Both Logan and Marie slowly drifted of to sleep after their lovemaking feeling that
maybe Lennon and McCartney was right after all - "All you need is love". Neither
had any nightmares, which was rare. They usually came to one of them at least any
given night but after they had become a couple all those years ago, they had soon
discovered that the nightmares were much less common when they were together. As if the
universe, fate or God somehow had intended them to be together. Of course, humanity and
cruelty had been determined to tear them apart. Physically but not emotionally.
Emotionally the bond was as strong as ever, if not stronger.
They both woke up at around 10 in the morning, Logan being the first one to
wake up. He knew they had a lot to do during the day but he just didn't have the
heart to wake Marie up. Not only was she strikingly beutiful even under the worst
of circumstances but during sleep she seemed so much at peace. The troubles
and pains of the world forgotten. What he wouldn't give to have her be that
happy and at peace even during her waking moments. Himself, he was only like
that during two things. The first one being when he could release all his anger
and resentments towards something - the reason why he had ever contemplated
entering cage-fights and later being a part of the X-men team in the first place. He
didn't felt like that during the fights but afterwards when the adrenaline levels
once again had descended into their usual spot. He didn't have any regrets regarding
that, no matter how 'barbaric' it might seem. The cage-fighting part had led him to
this beutiful, loving woman after all and no matter how you slice it that couldn't be bad.
As for the X-men part, it had led him to understand the nature of friendship and
committment. Something he as far back as he could remember always had shied away from.
Now, he didn't want that self-appointed loneliness back. He only regretted that
he hadn't been able to save the people he cared about. Scott, Jeannie, Chuck, Rasputin
and most recently Storm. The biggest regret was Rasputin. Peter Rasputin. He had
always liked that kid and they had become friends fast. Now, thanks to that bastard
Robert Kelly, he would perhaps be forced to kill him. He didn't know why Peter had been
chosen to be 'transformed' into a assassin for Kelly's cause but he had given up
trying to figure out Kelly's reasons. He only knew that if they ever ran into
Rasputin, it would be trouble. Both he and Marie would face some, not to mention a
lot, of difficulty trying to battle Rasputin and not because of his powers either. Out of
loyalty. He had, after all, been a part of the X-men for a long time. Peter however wouldn't
have that difficulty. He most likely didn't even remember that they had once been
friends. And now he had been assigned to kill or convert Marie. No, Logan didn't look
forward to that confrontation at all. No matter who won, everyone would lose in one
way or the other. Except Kelly. Which was really getting to Logan. The bastard guilty
of it all was the one walking away from it, withot a scar to show for it!
The only other time he was at peace was when he was with Marie. Like now.
Otherwise he would pretty much be like that dwarf in the Disney movie "Snowhite and the
seven dwarfs". The one with the constant bad-temper. He didn't know why or how he
remembered that movie but he figured that's how things are when you have what Scott once
termed as "swizz cheese memory". Just full of holes. Either way, he just felt like a whole person
when he was close to Marie. That was the only time he felt like that. Never else. And it
didn't matter if it was just a five-minute talk or a whole night of making love either. As long as
she was nearby, everything else faded into insignificanse. And right now, it felt like everything
was going to dissolve. Becaus he knew that when she woke up she'd leave
again. Temporary? Maybe. If they both were extremely lucky. If he was honest with himself it
was much more likely that either she wouldn't return in time with help or one or even both
of them would be killed during the attack of the former safe haven for mutants. Not something
he liked to think about so he concentratad all his thoughths on the beutiful woman
sleeping in his bed, despite the fact that she could have gotten whoever she had set her
eyes on.
He just felt so lucky that despite everything, he was that guy. Despite cheese memory,
anti-mutant laws, retirements of people they both held dear and involuntarily being
kept apart - she still loved him. Lucky, grateful and being in love just
didn't begin to describe what he and she felt about eachother. Logan didn't know how to
describe it better than that so he firmly had decided to not even try. It would only
sound like a cliche' in the end and that was one thing he absolutely did not want it to
sound like.
The bottom line of it all was, however, that he loved Marie with all of his
heart and soul and he'd rather die than see her being hurt. He knew that he at
least partially had failed in that, given that she had to be constantly on the run and aware
of what she was doing but that was one of the things he was determined to change! She
deserved that and so much more! He would have given her the stars, the moon and the sun if
she had asked for it and he had known how to give it to her. Doing whatever he could
to keep her from being hurt was easy in comparison and even if/when it isn't, it's
something he would be only too willing to give to her.
If he only knew how.
maybe Lennon and McCartney was right after all - "All you need is love". Neither
had any nightmares, which was rare. They usually came to one of them at least any
given night but after they had become a couple all those years ago, they had soon
discovered that the nightmares were much less common when they were together. As if the
universe, fate or God somehow had intended them to be together. Of course, humanity and
cruelty had been determined to tear them apart. Physically but not emotionally.
Emotionally the bond was as strong as ever, if not stronger.
They both woke up at around 10 in the morning, Logan being the first one to
wake up. He knew they had a lot to do during the day but he just didn't have the
heart to wake Marie up. Not only was she strikingly beutiful even under the worst
of circumstances but during sleep she seemed so much at peace. The troubles
and pains of the world forgotten. What he wouldn't give to have her be that
happy and at peace even during her waking moments. Himself, he was only like
that during two things. The first one being when he could release all his anger
and resentments towards something - the reason why he had ever contemplated
entering cage-fights and later being a part of the X-men team in the first place. He
didn't felt like that during the fights but afterwards when the adrenaline levels
once again had descended into their usual spot. He didn't have any regrets regarding
that, no matter how 'barbaric' it might seem. The cage-fighting part had led him to
this beutiful, loving woman after all and no matter how you slice it that couldn't be bad.
As for the X-men part, it had led him to understand the nature of friendship and
committment. Something he as far back as he could remember always had shied away from.
Now, he didn't want that self-appointed loneliness back. He only regretted that
he hadn't been able to save the people he cared about. Scott, Jeannie, Chuck, Rasputin
and most recently Storm. The biggest regret was Rasputin. Peter Rasputin. He had
always liked that kid and they had become friends fast. Now, thanks to that bastard
Robert Kelly, he would perhaps be forced to kill him. He didn't know why Peter had been
chosen to be 'transformed' into a assassin for Kelly's cause but he had given up
trying to figure out Kelly's reasons. He only knew that if they ever ran into
Rasputin, it would be trouble. Both he and Marie would face some, not to mention a
lot, of difficulty trying to battle Rasputin and not because of his powers either. Out of
loyalty. He had, after all, been a part of the X-men for a long time. Peter however wouldn't
have that difficulty. He most likely didn't even remember that they had once been
friends. And now he had been assigned to kill or convert Marie. No, Logan didn't look
forward to that confrontation at all. No matter who won, everyone would lose in one
way or the other. Except Kelly. Which was really getting to Logan. The bastard guilty
of it all was the one walking away from it, withot a scar to show for it!
The only other time he was at peace was when he was with Marie. Like now.
Otherwise he would pretty much be like that dwarf in the Disney movie "Snowhite and the
seven dwarfs". The one with the constant bad-temper. He didn't know why or how he
remembered that movie but he figured that's how things are when you have what Scott once
termed as "swizz cheese memory". Just full of holes. Either way, he just felt like a whole person
when he was close to Marie. That was the only time he felt like that. Never else. And it
didn't matter if it was just a five-minute talk or a whole night of making love either. As long as
she was nearby, everything else faded into insignificanse. And right now, it felt like everything
was going to dissolve. Becaus he knew that when she woke up she'd leave
again. Temporary? Maybe. If they both were extremely lucky. If he was honest with himself it
was much more likely that either she wouldn't return in time with help or one or even both
of them would be killed during the attack of the former safe haven for mutants. Not something
he liked to think about so he concentratad all his thoughths on the beutiful woman
sleeping in his bed, despite the fact that she could have gotten whoever she had set her
eyes on.
He just felt so lucky that despite everything, he was that guy. Despite cheese memory,
anti-mutant laws, retirements of people they both held dear and involuntarily being
kept apart - she still loved him. Lucky, grateful and being in love just
didn't begin to describe what he and she felt about eachother. Logan didn't know how to
describe it better than that so he firmly had decided to not even try. It would only
sound like a cliche' in the end and that was one thing he absolutely did not want it to
sound like.
The bottom line of it all was, however, that he loved Marie with all of his
heart and soul and he'd rather die than see her being hurt. He knew that he at
least partially had failed in that, given that she had to be constantly on the run and aware
of what she was doing but that was one of the things he was determined to change! She
deserved that and so much more! He would have given her the stars, the moon and the sun if
she had asked for it and he had known how to give it to her. Doing whatever he could
to keep her from being hurt was easy in comparison and even if/when it isn't, it's
something he would be only too willing to give to her.
If he only knew how.