When youre broken
When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're tryin' but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in your self
When you're broken
Emma stood in front of the mirror worried. The wedding was in just a few hours and she was so worried about it all. Not the marriage part that she couldn't wait for. She was ready to spend her life with Killian, as Mrs. Jones.
On the other side of the door stood the rest of the bridal party, Ruth, and Rose, most of them already ready or just finishing up. The dresses looked amazing on each of them, making Emma relax knowing they picked great dresses. Ashton was in a little dress herself, a cute gray dress with a tea tutu. Everyone was excited but Emma, was doing her best not to cry. A knock on the door brought her out of her thoughts, back to the room.
"Come in." She said with a small smile, grinning as Ashton and her mom came in to the room.
"Oh Emma, you look so beautiful." Ruth said with a smile as she moved towards her, the three of them hugging.
Emma smiled as the tears came back to her eyes, once against keeping from crying.
"Mom, I'm so nervous and worried. What if it doesn't work out for us? What if he realizes his mistake and leaves?" Emma asked as Ruth set Ashton down and dried Emma's tears.
"Killian was worried you would have some fears about this. Here read this them come join us in the other room." Ruth said smiling handing Emma an envelope before picking up Ashton and leaving the room. Emma sat down holding it in her hands a moment before she opened it and rested back reading it slowly.
"My Love,
I know right now you are probably alone and freaking out, I'm sure I am the same. I know I'm the same because I can't wait to marry you.
But love, please don't be worried or nervous or scared. The moment I laid eyes on you at your moms I knew I wanted to marry you some day. Granted I wanted to do our relationship right. You know dating, marriage then a baby. But I guess we are true rebels that never do anything right.
You and Ashton mean the world to me and I know that it is going to be more than amazing to have you as my wife, my true love forever. There is nothing I want more in this world than you and Ashton at my side through everything. I will be waiting for you at the end of the isle, Ashton by our sides and ready to be married.
I love you my Swan. Always and forever.
Killian.
Ps: Just to be sure, I'll be the dashing rapscallion in the tux."
Emma laughed as she read his letter and felt her fears quickly leaving as she realized how dumb her fears were. She had no reason to be so worried when she knew his feelings for her. She set the letter down in her small bag, and stood up. Running her hand down her dress she moved in to the main room and smiled at the group standing before her.
"All better Emma?" Ruth asked smiling as Emma nodded and took Ashton from her.
"All better. How much longer until its time?" Emma asked as she cuddled close with Ashton. Ruby looked to the clock before smiling.
"It's time. Ready?" Ruby said handing Emma the bouquet before taking Ashton.
"Let's do this then. I can't wait to be married!" Emma said as they headed from the room, the fears she had no longer living in her at all.
Emma slowly made her way down the aisle, James on one side and David on the other. Even though he was a groomsman, Emma knew her brother would walk her down the aisle. Her eyes were locked with Killian's, both shining with tears and smiles on their face.
When she finally got to him, she winked to him before he winked back to her. Emma took her place in front of him, their hands intertwining and their focus on each other as the Pastor started talking.
When it was time to say their vows, Emma cleared her throat and took a deep breath, hoping she wouldn't cry as she spoke.
"Killian, I knew the moment you stepped up to help me, when I was pregnant, when I was alone and tired and upset, that I would hate you." She said with a laugh, the church laughing with her. "But you never gave up; you never let me get too far without reminding me of just what I needed to hear. There was something about you that made me want to fall in love with you but I was scared and I knew that I couldn't let you in just yet. But you were right there and I fell hard and fast for you once I realized I couldn't live without you." Emma said tears slowly falling down her face. "I love you more than anything, you gave me a beautiful daughter, and you gave me my self worth back, my life back. I promise for the next 100 years, I will always be here to love you, cherish you, and drive you a bit insane." Emma was glad she could make it through her vows without bawling her eyes out. The pastor looked to Killian with a nod, letting him know it was his turn.
"Emma, the second you walked in to the room at your mom's house, I knew I needed to get to know you. Then suddenly you were gone and I needed to make sure you were okay. The walls you had up made me want you that much more. But suddenly I got to know you and I fell in love. You are smart, and beautiful, and push all my buttons. You gave me the little princess that I didn't know I needed but I can't picture life without now. Knowing that I get to have you forever, as my wife, my true love makes me look forward to each day. You have made me a better man, a man that I want Ash to look for when she's in her 30s. A man that someday our future son will want to be like. I love you forever and a day." He said smiling. They repeated after the pastor when the time came, their hands were tight in each others.
"You may now kiss the bride."
Killian pulled Emma close to him kissing her deeply, Ashton's small, "EW!" made both laugh against each other's lips.
"Ladies and Gentleman, it is my honor to introduce you to Mr. and Mrs. Killian Jones." The pastor announced. Cheers filled the room as they headed down the aisle back out in to the hall before in to the bridal room. Killian picked up Emma and spun her around kissing her deeply.
"I love you Mrs. Jones!" He told her smiling as he set her back down.
"We are married." She said softly in to his chest.
"Aye love, we are." He said softly holding her to him; sure his heart was still pounding in his chest from pure love. He kissed her head again before looking down at her. "Ready to go party the night away?" He asked her smiling kissing her forehead. Emma closed her eyes from the kiss before a smirk took over her face.
"Not just yet. I want some time with you a little longer." She told him before kissing him, letting it deepen.
No one seemed to care the couple was gone longer than they said they would be or that when they came back Emma's lipstick was gone and Killian suit no longer looked at clean as before.
Everyone was beyond excited to celebrate the couple nothing seemed to matter.
"Alright it's time for a toast!" Liam said in to the microphone as he stood on the stage. "For those who don't know me, I'm Liam Killian's older brother. I want to say a million things to embarrass my brother and tease my new sister in law until both are red in the face. But I know better because Emma does scare the crap out of me." Liam said with a laugh, everyone laughing with him. Emma shook her head as Killian smirked and kissed his wife's head. "I just want to say, Emma, I am so glad that my brother found you because you have made him a much better person, and so happy. I love all three of you and I am excited to be able to celebrate you guys. To Emma and Killian!" Liam said as he lifted his glass smiling everything toasting with him.
Emma leaned over and kissed Killian smiling as Mary took her turn on the stage.
"Hello Everyone, I am Mary Emma's sister in law. I have known Emma since she was 13 and for the last 10 years I have watched her grow but more so in the last year with Killian. She has smiled more, laughed more and loved more than I thought she ever could. Killian you seemed to make Emma feel alive and I love it. You are her true love and I love that she found you. I love you both and can't wait to see what the future holds for you. To Emma and Liam!" She said with tears in her eyes, Emma smiling as she wiped away her tears. Other friends made some toasts before the dancing started.
People around them danced and drank, enjoying the celebration. Killian and Emma stood with Ashton wanting a moment with her before she would go home with Ruth for the night.
"Hey love birds, got a moment?" Liam asked smiling as he moved towards them, kissing Ashton's head softly. Emma smiled and nodded looking to her brother in law.
"Of course. Everything okay?" Killian asked as he looked to his brother. Liam gave them a smile before he nodded.
"Yesterday I got a call from my doctor. I didn't know when to tell you guys, I knew today would be out of the question but I can't hold it in much longer." He said watching them, Emma looking to Killian before back to Liam.
"Is everything okay?" She asked softly as she watched him. Liam nodded before grinning.
"The lump was cancer but it was nothing. We caught it in time and I'll have to have some more testing done to make sure everything will be okay but they are sure nothing will be wrong and I'll be able to have kids." Liam said, both Emma and Killian letting out the breath they had been holding before hugging him close.
"Thank Gods above!" Killian said smiling as he let go of his brother. They left the corner and headed back to the party, ready to spend some time with friends and celebrate not only the wedding but now Liam being cleared. The party started dying down slowly, Emma almost glad people were leaving.
"Let's go home please. I'm beyond tired and ready to get out of this dress." She said with a laugh Killian took her hand in his as they walked out to the car and headed home.
Once they were changed in to comfier clothes, they curled up on the couch smiling as they cuddled close.
"How did you know that I would need your letter?" She asked as she took his hand in hers, smiling as she felt his ring against her fingers.
"Because I was just as worried and scared as you. That and David told me you get freaked out super easy so I wanted you to know that I am here and would always be here with you." He told her as he kissed her head. Emma smiled and looked up to him kissing him softly.
"I love you. I love that you are here and love me even when I freak out." She told him smiling as he held her closer.
One year later.
Emma laughed as she picked up Ashton, tickling her.
"Mama!" Ashton said through laughter. Emma laughed as she fell back on to the couch, kissing Ashton's head. The last year had been one of Emma's best. Ashton, who was about to turn two, had grown more than Emma wanted her too. She was too much like Emma but all of Killian at the same time. Ashton looked at Emma with a grin before looking down at the small box on the table.
"My Present?" She asked with a smirk, one that made Emma's heart tightened because it looked so much like Killian's.
"Yes baby girl its yours. But we need to wait for daddy and Uncle Liam and Aunt Elsa to come first." She said smiling. David and Mary where due any moment but the others wouldn't be there till Dinner and Emma hoped that Ashton's cousins, David and Mary s twin girls Ella and Ariel, would help keep her mind off the family party later.
"Fine. But I not happy." She said with a stomp of her foot before she headed up stairs, a small giggle making Emma realize she was more Emma than anything else. Emma placed her hand on her small bump smiling as she hoped her next one would be more like Killian than her. The door bell rang before her brother and sister in law walked in, Ashton running back down stairs to see her cousin. Sure they were much younger than her, but Emma loved that it didn't stop her from playing with them.
"Emma! Ready for the little party?" David ask as he sat down beside his sister laughing as she shook her head.
"Not really. I still need to clean up the kitchen and call mom and make sure she is coming with the cake." Emma said with a sigh as she rubbed her face.
"Well let us help you! I'll call mom and David will clean the kitchen and you shower." Mary said with a smile as she helped Emma up and pushed her from the Room. Ashton smiled from her spot on the floor, the puzzle she was doing with the girls almost done.
"I love you! Thank you. I'll be quick." She said smiling as she raced up stairs to shower. Standing naked in front of her mirror, she turned to her side frowning. The small bump was slowly starting to show even more and having not told anyone yet, she knew she would need to and soon. First she wanted to tell Killian and Ashton. Then she would work on the family and friends.
After a shower, Emma dressed in a pair of jeans and a flowy tank top before she headed down stairs. Walking in to the living room she smiled looking to her sister in law.
"It smells amazing in here Mary! You didn't have to do all this!" She said smiling as she looked at the purple decorated room and the kitchen table with food on it.
"I wanted too! Besides you had everything here. It was easy. I made your brother head up all the food and set it out. No you relax, everyone will be here soon," Mary went back to the kitchen as Emma smiled to Ashton before she stood up.
"Come on baby; let's go get your pretties on." Emma told her as she picked her up and carried her up to her room smiling. Emma cleaned Ashton up, listening to Ashton sing before helping her in to her blue summer dress. As they walked back down stairs Emma smiled seeing Killian walking in to the house, Liam behind him.
"There's my favorite Jones." She teased as she kissed her husband, laughing as Liam patted his brothers back.
"Don't worry, the sting will go away some day. For now just accept she likes me more." He teased before headed in to the kitchen greeting Mary and David.
"Daddy!" Ashton said jumping in to Killian's arms hugging him close.
"Hi my little princess. Are you ready to party tonight?" He asked as he carried her in to the living room, Ruth and Elsa walking in moments later. Presents were set on the coffee table and everyone headed in to the kitchen to eat, the little girls sitting at the table.
"Els when are you due?" Emma asked her best friend, moving to get more of the pizza casserole that Elsa had brought over.
"3 weeks and 3 days. Though I want him here now! He's been kicking me like crazy and his stupid father won't stop talking to him when I want to sleep." Elsa said laughing, Emma laughing herself.
"It must be a Jones thing then. Killian did the same to Ash. I wanted to kick him in the balls." Emma said shaking her head.
"Hey now, we are not that bad. Liam maybe but I'm not." Killian said a mouth full of cheeseburgers. Emma rolled her eyes smiling.
As the finished eating, everyone headed in to the living room, minus Emma who hung back to clean up.
"Em you okay?" Elsa asked as she helped put food away.
"Of course. I'm just tired." She said smiling as they headed in to the living room. "I can't wait for a nap." She said laughing as she moved to sit down beside Killian who had Ashton on his lap. As they opened presents, Emma kept track of everything wanting to make sure she got thank you notes out. As she stood to get a new pen she couldn't help but look around the room and smile loving how loved her little family was.
A|N: Im so so so sorry this took so long to get up. There was so much going on in my life that writing took a back seat. I apologize for that completely! But I'm house sitting this weekend and when im not out with family I plan to just write.
Yes we jumped a year but I need to for a reason. I really hope you understand and enjoy the jump. The vows made me want to cry to be honest. Like these are my babies and now they are married! Ashton's first birthday and now baby two? Next chapter will be up soon. Love you guys. Leave reviews and let me know what you think!