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Thank you all so much for your reviews. Here is the new chapter. I really hated the last episode I have to admit. YES I loved that Casey was in harms way but than Dawson and this "Baby don't scare me like this..." and them putting their ENGAGEMENT on hold just like that...sorry but no!

If you leave a review (which I of course hope for): I need your opinion! What would you guys like? Should I get our Lieutenant more into harms way and keep it dramatic or should I keep it realistic and stop it :o) As you guys know I can't get enough of Casey whump but I don't want to overplay it. What do you guys think?

Have fun with the new chapter!

Chapter 10 - Lost

"There was no baby inside the apartment!" Severide said as he reached the group, getting Casey to look back up at him immediately.

"What?"

"This damn dog is her baby!" Severide said, while Casey now turned around to face the woman still cuddling the little dog.

"You are kidding me right?" Casey said, wincing in pain as Mills got the burn cream on his back. "No she just confirmed it."

Casey shook his head full of disbelieve before breaking into a hysterical yet so honest laughter.

"It was an honor to nearly get myself grilled because of a dog." He said while Severide, who was kneeling in front of Casey as well just patted his shoulder. Casey looked at Dawson and could see the tears shining in her eyes even if she was laughing. He knew that everyone was as relived as he was right now. He could feel Gabby's hand on his cheek for a second and closed his eyes. It felt so normal, so gentle and yet he knew that it was just a reaction to the emotions that got everyone overwhelmed in this situation. He opened his eyes as he could feel Gabby standing up again.

"Mills what about his back?" Severide asked looking up at Mills who just rose to his feet again.

"It's a small second degree burn. Patched it up, nothing to be worried about."

"See I told you I'm fine." Casey said while accepting Severides hand now to get him back to his feet.
"Casey! We will talk about that later!" Boden said as he walked by, getting Casey to nod. He could feel Severide's glance and just looked back at him.

"What? You would have done the same and we both know that." Casey said, getting Severide to raise his arms in defeat.

"Not saying a single word am I?" Severide asked with a smirk while helping Casey to get his shirt back on. As soon as they arrived back at the firehouse Casey called the hospital for news on the Chaplain. He exhaled deeply as he just got the answer that there was no change in the Chaplains condition.

Casey could feel his back aching as he was sitting on his chair in his small office. He was tired, exhausted and his throats was aching like hell.

"Lieutenant Casey? Chief wants to see you now."

"Thanks Conny." Casey tried to say, his voice nearly completely gone at this point.

"Casey how is your back?" Chief asked as soon as Casey had made his way into his office, gesturing for his Lieutenant to take a seat.

"Mills patched..." Casey tried before trying again.

"Mills patched it up. Just a small burn." He continued with his voice gone. He could see Boden furrowing his eyebrows.

"That's exactly what I wanted to talk to you about. You can be damn lucky that it's just a small burn. I told you to get out of the building long before!"

"Chief it was a baby in there...or better we thought it was a baby in there."

"I know that but would you have made the same decision if the call with Chaplain Orlovsky had went different?" Boden pointed out, not missing the reaction in Casey's face.

"I would definitely run into that building again to try and safe a little baby and you know that. We would all do that."

Chief Boden just nodded, having trouble to understand Casey as his voice was beyond bad now. "Casey I want you to talk to someone about what had happened during the call at the prison and about what had happened today."

"Chief I'm fine and I got plenty of people to talk to. Ask Severide, I am talking to him. I will definitely not talk to anyone."

"You know I can not convince you to see someone even if I would love to."

"Chief I'm fine."

"Get Herrmann to cover up for you today, it's been enough for your first day back and beside that with your voice like that there is nothing you can do on a call right now."
"I told you I'm fine."
"And I told you to go home and rest."
"Yes Chief." Casey said before heading back to his office to grab his things. He wasn't okay with it but he had lectured Dawson to not second guess his decisions so he couldn't just do the same with Chief Boden now.

Casey walked into the main area gesturing for Herrmann to come over to him.

"I will..." Casey exhaled deeply before trying again. .

"I am going to head home. You have to cover me up again, will you?"

"Of course. Are you alright?"

"Chief send me home. Voice is bad."

"Yeah I can sign that. Get some rest." Casey nodded before heading towards the locker room. Severide was just walking back into the main area as he could hear Herrmann's speech.

"Alright everyone listen up for a second. Casey is heading home, I will cover up for him."

Severide wanted to follow Casey but could see that Dawson was already getting to her feet. He watched as she was heading towards the locker room too, nodding to himself. He knew how much Casey needed her right now and could just hope that Dawson would feel it too as Casey would never admit it on his own.

"Hey, you okay?" Dawson asked, watching as Casey struggled with his jacket. She stepped in immediately, helping him put his arm in.

"Thanks. Damn it really hurts." Casey said before facing Dawson.

"You should take some painkillers so you don't pull anything again because you don't have complete mobility."

"Good point." Casey said, closing his eyes for a second as his throat was feeling like he was swallowing glass.

"Matt you okay? What did the doctor say because of your voice?"

"I'm fine. It's normal. They told me it would hurt for a while." Casey said now looking back at Gabby. No Lieutenant, no formal phrases, just them, talking like normal human beings.

"Gabby I really think we should..." he started before he could hear the overhead paging system go off.

"Truck 81, Ambulance 61, Police assistance."

"Take care." Gabby just said quickly while Matt just nodded.

"Be careful."

It was this second he recognized that he wanted to be her Lieutenant more than anything else, even though he just wanted to make sure she was okay, she was save.

"Hey, what's going on? Why are you heading home?" Severide asked as soon as Matt came into the bay area where he was sitting at the Squad table. Matt just pointed at his throat and Severide had to fight back the images of Matt laying on the floor bleeding to death as soon as the scar came into vision again.

"Yeah I recognized it was getting worse. Going to see a doctor?" Matt just shook his head.

"Of course not. Why am I even asking? Get some rest, okay?" Severide asked, patting onto Matt's back without thinking. He nearly jumped backwards as he could hear Casey moan out in pain, grabbing for Severide to keep himself upright.

"Oh no. Oh damn it. Casey! Oh no. I am such an idiot. I totally forgot about the burn mark. Are you okay?" Severide asked, while Casey was now looking back up at him.

"Idiot." he said with his cracked voice, but a smile visible on his face.

"Come on let me take a look. Man I'm so sorry."

"It's fine. Heading home now." Casey said, getting upright again.
Matt slammed his bag into the passenger site of his pick up not even thinking about driving home, even if he felt tired and exhausted. He knew that his place was on the Chaplains side today and nowhere else.

Gabby entered the ICU unit calmly. The nurse had told her that the Chaplain already got a visitor who was refusing to leave his side but that it was okay if there where 2 people at a time. Gabby wasn't surprised that there was someone by his side. He had helped so many people over the years and now everyone should be willing to give this help back and stand by his side in this difficult time. As she entered the small room her gaze felt onto the Chaplain before she could see the still form on the chair next to the Chaplains bed. She closed her eyes as she recognized it was Matt. He was asleep and she could just make out that he hadn't been home after he had left shift. It had been 24 hours by now. Gabby made her way towards the Chaplains side, grabbing his hand.

"Chaplain, it's Gabriela. I really hope you will get better soon." Gabby said before turning her attention towards Matt again as he was getting restless in his chair out of nowhere.

"NO!" He just screamed, getting her to nearly jump while Matt's eyes flew open immediately. It had been a bad nightmare she could tell.

"Hey!" She said after a second as Matt's eyes finally landed on her. He rubbed his face with his hands before returning her "Hey."

"Have you been with the Chaplain all the time?"

"Yeah. He got no family and I mean...I couldn't just leave him here." Matt said, glad his voice was a little better by now.

"You are still beating yourself up for it." Gabby pointed out.

"It was my decision."

"And it was the right decision."

"We already talked about that." Matt said before getting to his feet, using the chair for comfort. He hadn't eaten in hours and the quick nap had ended with a horrible nightmare.

"You should head home and get some rest. Shift starts in 12 hours already."

"I'm fine."

"Yeah of course you are. Come on Matt. I will stay with him and I promise to inform you when I get any news."

"I will go and get some belongings and then..."

"Herrmann can take care of that and I am pretty sure he already is taking care of that. Go home now. We need you back to 100 percent tomorrow."
"You are right. Give me a call if anything changes."

"You going to give Severide a call to pick you up?"

"No got my car at the parking lot."

"Matt honestly, I really don't think you should be driving after all those hours and..."

"I told you I'm fine. Promise to give me a call."

"I will." Gabby said knowing better than to argue with Matt right now.

A few hours later a doctor finally entered the room, filling Gabby into the Chaplains condition. Gabby didn't hesitate a second before trying to call Matt. She breathed out heavily after trying it several times for at least an hour, nobody picking up on the other end. She knew that Matt had properly fallen asleep but nonetheless she was worried. She had never seen him like this before.
"Severide."

"It's Dawson."

"Yeah I know. I saw your caller ID. What's up?"

"I tried to call Matt for an hour. Is he asleep?"

"No I just got home. He is not here. Why?"

"I found him in Chaplain Orlovskys room. He had been here since leaving shift. He wanted to head home but I couldn't reach him. I wanted to tell him that the Chaplain is finally out of the woods." "Hey that's great news but he isn't here and he never was I think." Severide said checking the apartment for any signs of Casey.
"Damn I shouldn't have let him drive."

"He didn't say anything?"

"No. He just left Kelly." Severide exhaled deeply.

"I am really done worrying!" He said angrily.

"Can you give me a call if you find him?" Gabby asked.

"Of course."

Severide cursed before pushing the 4th button on his phone. Of course he got Casey on speed dial. Nothing.

"Casey! You better tell me you are okay!" He wrote a text before turning around in the living room, not sure what to do next. Should he wait at the apartment? Should he drive to...to where...he could be anywhere.

Severide tried to get his mind in check, trying to fight back to urge to call the hospitals and ask if a Matt Casey had been brought it. Oh he was so done worrying.

...to be continued!