, it's okay if you're not into this whole blind date thing, I understand. After dinner you can just take me home and we'll call it a night."
"Lacey…"
"It's okay. I was crazy to think that I actually had a chance with you, anyway. You're totally out of my league."
"No, Lacey, you're beautiful, really you are…it's just that…I feel like I need to be honest with you about something...I sort of already have a girlfriend."
"Hanna's your girlfriend, isn't she?"
"Yeah. I'm really sorry about this. It's just that she isn't exactly out yet and my mom set up this date…" Spencer rambled. "I couldn't tell her I was already dating someone, she would have demanded to know who… I'm so sorry, I feel like such a jerk-"
"It's okay. I totally understand…I've been the closeted girl in the relationship and I've since dated a closeted girl. It's not easy."
"It sure isn't."
"How long have you and Hanna been together?"
"We've been dating for a little over a month, but we've known each other for years. She's my best friend."
"Aw, you're so lucky to be dating your best friend. I kinda got the feeling that Hanna didn't really like me when we met at your house…now I know why. You guys are pretty cute together though."
"Thanks."
"Does anyone know about you two?"
"No. You're the first person I've ever told. We haven't even told our closest friends…listen, I'm really sorry, I'm sitting here on a date with you, talking about another girl. I'm such an ass."
"You're not. You can talk to me…you're having a tough time dealing with the fact that Hanna's not out, aren't you?"
"I guess maybe a little. I mean, I love Hanna with all of my heart and I totally understand that she isn't ready for people to know about us yet and I'm okay with that…but at the same time it'd be so nice to be able to just hold her hand when we go out or kiss her goodbye without having to worry about who might be watching. Not to mention, it totally sucks always having to lie to our friends and families about what we're doing. I feel guilty for lying, but I need to be loyal to Hanna."
"I get that you're frustrated to a point and I know your intentions are good, but don't push her too hard, you'll only end up hurting your relationship." Lacey said. "Believe me, I know. I pushed one of my ex-girlfriends way too hard to come out, it ended badly…I should have been supportive, especially because I never got to come out in the way that I wanted to, but I acted like a jerk, she broke up with me and we never even spoke again."
"I'm sorry…"
"It's okay."
"So what do I do? I don't want that to happen to Hanna and I, but we can't keep hiding our relationship forever."
"The best thing you can do for her is be supportive. Just let Hanna know that you love her and when she's ready to come out, you'll be there for her. She needs to decide for herself when the time is right."
"Thanks. I just wish Hanna would stop caring so much about what other people think." Spencer sighed.
"Unfortunately, not everyone has that great 'screw the world,' mentality that you have."
Spencer smiled softly at Lacey.
"Just be patient with her." Lacey said as she placed her hand on top of Spencer's. "We can't all be as brave as you."
"My house is this one up here." Lacey said as Spencer approached her driveway, later that night.
When Spencer pulled into the driveway, she parked her car and leaned back against the headrest.
"Lacey, thank you for listening to me spill my guts tonight. It was nice being able to finally talk to someone about Hanna and I. I really needed that."
"I'm happy to help and I'd really like to hang out again, just as friends of course."
"Me too."
"Can I give you my phone number?"
"Sure. I'll give you mine too."
"Maybe next time Hanna can even join us." Lacey said.
"That'd be great."
"You know, although things between us didn't turn out the way I had hoped they would, I still had a really nice time with you, tonight. Thanks for dinner and the movie." Lacey said as she leaned over and kissed Spencer on the cheek. "You're really sweet."
"Thanks."
"I should go. I'm sure you probably want to go see your girlfriend. Don't be afraid to call me if you ever need to talk. By the way, Spencer, I think Hanna's a very lucky girl." Lacey said as she opened the car door and stepped out. "Goodnight."
