Yay I'm starting this up again! I couldn't resist writing something for the season premiere! It was so good! I am absolutely in love with Dark Swan! What about you guys? Are you?
Anyways here's a little thing I did, hope you like it!
I'm reposing cause someone pointed out to me that I put 6 months later and not weeks... totally meant weeks... I dont have a beta so things like this might happen! Sorry guys!
It's hard to explain how it feels, the darkness. How it looms over you with its chilling grip grasping at shoulders. With every step you take something forces you backwards, pushing you to a place within that no one should ever find their way too. It shows you what you really have in you, the things you could never imagine yourself doing. It makes them seem easier or less real. In a way it makes everything seem fake. It forces you to separate yourself from reality and see things for what they really are, nothing. It won't matter in the end, so take what you can now while you're still breathing.
"Swan?" A careful voice pulls Emma from her thoughts that always seem to lead her to the same place, a place she hates going too. Emma gives Killian a small smile, she can't imagine what he thinks of her. He saw her holding the heart of an innocent woman she had been ready to end the life of. "What are you doing out here?" Killian continues, a genuine gaze of worry looks down at Emma who sits on the edge of a stone balcony, her feet dangling over the side as she adores the castle grounds below her. Emma finds herself surprised at the fact she can still find beauty while in such a dark place.
"It's so pretty." Emma poorly explains looking down at the gardens below. She feels Killian place a gentle hand on her shoulder, he squeezes slightly as if to reassure her. The gesture seems pointless. As if anything could make her situation any better.
"We could go down there and see it if you'd like?" Killian suggests and Emma nods in response. Night had fallen since they arrived at Camelot. King Arthur told them all they'd be welcome at dinner if they were hungry, which Emma was not. The version of Rumple that is constantly swirling around in her mind made sure to remind Emma of that. Though he never seems to find his way to her when she's with Killian, he makes the voices in her head go away.
Emma and Killian walk through archways of flowers and hedges, silence following them wherever they go. Their fingers intertwine in each others both seeming to breath again at each other's touch.
"Killian, I..." Emma hesitates as he looks at her searching for what she's trying to say.
"Emma you know you can tell me anything." Killian reminds her.
Emma knows what she needs to hear and she knows what his answer will be but the question seems to get stuck in her throat. "Killian you saw me do something… terrible," Emma shivers at the thought. "I'm not the same person anymore and…" Emma trails off, her chest weighing her down with every word she says.
Killian stops and takes Emma's hands in his, looking deep into her eyes forcing them to stay locked. "Swan, my feelings for you will never change nor quiver at anything you did or ever will do, I… love you." He lets out as if he'd been holding those words in since the moment he arrived in The Enchanted Forest.
Emma sucks in a breath and pulls her pirate to her, locking his lips with hers. A tear falls from Emma's cheek, the moment almost seems perfect but deep in Emma's stomach she knows it's far from that.
***SIX WEEKS LATER***
He might not remember what had happened in the past to get him here, but Killian knows he would have never gave up on Emma. He knows that he would have fought till the end of his days before he would let her go dark. So why is he still alive.
Emma disappeared before he could ask any questions, before any of them could. He'd just found her again and within a day he's lost her once more. Killian grunts as he throws a toaster from the counter of Grannies and watches it smash against the wall, the metal parts crumbing to the ground. Killian wishes he could do just that but he can't, he has to fix this, fix something that he did in the past to fail Emma. Killian pushes past the stares that follow him out the door of Grannies, he walks until he finds himself at the docks. He racks his mind trying to remember what his lost but all he gains is a headache. The thought of how he could let this happen boiling in his stomach, making him feel sick.
"Always so dramatic." A chilling voice trails through Killians spine making the hairs on his neck stand. He slowly turns around to face the woman that makes his breath leave him. She's a completely different person.
"Swan." He swallows, forcing his voice to be steady.
Emma walks toward the pirate. Killian wants to hold her and tell her everything is going to be okay and he can fix this. Unfortunately doing that will only make things worse. Can he fix this? He's already failed once before, what will make this time any different? Killian forces the thought to the back of his mind. He can't think like that, not now. Not while the woman he loves is possessed by the darkness she's feared for so long.
"Emma I know this isn't you." Killain tries as she steps closer to him, she reaches for his hook and brings it between them, her thumb resting on the sharp tip.
She looks at him through her eyelashes, an eerie smile finding its way to her lips. "On the contrary Pirate, this is me. You didn't understand that before and you still don't. But not to worry I'll change that soon enough." Emma drops Killians hook and bites her lip, she's toying with him and he won't let it work.
"Never." Killian stands his ground looking into Swans eyes hoping and searching for something that can tell him Emma is still in there, somewhere.
"We'll see about that." She smiles and turns on her her heal.
As Emma walks away from him, Killian thinks of all the possible things that could make her come back. "Emma!" He calls, not sure if she even hears him. As she gets further away his mind races thinking of what to say. "Your parents still love you!" Nothing. "Henry needs you." She stops in her tracks, a pause, then she disappears. That's it, what he was looking for, something to make her think of what she has lost. Henry is exactly that. Her boy is what will bring The Savoir back to Storybrook.
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