Ring, ring, ring, ring, ring, ring.

"ROXAS, PICK UP YOUR FUCKING PHONE!" ah the lovely Sora screaming at me to pick up my phone at 9 am on a Saturday.

I reached over on the head of my bed and picked up my phone. My covers slipped from my shoulders to my waist revealing my slightly scarred chest.

"Hello?" I asked drowsily.

'Hey Roxas, are you ready for me to help you?' it was Axel.

"No," I said and yawned.

'come on Rox, you got to get help,' he said so awake.

"Axel, I was asleep, let me sleep," I groaned.

'Ok, but meet me at the ice cream shop at 11,' he said.

"Ok," I replied.

'I love you,' his voice was like silk.

"I… uh… ok, bye!" I ended the call quickly and tried to fall back asleep, but ended up looking at the drawing of myself with the blood.

In this drawing, I was crying. I put blood on it to make cuts and show I was crying blood. Painful blood. My wrist throbs thinking of yesterday…

I went to the bathroom and found the knife I hid. I made a slight gash on the underside of my wrist and let the blood seep into the sink. I slit my wrist again letting all my pains seep out. It just felt right… I don't know… I still blame myself for Ven's rape. He's doing better now. He'll wake up screaming sometimes, but Sora and I calm him down.

Last night

"PLEASE STOP! HELP ME! SOMEONE!" my twin began to scream. I jumped out of bed (more like fell) and threw a shoe at Sora to wake him up. Ven was screaming bloody murder.

I climbed up to him bed and so did Sora. We shook him awake. Ven looked at me with tears in his eyes and he collapsed in my arms crying. Sora hugged him from behind.

"Why won't it stop?" he cried.

"Ven," I breathed.

"Roxas, make it stop! Make these dreams stop!" he cried.

"I'm sorry, I can't. I remember I had those dreams too. They eventually go away," I said as Cloud and Leon burst through the door.

"Are you three ok?" Leon asked.

"Yeah, Ven just had a bad dream," I said then turned to Ven, "just go back to sleep. Remember that Sora and I are here to protect you."

Flashback over

I looked at my phone and it was 11. I was at the ice cream shop waiting for Axel. Ugh, he's late… whatever, at least I have my sketch pad with me and a pencil… and a table.

So I began to sketch Axel again. It's hard to get his features right, but he's a good muse. I love it. My pencil flew across the paper.

"Cute," Axel said. I almost screamed. I slammed my book shut.

"So!" I blushed, "How are you going to help me?"

"Give me your wrists," he said and I shook my head, "Just do it."

I held it out and he rolled up my sleeve and I had my bandages on it. The red head sighed. He kissed my wrist then he took out a marker and he drew a smile on my wrist. I yanked my hand back.

"Why did you draw a smile?" I asked.

"So when you look to cut you'll see that and it'll remind you to stop!" Axel smiled. I blushed as I looked down at the smile.

"That's the first step," I looked up at Axel as he spoke, "Since we have break, I want you to stay at my house for one night, I want to teach you to trust people."

"N-No way!" I yelled, "I don't want to stay at your house! I don't trust…" I trailed off just proving Axel's theory of I need to trust people and staying at his house will help. I crossed my arms over my chest.

"You look so cute when you are embarrassed," he smiled.

"S-Shut up!" I blushed till my face was the color of Axel's hair. He reached over the tabled and caressed my cheek calming me down a little. Wait, he's calming me down?!

"Come on, it'll be fun," Axel smiled, "and I get to spend time with my wonderful boyfriend."

"W-who's your boyfriend?" I asked as my heart sank. I thought he loved me, so he has another boyfriend. Axel walked over to me and kissed me.

"It's you," he smiled against my lips.

Part of me says 'GET THE FUCK OUT' while another part says 'KISS HIM BACK YOU IDIOT'. I just froze. Axel began to pull away when I kissed him… more like smashed my lips against his soft ones. My hands tangled with the red hair. Ah… his lips taste so good! I pull him closer to me using his hair. A new feeling entered me as it made me want him and only him. I think I'm in love…

"Wow Rox," he smiled. I smiled back, a fake one, but some felt real.

So after we shared an ice cream Axel and I went to my house to see if I could stay his house tomorrow. I'm wondering how Ven is doing.

On our walk home I slipped my hand into the slightly bigger one. Our fingers intertwined.

"So Roxas, this will be the first time I'll actually be introduced to your family," the red head smiled. I nodded as we approached the door.

When we walked in the house to see Sora in his boxers with a blanket tied around his neck and Ven lying on the couch with a comic book while Uncle Leon and Cloud were making out in the kitchen… I leave the house for a half an hour and this happens… good GOD.

"Um… Axel I'm sorry, it's not usually like this," I said. Sora sat on Ven making him groan with displeasure and try to push the brunette off of him.

"Get off you moron!" Ven yelled in a raspy voice since his voice still isn't completely healed after the incident. The poor thing.

"But I'm boxer man," Sora smiled.

Do they really not notice me…

Ok I finally stepped more in when I heard Cloud moan a bit.

"Hey!" I yelled making everyone stop and look at me, "this is Axel, and I'm formally introducing him."

"Yup, I'm Roxy's boyfriend," the red head smirked. I blushed a bit and Axel noticed. He kissed my cheek making me blush more and he laughed.

"S-so I was wondering if I could stay over at his house tomorrow," I asked.

"Sure Rox," Cloud said as he walked towards me. His new hickey was very noticeable and it took everything in me not to laugh at it.

Ven put the comic book over his face and groaned again. I walked over to him and sat on the couch on the edge near his head. Funny how this is how this started… partly.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Sora is hurting me," he said. I pushed my cousin off of my twin and the brunette shoved me. I shoved him back and he knows not to pick a fight with me. The last time he tried he ended up with a swollen lip, a black eye, and a broken nose. I was an evil 9 year old.

I guess Ven is still broken from his attack. I'm stronger… ok that's a lie, I'm probably strong on the outside but emotionally I'm weak.

"Ok crap is it that time already?" Axel said looking at his phone, "I have to go home." He ran over to me and kissed my lips sweetly. "I'll come and pick you up tomorrow at noon so have your stuff ready," he smiled and so did I.

"Ok," I whispered as I quickly kissed his lips and he left. Everyone was giving me googly eyes.

"What?" I asked putting my hands on my hips.

"Oh Sora, I think our little Roxy is in love," Ven smirked.

"I-I am not!" I protested with my face as red as a tomato, "I have to pack my stuff for tomorrow."

I ran upstairs and shoved clothes and stuff into a duffle bag. I took a deep breath as I dread tomorrow.

"Rox," Ventus walked upstairs, "You know you can tell me anything."

"I know," I replied as I sat on my bed. Ven sat next to me.

"You love him don't you?" he said.

"Y-yes… maybe… I-I don't know," I pulled my knees close to my chest.

"How does he make you feel?"

"Well," I started, "When I'm with him I feel this warm fuzzy feeling inside. I feel like I'm safe in his arms. I want him to hold me. He accepts me and he really cares about me. When I kiss him, I feel electricity running through my veins."

"You love him," Ventus smiled. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead.

"Rox, I want to be the big brother for once," he smiled, "I want you to be happy, and I'm inviting Terra to stay over so you and your red headed cupid could have some alone time." He winked. I blushed a bit. We went to bed.

So noon came by quickly. I was sketching Axel and me kissing. I had a light content smile on my face. I was laying on the couch with Ven massaging my feet… no idea why… The doorbell rang and Axel walked in.

"Ready to go?" he smiled. I closed my sketch book and nodded. Terra appeared behind him and scooped Ven into his arms and planted kisses all over his face.

"How are you feeling?" the brunette asked as he sat on the couch with Ven in his lap.

"I'm better," he smiled. My twin flashed me a look like 'Go and be with your man!' so I took that advice.

Axel and I went to his house. His house was so cute!

"Hey Axel," a woman smiled, "Is this him?"

"Yup, cute isn't he?" Axel's thumb ran over my cheek a bit. The woman smiled.

"Well I'm Aerith, Axel's mom, but you can call me mom," she smiled.

Axel pulled up stairs and to the spacey attic which was a cool loft space for him. Axel pulled me on his bed and we lay there. I felt a little nervous. I mean I'm alone on a bed with a boy… I'm scared.

"Roxas, are you ok?" he sat up.

"Yeah, I'm just nervous," I said looking at my knees when I sat up.

"Well I love you so don't be," Axel pressed his sweet lips against mine softly, "Would it make you feel better if I told you about my past? Maybe you can trust me better."

"Ok."

"So my mom died when I was born, she died giving birth to me. Then my dad went through a depression. He would never talk to me or look at me. I grew in isolation until I was five. When I was five my dad killed himself in front of me saying it's my fault that my parents are dead." Axel said, "So I went to an orphanage and then I ended up here. Now I'm with the love of my life."

Axel leaned in to kiss me, and I allowed it.

That night I trusted him with everything, my heart, my happiness, and my body. Axel and I had sex and I actually felt loved, it felt nice… I never knew something that caused me such great pain would lead me to my true love.

"Axel, I love you," I whispered in his ear as we embraced cozy under the warm covers.

"I love you too," he smiled as he kissed my sweaty forehead.

Oh mom, I'm in love! I can trust… I feel, so… happy…

Q: Is Axel my happiness?

A: Yes he is

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Authors Note: SOOOOO IT'S DONEEEEEEEE! Well I'm making ONE MORE chapter about them ten years later but that's it. I'm sorry I didn't know how to end it! I ended it like this.

SO YEA!