Thank you all so much for the reviews on my last chapter. I really can't tell you how much they meant to me and how happy they made me.

Okay, I've had this idea in my mind since I wrote the last chapter and I hope you all like it.

On the right track

Still sitting on the couch with Zola and Derek Meredith couldn't help but think again. Meredith fell silent right after Derek had told her how much he and Zola needed her and never spoke ever since. "What's on your mind?" Derek asked after a small sigh from her. He could see that she was having trouble again.

"Urgh, nothing. I'm fine." She answered still feeding Zola. Meredith kept staring down at the baby in her arms. "Everything is just fine." She mumbled hoping Derek wouldn't hear her, but to her misfortune he did. He also knew better than to believe her when she said that she was 'fine'. 'Fine' always was her code word for when she was everything but fine.

"Mer…" he breathed in a way that showed her that he knew that something was clearly going on with her. She was both impressed and surprised at how good he actually knew her.

She tore her eyes away from Zola to look up at Derek. "I do want to be there for you and help to raise Zola and I will fight for the two of you, you know that. I was just thinking that we're back to where we were just twenty-four hour ago. We already figured everything out, you know, how we handle everything and all. And now we're just right back at point zero. We don't know what's wrong with me and I have to pull you through everything once again. You don't deserve something like this. You don't deserve a wife like this. You actually deserve better than me." She rambled is a pretty quiet voice, but she knew that Derek could understand her.

As he was listening to her Derek tightened his grip around Meredith. He didn't interrupt her because he knew that she needed to talk it off her chest and mind and he was there to listen and make her feel better. "Meredith, there is nowhere else I'd rather be than with you. It doesn't matter to me that we don't know what's wrong with you as long as we're here together and Zola is with us, okay?" Derek soothed his wife.

Meredith felt her heart clutch at his words and was about to kiss him when she felt Zola turning away from the bottle. She put the bottle away and lifted the baby up to her shoulder in order to burp her. Then she cradled the baby back to sleep because it was getting late. "Okay." She answered back to Derek and looked him in the eyes for the first time that day. Meredith could see the love that Derek still had for her even after what she did with his trial. "I know I already told you and all, but I really need you to know that I'm really truly sorry for what I did with your trial." She mumbled not wanting to wake the baby up.

"I know you are and I'm sorry for the way you acted. I was an ass for leaving without any word and leaving you alone with Zola. If I had been in your shoes I would have acted the same way because it was the right thing to do. You're you and I love you the way you are." He breathed in her ear.

"I love you, too, Derek." She whispered back before slowly closing the space between the two of them into a tender kiss. "Let's go to bed. Zola is getting heavy and you look tired."

She went through the familiar corridors of the hospital not knowing to which direction she was headed, but still she kept walking and walking. Even though she knew where she was Meredith didn't know where she would be next. For all she'd know she could be in the OR or the ER even though those two places were on different floors. Meredith went through a door and was faced with an elder woman standing in front of her in Trauma Room 1. She looked around and noticed that it was the exact room where she had been when she had drowned a few years back. A shiver ran down her spine at the thought of the cool water she was in back then. Thinking back to the time where she was struggling to decide if she should swim or not due to all her issues that seemed stupid afterwards Meredith knew that she wouldn't have to think now and choose life in a heartbeat. Seeing that familiar looking woman standing right in front of her she suddenly noticed that it was her mother in her scrubs just like back then when she met her after she drowned.

"Mom, what are you doing here? I thought you were dead." Meredith whispered into the room while she walked closer to Ellis. She felt the urge to touch her to make sure she was real and not some part of her imagination.

Ellis held her hand out to Meredith motioning her to grab her hand and so she did. "I am." Ellis responded without adding another word to it. As the skins of both women touched Ellis' hand closed around Meredith's who felt like a little girl again standing next to her mother.

"Where are we going?" Meredith asked her mother who just shook her head as if she'd want to say that Meredith wasn't allowed to ask any questions just like when she was 5 years old and her parents got divorced.

Mother and daughter went through hallways which Meredith again knew, but couldn't pin point the destination of their walk. Suddenly Ellis stopped right in front of a door and motioned Meredith to open the door and she did. They entered the sterile and cool room which Meredith didn't recognize at all. She let her eyes roam through the room. Suddenly she spotted a little boy about two or three years old with dark curly hair and the blue eyes she'd recognize anywhere when she saw them.

Okay guys, I know that it's a bit different to what you're used to, but please go with it. I will reveal what this all is about in the next chapter. So you should keep reading and most importantly REVIEW!