"Edward, how long have you been in love with her? I mean I have kind of suspected it for awhile with all the long stares you send her when she isn't paying attention, the way you always make sure she is set when we go out and really the way you clench up whenever another guys even tries to talk to her." Rosalie was just staring at me, expecting some kind of confession or some shit and I wasn't down with it.
"I'm not in love with her, we're just friends." I tried to deny but it came out sounding more like bullshit than the truth.
"No, no don't even try to deny it. I am women and sometimes we just know these things." She said with such conviction that I knew that she wasn't letting this go any time soon. I might as well just get this shit done with.
"Forever, I have always been in love with her." I said in defeat, there was no point in denying what everyone else saw. Everyone but Bella.
"But you've never told her?" It was a question not a statement.
"Nope." I was ready to run and hide. I didn't need another person to tell me to make my move. Rejection is not my friend I don't to meet up with him now.
"Well, why?" Apparently it wasn't obvious to her that Bella would never go for me; I wasn't her type at all.
"Because she isn't into guys like me." I was stating the obvious. Bella always tended to go for the khaki and polo shirt kind of guy, not the jeans and tattoo guy.
"Like you? I don't get it. She's your best friend, you're hers, so what wouldn't she like about you?" She stated the same thing Alice, Jasper and Emmett have all said before.
"Rosalie, come one have you ever seen her go for someone like me? It's always some stupid fuck like Alec, or Jacob... well you never met him but he was a tool, nonetheless."
Alec was Bella's last boyfriend. They dated for about 8 months, when she ended it last Valentine's Day. She said she didn't think it would go anywhere. I was more than thankful, for awhile there I was certain she was thinking forever and I had no idea how to fuck that shit up for her. I mean, I would have thought of something eventually; just like I had to do with Jacob.
"You really think she cares about that?" Rosalie looked exasperated as though she was really thinking about something or unsure of what to say.
"I don't know I mean, five years later and not one sign or signal that she feels the same way. What am I suppose to think?"
"Not one sign. Listen Edward, I am about to break a serious girlfriend rule here, don't make me regret it." With that she had my full attention. One thing I knew was that Bella talked to both Rosalie and Alice but I'd never been privy to anything said before, so this was serious business.
"Ok."
"Bella loves you, and not just as her best friend. She is in love with you and from what she says she always has been; just like you."
"Really? Wait she said this to you?" This was something Alice and Emmett have said for years but never once confirmed that she had actually said it, meant it.
"Bella told me all about the talk you to had at your dad's party and what went down at your place and the kiss."
"Wait, she remembered the kiss?" This was motherfucking news to me. Bella never once made a reference to us kissing but told Rose. Even Alice seemed not to know about it.
"Yes, she does- I swear Edward if you tell her I told you all this I will ripped your fucking balls off."
"I won't. Fuck, go on." I was all kinds of confused at this point, Bella remember the kiss but acted like nothing happen and she felt that the same about me as I her. Only Bella would make this simple thing so incredibly fucking difficult.
"She was brokenhearted- not about the kiss though. She thought that night, at your dad's birthday that you were going to tell her that you weren't interested in her 'like that' and then you go and tell her you brought your skanky ex-girlfriend to your place. She was in like rejection overload even though you never said the words."
"I wasn't going to tell her that." I needed Rose to believe me because the all too important info she was giving me needed to continue.
"I know and I tried to tell her that but you know her. She over thinks everything and is unnecessarily self conscious; she immediately thought the worst. She is so scared of you not wanting her back and losing your friendship that she refuses to see that you feel the same."
"She feels the same, like she actually said it?" I was in all kids of shocked, she really said.
"Were you not listening ten fucking seconds ago? I said yes she told me-"
"What do I do?" I didn't need a Rosalie bitch special I just needed her advice.
"What do you do about what?" Alice asked from behind me and Rosalie.
"About Bella, what do I do?" I was all about working this shit out and making my happy ending with Bella or happy beginning, whatever.
"You go to breakfast with us tomorrow and we will figure it all out. I have a plan." Alice chirped excitedly. Of course she had a plan, she usually does and it probably has a shitty name.
"A plan?" I asked warily.
"The Woo Bella plan, it's guaranteed to work!" Like I said the plan has a shitty name. Shocking. "Speaking of Bella, she's ready to go. She got all woozy because of the blood from that guy's nose." Alice said.
Right then Bella walked out looking rather pale but still beautiful with Emmett on one side of her and Jasper on the other. Bella looked up at me and smiled. I knew that she hated when I got out of hand, but she always had a smile for me.
We all said our goodbyes, Emmett and Rosalie were parked right outside the bar and the rest of us had to walk about block down the street. Jasper and Alice were walking hand in hand as usual while Bella draped my arm around her as she wrapped her arms around my waist. Once at the car, I threw my keys at Jasper. My right hand was too sore to drive.
"Oh, I finally get to drive the Volvo?" Jasper feigned phony excited.
"I got to drive it last week and he didn't flinch or cry once." Bella joked.
"Haha, both of you shut the fuck up. I'm tired and want to go to sleep."
"Whatever you say Rocky." Bella said laughing at her own joke.
"Hmm I think he is more like Mike Tyson, ain't scared of no one." Jasper joined in the let's name Edward after any douche who could throw a punch.
"Just drive Jasper." I said as the three of them were still laughing.
The drive home was quick since it was so late there weren't many cars on the road. We all walked into the apartment and, of course Alice called the bathroom first. Bella had already put some clothes in my room so she wouldn't have to bother Alice or Jasper too often. She got changed into her pajamas which surprisingly weren't tiny tiny shorts and a tank top but capri pants and a matching shirt. I had to shower; there was no way Bella would let me in the bed, even though it was mine without getting the cigarette smell off me.
Luckily Alice was quick and I jumped in before Jasper had a chance. I was tired as fuck and was excited to sleep next to Bella for an undetermined amount of time. I dried off quickly and threw on a pair of grey sleep pants and a black shirt; I walked into the living room and saw the three of them lounging around, laughing about something.
"I'm going to bed." I announced to the group.
"Night." Jasper waved.
"See you in the morning m.o.h." Alice yelled at me as I walked into my room. Since I can remember Alice has called me her 'm.o.h' also known as 'my other half' it was totally lame but so Alice.
I was barely even get settled into my bed when Bella came in, quietly shutting the door behind her and tiptoeing to bed like I would be asleep in less than three minutes.
"B, why the tiptoeing?" I said laughing softly and she started laughing too.
"I have no idea." She answered truthfully, laughing along with me.
Bella pulled her side of the sheets down and climbed into my huge bed. I was silently hoping that she would scoot over to my side and thankfully she did.
"Sorry you had to kick ass tonight." She said while snuggling up close to me.
"You didn't do anything and I might have overreacted a bit." Which I didn't really believe; that fucker was asking for an ass kicking.
"A bit?" She questioned.
"A lot?"
"A lot." Bella confirmed for me. "But I liked it," she admitted quietly.
"You liked it?" This was news to me. There had to be at least a dozen times over the years that I had flown off the handle and kicked some ass over Bella and never once did she like it.
"It's nice to know someone is looking out for me."
"I thought you hated that. The me and Charlie thing?" She always rolled her eyes at our back and forth about keeping our girl safe.
"Well, that and the guy smelled like sweat." Bella laughed and I joined her.
"Well you're welcome then. Glad I could help." I yawned and wrapped my arm around Bella because I wanted to and knew she wouldn't mind.
"Good night, handsome." She whispered to me and starting rubbing the side of my face with her soft fingers.
We were quiet for a few minutes but neither of us had fallen asleep. Bella rubbing my head felt like heaven but I all of tonight's events with Tanya and the greasy sweat guy had probably hyped both of us too much to sleep.
"What are you thinking?" Bella asked quietly, out of nowhere.
"A quote I heard somewhere." I said honestly because I really was. I must be slowly becoming a fucking girl because what guy is lying next to their dream girl, the most beautiful girl in the world thinking about some bullshit quote they saw on a Facebook bumper sticker.
"What quote?"
This was my moment, I was going to just say and let it linger. Let her go to sleep knowing for certain how I felt.
"True love is friendship, caught on fire."
"Oh." It was all Bella squeak out but I knew she got it.
"Maybe this is better left for tomorrow." I said honestly because I needed to let that shit settle in and make her realize it was real.
"Maybe you're right." She yawned but I felt her cheeks lift as she smiled.
It was quiet for a few minutes, our breathing was the only sound until Bella broke the silence.
"Edward, I love waking up seeing your face." She sighed softly.
"Me too. Bella?
"Yea?"
"I'm burning." I know we agreed to talk about it tomorrow but I needed to let her know my feelings mirrored hers. Let her sleep knowing tomorrow would bring something amazing, hopefully.
"Me too, Edward me too." Bella said in a low whisper, letting me know the exactly same.
In that instant I got it. I finally understood what I was feeling was what she was feeling. I loved her and she without a doubt felt the same. A tired, yawning conversation surely wasn't the way to talk about it; I wanted it to be perfect for her.
At some point I finally fell asleep with Bella curled into my side. It was the way I wanted to fall asleep every night for the rest of my life.
Hours later, even though it felt more like minutes, I was being lightly shaken awake.
"Edward, wake up now." My beautifully annoying sister whispered loudly in my ear.
"Alice its fucking 8:30. Leave me alone." Niceness in the AM was not my forte.
"Get up now, we're going for breakfast." Fuck I remembered her mentioning something about breakfast the night before.
"No, I'm tired." I didn't want to unravel myself from Bella. We slept the entire night wrapped around one another, our legs intertwined, my arm wrapped around her, her head resting on my shoulder and her arm draped across my chest.
"Now or I will kick your ass, just like I used too." Alice threatened quietly.
"Just get up; I don't want you walking around like a sad little boy because your tiny sister beat you down." Bella rasped out and then rolled away from me. I instantly missed her body pressed into mine.
"Thanks for the back up, B. I'll remember this when the next sweaty guy is rubbing on you." That wasn't even a little true because I would always have her back.
"Just go bond with Alice. She missed you."
"It's true brother, I missed you." Alice said sweetly but I was looking at her and she was giving me a huge smile because we both knew why I was being forced into this breakfast.
Oh if Bella only knew why she was dragging my ass out of bed on Saturday morning.
I reluctantly climbed out of bed and threw on some sneakers and my jacket. I looked at Bella once before I left, she was right where she was supposed to be.
We walked to my car. I might have let Jasper drive last night but there was no way in hell Alice would be taking the wheel this morning. I was fucking hungover and my hand stilled throbbed but I've driven with Alice; it was more than frightening.
"You and Bella looked awfully cozy this morning." She said happily and starting skipping the rest of the way to the car.
"Don't read too much into it, that's how we always sleep with each other." I yelled to her.
"Still cozy though."
Thank god this place was close because I was too tired to deal with Alice's ADD right now. And yes I had to swat her three times for touching my radio.
We walked into Glo's. It was about five minutes from Rose and Emmett's apartment and she was willing to wait in the always ridiculous line for a table. The ten minute drive was completely worth it; their home fries rivaled my mother's and that was saying a lot. I saw Rose immediately. Somehow she looked like she just finished a photo shoot not just rolled out of bed like me.
"Edward, you look like shit." Rosalie said glaring up at me. I thought after our little chat last night that we would be cool, but I guess not.
"Rose." I wasn't in the mood for our usual snaky back and forth.
"Morning sweetie!" Alice said from behind me. She bent down and kissed Rose on the cheek and we both sat down. We all order our breakfast and it was quiet for a few minutes. I was simply not awake enough to be civil and engage in pointless conversation. Bella and I had already gotten some shit out of the way last night, now all that was left was a real face to face, heart to heart and some serious kissing.
"So we should get down to business." Alice said sipping her coffee, as if she needed the caffeine.
"Before we do, Bella and I kind of talked last night and I think the whole Woo Bella plan won't be necessary." Both Rosalie and Alice eyes practically bulged out of their heads and leaned forward on the table.
"What happened? Tell us everything and leave out nothing out." Alice said excitedly.
I replayed our previous night's conversation and their faces were less than excited.
"What?" I asked the two bored looking girls in front of me.
"That's it?" Rose asked incredulously.
"Yea, that's it." What the fuck? I thought last night was perfect, I guess not.
"Edward, all that sounded like to me was that same cryptic bullshit that has been said for the last five years. And by the by your 'I'm burning' super gay, just saying." Rosalie could be such a bitch. Ok the burning thing was probably a little gay, but I thought it got the point across.
"Fuck you, Bella got the point; stupid or not." Our food arrived and we all stuffed our faces between talking. The food was by far the best in the city.
"Really? You think Bella got it? The Bella I know has found a way to twist what you say into something completely different." Rosalie said rather condescendingly, but it was most likely true.
"Fuck, I don't know what to do. I want shit back to the way it was." Well, I did want things the way they used to be, easy. But I also wanted Bella as my girl not my friend. Our friendship was everything to me, but that kiss last week made me want more; made me want everything with her. There was no being just friends anymore. I couldn't do that.
"Well, maybe instead of kissing her, you should have talked first. Things wouldn't be so fucked up right now."
"She kissed me." I shouldn't have had to remind these two of that point.
"Yea, well, you kissed her back." True, true I did and it was amazing.
"You know what they say "One kiss breaches the distance between friendship and love." Alice gloated. Her quote sounded as stupid and fucking lame as mine from the pervious night but it worked, I guess.
"Shut up, Alice . What else can I do? I've done the supportive friend thing, I've gone the hard to get route and trying to make her jealous has gotten me nothing but her with other guys."
"You're not thinking right. This is Bella; beautiful, insecure Bella. You need to be blunt but sweet, which I don't personally think you have in ya, but if Bella's right you do." Rose said in her usual I'm a complete twathead attitude.
"I can be sweet." I defended myself because I could be, but I only choose to be to with Bella. "Really? Never seen it, but Bella's told me stories." Rosalie said, acting all knowingly.
"What stories and why was she telling you?" The thought that Bella was telling bitch Rose anything about me or the shit I did for her made me a little upset. Rose could find a way to make anything I did sound bad.
"Ohh, I remember when Bella had mono our senior year and you brought her chicken soup, watched girl movies, rubbed her head and got in trouble for skipping school. That was sweet." Alice was acting like she had to prove my ability to be nice. I did that mainly because I had missed her in school for days and wanted to spend the day with her.
"Hmm, Bella told me about the time she sprained her ankle and you meet her at every class and gave her piggyback rides everywhere."
"See, I'm not a complete dick."
"To Bella. But you could really learn a thing or two about interacting with other people." I had that she wasn't referring to herself because our nastiness as most certainly a two way street.
"What can I say Rose? You bring out the best in me." I gave her my best side smile. It always worked on Bella but Rose wasn't buying it.
"Save your corny ass lines for Bella." Rosalie snapped at me as both Alice and I's phones vibrated on the table. It was a text from Jasper.
Dragging Bella to SAM, should be back around 5. Love you baby!- J
So obviously, he wrote the message to both me and Alice but I couldn't resist writing back. I hated going to museums and that kind of shit, but it was something Bella and Jasper loved to do together. It was their thing I guess; better him than me.
Have fun, take care of my girl. Love you too baby!- E
You're a dick Cullen- J
So I've heard- E
"Stop being rude asshole, put the fucking phone down. I'm giving up my Saturday in bed with my man for this." Rosalie snapped again.
"Ok, so the Woo Bella plan. What do I do?" I was over this breakfast and bonding with Rosalie. I was ready to go home and nap. Tonight was going to be a late night.
"Simple, treat her right." Rosalie said it like it was that simple and I didn't already do that.
"I do." I countered.
"No, you two act like best friends, stop. Treat her like her is the most amazing person in the world. Shower her with compliments, find little ways to touch her and most importantly be true with what you say, but wait until after my party because if you ruin my shit, you die."
"I think I do all that already." I was running through a million different times I had been each thing Rosalie told me to do. I had definitely done it all but I could stand to step it up a bit.
"You do sometimes, but tonight you need to lay it on thick and be the sweet guy Bella is always gushing about." Alice said.
"She gushes about me?" I couldn't hold back my smile. She fucking gushed about me, woop! It makes sense though, I constantly gush about her.
"Shut up, Edward. It's been fun but I don't want to do this again so make it work." Rose gestured between the two of us and the table. I was pretty sure she wasn't here for me but more for Bella. She got up and gave Alice a kiss on the cheek, promised to be on time tonight and left. I noticed that she didn't leave any money for her breakfast and bid me farewell. I guess I was footing the bill for this and I didn't even want to come, fucking figures.
I paid the bill and followed Alice out of the restaurant to the car. I was more than ready to go back home but Alice had different ideas.
"What are you wearing tonight?" She asked because she was nosy and liked to control everything.
"No idea, I'll figure it out later." I said completely uninterested in talking clothes.
"You have to wear all black, do you have something?"
"All black? Why and of course I have something black, it's usually all I wear."
"All black because it's what Rosalie wants and if you're trying to Woo Bella you need to look good, not like you do everyday."
"I'll find something and I always look good." This was stupid only Rosalie would dictate what everyone would wear.
"Or you can let me pick something out for you." Alice was getting ready to beg and I wasn't really in the mood for it or an Alice Cullen shopping trip. I was tired and she could go for hours. "You want to make Bella all hot and bothered, you need to look fly."
"I always look fly and she already wants me so no." I knew that was a dick thing to say but from Alice and Rosalie confirmed it was true. "Please?" She said with the lower lip sticking out and a fake quiver going on. Alice was laying on the guilt thick and I knew I was going shopping. FML.
Four hours later, at least three hundred dollars and all I had to show for it was a pair of black pants and a button down black shirt. Both looked incredibly similar to stuff that was already hanging in my closet but Alice said it was all about the crispness of something new. I didn't believe that shit, not even for a second. But as much as I hated shopping the one on one time with Alice made up for it. She had pumped me up for tonight, keep telling me that tonight was Bella and I's night and I couldn't fucking wait.
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