**This will be the last chapter of Belly "choosing" between the Fisher boys. I will branch the story so you can see what happens if Belly chooses Conrad or Jeremiah.**

p style="text-align: center;"span style="text-decoration: underline;"strongChapter Ten: /strong/span/p
p style="text-align: center;"strongBelly: /strong/p
p style="text-align: left;"I had so much to think about. For as long as I can remember I had pined after Conrad. I had loved him with all my heart. He was my everything. But somewhere along the line, Jeremiah worked his way into the picture. I love them both so much. Sometimes I feel guilty for loving them both. In the end, I know I will have to break one of their hearts. One of our relationships will be forever changed. What if I make the wrong decision? What if I end up losing them both? I could feel my breathing become irregular again. I couldn't control. I was having another panic attack. My sobs were hysterical, I felt like the whole world was spinning. /p
p style="text-align: left;"Before I knew what was happening, both Conrad and Jeremiah were in my room. They rushed over to me, trying and failing to comfort me. /p
p style="text-align: left;""This is exactly what happened before in the driveway," Jeremiah was trying to tell Conrad. /p
p style="text-align: left;"Conrad immediately jumped into action, he knew exactly what to do. "Belly, you're having a panic attack because of all the emotional drama going on right now. You need to breathe. Like this." Conrad demonstrated breathing in through his nose and out through his mouth. I followed his instructions. /p
p style="text-align: left;""You're okay, you just need to keep breathing, okay?" /p
p style="text-align: left;"I couldn't get any words out so I just nodded my head. After about five minutes my breathing went back to normal and I had stopped crying. Jeremiah looked like he was going to be sick, he was so pale. /p
p style="text-align: left;""Thank you," I said to Conrad, "I'm sorry about this, I think I should just go home." I started packing up all my stuff when Conrad grabbed my hand. /p
p style="text-align: left;""Belly this is nothing to be ashamed about. You should be around people who care about you, not with a complete stranger in a dorm room. Please stay." He looked genuinely concerned so I put my overnight bag down and sat back down on my bedroom floor. /p
p style="text-align: left;""How long have you been having these panic attacks?" Conrad continued asking questions while Jeremiah silently walked across the room and sat on the other side of me. We were all lined up, backs against the wall, feet straight out in front. I was sandwiched between "Beck's Boys"./p
p style="text-align: left;""They started right after the wedding." I looked straight ahead, this was so embarrassing. I could feel the back of my neck get hot. Both the boys were staring right at me, I could sense it. /p
p style="text-align: left;""I had no idea you were going through this. I'm so sorry," Jeremiah finally decided to speak. /p
p style="text-align: left;""Have you seen a doctor?" I turned to face Conrad and Jeremiah. /p
p style="text-align: left;""Do you really think this is something I would go talk to a 'professional' about. There is no easy way to explain you're in love with two brothers who both love you back without sounding incredibly obnoxious. There are people out there with real problems," I paused to take a deep breath, then I looked Conrad directly in the eye, "No, I haven't seen a doctor." /p
p style="text-align: left;"Conrad and Jeremiah were silent. They knew that everything I just said was true. At the same time, I could tell they wanted to help me, anyway they could. I mean, Conrad is basically a doctor for God's sake. /p
p style="text-align: left;"_/p
p style="text-align: left;"After sitting together for awhile, I finally broke the silence, "I think we should have a real conversation, like adults," I needed to talk to them together if I was ever going to figure out my feelings. "The last time we were in this situation everybody got hurt and I don't think I can go through that again." /p
p style="text-align: left;""Are you serious Bells? I don't really feel like discussing my love life with my younger brother," Conrad already looked skeptical and I knew that this little talk would not be easy, for any of us. /p
p style="text-align: left;""I think Belly is right, Con. We have to get everything out in the open," Jeremiah seemed on board which was a good sign./p
p style="text-align: left;"Conrad finally gave in, "Fine but if Jeremiah starts to cry I'm out." I knew Conrad was joking but there was a serious undertone to his voice. /p
p style="text-align: left;""I don't was to hurt either of you," My breathe almost caught but I held it together, "But I can't have both of you."/p
p style="text-align: left;""Belly, like I said before, I want everything with you. I am ready for this relationship now, I can handle it," Conrad reached for my hand but I wouldn't let him take it. /p
p style="text-align: left;""He's hurt you so many times before Belly," Jeremiah sound so angry, he looked it too, "I have always been there for you. I will always be there for you. I can't think of anybody else in the world that makes me as happy as you do." /p
p style="text-align: left;""I hope you both realize that the second I chose one of you, we will never be the same." My voice started to waver. "I want to spend the rest of the week together before I go back to school."/p
p style="text-align: left;"With that I kicked both boys out of my room because I really needed to sleep, bad. They left bewildered and confused, I could tell. But they did what I said. /p