*another chapter so soon! Yay me! X3*

(Butch pov)

I was at home a couple days after, my mood had been changed earlier that day when I went to the store. Due to who I was they followed me thinking I was gonna steal. I had it and I went off turning to them saying this " listen! Yes I'm a fucking rowdyruff, but look at the past ten years because my brothers and I haven't stolen shit in that amount of time! Stop following me!" I pulled out my wallet "look at this judgmental assholes! I have money! To buy, not steal!"

I was left alone after that, but the fact that people judge so quickly pissed me off. The past never will define who I can become. We were kids, children who only knew one thing. I looked in front of me to see my old picture frame floating, I must have been staring at it. I sigh thinking playing a song will help. I pick one that describes my mood.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)

I hear a knock at my window and see Bubbles who waved. "What are you doing here?" I whispered letting her in. "You texted saying you were upset and didn't reply after so I came here to see if you are alright" she put a hand on her hip. "Im fine... mostly" I look away I sigh and sit on my bed, not having the heart to push her away, probably because it was beating much faster since she entered... I had no clue why.

"What's up?" She asked standing uncomfortably by my window. "First... you can sit too if you want..." I start watching her face soften as she came to sit next to me "I was judged on my past self by store clerks, so I don't know... I just went off on then, have had a bitter taste in my mouth since" I usually don't open up to people, but with her it comes out faster than water from a tap.

"Like I did..." she looked down and bit her lip. "At least you apologize for it... they never have" I held my right hand on my lap that had become a fist. "That still didn't make it right..." she looked away, I now see that she was definitely remorseful. "Don't get all sappy on me blue... you aren't all that bad" I lean back with my arms behind my head.

"Really!?" Her eyes widened and a flush appeared on her cheeks. "Yep... it also helps that your personality is kind of cute-er uh fuck never mind... " I cover my face to hide the developing redness. "No way! You really think I'm cute!" She had a smile and began to poke me over and over. I grab her finger and give her a half hearted look "stop that..." the fact that my voice was gentle didn't help my case.

"The tough guy in you is cute too!" Bubbles giggles when my face grew redder as my jaw hung open. "I ain't cute toots" I tried to sound more stern even if the giggles made me somewhat happy inside. "Why do you do that?" She tilted her head with a bigger smile. "What?" I raise a brow looking at her. "When your embarassment grows so does your sarcasm"

She gave a rare smirk.

"I don't do that!" I get up and instinctively grab my guitar. "Oh are you gonna play again!" When she said that she covered her mouth quickly and blushed. "Oh... you heard that song huh?" I look at her and sit down. "Yeah... can you sing what you think about me now?" She gave a hopeful look. "I can't write a song that fast..." I chuckle. "Well pick a song you know then that is a representation of me now" she smiled again.

I sigh and think for a minute " I guess I can..." when I say that she gives me another hug. I couldn't comprehend my feelings because they all poured eyes.

The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You're barely waking

And I'm tangled up in you

Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed

Where I follow, you'll go

I worry I won't see your face

Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills my mind

I somehow find

You and I collide

I'm quiet you know

You make a first impression

Well, I've found I'm scared to know

I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the stars refuse to shine

Out of the back you fall in time

I somehow find

You and I collide

Don't stop here

I lost my place

I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills your mind

You finally find

You and I collide

You finally find

You and I collide

You finally find

You and I collide

To be continued

*how do you think bubbles will react to that song x3*