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"Sesshomaru …."
It was her voice, Kagome's voice, hes couldn't mistake it, he turned his head to see Kagome, was still in Inuyasha's arms, was still unconscious, saying his name.
"Sesshomaru …."
Inuyasha, Sango, Miroku, Shippo couldn't believe in their ears. Kagome-said-Sesshomaru' name- in-her-dream.
Sesshomaru also couldn't cover his shock, he looked at Kagome in disbilief .
"Sesshomaru … don't leave…"
Sesshomaru stood silently for a while, and then he decided to turn away. He walked slowly away that place…
Salty…
It was her tears… this was the fourth time Sesshomaru saw Kagome cried. 'This time…for what ?' – he wondered.
And Sesshomaru whispered softly while leaving Kagome, whispered so softly that even himself couldn't heard it clearly :
"Thank you, Kagome …."
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Chapter 9 REALIZE……….
Kaede's village :
SLAPPPPP………
"Can you behave just a little ?" – Sango yelled at Miroku when she felt his hand on her.
"Shh…." – Miroku put his finger no his lips, whispered – don't say so loudly, Kagome is sleeping.
"Uhm, okay…" - Sango turned her head to the bed where Kagome was laying, said in ashamed.
Thaking advantahe of Sango's unnotice, Miroku went on groping her. Sango immediately gave him a great punch that made him laid lifelessly on the floor. Sango grifted her teeth, said gruffly :
"Do that again if you are tired of living".
"You … two… keep silent.." – Inuyasha winced at Sango and Miroku -" you'll make her wake up".
Inuyasha's wariness was useless, Kagome had awaken. Who could rest while there was so much noise around like this ? Kagome looked around tiredly and the first thing she saw was Inuyasha's worry face. Kagome suddenly felt a little disapointed when she saw Inuyasha's face, although she didn't know why. Kagome tried to make a smile :
"Inuyasha …"
Inuyasha beamed brightly, he hold her and tightly :
"Kagome, I have been worry so much".
"Kagome-chan, …" - Shippo appeared out of nowhere and jumped on the bed, knelt down and yelled happily at Kagome.
Sango and Miroku also stopped fighting when they heared Kagome's voice. They ran to Kagome, said worrily :
"How do you feel now ?"
Kagome seemed not to care about her friends. Her eyes scanned the room as if finding something . A long time later, Kagome started saying tiredly :
"Sesshomaru …."
Inuyasha looked at Kagome in disblief. Sango and Miroku exchanged a surpried look.
"He's gone…"
Inuyasha was the first one who break the awkward silence, he said slowly:
"… after giving us your things".
"Really ?"
Kagome looked down, said difficultly :
"Can … you … leave me … alone ?"
"Huh ?"
The ten eyes looked at Kagome (including Kirara's eyes). They couldn't understand why Kagome asked them to leave when they just met each other again. And it took them a long time to recover, Miroku had to grabbed Inuyasha and Sango's arms and dragged them out of the room.
Being left alone, Kagome sat up and hugged herself. She was confused at herself. Her mind just kept thinking about Sesshomaru's imagine and the time she spent with him.
'It can't be love because the one I love is Inuyasha'.
Kagome talked to herself and felt hurt. This feeling was really uncomfortable, she didn't want that. She didn't want to think of him to feel like that. Kagome felt her heart beat violently in her chest and she touched her face, confused to felt that it was already wet because of the unknowing tears….
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Rin stood at the castle door, her eyes were looking at the path to the castle, hoping for seeing Sesshomaru and Kagome appeared. Jaken was tired of Rin's action, he said tetchily:
Stop moving around like that.
"Why haven't Sesshomaru-sama and Kagome come back ?" – Rin turned to Jaken and asked worrily.
"I don't know. But no one can defeat Sesshomaru-sama. He is the best".
"I know". – Rin smiled brightly.
"Sesshomaru-sama…" - chorused Rin and Jaken when they saw a silver-hair inuyoukai flew to them.
"Sesshomaru-sama…"
Rin ran to hug Sesshomaru's leg. Then she looked around to find Kagome. Seeing no one, Rin looked up to Sesshomaru, confused :
"Where is Kagome-chan, Sesshomaru-sama ?"
"She's left".
"Left ?" – Rin opened her eyes widely –" why ?"
"She has her duty".
"No,…" Kagome said that Kagome would never leave Rin, Kagome said that Kagome would play with Rin . – Rin cried.
"I've already told that she has her duty". – Sesshomaru said coldly.
"But… Kagome promised to Rin …"
Jaken pulled Rin back, stopped her from talking when he sau his lord's face. That was the expression which Jaken had ever seen from Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru's face was even colder than usual and his eyes sparkled with something like hurt and lonely.
Sesshomaru ignored Jaken and Rin. He walked into the castle, Kagome's scent still linger in the air. Sesshomaru felt uncomfortable, one part of him wanted to clean all Kagome's scent but another part wanted to let it be .
"Sesshomaru-sama…."
Sesshomaru stopped when he heard Rin's shout. Rin was looking at him with watery eyes, she asked hopefully :
"Will Kagome-chan come back ?"
Rin's question made Sesshomaru stood silently for a long time. And he didn't know why he said coldly, ignored Rin's disapointement :
"No".
'This Sesshomaru needs no one' – Sesshomaru told himself before turning to leave.
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Kaede's village :
"Goodbye,I'llcome back after finishing my test". – Kagome smiled at her friends while climbing on the well.
"I'll come and pick you up" – Inuyasha suggested.
"Don't do that. You'll mess my world up".
"I won't".
"You will".
"Won't".
"Will".
"Won't".
"I say you will…" - Kagome's face became red, she clinched her fist, gritted her teeth – "DON"T COME AND PICK ME. REMEMBER ?"
"Ye….s..yes…" - Inuyasha trembled.
"Good. Goodbye" – Kagome smiled brightly, she waved her hand to her friends and jumped into the well.
"I'm home".
Kagome entered the kitchen and saw her mother cooking. She hugged her mother from behind and laid her head on her mother's shoulder. Mrs. Higirashi turned around, wrapped her arms around Kagome and gave her a sweet smile:
''Welcome home".
Kagome nuzzled in her mother's neck, felt so peaceful. Her tears fell with her desperate prevention. She used to try to smile the whole time she was with Inuyasha, Sango,Miroku and Shippo. But right now, in her mother's arms, she felt that it wasn't necessary anymore. She couldn't hold her tears anymore…
"What happened ?" – her mother asked worrily.
"Mother…." – Kagome said in her sobber.
"Kagome …."
Kagome didn't answered, Sesshomaru's imagine appeared, again in her mind. His cold face, his emotionless eyes, his deadly voice,….all of them haunted Kagome those last days, and she didn't know what to do. Crying wasn't her type, making everyone worry wasn't her type but she just did that. She seemed not to be herself. She cried for Inuyasha, because of Inuyasha many times, but not as much as this time, she cried because of Sesshomaru. wait, not because of Sesshomaru, but because of her hopeless feeling….
After a long time that Mrs. Higirashi thought it lasted forever, Kagome looked up to her mother. Mrs.Higirashi asked Kagome to sit on the chair and she broght Kagome a glass of water. She looked at Kagome worrily :
"What happened, Kagome ?"
Kagome lowered her head, thought for a moments, then she said perplexedly :
"If... I feel sad because one person doesn't stay by my side, does that mean... I have feelings for him ?"
Her mother gave a small smile before nodding her head :
"That is right, but nothing more than your feelings…"
"If I am glad because of his happiness and hurt even more than him because of his hurt, does that mean I have feelings for him ?"
"That means…" - Mrs.Higirashi smiled mischiviously - "…you love him".
"But …"
"When you love some one, you can't stand seeing him hurt. When you love some one, you'll never think of yourself, you'll do anything for his happiness, because with you his happiness is also yours. That is also my feelings for your father, Kagome" .
"But … why ? I didn't spend much time with him. He even used to try to harm me, how can I love him ?"
Mrs.Higirashi's heart missed a beat when she heard that there was some one who tried to her daughter, but she decided to let it past. Right now, what Kagome needed was her advice, so she sighed :
"I don't know. That is love, right ? And there is no reason for love. You love him just because you love him. It's not matter how much time you spend with him or what he done to you. If he is your destiny, you can love him even the first time you see him".
"But if my love is hopeless, should I continute ?"
"It is your decision, but don't try to lie your heart because you will hurt yourself".
"I even don't know how to stop it…." – Kagome made a sad smile.
"Then, just let it go naturally, I believe that you can do it."
"Yeah ,"
Kagome smiled at her mother, she stood up, hugged and whispered into Mrs.Higirashi's ears :
"Thanks, mother, I'm glad that I can share with you" .
"You are always welcome, my daughter".
Kagome pulled back, she said cheerfully :
"I'm hugry now, hasn't Souta come home yet ?"
"He is still at shool". – Mrs.Higirashi was glad to see Kagome come back to herself.
"I'll get change and then help you cooking".
Kagome turned away, headed to her room. She felt her heart lighter. Her feeling was clear now, she had no more confusion with it, singing softly and cheerfully, she walked out the kitchen.
"Kagome…"
"Yes …."
Hearing her mother's call, Kagome's footstep stopped. She turned to her mother.
"Do you regret for loving him ?"
Kagome smiled confidently and without any hestitation, she answered with her true heart :
"No, never…."
'I love you, Sesshomaru, the great inuyoukai lord of the western land, and I'll never regret it…'
End of chapter 9.
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