AN: Thank you to everyone who has read, reviewed, and added me to their story alert list. I appreciate it very much. This chapter is Stefan's POV. Without further ado…Enjoy!
My brother is enjoying himself, the way he's flaunting Brooke around in front of my face; if only I could get the hazel eyed girl out of my head. That seems to be impossible though. I can't shake her voice; or what she told me from my thoughts, they're consuming me. I can't believe she's leaving, just like that. She breezes in without a care in the world, not even caring about the fact that I bit her, let alone that she's part of some mythical world, literally part of it.
I had to tell Elena what happened. The guilt was eating me up inside. She wasn't happy about it, more about the fact that I bit some girl than about the fact that the girl was Brooke. She seems to be a bit jealous, although I can't tell if it's because of me and Brooke or because of Brooke and Damon. I can honestly say that she doesn't know about our emotional connection. No I couldn't tell her about that. That would have definitely hurt her.
Why does she have to go for? She could stay. I know perfectly why she feels as if she has to go. I wonder who she is really running away from; her "certain someone", Damon, or me? It probably has to do with a little bit of all three of us. I don't blame her though, I wouldn't want to be in the predicament she's in.
"You ready to go?" Elena asks me, breaking me from my thoughts. We're headed to the boarding house, Ric is supposed to meet us there.
"Yeah sure, let's go." I tell her walking her to the car, stopping to hold the door open for her; once she's in I slam it shut and make my way to the driver's side. I slide in and start the car, heading towards my house and the earlier topic of discussion.
"Why do you think Damon saved her?" She asks me looking out the passenger window.
"To be honest with you I don't really know. Maybe it's because he doesn't want a mess to clean up, it's easier to help someone, than just let them die I guess." I tell her, hoping to ease the curiosity. I wondered the same thing on many occasion.
"He's big on not wanting any other vampire leaving their track marks here. He likes it here, whether he admits it or not." I say to my curious girlfriend. "Hey, it's okay. We're going to figure everything out. I'm just glad you're not in any danger this time." I admit to her.
She looks towards me at that and a look of irritation flashes through her eyes, it's replaced by understanding. "So am I." She replies.
The looks she just gave me leaves me puzzled. Why did she seem so annoyed when I said that to her? I can't help it if she always seems like a damsel in distress. It's what comes with the territory of being in her position. Not many times in your life do you meet or know you are a doppelganger. Also how many times do you come across vampires? Or people who have lived for centuries? Not many, I can tell you that.
I was just being honest with her, I thought she appreciates that, I know I surely do. "Elena I want to thank you for being so understanding about this whole situation." I tell her taking her hand into mine and kissing the back of it.
She in turn squeezes my hand. "Of course Stefan, I'll always be here for you, you know that. I love you." She says looking my way.
I pull over to the side of the road and grab her face into my hands. "I love you too." I tell her quietly just before I bring her lips to mine in a sweet kiss. It suddenly turns hot and she's crawling over the center console, placing herself in my lap. She's kissing my eyes, cheeks, mouth. I can feel my vampire urges start to surface.
I clench my hands behind her back and she looks into my eyes, holding my face to hers. "It's okay Stefan, I'm here, I am not going anywhere." She says holding my face in the palm of her hands.
My eyes go back to normal and she resumes kissing me. I do enjoy making out with her. It's got to be one of my favorite past times, but we really need to get to the house; at least before Brooke decides to make her getaway.
I gently ease her back into her seat, she doesn't seem too happy about that. "I'm sorry Elena I just think we should hurry up and get there. I don't want to stand Alaric up." I joke to her, hoping to ease some of the tension.
I take her hand in mine and give her a smile, she smiles back, thankfully. The car is silent for the rest of the ride, my hand still resting in hers. We pull up to the massive boarding house and just sit in the car for a minute. Me; trying to get control of myself and block out the thoughts of Brooke Davis, and God only knows what my now shy girlfriend is thinking.
We make our way into the house. "Where do you think they are?" She asks walking towards the entrance to the library, since that's Damon's favorite spot. I guide her to the room that is currently housing the object of our current dilemma. Her thoughts don't seem to want to leave me alone. I can hear and feel the want and need that she has for my raven haired brother.
This is torture for me, not a gift as so many people would be led to believe. Maybe it would be a gift if we were together or if it was between Elena and I, but not like this. I know, I know, I have no right to be upset about her wanting my philandering brother. I just know he'll hurt her though; he's never been in a committed relationship, as far as I know.
We make it to the room just in time to see Damon exiting it. I can sense that she's sad, extremely so. Her sadness is so overwhelming that I just want to walk into that room and take her into my arms; to comfort her, even if it's because of my brother. I guess they didn't have such a decent conversation after all. I am so lost in my thoughts and her feelings that I didn't notice that I'm the only one standing in the hall. I catch up and follow Elena into the library.
I'm guessing Damon needs a drink. I will probably need one soon enough. Before I know it Damon's hurt Elena's feelings. I don't even know what he's said I just scold him for it anyway, like he'll listen to me. To make her feel better I kiss her soft lips. I can feel my brother's blue eyed gaze on me; he's probably condemning me to hell or something.
Oh well fat chance of that, he'll just have to deal with our public displays of affection. I can feel her before I see her. I can't help but stare at the all too cheerful girl, bouncing over to Damon. I immediately feel a tinge of jealousy. I guess she felt that emotion because she's staring right at me; all is quiet in the room, as if we're the only two people in it. I'm immediately thrown back into reality by her cheerful "Hey guys!"
I just nod at her and Elena gives her a bright smile; trying to be supportive, that's my girl I think to myself. As if time sped up Brooke is walking past me with Damon's hand in her own. My jerk of a brother drops it to pull her close by her shoulders. What a d***head.
I have to block them out of my mind. I can't seem to do that though with him flaunting her about all over the place. I know he's trying to piss me off too. Not being able to take it anymore I excuse myself from the group, seeing as how Elena is busy talking to Damon anyway. I walk out of the library and out the back door, sitting upon the brick wall that's in the back of the house.
I just lean against the wall and look out at the moon, patiently waiting for Brooke's dad to arrive. It's a nice night out. I don't know why I don't ever take the time out to enjoy it more often. I hear footsteps come up behind me; that's not necessary though, I can feel the concern from a mile away.
"Hey what are you doing out here all alone?" Comes a raspy voice, I look up into the golden brown eyes of Brooke Davis. I feel my breath catch in my throat; she looks so damn beautiful in the pale light of the moon.
I can't do anything but smile at the concerned girl standing before me. "I'm okay Brooke you don't have to worry about me." I tell her looking back up at the moon.
"I know you are, I just can't help it, I feel a sort of protectiveness when it comes to you." She says, nudging my legs away so she can sit next to me.
"Huh, well gee thanks for making me feel like I'm 7 instead of 17." At the raise of her eyebrow I say, "You know what I mean."
She just giggles and nudges my shoulder with hers. "Yeah I do, I just thought it was funny, seeing as how you're over a hundred years old." She says all the while laughing.
"Ha-ha, very funny." I tell her sarcastically, not being able to stop the gigantic smile that I feel on my lips.
"Alright, alright old man; don't bite me again please." She says holding up her hands to her neck.
I just laugh at her and look out into the tree line. "What are you doing out here, for real Brooke?" I ask her, the mood taking on a serious note.
"I couldn't let you come out here alone Stefan. I hope you didn't forget that I can feel you too. Even if you feel like you've turned your feelings off, I can still feel you. All I have to do is concentrate on you." She says looking my way; at least I think she is, seeing as how I can feel a pair of eyes on the side of my face.
"How could I forget something like that?" I ask her as she stares into my eyes. God, what I would give to kiss her right now. I stand up suddenly and use my vampire speed to run out into the woods, leaving her sitting there on the brick wall.
I had to get myself out of that situation or I don't know what I would've done. I am finally admitting to myself that I have feelings for Brooke Davis. Feelings that I know I shouldn't be having, but they're there nonetheless. I yell at the top of my lungs, trying to yell out the unwanted feelings I am having for a near stranger.
Feeling bad for just leaving her there on the back porch I run as fast as I can back to the spot I left her in. She is still there, standing now, a shocked expression on her face. I just walk up to her and pull her into my arms, holding her tightly to me. "I'm sorry Brooke. I didn't mean to leave you." I felt her emotions as if they were my own, abandonment.
I feel her body shake and I can feel my shirt getting damp from the wetness of her tears. "I'm truly sorry, I just couldn't stand here any longer with you looking the…" I trail off trying to think of something to explain the way she looks, not thinking of anything I just say. "The way you do."
She just scoffs and gently pulls back from our embrace. "It's okay Stefan. It's not your fault. It's just something I am so used to. I just didn't think it would hurt as much as it did, the thought of you just leaving me." She says to me softly. I lift her chin up with my finger so I can look into her beautiful eyes again; knowing she's leaving tomorrow makes me not want to miss an opportunity to look at her so freely again.
"I know." She says staring into my eyes. "I'm going to miss you too." She tells me as she pulls me in for another hug. As she pulls away she takes my hand into hers. "I'm also going to miss your brother, very much." She says gently, as if she doesn't want to start a war.
"I know you are." I tell her surprising her, she wasn't expecting me to say something like that I guess. "I get it Brooke. You like him. I understand." I tell the girl who has the power to break my heart and to fill it back up again. "You don't know how much I wish I was in his place." I tell her softly. "To be able to be with you freely, without any convictions nor hesitations." I admit to her.
"Oh Stefan, you shouldn't be saying this." She says a pleading look in her eyes.
"It doesn't matter anyway, I'm already thinking it." I say to her, making her blush. "Why haven't you two gotten together than yet?" I ask her, curious as to what the answer is.
"Well because our emotions are all mixed up." She says looking down into her hands.
"I know Brooke, it is okay, really. I know all about my brother and his infatuation for my girlfriend." I tell her, hoping she'll be okay to talk now.
"Well okay than. I know he has feelings for Elena, I can't be in that situation again." She says to me, holding my hand in hers. "My ex-boyfriend; Lucas, also happens to be my 'certain someone.' Well he cheated on me with my ex-best friend." She says looking down into her lap again, she's fidgeting with her fingers, that's how I can tell she's nervous.
"Despite all my brother's flaws, trust me there are a lot." At that she giggles, making me laugh as well. "He has a good heart, he just doesn't like to show it. I think if he got the chance to be with you Brooke, he would do anything in his power to not only keep you safe but your heart as well." I tell the girl that I am infatuated with.
It's killing me inside, this pushing her towards my brother. "Hey Brooke?" I ask her, trying to get her attention. "Please don't tell Damon we talked about this, he'd never let me live this down. I'd rather him just not know." I chuckle under my breath.
"Of course Stefan, you know what?" She asks me, grabbing both my hands and taking them into her own. "You're a really good friend. I know how you feel about me right now, I commend you for doing this. By helping me with my Damon problem." She says with a flick of her wrist. "I really do appreciate it." She tells me squeezing my hands.
"We'd better get back inside, I have a feeling we're about to meet this mysterious father of yours." I tell her pulling her to her feet and bringing her close to my side, keeping her there for support.
We see Damon down the hall, looking into a room, probably looking for Brooke. I feel her start to tremble with excitement at seeing my impulsive brother. I can't help but feel a sort of sadness at this. She's looking up at me now, standing on her tip toes she brushes her lips against my cheek, settling her feet back on the ground she looks up at me her eyes apologetic. I just nod at her and send her off to my brother.
Damon spots her and quickens his pace to catch up to her. "There you are, I was wondering where you went." He says grabbing hold of her hands. She wraps her arms around his waist and he rests his chin upon her head, looking in my direction he just nods his head. They part from their embrace and he tucks her into his side, throwing his arm around her shoulders he leads her back to the library. She turns and looks back at me giving me a small smile.
My heart breaks at that smile. I feel as if my world is crashing down around me. I just handed her over to my philandering brother. What did I just do? I think to myself holding my fist to my gut, suddenly feeling nauseous. I look to the side and see Elena standing at the end of the hall. Feeling guilty for what I am feeling about a certain hazel eyed girl, and for watching said girl walk away from me into the arms of my brother I punch the wall and do a 180; using my vampire speed I run out of that house and into the moonlit night.
I continue to run, I pass the sign that welcomes you to Mystic Falls. It is only here do I stop in a field and scream at the top of my lungs. I continue to scream, hoping to get out all my agression, all my unhappiness, all my jealousy. Remembering that I left Elena standing in the hall I decide to head back to the house, I do want to know what's going on after all. I take my time though, since there doesn't seem to be anything left for me anymore.
20 minutes later
I walk into the house the way I left. Elena is sitting on a chair in the hall, silently crying into her hands. She hears a noise and looks up to see my crushed features. I walk over to her and kneel down in front of her. "Brooke's dad just arrived." She says to me quietly.
Not caring about that anymore I take her hand into mine and kiss the palm of it. "I'm sorry Elena. I do love you; that is why I have to be honest with you. I have feelings for Brooke, when I bit her something happened between us, we can feel what the other is feeling now." I tell her looking up into her beautiful brown eyes, sadness engulfing them. "I've been trying to fight these feelings but I can't seem to shake them." I admit to her.
She pulls her hands from mine and places her head into them, crying some more. "Why Stefan? Haven't I been doing everything I should be doing? Am I not a good girlfriend to you?" She asks into her hands.
"You've done everything right Elena, please don't ever think you didn't. I love you very much. I just have feelings, strong ones for Brooke. I didn't want to keep something like that from you." I tell the girl I'm in love with.
"I don't know if I can deal with this right now Stefan." She says finally looking at me.
"I understand." I tell her pulling my hands back into my lap.
"I need some time to myself Stefan and you obviously need some time also, to get your head and your heart right." She says squeezing her arms to her stomach. I know what she's feeling right now. I felt the very same thing just moments before. "I will still be here for you though, I promised you that." She says standing up.
She has such a good heart, a reason why I love her so much. "I'm sorry Elena." I don't know what else to say to her. What do you say to someone you love after you tell them you have feelings for someone else?
"Thank you Stefan, for telling me. Not a lot of guys actually would, they'd just cheat, so thank you for not cheating on me and making it worse." She says looking up at me from her seat on the chair, she hasn't moved. "Let's go see what's going on with Brooke, shall we?" She says standing up, I nod and tell her I'll be in there in a moment.
"Okay." She says wrapping her arms around me and giving me a light squeeze. I hug her back quickly before she pulls her arms back to her sides, she nods her head once and spins on her heels, heading back to the library.
I watch her walk away and can't help but feel my heart fall into the bottom of my shoes, so far I've watched two women walk away from me. Love stinks! I think to myself as I head back to the library to see what the mystery surrounding Brooke Davis is.
AN: Thank you all for reading this chapter. I truly appreciate it. Please don't forget to hit that little review button. I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I am feeling for Stefan right now. I am glad he was being honest, that's just the type of guy he is though, a gentleman.
anon: I think I might do that. I took off the pairing in the story, because I am truly confused as to who I want her with. I might try her out with both? At the rate it's going it looks like she will definitely be with Damon in the end.
nicaha23: I am glad your liking my story. I thank you for reviewing. I think I am heading in that direction, of Bramon. I just can't help but love Brefan though, they would be cute together as well. My affection of Damon might win out though. I feel sad that he never gets the girl. Stay tuned to find out what happens next :o)
Isabel camilla Scott: Thank you so much for the review. I get so happy seeing your reviews. I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I will definitely be bringing Haley into the mix very soon. I think when Brooke heads to New York. Brooke and Stefan will always have their connection. So they'll always be there for eachother, especially when they're needed. I am seriously thinking about changing it to Bramon, I was watching youtube vids of them and it inspired me to write them as endgame, we'll see. Now that Stefan's single I may make it a competition for Brooke's hand. It'll definitely make more drama! I am sorry to hear about your cousin, RIP. Get well soon, with your surgery. I am also sorry to hear about your fight with your mom and brothers.