Chapter 10 – he is misrable
"I really truly love you" my Muneca said
Another song started. We listened.
So scared of breaking it that you won't let it bend So let me be, and I'll set you free I am in misery Girl you really got me bad Your salty skin and how it mixes in with mine So let me be, and I'll set you free
And I wrote two hundred letters I will never send
Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper then they seem
You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them be
There ain't nobody who can comfort me, oh yeah
Why won't you answer me?
The silence is slowly killing me, oh yeah
You really got me bad
Now I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna get you back
The way it feels to be completely intertwined
Not that I didn't care, it's that I didn't know
It's not what I didn't feel, it's what I didn't show
"he is miserable now" Esmeralda said
I looked at her and said "good, I was miserable for a very long time"
She smiled and looked at me, I said "thank God he has music, imagine if he can hear our conversations"
"well he is not or else he would have flipped" Esmeralda said laughing
"no Thomas has incredible control, he knows how to control his temper…if he was hearing us which thank God he is not, he would control his temper. He has what I lack, when he is angry he thinks with his head and not his feelings" I said
Another song started.
So this is how the story went It was in the darkest of my days And I wish I could lay down beside you
I met someone by accident
who blew me away
who blew me away
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, you buried them away
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
you'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
"you know when I went to Moracco, I wanted to bring Thomas with me" I said, and Esmeralda looked up.
"really?" she asked
"yes but I asked father first and he said no, he was scared that I would turn Thomas. I always had planned to turn him, I wanted my brother with me forever" I said
"interesting" she said
"like this song, Thomas meet you at his darkest days…I had left him because I really had to" I said
"why?" she asked
"because I was craving his blood and would always had to be full around him, I hate feeding from the source" I said
"you enjoyed drinking from me" she said and sat up.
I woke up feeling heavy hearted I wish I could lay down beside you
I'm going back to where I started
The morning rain
The morning rain
And though I wish that you were here
On that same old road that brought me here
Is calling me home
Is calling me home
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear someday
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart
away
I listened to the song and said "well, you taste so good"
She laughed and shook her head "I was terrified of you"
"you know, I wish you had not found out about me the way you did?" I said
"well when I was told that I had to clean your room and wash your clothes..I found the money I had taken and the letter I had written" she said and shook her head. I laughed and just looked at her with apologetic eyes. "were you going to tell me?"
"yes because I was going to drink from you…but" I said and remembered Daniela
"what?" she asked
"I was remembering my younger brother Theo" I said and smiled, Daniela was his
"how was he, I only saw him once" she said
"well he was a vampire in all scenes of the word, he became one when he was only eighteen" I said and shook my head
"really?" she asked
"yes, he provoked Father to change him…while my father turned Richard, Emily and me in our sleep while Thomas was slamming on our doors to try to help us" I said remembering the night I was turned…as I was screaming, I heard Thomas's screams and cries out side the door but my mother was blocking the door.
"you father was evil" she said.
I laughed "no…well maybe he was just very selfish"
"yeah making his nephew a gardener makes him pretty evil" she said and shook her head.
Another song started.
Te siento tan distante y tan cerca a la vez Inalcanzable como estrella tan distante
Descifrando, tu silencio
Y entonces me imagino dentro de tu piel
Pero pierdo, en el intento.
Y por mas que busco darte amor
Nunca te fijas en mi
Si supieras que puedo morir por ti...por ti.
Un amor casi imposible,
Invizible como el aire,
Eres tan inalcanzable, tan sublime como un angel
Un amor casi imposible
Como fuego que no arde
Te me has vuelto inalcanzable...inalcanzable.
Esmeralda raised her eyebrows and said "unattainable..I like it"
I listened to the meaning of the song. 'I feel you so distant, and so close at times,
And then I imagine myself in your skin, but I get lost trying and the more I try to give you my love,
you never look at me, if you knew that i could die for you.. for you , Unattainable, like a distant star
one love so impossible… Invisible like the air you're so unattainable, so sublime as an angel, one love so impossible
like the fire that doesnt burn you've turned me unattainable.. unattainable"
"tell me more about Theo" she said
I will have to lie or she will be horrified. "he was a very young vampire.." I have to think lies to tell…good thing Thomas will not hear because he and Theo use to fight all the time and once turned Theo almost killed Thomas because he was defending poor Daniela
Another song started…
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